From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: 14 Oct 2007 22:24:56 -0000
Subject: Categorized and Easily Referenced by Mully Sculder
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Title: Categorized and Easily Referenced

Disclaimer: Don't own them, wish I did, but 
I don't, you all know who they belong to!

Spoilers: There are mentions/references to 
"Fight the Future", "Emily", "Drive", 
"Millennium" and "The Amazing Maleeni".
  
Summary: A small glimpse into the mind of 
Mulder and how he views Scully. This is 
post "The Truth" and what I think they're 
doing now.

Feedback: Yes, please! I would love to know 
what you think of this story. Please send 
all feedback to: mullysculder@yahoo.com


	Watching his wife sleep beside him 
Mulder was again surprised at how much he 
loved this woman, how much he loved simply 
being with her. He couldn't imagine life 
now without her. There was no way he could 
have endured everything he had the past few 
years if she hadn't been a part of it. He 
knew how needy and maudlin that sounded, 
but it was true, a part of the truth that 
was out there for him.  He watched her, the 
serene expression on her face as she slept 
pleased that this evening she was not again 
plagued but the nightmare that had haunted 
her the past few weeks. As he watched her 
he thought of her many expressions, the 
expressions that he had "categorized and 
easily referenced" over the years. The 
expressions that communicated to him in 
simple glances or a narrowing of her eyes 
more than any of the many words she had 
said or in many cases not said to him over 
the years.
	As he thought back on their time 
together he thought of that look of 
surprise she had on her face the first time 
they were physically intimate. A few weeks 
after the "Millennium" case and kiss they 
took it to the next level. He thought she 
had surprised herself, at her decision to 
take their relationship to that level. He 
thought that that was the first time that 
Scully had really, really ever acted on 
impulse with him and it not only surprised 
him it did her as well. She came over to 
his apartment that Saturday in preparation 
for their next case. A case that would take 
them all the way to sunny, Southern 
California. A place that Scully was 
particularly not fond and hated going back 
to since that was where her daughter had 
died. The last time they were there someone 
tried to eat his brain and before that, 
well, someone had forced him to drive 
across country before their head exploded. 
Not a happy place for Scully and she came 
over to talk to him about it. As they were 
talking, Mulder watched the many 
expressions Scully's face underwent as she 
talked with him and the various emotions 
came to the forefront. From grief to 
surprise in a matter of minutes. Sometime 
in the middle of all that talking they 
found themselves fumbling with clothing 
that was soon in a pile next to his couch 
and Scully had that surprised look on her 
face. He smiled at the memory of it all. 
	It turned out that California wasn't 
as bad as she had thought it would be, no 
one tried to eat his brain and nobody's 
head exploded, although someone's did fall 
off, after they were dead of course, but 
still. Before they returned home Mulder 
found himself surprised by Scully at 
something she was able to do, and no, it 
wasn't anything like that it was just a 
simple trick that she refused to explain to 
him. He pestered her so much that she 
finally kissed him just to shut him up and 
as they broke apart he saw that look again, 
that surprised look. A look that 
communicated a ton of thoughts all at once 
a combination of "Oh my God, did I just do 
that?" mixed with "why didn't I do that 
sooner?" 
	There was one look that Mulder never, 
ever wanted to be on the receiving end 
again. The look that screamed 
disappointment, frustration and anger all 
at once. He had seen it once and that was 
more than enough for him. The morning he 
told her of his plans to leave her, to 
leave their son she said nothing just 
looked at him in a way he had never seen 
before. It wasn't hurt, it wasn't anger it 
was much, much more. It was almost as 
intense as the look she had when pursuing a 
suspect but then, then it didn't have all 
the emotional baggage that went with it. It 
was just Scully doing her job, nothing 
personal just what she had to do. 
Remembering her looking at him like that 
chilled him and he felt a small shiver make 
its way up his spine. Granted, they 
discussed it, or rather he talked and she 
listened not really saying anything but 
then she looked at him like that. He had 
never seen him look at him like that before 
and never wanted to see it again. So far he 
hadn't but he was almost fearful that one 
day that look would cross her face again 
and he wouldn't be able to bear it. 
	As bad as that look was, there was 
another that Mulder treasured more than any 
other and that was the look of happiness 
that crossed her face when she saw him. The 
look that hid the small trace of a smile as 
her lips began to curve upward slightly. 
Not a full on Scully smile, mind you, but a 
slight one that made it all the more 
worthwhile the look that she saved just for 
him, her eyes full of happiness just 
because he walked into a room or knocked at 
her door or simply existed. No one else had 
ever looked at him like that before and he 
relished it. 
	The other look that Mulder loved to 
see cross Scully's face was the look she 
gave him when she disagreed with him, not 
just disagreed with him but was half a step 
away from having him committed. The "you're 
crazy, Mulder" was surprisingly one of his 
favorite expressions. He loved the look she 
had on her face right before she was ready 
to counter any theory he had to offer. He 
loved it because he knew what was coming 
next, the challenge. The challenge that 
would be sound, intelligent and so very 
Scullylike. She wouldn't just argue with 
him to hear herself do so, no not her, it 
would be because in her Scullylike way she 
knew that that's what kept him grounded. It 
was what "saved him" as he said those many 
years ago in that dingy hallway, before 
that damned bee! 
	After their physical relationship 
began the expression he was most surprised 
by was her "I want" expression, the look 
she had on her face when she was almost, 
but not quite on the brink. The small frown 
that creased her forehead as her eyes 
slightly closed waiting for and expecting 
more from him. The first time he saw it on 
her face, it took him out of the moment for 
a second, surprised that Dana Katherine 
Scully could have such an expression of 
wanting, of desiring that was unlike 
anything he had ever seen on her face 
before. It was in that next second that she 
really surprised him, leaning up to him and 
whispering in his ear what he already knew 
"I want" she said as she took his hand and 
led it down to the area between where their 
bodies were joined. He understood instantly 
what she wanted and did his best to provide 
it for her. It was next that another 
expression crossed her face; the "I want" 
look was replaced by a more intense look as 
her eyes widened and her mouth formed a 
small "O" as a very pleased sigh escaped 
her mouth. 
	It was then that he noticed her 
looking up at him and watching his facial 
expressions. He wondered what he looked 
like to her in that moment of pleasure and 
then just before his eyes seemed to roll 
back into his head he felt her move 
slightly up towards him. He felt her hot 
breath on his neck right before he heard 
her whisper into his right ear "I love that 
look".