From: Donna Honeycutt Date: Wed, 30 Jun 1999 15:27:03 -0400 Subject: New Story - After the Future 1 Title - After the Future 1 Author - Donna Email address - donnah@pop.uky.edu URL - www.geocities.com/Area51/Quadrant/4571/ Rating - R Category - Relationship Spoilers - None Keywords - angst Summary - 1st in what seems to be a growing story about after the colonization Feedback - Please Archive - Anywhere, just please keep my name Disclaimer - Mulder, Scully, the Lone Gunman and Skinner all belong to Chris, 10-13 and Fox - Bless them for it!! No infringement intended. After the Future - 1 The door opening surprised him, no one ever came to see him, at least not voluntarily. He looked up into Scully's flushed face and the quip died on his lips. "Scully?" He rose and took her arm. "I think it's started." "What? What's started?" "Here." She handed him copies of messages she'd received. Bulletins of outbreaks of extremely rapid and virulent smallpox. "It looks like it started in St. Petersburg, but news from there is sketchy. Then it hit Frankfurt and London, New York, Atlanta and Chicago. We're just now getting reports from Los Angeles." "Shit, Scully! They're not ready." He couldn't take in what this meant. The whole world was going to be affected. "I know. Mulder, everyone's going to die. Everyone!" "No! Scully you're immune, you've had the vaccine, and I should be from the black cancer in Russia. We should be okay." "What about my mother! Bill and Charlie! Their kids." That drew him up short. She had family, people she cared about, not like him who had only her in his life. "Do you and your mother have the same blood type?" "Yes." She answered absentmindedly, already attempting medical research in her head. "Well, what if you tried injecting her with your blood. It might not work, but it's worth a chance." That brought her back to the present. "Yes, yes I can do that." "Is it bees?" "They weren't mentioned in the first dispatches, but London made a short report of them. Then bees were released into the subway system in New York. There was panic. Communication is not working like it should, the CDC is just now gearing up. Why weren't they ready, or was that the plan?" "Well it's too systematic not to be planned." He was studying the papers she had handed him. "I just wonder if this plan was handled by our 'special' friends, or someone else that got hold of it." "Would it better if it were the devil we know?" He looked up then and gave her a lopsided grin. "Doesn't look like it. I'm bypassing Kersh, have you seen Skinner?" "What do you think he can do?" "Try to locate Cancer Man. See who's responsible." "What good will that do?" "Not a lot, if they weren't ready. The vaccine worked damn quick on you, but I only had 96 hours to find you. Scully, you're right, a lot of people are going to die." "I need to head over to Georgetown. I'll swing by Mom's on the way." "Do you want me to go with you?" "No. You need to look for Cancer Man and see who's behind this. Find a supply of vaccine somewhere." "Sure, if that's all you need." He grinned then quickly sobered, "Scully, be careful. Stay armed even at the hospital. If there's panic. . . " She nodded. "And keep your phone on. Call me immediately if you need me." "Who else would I call?" She squeezed his hand and turned to leave. When he didn't release her she turned back. "Mulder?" "Yeah, okay." He reluctantly let go of her hand. "Scully, check in with me." "I will Mulder. And you let me know what you find." He nodded and she left the room, as usual leaving it twice as empty as before she'd come. He sank back into his chair. They'd done it. Those bastards had really done it. He picked up the phone and gave a terse message to Byers, then began to search for Skinner. Skinner was in a high level meeting with the other A.D.s and not available, even to him. Fine, he had other avenues, he'd use them. ***** She was so far beyond tired she was really afraid to drive. She should have stayed at the hospital to sleep, but she had to get away. She needed the peace of her apartment for a little while, try to put this away from her. The ring of her cell phone caused her to jump and realized again how dangerous she would be on the roads if there were any traffic. Everyone had been advised to stay home. She was sure martial law would be declared anytime. "Scully." "I thought you were going to check in!" He sounded frantic. "Mulder, I'm sorry. I haven't stopped since I left your office. It was incredible at the hospital." He relaxed a little at the sound of her voice. "How bad is it?" "We lost everyone, Mulder. 100%. I had them try the hypothermia, and those patients lasted longer, but. . . " "Everyone? Are you okay?" "No. Mulder what are we going to do?" "I don't know, Scully. Cancer man's gone, I even went to his apartment. His furniture is there, but I don't know what else he might have taken. He only has the one suit, right?" "I think so." Just listening to his voice was reviving her. "Skinner has been incommunicado all day too. All the bigwigs have. I've worked through the guys to learn what I can. Which is next to nothing. Oh, did you see your mother?" "Yes. She's worried about the boys. I had to force her to take my blood, she wanted me to save it for them." There was a small silence. "It's too quiet out here Mulder. There's almost no traffic." "The TV is running constant bulletins to stay home. They aren't talking about how it's transmitted." "No mention of the bees?" "None. People probably think it's airborne. That could be good, everyone avoiding everyone." "Except people won't rush to the hospital for a bee sting. Maybe if we could get them into hypothermia faster. . . " "You're off duty now, Doc. Go on home and rest. Call me when you get there, so I'll know you're in and safe." "Will do. I could use a good long soak tonight." "Need anyone to scrub your back?" He couldn't pass that comment up. "I'll get back to you on that." She said dryly. "Don't forget." "Goodbye, Mulder." She punched the button to disconnect them and actually smiled just a little. Only Mulder could get even a partial smile from her today. She savored that leering tone he had used and sped up. She really wanted to be home. When she did get there, she immediately dialed his number. Busy. So she ran her tub and relaxed back into it. She'd call him when she got out. She really needed this. She managed to push the horrors of the day back a little as she soaked her exhausted body. Guilt over not having talked to him forced her from the tub. He would be worried and right now he had reason, and hearing his voice never hurt. She belted her robe around her and walked to her living room. The arm that snaked around her was strong, too strong, but she didn't have time to analyze it before she felt the gun against her head. "Get Mulder over here." "Krycek?" She started to turn, but the gun was pressed harder into her flesh at her movement. "Get him." "Okay, just relax." "I'm as relaxed as I'm going to get for awhile. Don't tempt me." She nodded and picked up the phone. Mulder answered on the first ring. "Scully? Where have you -" "I need you over here, Mulder. Now." Krycek jerked the phone from her hand and hung up for her. "That should do it. Now, why don't you have a seat and wait with me." He pushed her down on the couch and seated himself beside her. "Scully! Scully what! Damn it!" He was already on the way to the door. What the hell had happened? She was immune, she had to be, she just had to be. Traffic was even lighter now and he took full advantage of that fact. She wouldn't answer either phone. He could not panic, he couldn't waste precious time on that. Just get there! Krycek smiled when he heard the tires squeal in front of her apartment. He checked his watch, good time even for Mulder trying to get to Scully. He yanked her up from the couch and they retreated from the door. Krycek had been right, Mulder wasted no time with the niceties of knocking, shoving his own key into the door and forcing his way in. "Good to see you again, Buddy." He watched as Mulder took the situation in, his arm around Scully, the gun at her temple. "Let her go, Krycek. Anything you need, you get from me." "You sure, Mulder? The way things have worked out there may not be many women left soon. You might have to get used to sharing her. Unless of course you're offering more than I realize." Mulder took another step towards them. His face was carefully impassive. "You touch her and I will kill you." "No one else can play with your toys, Mulder?" He watched Mulder's hands fist at his words. "I'm not kidding, she's going to be a valuable commodity soon. Young, female, attractive, immune. All the necessary attributes. If we stick together we could pimp for her." He took another step toward her. "Mulder, he's trying to get to you. Don't let him." Scully's voice was soothing, making sense. He stopped, she was right. He had to stay in control. Mulder took a deep breath, "Why are you here?" "They doublecrossed us Mulder. They moved up the date and didn't tell the group. There's not enough vaccine and what there is isn't available to the public. This planet, for all intents and purposes, has been shafted. You can count the number of people who've been vaccinated without removing both shoes at present. Statistically some people will have natural immunity, but the human race as a group is going the way of the dinosaur. I know we don't have a great relationship, but we're going to have a lot in common very soon. We'll be the ones alive. "It's not going to be that bad." Scully kept her voice from shaking. "Oh my darling Dana, it's already that bad. I doubt there's 2,000 people still alive in St. Petersburg. Less by morning. The delivery system they used is more advanced than the one they shared with us. They gave us just enough to keep us on their leash." He spotted Mulder move toward them again. "Put your gun on the table Mulder. Now." He tightened his grip on Scully. Mulder stopped and slowly removed his gun from the holster and placed it on the table when Krycek indicated. "Both of them Mulder." He pushed his gun into her skin and she winced. "Okay. Just let her go." He was removing his second gun from his ankle holster and laid it on the table beside the first one. "Now move away. Come on Mulder, you don't want to try anything." Mulder stepped back, as far from them as he'd been since he'd realized what the danger to her was. "Fine." Krycek shoved Scully towards him, causing her to stumble on her robe. Mulder moved forward and caught her before she could fall. "Are you alright?" He looked her up and down, taking in the robe and now that she was against him, the fact that she wore nothing underneath. "He didn't hurt me." She met his eyes, trying to reassure him. "I told you Mulder. I would never harm something so potentially valuable. A little trust, if we're going to be allies now." "Allies? With you?" "Us against them, Mulder. The humans against whatever you want to call them. Think about it. You're used to being outnumbered, out-maneuvered. We could make a great team." The two agents looked at him but made no response. He shrugged, "I guess you need a little time to think. I'll give you that. But I will be in touch." He scooped up both of Mulder's guns and headed for the door. "You're going to need me, whether you want to believe it or not." He tossed both guns into the far corner and let himself out. Mulder's random thought of chasing him left as Scully sagged against him. He scooped her into his arms and headed for her bedroom. "Mulder, I'm okay. You need to believe that." "I'm not going to start trusting Krycek now." "He didn't do anything to me. He knew that nothing would keep you from killing him if he did hurt me." Mulder nodded at that truth. "What are we going to do Mulder?" "I don't know. The European cities are decimated, just like he said. New York isn't a whole lot better and you know more about DC than I do." She shivered at that. "Could you stay here tonight?" "Sure no problem." He tried to hide the relief that she'd asked, because he wasn't leaving in any case. "Why don't you try to get some sleep. You're exhausted." "I don't know if I can sleep." "Try Scully. I'll be right here." He squeezed her hand and left the door cracked when he returned to the living room. He couldn't settle down. Finding Krycek here with her had affected him more than he realized. Finally standing in front of the window he watched the lack of activity outside. He didn't remember it ever being so quiet. A lot of cars were gone - people were leaving the city, just a trickle so far, but by morning the news would be out. The panic would kill even more. No one had believed them, what more could they have done? He turned from the window and headed for the TV, maybe there was news. Then he heard her in the other room, moaning. A nightmare, no surprise there after what she'd been through today. He hesitated at the door to her bedroom, then let himself in. She needed him. "Scully, wake up. It's okay, it's just a dream. Scully." He sat on the bed beside her, his hand on her cheek. She opened her eyes with a gasp and thew her arms around his neck, burying her face against him. "Sc. . . Scully?" His arms automatically went around her. "Are you okay?" "Yeah, yeah I'm fine." She pulled away from him embarrassed. "What was the dream?" He missed her arms around him, it had felt right. She didn't look at him. "Everyone was dead, bodies everywhere. I was. . . I was searching through them for you." "Oh Scully." He pulled her back against him. "It's not going to be like that." "Isn't it? We didn't save one today. Not one." "Then you will tomorrow. You'll learn how to deal with this. But you'll do better if you get some rest. I'll be here Scully." "Right here?" "Uh, sure. Until you fall asleep." He made himself comfortable beside her, his back against the headboard. She obediently lay back down, her back to him. He truly had meant to leave when she was asleep, but her warmth against his leg and her quiet even breathing relaxed him as well. He woke to find he'd slid down in the bed and was lying very comfortably, too comfortably, beside her. At his movement she stirred and pressed her back against him. His reaction was immediate and, he was confident, unwelcome to her. She stirred again, pressing her hips against him. "Scu. . . Scully, wake up." His voice sounded strained. "Mulder?" As she woke she drew away from him. She was going to blame him for his, could he explain? To his astonishment she rolled over toward him and buried her face in his chest. "Thank you." Thank you? She wasn't angry? The relief was almost overwhelming. He wanted to pull her closer, grind himself against her. Sure, Mulder, ruin everything. He managed to smile; "I slept pretty well too." "Well, why don't you go ahead and take the bathroom. I'll start the coffee." "Yeah. Thanks." She'd given him an out and his gratitude knew no bounds. She left the room giving him the opportunity to rise with some modesty intact. When he relinquished the bathroom she got ready and they ate a light breakfast while listening to the morning news. There was only one story and the stations had obviously been instructed to try to keep the panic down. It didn't seem to be working if you went by the shots of traffic leaving the cities. Scully put down her English muffin half eaten. "I need to get back to the hospital." "I'm coming with you." "To the hospital? I thought you'd - " "Scully, you saw the reports. I don't think we should be separated today. It could get ugly. I don't want to have to search for you too." She nodded. "I can be your own personal orderly." "Okay. We don't usually get our very own." She tried to smile at him. He squeezed her hand and they rose. They took her car since it had a full tank of gas, a detail he rarely contemplated. The hospital was a zoo, the beds long full, most of the gurneys in use, the morgue overflowing and now patients on pallets on the floor. Mulder couldn't keep the shock from his face. "It wasn't like this when I left. I need to find out who's in charge." He nodded, ready to follow her wherever. "Dr. Scully, I didn't expect to ever see you again. Dr. Jacobs is dead. We're still working of the hypothermia." "Have you. . . ?" "No, not yet. I've heard they have a patient in Atlanta that's lasted over 24 hours. We haven't had that kind of success. We can't even make them comfortable anymore and we're running out of everything." The man was obviously exhausted. "I suppose you want to head for the lab again." "You need me on the floor I know, but. . . " "Just for a couple of hours, to give these people a break." "Of course. You could use one yourself." The man nodded tiredly. "There's a sofa in my office. I'll take a nap there if you promise to wake me." She nodded and took the lab coat he handed her. "Come on, Mulder. We're needed in the ER." The next hour was a blur to Mulder; he functioned on her instructions, helping in any way he could. The people were coming in too late. He was spending more time moving bodies than any actual help. He was returning from yet another trip to the makeshift morgue when he heard her call for him. "Scully! I'm here." "Help me." She was supporting a woman; he took her other side. "The virus?" "No, she's in labor. Let's get her in a cubicle. Hurry." The woman wasn't able to walk alone, but no wheelchairs were available. Mulder ended up carrying her to the only empty area. "Mulder, get some sterile drapes. That drawer. Hurry. Can you tell me your name?" When she could speak she gasped out, "Callie, Callie Fisher." "Okay Callie, I'm going to have to examine you. Try to relax. Mulder, help me get these clothes off of her." "Don't you want me to get a nurse?" "There isn't one. You can do this." "Scully. . . " "You can. Come on." She slit the panties Callie was wearing and with Mulder's help slid a sterile drape under her. "Let her squeeze your hand, Mulder." She was digging through the drawers to find the supplies she needed. Her other patients today hadn't needed many supplies. "Scully, I think we need you over here." The semi-controlled panic in his voice made her turn. She slapped on the rubber gloves and lifted Callie's legs into place. "Well Callie, you didn't get here with any time to spare." "Traffic was bad." She huffed. Scully grinned, the woman was obviously feeling more secure now that she had help. Scully decided it was no time to display credentials - a pathologist and a psychologist who was way outside his comfort zone wouldn't make things any easier. "Not your first?" "Third." She managed to get out before she was squeezing Mulder's hand and breathing heavily again. The groan that escaped her caused the blood to leave his face. "Callie, you're ready. I want you to bear down with the next contraction. Mulder you need to support her back. That's right, come on." Mulder didn't try to decide if he was more horrified or fascinated. He suspected the former, but Scully seemed so calm, and Callie seemed to know what she was doing. He was just here to help out where he could and Scully thought he could do it. "One more time, Callie. That's right. Yes! Stop pushing Callie." Scully quickly suctioned out the infant's mouth and nose. Now fascination was taking over, a real person was being born. As he watched the baby turned slightly on its own and one shoulder emerged, then the other and the baby slid out into Scully's hands. Callie collapsed back against him. He'd nearly forgotten her as he watched Scully with this newborn in her hands. "It's a boy, Callie, He looks great." "A boy. My husband wanted a boy." Scully glanced up to smile at Mulder and was stunned into immobility by the look on his face. She'd never seen such a look of naked hunger. She had to tear her eyes away. She couldn't think about this now. Later, if there were a later, they'd have to talk about this. She shook herself and placed the baby on Callie's stomach. She was back to business now and quickly clamped the cord and cut it. "Mulder, I need you to massage her stomach while I clean up the baby." "What?" He could not have heard her correctly. "It's okay mister. It'll help me deliver the afterbirth. You haven't done this before, have you?" "Shows, huh?" "I'm still glad you were here. It's bad out there. I wasn't sure anyone would be here. I didn't want to do this alone. I hope my husband gets to see him. He's out of town; I wasn't due for a couple of weeks. I don't know if he's still alive." "I'm sure he's trying to get back to you." "Yeah. Maybe he'll find us." She tried to smile at him, but tears had started to flow. "I think I need to push again." Scully had been listening and turned back. "Let's finish this up and get you upstairs." "Maybe I shouldn't stay." "You need to be here for awhile. Let us observe you and the baby. You know that. Come one, one good push should do it." Mulder had to swallow hard, then breathe through his mouth, but he hung in there. This had to be over soon. "Why don't you go ahead and nurse him. We'll find a gurney to move you upstairs." Mulder followed Scully into the hall. "Are you okay Mulder?" "Yeah, sure." She smiled and didn't contradict him. She'd given him that answer often enough. They located an empty gurney and moved Callie up to the maternity floor, which was nearly deserted now, only one nurse still on duty - the others pulled to other areas. They told Callie goodbye and headed back to the ER. "It's past the two hours, I need to wake Dr. Adams." Mulder nodded and they headed toward his office. A nurse stopped them before they could enter. "I'm sorry. Dr. Adams is dead." "Dead? The virus?" "No, it looks like a heart attack. I found him, already gone. I'm sorry." She repeated. Mulder, behind her, saw her shoulder's slump. "Come on Scully." "Where?" "We're getting out of here." "We can't! I still might - " "No. I'm getting you out of here. We'll pick up your mother and get out of town. We'll find a place you can work." "Mom. Yes, yes whatever." "Wait right here Scully. I'll be right back." He returned carrying a plastic bag stuffed with what looked like scrubs and they slipped out to her car. It took several detours, but he got them to Scully's Mom's house in about thirty minutes, normally a ten-minute drive. "Mom! Mom are you here?" Scully let them into the house with her own key, and headed for the kitchen. In a minute Mulder followed her, "Scully, there's a note." He handed it to her. "Mulder?" She didn't like the look in his eyes. When he didn't answer she took the note he held out to her. "Dana, I tried to reach you but couldn't. I've gone to check on Charlie and his family, to make sure he and Mary and the kids are okay. I got a telegram that Tara is dead. Matthew is with his other grandparents and Bill is out on maneuvers. They're trying to locate him. I'll be okay Dana, I have your blood. Since you're with Fox I know I don't have to worry about you - he'll never let anything happen to you. We'll see each other soon, Dana. I love you. Mom" "Mulder." He took her arm, seating her at the table. "Tara?" "I know." He visualized the young woman he'd only met once. He'd spent almost no time with her; he'd been helping Scully with Emily. She'd been so hugely pregnant, and of course Bill hadn't wanted him anywhere near his wife. She leaned against him, overwhelmed by the last couple of days. "We need to get away from here. Let's take some things and go up to Quonochontaug. We can still be in touch with the guys, do research, but be away from the panic." She nodded. He was a little surprised that she agreed so readily. It just showed how frightened she was. "Your mother won't be coming back here. Charlie won't let her. We should take some supplies from here." She nodded again. "Scully, are you going to be okay?" "I'm glad you're here." "No place else I want to be Scully." He let her sit there while he gathered supplies from the pantry and medicine cabinet. At the last minute he also grabbed a photo album he'd seen Scully look through several times and added it to the pile. He loaded everything in the trunk; also taking the 5-gallon can of gas he found in the garage. She was still sitting at the table. He knelt before her. "Can you leave now?" She came very close to smiling. "I am okay Mulder. Just thinking." "Okay, let's head to your apartment and get your things." He took her arm and led her from the house, locking it up behind him. Once again he scoured the kitchen for supplies while she packed her things. "Mulder, I don't know what to take!" "Heavy duty stuff Scully. No suits and panty hose. Now the garter belt. . . " She threw her hairbrush at him which he caught with ease, grinning. She turned back to her room and he followed. "Kidding aside, jeans, t-shirts, sweatshirts. We're going into a survival situation. Consumer goods are going to be scarce for awhile." She nodded and added several things to her suitcase, then headed into the bathroom. When she emerged she looked at him helplessly. "Mulder, now I don't know where to stop." "Yeah. Start with the essentials and work our way up the list I guess. What we have room for." She finally stopped, "We've still got to get your stuff. Let's head over there." "No Scully. Take what you need. I don't have that much." "Come on, time's racing." She picked up her suitcase. He found he was more reluctant to leave the apartment than she was. He didn't live here, only spent a few nights, so few he could count them on one hand, but it was a home to him. Would he be back? At least she'd be with him. He picked up the box and followed her out. His apartment did take a lot less time. "Can you survive without any of your suits, Mulder?" "Hey, I'm not that bad." "Well, we're not getting much in the way of food here, so there's room. Are you emotionally attached to this orange?" She pointed to the back of the drawer in his refrigerator. "If I say yes, will you pack it?" "Dream on G-man." She shut the refrigerator. "Anything else?" He thought for a second, then headed for his desk and pulled out his own photo album. "Let's go." She seemed as reluctant to leave his place as he had hers. But they finally finished loading the car. "Do you want me to drive?" "No Scully. You've only been there once. I'm probably going to have to take a lot of detours. Get some rest." "You're as tired as I am." "But I don't sleep. Come on." Using back roads and neighborhoods he was able to get out of town with a minimum of backtracking. Most people fleeing the city had taken the main roads. She seemed to relax once the city was behind them, and did eventually drop off to sleep. She was much more tired than she let on he realized, and a lot of it had to be emotional. Guilt crept up on him. He was taking her away from everything she knew and loved, while he was taking all of that with him. Hardly fair, but when had their partnership ever been fair to her? He could feel the fatigue creep up on him as he neared the cabin. He wouldn't be safe driving soon, but they were close. He breathed a sense of relief when he spotted the turn off. He pulled up to the cabin, it was dark but everything looked okay. "Scully? Scully, we're here." He touched her cheek. "What? Mulder? Oh Mulder, how long have I slept?" She looked into his exhausted face. "You should have woken me." "You looked too peaceful. Let's get unpacked." "I can do this. You go lay down." "No, it'll be faster if we do it together." He found the fuse box and got the power on, then helped her carry supplies into the kitchen and her suitcase into the bedroom. She followed with his. "Mulder, lie down before you fall down. Now." "You take the bed." "No. I've had some sleep, I'll straighten up in the kitchen." He nodded, too tired to make an issue of it. She explored the kitchen, putting away some items, rearranging others. She removed the sheets from the furniture and looked with distaste at the sofa. Was she tired enough to sleep on that? She tiptoed into the bedroom. His jeans and t-shirt were on the floor. It looked like he had just fallen onto the bed. She realized that that bed wasn't even made, just a comforter over the mattress. She glanced back at the sofa. No contest. She stripped down to panties and bra, then slipped his discarded t-shirt over that and crawled into the bed beside him, pulling the comforter over both of them. He didn't wake, but pulled her into his arms, tucking her up against him. Well, she didn't seem to be disturbing him at least. She relaxed into the comfort and safety of his arms and drifted back to sleep. He woke disoriented, not sure where he was or why. His first realization was that the warm bundle next to him was Scully. This brought the inevitable physical response. Not again, she wasn't stupid. He moved slightly away from her and she followed him in her sleep, maintaining contact. Not fair, she was too, hell too Scully for this. She stretched, sliding down his body and even though his mind screamed to get out of the bed, his body refused to comply, savoring this contact. "Um, Mulder?" "Yeah. Time to wake up." His voice was steadier than he had thought it would be. How the hell was he going to be able to live up here alone with her for possibly the rest of their lives? He was pretty sure he couldn't fit on that little bed in the loft anymore. Now that she was awake she did move away from him and he forced himself not to pull her back. God, he was pathetic. "Mulder, we need to talk." Shit, she was going to blame him for this. She didn't know how his body reacted to hers on a continuous basis. He couldn't help it. Yes, at his age he should have more control, but this was Scully damnit! He took a deep breath and interrupted her. "Scully, I can't help how I react to being with you. Especially sharing a bed like this. But you know me, surely after all of this time you know I'd never force you to do anything you didn't want. You do trust me that much, don't you?" The look on her face. She couldn't look more blank if he'd starting speaking Martian to her. He would never. . . she did know him that well, didn't she? She rose from the bed and turned away. What had he done? He scrambled after her and caught her arm, then realizing how that might look released her and raised his hands into the air. "Scully, please. . ." She turned, hearing the fear in his voice. "I don't know what to say." "Scully, I would never hurt you. You don't have to be afraid of me. I'm sorry, I - " "Afraid of you? No Mulder, I would never. . . I didn't realize. . . I was going to tell you that you should go back and get Diana. I know you once - " "Diana who?" Now she did look strangely at him. "Diana Fowley. I know you two had a relationship and if you. . . " "Diana Fowley?" He knew he sounded stupid, but what could she be talking about? "That was over years ago. I haven't spoken ten words to her since she took over our job. Why would I want her up here?" "Mulder, it's okay. A man like you needs a woman and. . . " This was far more embarrassing than she had anticipated. "I don't want another woman here, not Diana, not anyone. I don't know how I'll handle being around you and not. . . but I'll manage. Diana? God how could you even think that?" "But you've never wanted me, I just thought. . . " "Never wanted you! Great holy . . . is that what you think?" "Well yes. I mean, you kid around but . . . " He sank down on the bed, not sure whether to laugh or cry. "You think I don't want you." "Well yes. I mean six years, Mulder. What am I supposed to think?" "That I'm the fool everyone at the Bureau thinks I am. If I've been able to keep my feelings for you secret for six years. . . God Scully! You really don't know how I feel about you?" She looked like a doe caught in the headlights. She didn't know. She honestly had no idea. But now she knew and she hadn't run from the room, hadn't demanded he return her to DC. Her look of incredulity was passing and she was looking. . . happy? No, he was clearly delusional. "You want me. Not Diana?" "Where in hell did you get the idea that I was interested in Diana?" "Well, the guys." His eyes narrowed, "And Gibson, and I saw you holding hands." "I never held hands with her. What did you see?" "You were at the hospital where Gibson was being held. You were holding hands." She sank onto the bed beside him, not quite close enough to rub shoulders. He looked away, "I don't remember. Scully we may have touched hands, but not. . . " He gave an unamused chuckle. "You didn't know I wanted to be with you. You never knew how many nights I drove over to your apartment to tell you. But I never had the guts to come to your door. I was always afraid your neighbors would tell you that you were being stalked. I felt like some kind of bastardized Charlie Brown, in love with his little red-headed girl." They were both silent, absorbing this. "That's my t-shirt, isn't it?" "Oh," she blushed, "You were asleep. I didn't think you'd mind." "Scully, I don't own any clothes you can't get into any time you want." She was staring at him. Her lips moved but no sound emerged. As he watched, her face brightened and that expression was unmistakable. Joy. She was happy! "You want me." Now he was speechless. "I've slept in your arms the last two nights. You could have. . . " "I thought I was the only. . . " His voice trailed off. "We both truly need help you know." "You've always brushed off my comments." "I never dreamed you were serious. Okay, I dreamed it, but I never let myself believe." She hesitated, looking deeply into his eyes, then moved down toward his lips. He realized he was actually afraid of this, of her. Then she was kissing him. Scully was kissing him! His hands were on her, caressing her thought the thin material of his t-shirt. "No." He set her aside. "What?" "You deserve better than this. After six years, we deserve better than this." "Mulder, it's okay." "No. This is too special." Now she was lying on the bed and he was leaning over her. "Will you marry me?" The words came out in a rush, but before she could respond he continued. "I figure my odds have improved, being one of the last men on earth." She made a sound, a laugh? A sob? He wasn't sure. "Of course I'll marry you." "Of course? You said of course?" She was that sure? No way. "If it matters, my answer would have been the same last week." "It wasn't." He countered. "You never asked me before." "Yes, I did. You were in New England, on vacation." "You weren't serious then." "I was serious, just too scared to let you know." "Nothing scares you." "Nothing but you." "That might be the smartest thing you've ever said."