From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: Mon, 10 Jul 2000 12:35:18 -0500
Subject: Crash and Burn by Invisible Sun
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Crash And Burn
by Invisible Sun

Disclaimer: Chris Carter, 1013, and FOX own
the XFiles.  Savage Garden owns the song.

Spoilers: Requiem (rather minor, actually)

Keywords: MSR, angst, Skinner POV....

Summary: "Let me be the one you call/ If you
jumps I'll break your fall/ Lift you up and fly
away with you into the night/ If you need to fall
apart/ I can mend a broken heart/ If you need to
crash then crash and burn/ You're not alone."
~Savage Garden "Crash and Burn"

Author's note: This is part of a series.  It's 
called the Savage Garden Vignette Series (original,
isn't it?) That can be found at http://www.geocities.com/epuresimuove/SavageGardenVignetteSeries.html.  
However, this can be read as a stand alone.

Crash and Burn 
by Invisible Sun


Scully has been through more than anyone else, I 
think.  She was abducted by men in a conspiracy 
'against the American people' and was used as a 
test subject. From what I understood, the tests 
left her unable to have children.  She then lost 
her sister to the men in the project. She's buried 
a daughter...one she didn't even knew she had.  
She contracted cancer and almost lost her life if it
wasn't for Mulder....

Mulder.  He gone now.  I lost him.  It's my fault.
Now he's gone and Scully found out that by some 
miracle, she's pregnant.  And the father isn't here
to share when what is suppose to be joy.  

She's not feeling joy.  Oh, I'm sure that it's there
in some small degree.  But with Mulder missing and
the possibility that he might not return...  She's 
angry.  I don't blame her.  She says, however, that
her anger isn't directed toward me...she says it's
not my fault....that she doesn't hold me accountable.

Her anger, she says, is directed towards herself, Mulder,
and Krycek and Marita.  She says Krycek and Marita gave 
Mulder something they knew he wouldn't be able to resist, 
no matter how hard he tried.  They gave him proof.  Real
tangible proof.  She says she blames Mulder for caving in
to the evidence that Krycek and Marita handed him.  She 
says she blames herself because she let him go...and she 
didn't demand that she go with him.


I walked in on a what I guess was a private moment for her.
She was in Mulder's office.  Sitting at his desk.  She was
crying.  I know she was despite her attempts to hide her
tears.  I wish that sometimes...sometimes she would admit
that she needed to talk to someone.  That she feels like
the world has turned its back on her.  

In a way, it has.  It took almost everything that she held
dear to her away.  Emily, her sister, Mulder. 

I want her to know that she can tell me.  That I'll listen
and comfort her and help her through this.  I want her to 
know that she doesn't have to suffer alone...that she's not
alone.  I'll help.  

The end

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