Date sent: Sun, 21 Sep 97 11:35 +0100 From: FAM.SCHW.@t-online.de (Monika Schwarz) Subject: Another Nightmare by Yvonne Schwarz Another Nightmare (1/1) Please archive or send to A.T.X.C. Author: Yvonne Schwarz Email-address: Fam.Schw.@t-online.de Category:V A MSR Rating: PG Spoiler: Post-Memento Mori Disclaimer: Mulder and Scully don't belong me, only in my dreams:) They belong to Chris *anything can happen* Carter and his wonderful crew. They only belong to Fox because they gave Chris the money to produce this wonderful series. I use them without permission, please don't sue, I have no money:-) Summary: Mulder has another nightmare in which Scully dies. Author notes: This is my first attempt at writing a fanfiction, and I am German, my English is not as good as yours. Thanks to Ten and Gemma for reading and editing this. And of course correcting all my grammar mistakes:-) Feedback, critism, comments and such things are more than welcome. Please write to me, I can't live without feedback any longer:) Fam.Schw.@t-online.de or 068331564@t-online.de Now let's start XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Another Nightmare by Yvonne Schwarz XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX It was cold. The only things he could see were trees. Trees and darkness. He didn't know how long he had been running through this wood. He was searching for her. He knew she was somewhere here and her life was in danger. He had shouted her name so often that he couldn't count it. He noticed tears of angst were flying down his cheeks. He had to run, he had to find her. She still didn't answer. Then suddenly he saw her. Lying on the earth. He knelt beside her and touched her forehead softly. Instead of the expected warm, soft skin, he felt that it was cold, very cold. He frantically tried to take her pulse. But there wasn't a pulse. She's dead. He cried and hugging and rocking her like a child."No. God. Don't let her go. I need her. Nooooooo!" "Noooo!" Mulder awoke from his own dream. He sat up and rubbed his eyes to see more clearly. He didn't realized where he was immediately, but as he saw the TV, and as he felt his sofa under him, he knew again, he was in his own apartment. He was still in shock. Her dead body on the earth. "Only a nightmare, like you always have." He tried to calm himself. But it didn't work. His T-shirt was still wet. He slowly went to the bathroom. It didn't surprise him at all that his face was wet with tears. While he took a shower, he thought about the dream. But he couldn't forget his dream. Her body, cold, lifeless, lying on the earth. < Don't be stupid, she is safe> With that thought he put his Levis and fresh T-shirt on, took his keys and left the apartment. Since the day she told him she had cancer, he hadn't slept much. He always dreamed about her dying. What the hell would he do without her? At the moment he should actually be the stronger one of them, and he hid his nightmares from her. But he wasn't strong, he needed her strength as he needed air to breath. When he arrived at the hospital he parked his car at the parking lot. He walked through the hospital straight to Scully's room. He showed the security guard at the entrance his badge and gave the man his gun, then he could pass. He silently opened the door. An empty bed happened him before and now he was afraid that it happened him again. She was lying facing him, one hand under her head, the other hand on her chest . Her face was pale, but she looked so peaceful when she slept. He closed the door after he stepped in. He ignored the voice in his head and sat down next by her side in a chair. He watched her breathing. He felt better when he saw her breath. Suddenly a nurse came in. "What the hell are you doing here?" she asked, alarmed. "Uh...I-I'm Agent Scully's partner, and I wanted to see her" Mulder whispered back quietly. "At night? Can't you wait `till morning?" "No I can't" "I can't accept that. I have to follow the rules here. Go home and sleep." But the she looked in his eyes and saw something she couldn't really explain. She saw pain in the eyes of this man, his angst over his partner. < This is her partner, she told you last night. There is a very strong connection between them. Let them be together, they will be separated soon enough. The cancer will do that> she thought. Then she said, "I suppose it is Ok if you stay. But please be quiet." "Thank you," said Mulder gratefully. The nurse checked something on the machine next to the bed and walked out. Mulder took Scully's hand. He was still looking at Scully as if she could disappear any minute. But after a few minutes Mulder got sleepy too. He laid his head on the bed. And as soon as he did, he slept. He woke up, still with his head on the bed. I lifted his head up, but Scully wasn't there. On the empty pillow was blood. He hurried out of the room, to ask the nurse what happened. But there was no one. He was alone, alone in this hospital. He couldn't hear a sound. He went again to Scully's room but she still wasn't there. No Scully, only an empty room and a pillow covered with blood. He began to run through the hospital and suddenly he saw his sister. Samantha was standing there. But there was something wrong, he knew it. "Samantha? Samantha?" He ran to her and just as he reached her, she disappeared. "No. Don't go Sam. Don't go. I won't lose you!" he yelled. He continued running through the sterile corridors. And then he saw Samantha again. She wasn't alone. Scully was with her. But Scully lay there in a pool of blood. He knew that Scully was dead. The cancer had killed her. He stood beside Scully, Sam was still there. She looked at Scully as if she knew her. "Samantha, please stay, don't go. Heal Scully, please." Samantha looked at him with tears in her eyes at him, and moved away. "Nooo, don't go, you have the cure to bring her back to life. Noooooooo!!!!!" A hand touched his neck. His head lifted up quickly. "Nooooooo!" At first he didn't know where he was. He looked around and realized that he was in Scully's hospital room. Then he heard Scully's voice. "Hey, Mulder. You screamed. Are you OK?" "Yeah" he was still a bit in shock from his dream. "You had a bad nightmare, didn't you?" she asked concerned. "Yes, but I'm OK now Scully." "Ok, what are you doing here, Mulder? It's 2 a.m." "I--I couldn't sleep." He tried not to look at her, because then she could see his fear in his eyes. But Scully sat up and took his chin, so that he had to look at her. And she knew what his fears were when she met his glance. "Mulder, it's OK, I'm here. I'm not dead, you know?" she said soothingly. She ran her fingers through his hair. "I know that you aren't dead Scully. But I always dream that you are dying and I can't help you." He tried to explain. He didn't want to cry but he lost his strength. "Sshh," she soothed gently, "I know what you're feeling, Mulder, but I am alive and I won't give up." She tried to calm him, but just words couldn't help him, she knew. She moved away in the bed. he thought sadly. But then he realises that she is only making room for him. "Come up with me in the bed, Mulder. We can talk here." Mulder looked at her surprised. "Oh, no, the nurse...." "I don't mind about the nurse." she interrupted him. "Ok, you know what you're doing Scully." He slipped his shoes off and climbed in in. Laying on the top of the sheets. "Scully, I'm sorry, I didn't want to wake you." "It's OK, Mulder. Let's talk about your nightmare." He swallowed hard, he didn't want to talk about his feelings in front of her, but he knew he had to talk. "They are always the same ones." "Ones? You had more nightmares before? Why didn't you tell me?" She broke in almost angrily. "I couldn't." "Why?" "I was afraid, I'm still afraid. I've got to be strong, but I can't Scully. I am afraid that you'll die, and it's my fault" He cried again and she pulled him to her chest, and hugged him tightly. "Shsh, it isn't your fault Mulder, I would never blame you." With one hand she stroked his neck. After some minutes he began to breath normally, then the tears stopped and he looked at her. "Scully, we'll find a cure, I promise. I need you to be there. I can't even live without you," he whispered. Scully's eyes filled with tears. "Thank you, Mulder, I know that we'll find something. I need you too." She smiled and he kissed her on the forehead. "I'd better go, Scully, you have to sleep." "Stay Mulder, please. I can sleep better when you are with me, I know. "But.." "No buts Mulder, not this time. Stay, the bed is a bit too small, I know but we can handle it. Come on, you won't have nightmares then." He smiled back. "OK." Then he lay down on her pillow and she nestled down on his chest. And they both slept without nightmares. The end? 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