From: Jacquie Sabatier Date: 13 Jun 2007 20:40:38 -0700 Subject: [all-xf] FF: Always Here Source: atxc Author: Jacquie and Sassy Summary: Post fic for "Tunguska"/"Terma" from Season 4 Pairing: Mulder and Scully Rating: NC 17 Feedback: By all means. Only request is if you have a negative review, please try to be constructive in your criticism (eg: Suggestions on how I can improve the next story, what you didn't like about the story) instead of flaming. Thank you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxx Mulder knocked softly on Scully's door. He took a deep breath. He hoped she didn't want to kill him for coming to her apartment at 3:00 in the morning, but he needed to talk to her. To tell her.He didn't get to finish this thought as a sleepy-eyed Scully opened the door. "Mulder?" "Did I wake you?" Mulder said with a smile. "Nah." Scully didn't have the heart to tell him that he had woken her. Not after everything he had just been through. She smoothed down her hair and let him in. "I couldn't sleep," Mulder told her as he sat down on her couch. "Can I get you something?" "A friendly ear." He grabbed her hand and pulled her down next to him. "Everything okay?" "Had a lot of time to think when I was locked in that cell." Mulder shuddered at the memory. "About what?" Scully's hand reached for his, but she hesitated at the last moment. "You, me, the X-files, but mostly you." Mulder looked over at her. "I thought I was going to die and never get the chance to tell you what you mean to me." Scully took his hand then. Mulder looked up at her and slowly let out the breath he had been holding. "When they assigned you to me, I didn't think you'd stay. Do you know what it means to me that you stayed?" "Tell me," Scully said gently. "Everyone else.no one stayed. Everyone thinks I'm crazy. Not you. I admire how you don't let me get ahead of myself and let my emotions take over. You ground me." Mulder reached up and caressed her face. Scully's eyes closed but only for a moment. "Scully.Dana..I need you in my life. When Duane Barry.." Mulder had to stop and close his eyes. "Sssh.Mulder, I'm fine." "I know, but you almost died. And it was because of me. Because of my quest." "It's my quest too." "Because of Melissa?" Scully nodded, tears in her eyes. "If you'd never met me, she'd be alive," Mulder couldn't tell Scully about the guilt he'd carried over the loss of Melissa. Scully wrapped her arms around him, pulling him closer. "I know you blame me, Scully. I see it in your eyes. I feel it," he whispered against her hair. "I don't blame you," Scully looked Mulder in the eyes. "I blame them." "But.." Mulder was cut off by Scully's finger on his lips. "I don't blame you," she whispered. Mulder gave her a quick smile. "That's why I lov." He saw Scully's eyes go wide and then fill with tears. He bit the bullet. "That's why I love you." "Mulder." Scully whispered. He looked down into her blue-green eyes. "Yes.." "I stay because I want to be with you. Because I love you too," she whispered. He let his forehead rest against hers. "You kept me alive." Scully gently rested his head against her shoulder. "I didn't think I would get back to you," he whispered. "The thought of hurting you again..It kept me alive. I refused to give up." "What I love about you," Scully told him with a soft smile. "You tired?" Scully had been falling asleep on the couch. That's what prompted Mulder to ask this. "Sorry.." She tried to stifle a yawn. "It's okay. I woke you up anyway." "You know you don't have to go," Scully started to say. Her eyes widened at the sound of her voice. She tried to cover it up by standing. Mulder grabbed her hand. "Can I sleep with you?" "Sure." Scully swallowed a lump in her throat. "Even got an extra toothbrush." "Can't have smelly breath, can we?," Mulder teased as he followed her. Scully stuck out her tongue at him. Mulder grabbed her hand and pulled her back to him. His mouth was against her ear. "I know what you can do with that tongue." Scully giggled. Mulder released her and followed her to the bathroom. Scully made a face at herself in the mirror as she noticed her hair was slightly sticking up. "It's cute," Mulder assured her from the doorway where he was leaning. "Guess it'll get more mussed up," she said as she gave up. Mulder smiled as he watched her in the mirror. However it was replaced by something even she couldn't read. He touched her side. "What?" Scully gently urged, turning around. Mulder cradled her face in his hands. He lowered his mouth to hers. She melted against him. When he pulled away, his eyes were closed. "It's late. Let's get you to bed." "You need to sleep took Mulder," Scully said gently. Mulder smiled. "You know me. I never sleep. But I'll hold you." "Humor me, Mulder. Try to sleep." "Only because you asked so nicely." Mulder watched her take off her robe and slip back under the covers. He pulled off his shirt and toed off his shoes before reaching for his jeans to unbutton them. Thinking better of it, he left them buttoned and slipped under the covers behind her. "You can take off your jeans if you want," Scully's sleepy voice told him. "I'm comfortable," he pulled her back against him. He wrapped his arms around her, taking in her lavender scent. "You smell good." Scully turned so she was against his chest. "I thought I lost you," she whispered. "I'm never leaving you." Mulder kissed her forehead. "Better not. I might have to kick your ass," she said, grinning up at him. "Just try it." "I could try it," she grinned, kissing his chest. "I'm waiting, "Mulder challenged. "Too tired right now. Tomorrow," Scully muttered. "I'll hold you to that." Mulder kissed her head. "Sweet dreams." Mulder didn't sleep that night. Hard as he tried, sleep just wouldn't come. He watched as Scully smiled in her sleep, immediately wishing he was in her head...in her dream. He watched as the sun filtered through the windows and she continued to sleep peacefully. Then she was murmuring his name. "Mulder." "I'm right here," he whispered against her ear. "No...don't take him.please," she was begging someone in her dream. Her eyes suddenly snapped open as she looked around her. When she saw Mulder was there, she buried his face against his chest. "I'm okay. I'm here. I've got you." He held her. "Morning." "You okay?" "I am now," Scully said softly, still holding him tightly. Mulder tipped her chin and kissed her lips gently. "Good morning." Scully's eyes filled with tears. She hugged him again. "I dreamt you didn't get out of Tunguska..That the virus killed you." She started shaking again. Mulder kissed her again, longer and deeper this time. His hands ran down her sides as he pulled her against him. "I'm alive." "Skinner.Skinner came down and told me." Mulder could see she was still being gripped by her nightmare so he lightly shook her to get her attention. Slowly, her eyes looked up at him. "I'm here. You haven't lost me. I wouldn't do that to you. I can't. "He laid his forehead against hers. "I'm sorry. I just.I was so scared." He kissed her softly again. "Mulder?" "Dana." She smiled at the sound of here name. "Maybe we should take the day off." "Oh, but Scully, you know how I was looking forward to the paperwork," Mulder teased. Scully stuck her tongue out at him. She let out a gasp of surprise when he kissed her. "Told you I know what to do with that tongue." Mulder smiled against her lips. "Nice move," Scully murmured, shivering. "You like that, there's more where that came from." "That a fact?" Scully was grinning now. "That's a fact." "Care to prove that, Agent Mulder?" Scully murmured as she caressed his face. Mulder moved his body on top of hers. "I think I can do that." He felt Scully shiver. "I love you." He placed a kiss on her neck. "I love you too." Mulder slowly moved his hands under her pajama top as he caressed her bare skin. He slowly removed her pajamas and panties. "Is this what you want?" he whispered against her skin. "Yes," Scully whispered back. Mulder shivered himself when she began to help him remove his jeans. "It's okay," Scully whispered as she pressed a kiss to his stomach. "Just don't stop." His hands tangled in her hair. "Don't worry, I wont," she whispered back as her trembling hands pushed down his jeans. The feel of his skin against hers was almost more than he could stand. "You feel so good..so soft..so perfect." "Perfect?" Scully repeated with a slightly arched eyebrow. "Even your imperfections.are perfect imperfections." Mulder pulled her mouth to his. She moaned against his mouth. Then he rolled her over. "Do we.?" "No." Mulder slowly slid into her, needing no guidance. He moaned as he felt her walls adjust to him. Scully whimpered as her legs went around him. His kisses became more needing as their bodies rocked together. His hands were everywhere.touching her...stroking her skin..needing her to be one with him. "I'm here," she managed to get out between moans of pleasure. Mulder moved deeper inside her. "I'm not me without you." Scully moaned his name. "Let go, baby.let go." Scully's whole body shook as she did. Feeling her release around him, Mulder came too. She was shivering and trying to catch her breath as she clung to him. Mulder took her hands and pinned them above their sweaty bodies. He could feel her heart beating against his chest. "You feel so good." "You do too," Scully whispered. Mulder slowly released her hands. His eyes closed as Scully ran her hands down his body and wrapped them around him once again. "Can I stay here in your arms?" Scully whispered. "You never have to ask me that." He kissed her nose, making her smile. They fell asleep in each other's arms, content. The End