Paul Wartenberg z004799b@bcfreenet.seflin.lib.fl.us ALL LOVE IS MADNESS by. Paul Wartenberg From transcripts made of Special Agent Fox Mulder's personal tape log Feb. 7, 1995 2:34 p.m. Spokane, WA Mulder: This...is difficult. I...during the apprehension of a suspect in this case, I have been injected with some sort of chemical compound. Considering how every victim has reacted and the possibility this could be fatal...I am going to make a record of any immediate reactions to the injection and hope this might help determine what was used and what can counteract it. I have already stated this to my partner Agent Scully in my phone call right after the incident. The time is 2:34 p.m. It has been about ten minutes since the doctor injected the chemicals in my left arm. He's currently unconscious, but I have handcuffed him and secured him in a bathroom tub. The needle has been placed in a saran-wrap sandwich bag in the refrigerator for safe-keeping. It's next to the mayo jar, so don't confuse it with the carrot sticks, okay? (long pause) The time is now 2:53. I have taken some time to move as much furniture as I could to cover the doorways out of the house. I know I could move them out of the way if I get...uncontrollable urges, but I hope they're enough of a deterrent to give me enough time to regain my sanity. I have to report I'm beginning to sweat. It's probably all that moving. From the preliminary X-File report (folder #X950202099). Feb. 2, 1995 A rash of bizarre and violent behavior has occurred in the city of Spokane, Washington within the last two weeks. At the latest report, 14 couples, 28 men and women, have performed public acts of lovemaking, and were violently resisting police officers when arrested. Separated from their sex partner, the couples have become more violent within their holding cells, calming only when they were in physical contact with their partners. When completely isolated from any kind of contact, one detainee committed suicide, and her boyfriend died of what was determined at the site as "unusual causes." The autopsies of the man and woman did not determine any cause of their behavior. No chemicals were found nor any sign of outside stimuli. Subsequent examination of the other detainees could not determine any unusual drugs or outside stimuli regarding their behavior as well. Mulder's personal tape log. 3:27 p.m. Mulder: The sweating hasn't stopped, even though I have attempted to remain calm and rested. I have sat in the middle of the work room, surrounded by the doctor's equipment, and have tried to focus on other things. I don't think I'm forcing any kind of stress on myself. I've read the labels on a lot of the chemicals he's locked in his storage cabinets, Scully. I'm not sure even you could grasp what they represent. Transcript from Special Agent Dana Scully's followup autopsy of Nelson, Melville. Feb. 5, 1995. Scully: Preliminary examination of the body has been performed by Dr. Michal Jennison. His report indicates nothing out of the ordinary. I am now examining the outside condition of the body. Bruises and various cuts on the body correspond to police reports regarding his resisting arrest. There are, however, small holes along...Mulder, look here. Mulder: Nice tattoo. How could he sit still for that one? Scully: Mulder, these needle marks on the arm, along the vein. Here, and here. Jennison: Those were determined scars from his arrest. Examination of the body fluids did not prove he was shooting up any drugs. Scully: Still, they should have been reported. It's possible blood might have been taken, or there were injections of chemicals that did not appear in normal tests. I would like to ask samples be taken from the survivors and sent to a facility that can do extensive breakdowns of chemicals in the blood. Jennison: Very well. I'll contact Dr. Hathaway in the emergenct facilities.(leaves) Mulder: Gee, Scully, don't forget to ask him to get some tea, earl grey, hot. Scully: Mulder, there's something wrong here. Jennison's report said nothing of these marks and here, take a look... Mulder: Aw, geez, Scully, and I was planning on taking you to that BBQ place down the road...okay, so it's his heart. Scully: There is extensive scarring of the muscles, indications of intense cardiovascular work. Mulder, his heart gave out from incredible stress. I'd say it was a heart attack, but the stress is not from old age or being out of shape. All other indications are that he was healthy. Mulder: Ah. Which means? Scully: Jennison didn't report any of this scarring either. And he examined the heart. This is going to take awhile, Mulder. I'm going to retrace his exam and check a few more things out as well... From Mulder's personal tape log. 4:12 p.m. Mulder: I'm...I'm beginning to have flashbacks. Without even wanting to think about it...it's not just the memories, it's that the visuals... Um...what I mean is...I am having flashbacks of previous relationships, and the flashbacks are not just memories, but from my perspective it's as if I'm...reliving them. I don't know how this could make me react like the others...except to put me in the right frame of mind? 4:16 p.m. Mulder: Well, it's official. I'm now in a state of arousal. This is definitely...a...an aphrodesiac of some kind. 4:18 p.m. Mulder: Scully, I think the drug seems to work in more ways than one, stimulating the body as well as the mind. Could it be a combination of chemicals? From Scully's field report. Feb. 6, 1995. Medical examinations for both autopsies and surviving victims have revealed any new information. Although I have found discrepencies in Dr. Jennison's autopsy regarding those injection points on the arms and shoulders and the evident stress on the heart muscles, I would have to consider those missed elements accidental. Examinations of the victims proved as frustrating. Similar needle marks have been found on the bodies, yet the individuals are incapable of answering any questions put to them. It is obvious they are under the influence of some unusual drug or addictive elements. Dr. Hathaway has recommended the use of various drugs in some sort of rehabilitating treatment, but I am unsure if the recommended prescriptions of methadone, depressants, or other treatments can be effective. Blood and fluid tests should come in tomorrow. When we can determine the chemicals in their systems, possibile treatments can be recommended. Mulder is insistant on interviewing the victims. He's tried hypnosis but none of them can stay focused long enough to go under. He's also been physically attacked by one Mr. Jack Duncan who tried to use him as a hostage while roaming the emergency builing for his wife. Sheriff Hank Trusk tasered Duncan and disabled him long enough to be secured again. We have ruled out any infectous diseases or possible sources of infection such as the local water, food, or plant life. The injection marks prove this is spread by an individual or group who had targeted these individuals. The authorities are now searching for clues to any common denominator as to why these people were targets. From Mulder's personal tape log. 5:00 p.m. Mulder: I'm still sweating...I've been tempted to look out some of the windows. I'm pacing the room now, feeling cramped, claustrophobic somehow. But that's not right... I've had about three fantasies go through my head since the last taping. People in love report having a rich fantasy life during the early stages...It's possible stimulating the mind stimulates the drive to have relationships. Scully, I have to tell you I'm...I...I threw the phone against the wall as hard I as could. I've...I need to hear a voice...but that could stimulate me even more. Like a mating call or something. Any kind of stimulus, a voice, a touch, a glance...a thought... From Mulder's personal tape log. 6:19 p.m. Mulder: The...sensations...I...I've felt this way once or twice, like the first time you ask a girl out or talk to her on the phone...I... (pause) It's a lot like the first time...Mary, she was...no...Oh, God, hold on here. I have to remain calm. How long has it been? Well, it's getting close to 6:30 now. Okay, okay, Scully, I'm still getting a lot of images through my head, mostly images of past relationships, but also stuff from school, like all those history texts and lit books from college. I am overwhelmed with these images, these feelings. God, I need to sit down, I'm pacing too much... From Scully's field report. Feb. 7, 1995. As of this date, the number of victims has gone up, from 28 to 42. The new cases are as uncooperative during questioning as the earlier victims. We have obtained preliminary blood test results from Gonzaga University. Tests reveal a high amount of various amphetamines, especially phenylethylamine and norepinephrine. Norepinephrine is a natural body chemical, but rarely seen at these levels. (charts included in report) These chemicals have been known to produce high emotional drives, usually euphoric, which may explain the romantic urges and why those urges are so strong in the victims. With Dr. Hathaway's assistance, we may be able to counteract the chemical reactions and calm the people affected. Mulder has noted the tests by local medical authorities failed to note the amphetamines, and has begun an extensive background check on the doctors who might have worked on the case. It is possibly not coincidental the work on this case has been so shoddy. From Mulder's personal tape log. Time unknown. Mulder: I...can't help it...I...I...with her, I always felt this way, even after... Um, Scully. I never told you about Mary. She was...soooo beautiful. It wasn't her body or her...her...it was that smile. You know how people smile, I mean, you can smile all you want, you can fake it sometimes...but that smile, that kind of smile, like Mona Lisa's, one that came naturally to her, that you could tell she wasn't faking the fact she was happy to see you. I knew her before we were in Taylor's history class, oh God was that class boring. He had a hearing problem, so his hearing aids would sometimes go on the fritz and whistle real loud. Sometimes the jerks in the class would whistle the same way, trying to convince him his hearing aids weren't working. She agreed with me it was stupid. We...agreed on a lot of stuff. We didn't really hit it off from the beginning or anything. Most times, I'd just hang with her and with her friends sometimes. A lot of times I wanted to be alone with her. Never really did. Never really went out of my way. Was...was it fear? I mean, I finally asked her. After two years of knowing her, I asked her to go out with me. Fleetwood Mac was touring, I knew she liked the band and everything. So I called her up and asked if she'd like to go see the band. `Oh, great,' she said. `Could you also get a ticket for my boyfriend?' I cried for two hours...(sighs) From Scully's field report. Feb. 7, 1995. Early attempts at inducing counter-reactions to the amphetamines with various depressants are so far unsuccessful. The victims do attain a certain level of lucidity and awareness immediately after treatment, but within two hours are suddenly hyperactive and overtly sensitive to their surroundings. The time period of lucidity is sharply decreased when a couple are within the same room; the presense of the other seems to hurry up the chemical reaction within each victim. I am convinced the amphetamines are not the cause, but part of a response to another drug which forces the body to naturally produce the chemicals, explaining why the victims revert to their aroused states. If we can detect this drug, then counteracting it could stop a body from producing the amphetamines. Mulder has investigated the local doctors involved with the case. Hathaway, Jennison, and a Dr. Victor Anders are the ones most active in the case. He has also checked on the nursing and assistant staff, but has noted very few of them with any advanced studies in biochemistry. Hathaway checked out. Jennison was seen doing extensive rechecking of the blood samples, but was pretty much on his own during the time period. Anders had been seen making additional stops at the hospital pharmacy for various chemical and drug supplies. Mulder called from the hospital and said he was going to check on any community activities that the victims and doctors both had attended. From Mulder's personal tape log. Time unknown. Mulder: How, where does this feeling come from? Why am I so scared? I've replayed the tape back to myself so I can see how...how I'm reacting. I...I don't sound so good. I don't feel any better. When I talked about Mary I noticed I wasn't confused or mumbling too much. I seem to focus better on...on...but I...(pause) I'm terrified of how I feel. I know why I'm feeling this way and I'm terrified of it. But how I felt about her, about Phoebe, about...about... Every relationship I've ever been in...they...they...never work out. I feel so great at first and in the end I keep ripping my own heart out...I...I mean, I've even fallen for a vam...(pause) It was when you were gone. It had been days, and I...she was a vampire, or so she thought, and she'd been...she wasn't evil or sick, well maybe she was sick I mean...Kristen...there was a part of her that was sad, and I felt for her, I... (sound of something crashing) No! Goddammit, what am I doing? What the hell am I confessing for?... From Scully's field report. Feb. 7, 1995. Mulder has successfully interrogated two of the victims by injecting them with depressents to counteract the amphetamines long enough to be placed under hypnosis. Both had attended a blood drive sponsored by both the community college and the hospital, and both remembered being injected with they were told was a relaxant. Dr. Anders was involved in a supervisory role. Mulder noted however that the injection would account for only one of the needle marks, and only on the arms. He was unable to determine from the victims how those marks on their shoulders were made. Nonetheless, this is a significant breakthrough. Mulder is now focusing his efforts on the blood drive. From Mulder's personal tape log. Time Unknown. Mulder: Dana...(pause) Dana...help me... (sounds of crying) From Mulder's personal tape log. Time Unknown. Mulder: You know...Dana...you and Phoebe don't look at all alike... From Scully's field report. Feb. 7, 1995. As of 2:30 this day, the situation has gotten extremely worse. While investigating a suspect involved with the community college blood drive, Mulder has been injected with a chemical he believes induces the body to produce the high levels of phenylethyamine and norepinephrine. He says he will isolate himself in the suspect's house until I can find a cure. Hathaway has read studies on the body reactions to love rituals, and believes there may be other chemicals we have overlooked. He has requested to place couples together in the same office and then attempt to take blood samples. Dr. Anders will assist him. With Mulder affected, we now have a time limit. Hopefully, we are carefully checking our steps to make sure nothing is overlooked. From Mulder's personal tape log. Time unknown. Mulder: What's taking you?...It's...I can't eat, I can't rest... Thinking about what's happened...I'm also looking for his notes on what chemicals he's used, but...Nothing's here! Dammit! (sounds of glass breaking) He should have...where's his notes? (Sounds of movement; later noted as going from lab to bathroom) Okay, doc, where's your notes? Cable: Well, nice to know it's working... Mulder: Shut Up! I asked you a question! Cable: Relax. Just relax and let... Mulder: I'm not giving into this, I'm not! What's the damn cure? Cable: Divorce. From Scully's field report. Background information on Cable, Jonas, professor of chemistry, Spokane Falls Community College. Born: 02/24/1962. Marital status: Single. Children: None. Professional history: bachelors, chemistry, U.Washington, 1984. bachelors, biology, U.Washington, 1984. masters, education, Evergreen State, 1986. masters, organic chemistry, U.San Fransisco, 1987. Employment history: adjunct, chemistry department, Boise State, 1987-88. faculty, chemistry department, U.Washington, 1988-90. NOTE: left Washington under investigation. faculty, Spokane Falls Community College, 1992-current. Criminal history: one count soliticing, Seattle, WA, 1991. Probation and fine. Personal background: known by co-workers as a loner, rarely seen at social functions; harsh with grading scales; rumors of sexual harassment of female students were investigated at Washington, leading to his dismissal; review of expenditures at work indicate extensive studying and research; no publications in professional journals; no current problems or investigations at current employment. From Mulder's personal tape log. 8:08 p.m. Mulder: I...I've decided to interrogate Cable and try to determine what...what...he's done. (Pause) You have the right to remain silent... Cable: You really think this will... Mulder: Shut Up! You have the right to an attorney being present... Cable: Oh, trying to get a double date going, eh? I'd love to go out with Susan Dey... Mulder: DO YOU UNDERSTAND THESE RIGHTS!?! Cable: What I don't understand is why you're so eager to stop what you're supposed to do... Mulder: Then you're willing to talk about this. Cable: Oh, yes. From Scully's field report. Feb.7, 1995. As of 5:00, we have made considerable success in discovering how to treat the victims of Cable's experiments. Hathaway has quickly sent the latest blood samples to a friend at Gonzaga for swift analysis; a response is expected before nightfall. He has already guessed that there are two chemical reactions going on within the victims; the amphetamines that accelerate their desires and endorphins which maintain their interests. The endorphins stimulate feelings of contentment, and usually acts with physical contact of the other person. This might explain why those couples in close proximity to each other rejected treatment more quickly than ones being treated in isolated conditions. If we counteract both the natural amphetamines and endorphins in their systems, the victims should recover. No word from Mulder. The drug should have affected him by now. I have sent police officers, no females, to Cable's address, to secure the house. I prefer to confirm the treatment's success before helping him. From Mulder's personal tape log. 8:10 p.m. Mulder: The drug you...injected...it... Cable: It pretty much induces your mind to activate memories of love, desire, happier times... Mulder: Keeps me from...thinking normally...but the body?... Cable: Reacts both to your memories and to the extra buzz of naturally-produced amphetamines. Actually, it should, well, increase your senses, make you more aware of your surroundings. Mulder: What's the antidote? Cable: There isn't one. Your body's producing the chemicals now. Why fight it, agent Mulder? Mulder: (unintelligible mumbles) Cable: Don't you like those feelings? Don't you remember what it was like when you fall in love? All that passion, the ecstasy... Mulder: No...can't... Cable: I bet you felt the same way when you first met your partner... Mulder: No! Cable: I've seen her, working at the facility, interviewing people from the blood drive...she's beautiful, isn't she? Mulder: ...yes...Dana's...No... Cable: And you've worked with her for awhile, haven't you? Gotten used to her, used to her habits, her smile, her laugh... Mulder: Stop it. Stop IT! Cable: No. This is you. This IS how you feel. Nothing I can say will make you stop feeling like that about her, no cure can be found for this... Mulder: ...you said divorce... Cable: And don't you enjoy this feeling of ecstasy? Mulder: No...this madness... Cable: No...wait...what are you doing? Mulder: You're right. I'm remembering. I'm remembering all those times I fell in love. I do remember all those joys. I also remember all those crazy stunts I did. The private rules I broke every time just to feel like this. And what has it gotten me? Cable: Get out of my face... Mulder: No...look at me. I'm remembering all those times of what it was like when it was over, when the love was gone and all that was left was this huge empty hole where my happiness was. Every time I fell in love and every time the girl ended up ripping my heart out, stomped on it, charbroiled it, and fed it to the dogs. Cable: But... Mulder: Uh-uh. I'm remembering all the madness I ever went through when I fell in love and when I fell out of love. And I know the same thing will happen again and again and AGAIN! Cable: No...you know you love her... Mulder: Scully's my PARTNER! Right now that means a whole lot more, because she will find a cure...Now, what about you, herr mad scientist? Why did you do all this in the first place, hm? Cable: I...this is not about me! You... Mulder: We're not playing that game anymore, professor. I find this kind of conversation more comforting. You're using the others as guinea pigs for what, when you want to use it on yourself perhaps? Cable: Shut up! Mulder: Talk to me about my lack of appreciation for the finer things...I see no pictures of girlfriends or wives here...what's wrong, personal ads didn't work out? (Noises in the background) Scully? Down Here! No, just talk through the window here! (Noises, sound of a chair scraping) No, he only injected me once! What, there's a second injec... (Sounds of a struggle, mixed voices of Cable and Mulder, additional noise of glass breaking) Scully: Professor Cable! Get away from agent Mulder NOW! Put your hand up where I can see it! Cable: Dammit, no, no... Mulder: Hi, Scully. Nice to see you throwing bird baths through windows again. Scully: Sheriff, arrest Cable, please. (Background sounds, officers placing Cable under arrest) Mulder, did he get you with that second needle? Mulder: Nope. I do feel a bit dizzy though. Scully: Still under the influence of the amphetamines. We can calm you down now, we have a treatment that works. Mulder: Kinda already have one. Scully: What's that? Mulder: Thinking of Phoebe Green. Oh, hey, doctor Cable? (Pause) Happy Valentine's Day. Scully: Mulder, extending your middle finger like that isn't exactly professional. (Pause) Oh. Right. I forgot. You're not professional. (Laughter)