From: "Erin Blair" <eblair@sonic.net>
Date: Mon, 28 Jun 2004 04:58:06 -0700
Subject: NEW: Allowance 1/1 by Erin M. Blair
Source: direct

TITLE: Allowance
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net
CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORIES: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst
CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance
DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to Gossamer, 
Ephemeral, After the Fact, and MSR Fanfic Cheerleaders 
Archive.
RATING: PG
SPOILERS: all things. Small spoilers from: Miracle 
Man, Revelations, and All Souls.
SETTING: Season Seven
DISCLAIMER: Scully and Mulder belong to Chris Carter.
DATE: Completed on June 12, 2004.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Thanks to Jen as always. However,
I do want to thank ML for the challenge. Thank you!
SUMMARY: She let herself go and to be free to love Mulder.

*This was a fic challenge issued on the Believe the
Truth. Details at the end.*

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Allowance
by Erin M. Blair
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She knew it was wrong, but she did it anyway. She 
had gone through life as a good Catholic woman 
because her family had instilled strong moral 
values. Due to this, she had a hard time enjoying 
life. All her decisions, except for when she decided 
to enter the FBI, were either decided by her family, 
friends, school counselors, or the medical 
establishment.

Do this. 

Do that.

She always abided by the book that her peers set 
for her, that society dictated for her. She never 
allowed herself to have a good time. 

Never.  

She did it anyway: she joined the FBI. Her parents 
weren't thrilled for her. 

Didn't understand why she wanted to put her life in danger.
Didn't understand why she wanted her freedom. 

Her parents, especially her father, hated that decision. On
that day, she stopped going to Mass every Sunday. She 
let herself go.

She became a lapsed Catholic. She still believed in Him,
but she wanted to make her way in life.   

Freedom. 

She breathed it in and she let herself roam free like a 
bird flapping its wings. She wanted to be her own 
person, to ask questions, and to ask for proof. Most of 
all, she did it her way. It was the best decision that 
she had ever made for herself. Her life was her own. 
 
When she decided to enter the FBI, she knew it would 
be a fruitful one. She knew the road would be littered with 
opportunities, challenges, and promises. This road led 
her to be partnered with Mulder.

She once told him that she would never change a 
day. She still wouldn't. She was happy with the 
choices she made in her life. All these choices gave 
her the man she loved from her heart.

Mulder was the answer to uplift her heart, to let it
soar like a bird. She knew from the moment she met 
him that being with him completed her. Her heart 
and soul would always be complete when he was 
close.

Now she was preparing to make the biggest decision
of her life: to show how much she loved Mulder.

As she turned the knob to reveal Mulder's 
bedroom, she knew her love for him was right. 
She saw him standing there by the window. "Mulder,"
she softly whispered. 

She watched him turn around to face her. His hazel
eyes gazed into her blue eyes. He smiled at her. 

"Scully, I thought you were --- "

"Mulder, what I learned today was to seize the 
day. I realized what we have together is special.
I think it's time...for us." She stood on tiptoe to 
give him a forehead kiss. 

And then he leaned in for a kiss. She felt
the warmth of his lips and she felt his arms
around her waist. This was right, she thought, as 
she pressed her lips again onto his. She felt the 
pull of her body, landing on the bed. She 
breathed in the sweet love as they began to 
make love.

She knew this was right. She gave him a smile. 
She knew this was a right decision; it wasn't 
wrong. It was right for her to tell Mulder the truth 
of her love. She knew this love would last forever
because she loved him from the depth of her soul. 

-- end -- 

Feedback:  Yes, please! Send to: eblair@sonic.net 

Author's Notes: 

This story is in response to a challenge issued on
Believe the Truth by ML: Start a story with this 
sentence: "She knew it was wrong, but she did 
it anyway" and then let it go where the story 
progressed. It can be of any length.

This story was fun to do. :) I enjoyed it a lot.

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Erin Blair
eblair@sonic.net