Okay everyone...I finally figured out how to work this, I hope! If it didn't work this time I'll try again. This isn't one of my favorite stories that I wrote, but it's there and I thought I'd let you all read it. I'm currently working on a big story and in between I'm going to post some of my other work I've done that I have hidden in my computer. Here we go.... DISCLAIMER: The X-Files and the characters belong to Chris Carter, FOX and whoever else...I'm not sure. I'm just borrowing for some fun.. Scully awoke to panic. As soon as she opened her eyes, she remembered what had happened the night before. She'd done it. She had crossed the line. She had wanted to do it for so long, but now that it had happened, she wished everything was the same as before. Of course she still wanted Mulder and she had enjoyed being with him, but emotionally she couldn't handle it. She could not handle Mulder like this! As friends it was safer. He couldn't hurt her then, but now over that line, she was vulnerable to him. Scully knew he couldn't handle a relationship now, maybe not ever. It just wasn't what he wanted in his life. How could she force him to do what he didn't want? He would be miserable and that would make him hurt her. Scully realized for the first time that morning that she was alone in bed. Scully was hurting. In her heart she loved Mulder more than anything else, and it would kill her to go back to the way it used to be. She loved him like she's never loved anyone else, but she knew it wouldn't work. She had accepted that a while ago. Scully got up and began picking up all her clothes. She looked at the clothes in her hands......tight black dress, lacy lingerie...... garters! She could barely believe what she did last night. Scully's Apartment, March 3, 1996, 11:21 PM Scully was in one of her moods. She kept thinking about what a wuss she was, never taking chances. She wasn't afraid of anything right now and she knew what she wanted. She was prepared to get it. She dressed carefully.....picking out her short, tight, black dress. She smiled at the thought of his face when he would see her in this. She put on her black lingerie from Victoria's Secret...they still had the tags on them. She smiled as she put on the lingerie. Wearing only her lingerie, she put on her makeup. Not like in the office, this night had her wearing black eyeliner, dark lipstick. She put on the dress and took a look in the mirror. The dress was like leotard material! It clung to her all over. She then fixed her hair, moussing it up into sexy curls. Looking in the mirror again, she felt confident. She looked good and she knew it. She slipped on her heals and walked out the door. Ten minutes later she pulled up in front of Mulders apartment. Scully took and deep breath and began to walk up the stairs. Mulder's Apartment, March 4, 1996, 8:30 AM Mulder was in the kitchen whistling! He was cooking breakfast for Scully.......eggs, bacon, toast, etc. He loved her so much and was so happy that they finally understood each others feelings. Now they could be together. They didn't really say anything about their feelings last night, but Mulder knew that she wouldn't have slept with him unless she loved him. Today he planned to tell her that he loved her and always has. He was going to tell her his true feelings and he couldn't wait! He was so excited, like a little boy. He smiled as he remembered what had happened last night...... Mulder's Apartment, March 3, 1996, 12:08 AM Mulder was on his couch watching a rerun of the Outer Limits when he heard a knock at the door. He glanced at the clock and wondered who would be at his door this late. He walked to the door wearing only his boxer shorts, and looked into the peephole. Actually he only glanced into the peephole....had he looked he would have seen how different Scully looked. He opened the door and began to say "What do you want?" when he really looked at her and his jaw dropped open. She looked so....sexy! He was shocked to see his partner and best friend dressed like this. "Scully-" She stopped his mouth with a kiss. She kissed him hungrily while Mulder kissed passionately. She led him into the bedroom. They stood there kissing for a little while, exploring each others mouths. Then Mulder pulled away and looked at her. "Are you sure?" She nodded and pulled him onto the bed. Standing above him she pulled off her dress. Mulder's eyes were filled with desire. "Dana...I lo-" She cut him off, "NO! No more talking for tonight." She kissed him again. Mulder's Apartment, March 4, 1996, 8:52 PM Scully hadn't wanted to put her dress back on for obvious reasons, so she took a pair of Mulder's sweat pants and his Knicks jersey to wear. She combed her hair back and washed her face in his bathroom. Looking in the mirror, Scully didn't like what she saw. She saw a coward, a slut. She felt like a slut. She knew sex was all she was going to get and she didn't care. There was no love in what they had done the night before, it was just sex. Animals had sex, people can either have sex or make love. They didn't make love and she knew why. He had no feelings for her, and she had shut down her feelings. She knew she was a coward, why couldn't she tell him her true feelings? She thought it was because he had no feelings for her, she was just another girl he has fucked. Even if he did have feelings for her she couldn't be with him. She was too scared to get hurt. She sighed and wiped the tears from her eyes. Pushing her feelings down she walked out of the bathroom and into the hall. ********************************************************************** ******* Mulder was finishing up with breakfast when he heard Scully moving around in his room. Then he heard the water running. He smiled. He was so happy that this was finally happening. He loved her so much and wanted to be with her so badly. He didn't give a shit about anything else anymore, just her. They were together and no one could tear them apart. He put the breakfast on a tray and began walking towards the hall. He almost ran smack into Scully as she came rushing out of the bathroom her clothes in one hand. She was wearing his clothes! "You're awake!" Mulder said with a smile. "Uh-yeah...." She was confused. There was Mulder, a sheepish grin on his face, bringing her breakfast. She was sure he would've been gone by now. "I made breakfast." Mulder said, a proud look on his face. "Yeah, I see. Well, thanks anyway, but I've really gotta go.." She pushed passed him, but he put down the tray and took her arm. "Wait....I think we should talk." "About what Mulder? There's nothing to talk about....we had SEX. No big deal. It was just a lot of built up[ tension expressed in one crazy night." "You don't mean that..." "YES, I do. It was nothing." "How can you say that? How can you look at me in the eye and lie? Dana, I love you." "Mulder...I..." She faded off letting a look of love come into her face, but as soon as it came it was gone. "You don't know what you're talking about." "Of course I know what I'm talking about. I love you! I have for a long time, but I've just been scared to tell you. But now it's out in the open and we can be together." "But Mulder I don't love you. I was attracted to you and we took care of that last night. That's all." "Scully...how many times do I have to tell you? I love you! I want to be with you." "Mulder...NO!" She had tears running down her face....."It can't happen, all right?" "No...it can happen because I know you love me." "Well, there you are wrong." She turned and walked out the door. Mulder's heart was tearing into two parts. He knew she loved him, and he loved her. He was so angry he threw the tray across the room and screamed, "FUCK!" ********************************************************************** ************* Scully leaned back against the door after she walked out. She heard Mulder scream and then a crash. She walked away crying all the way home. Skinner's office, March 5, 1996, 7:56 AM "Agent Scully, is there a reason you've asked for a transfer?" Skinner looked at Scully and immediately knew the reason. He knew it would eventually happen, they were in love. He knew this was coming soon. "Yes sir, but is it required I make my reasons known?" "Maybe...." "I don't feel I am working well with the X-Files, sir." He watched her lie and decided to accept it. She wouldn't tell him. "Agent Scully, are you sure? It says here you want a transfer outside of Washington DC." "That is correct, and I'm definitely sure." "All right then, your transfer has been approved. You are reassigned in Boston, doing pathology work as you requested." "Thank you sir." "Good-bye Agent Scully...let me tell you that this will be a great loss to our section." She smiled weakly and walked out of the door. Mulder and Scully's Basement Office, March 5, 1996, 9:00 AM Mulder sat at his desk his head in his hands. He looked terrible. His hair was a mess, he hadn't shaved, and his tie was undone. He couldn't concentrate on work, all he could think about was where he had gone wrong. Why didn't she love him? He looked up as Scully came through the door. She looked at him, then quickly looked away and went to sit at her desk. Mulder sighed and got up to walk over to her desk. "Scully let me just ask you one question....If you don't love me, then why did you come to my apartment dressed like you were to just have sex with me? " "Mulder, I told you. I was attracted to you and-" He cut her off, "Goddammit Scully! Stop lying!" He slammed his fist on her desk making her jump and left the office. Scully stared at the door and fought from crying. Sure she loved him but it couldn't happen. He was too involved with other things and it just wouldn't work. She had accepted it long ago... Yes, she was afraid. Afraid of him, and what he could do to her. She loved him so much it was dangerous and she couldn't be that vulnerable. She won't let herself get hurt. And from Mulder that's all she can expect...hurt. She didn't fit into his life. She knew she was scared and she also knew that she would lose the only man she's ever loved because she was scared. Mulder and Scully's Office, March 13, 1996, 9:00 AM Mulder didn't know how he had gotten through the past week. Scully ignored him. He tried to talk to her at work, he called her, and stopped by her apartment. When he tried to approach her in the office, she turned away and said "Mulder...don't." If he called her she'd either hang up or not answer. He's left tons of messages saying "Scully, please talk to me. I love you." When he went to her apartment she wouldn't answer the door and he would stand there talking through the door, "Scully, I know you're there....talk to me, please!" He wouldn't give up though, he knew that she loved him. He could feel it in his heart. The past week they've done paperwork. They were between cases. This morning he vowed to make her listen. He had to make her realize how much he loved her. He began nervously looking though the files on his desk when a document caught his eye. He looked closer and saw that it was a transfer form. A confirmed transfer form. Scully had left him. He checked the time of her flight.....March 13 at 9:45. He still had time! Mulder bolted from his desk and ran to the door. Scully's apartment, March 13, 1996, 9:25 Scully was just packing the last of her things. Most of her belongings were already in Boston but a few things were in her bag. She was crying. She couldn't help it. Wiping the last of her tears she took a deep breath and walked out the door. When she reached the airport she got her luggage checked and waited in a chair for her plane to be called. She wanted to cry more but her eyes were dry. Airport, March 13, 1996, 9:35 AM Mulder pulled into the parking lot and ran to the airport. He looked around for Scully and finally spotted her. She was sitting on a chair by herself. ********************************************************************** ******* Scully heard her plane being called and she got up to go to the terminal. All the sudden she felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned around and saw Mulder standing there. "Scully, please don't go. I love you, I can't live without you. Don't do this. We'll be happy together-we belong together." "Mulder....let me go," she began walking towards the terminal. "Scully.....what are you afraid of?" "Nothing-" "Me? Are you afraid of being with me? Don't lie....I know you love me." "Yes, I do love you Mulder. But I'm too scared to do this. You don't want me now, not in a relationship. You have too much right now, looking for your sister and everything else is your life." "No, you're my life now," he pulled her close and kissed her lightly on the lips. She pulled out of his embrace. "Mulder, I'm sorry....I love you, but I just can't..." She had tears running down her face as she walked to her plane. ********************************************************************** ********** Mulder didn't know how long he stood there. He just stood there watching as she left his life. He couldn't believe she had just walked out of his life. He saw her plane take off and watched as it flew away. THE END ********************************************************************** *********** "Mummy said titty!" "You like penacolada?" "Cheer up, there's always liverwurst!" "Who told you that? What is his name? I want it. What you have you said is a bribe, and in this state if convicted you can face up to a 5,000 dollar fine or spend 6 months in a mental facilaty!"-Chip Don't mind those...some of Sunflower and Liverwursts quotes.