From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org Date: 2 May 2001 17:06:22 -0000 Subject: The Days After by Bianca Ritz Source: direct Reply To: DaisyGracy@aol.com The X-Files Title: The Days After Author: Daisy-Grace E-MAIL: Daisy-Grace@rocketmail.com I am always happy to receive any feedback, bad or good. I think I have some problems with the language because I am not a native speaker. Please, e me if there are any comments or you find some faults. Distribution: Anywhere if you like, just keep Daisy-Grace as the author. Summary: Scully rape story and a final union with our favorite two persons. Content: Extreme Scully angst. Warning: This story includes violent and sexual scenes. Rating: I need to warn you, it is between NC-17 and X. If you are under age leave this place immediately or get parental permission to read it. Spoilers: Never Again DISCLAIMER: Unfortunately I do not own the characters of the X-Files, but the holy Chris owns them all. The Days After Part 1/12 (NC-17) By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 15 Vella LaVelly Rd. Apt. 20 What the hell am I doing here<, Scully thought as she walked up the stairs to Ed's apartment. She had had no date for years, was this only a date because she wanted to show Mulder that she still had a life? He had been so arrogant as he had left the office, without telling her where he was going either, and it wasn't fair when he asked her in a ridiculous tone if she had a date. Really, Ed was a nice guy, but her acting - going with a totally stranger to his home - was a little dangerous. Normally she had never gone out with a guy she didn't know before. But hopefully she would have a nice time and could show Mulder that she has a life as well. Ed opened the door and invited her into his apartment. "May I offer you something to drink, Dana? Wine? Oh, please, have a seat. Sorry, I have only wine, coke or coffee. I don't have guests so often." Ed stuttered hastily when he stood at the door frame to the kitchen. Dana smiled a little as she noticed that he was as nervous as she was. She also didn't have guests so often and she told him that she didn't go out that much. "Wine" Scully answered with a smile at her lips. He smiled back, then entered the kitchen to get the wine and came back to join her on the couch. They drank a glass together, talking about their past. Scully had to be careful what she was saying, she didn't want him to know that she was an federal agent. They sat there until Ed stood up and looked out of the window. "It's really bad out there." he said while he turned back to Scully "I would feel better if you stayed here. Look at the weather, and by the way you had a couple of drinks." Dana shook her head shyly and bend it a little, hearing him say "Hey, I just want you to be safe, I'll take the couch." Then he looked over to her and added "The tattoo-- does it still hurt?" "Yeah, I... I can't see it, but I feel different. It's like ummm, I don't know." Ed slowly went over to Scully, pulled up her shirt a little to take off the bandage carefully and examine her tattoo. "It looks all right." Ed reassured her. Scully's gaze glided down his to his hand, where blood was running. "Ed, you're bleeding again. Will you let me take a look at it, please? I am a doctor." "They said that could happen." he agreed reluctantly while she removed his jacket and shirt. Dana took off his bandage. "It looks burned," she said. She wanted to touch the wound carefully, but he grabbed her hands quickly and hard. "Don't touch the tattoo!" he said with a rough tone in his voice, then he pulled her closer to his body and tried to kiss her. Scully was in a teasing mood, so she pulled her head away. Ed hugged her hard, pressed his lips to hers and his tongue forced her lips apart so he could enter her mouth. Scully responded the kiss, but felt unsure and wanted to slow down a little. Ed's grab was too strong. "Ed, please. I need a little more time, you know I haven't had a relationship for a long time. Let me go, please." Ed didn't wanted to hear these words, he didn't want to wait longer, he just wanted her, right now. Before Dana could react, he forced her to the cold floor and kissed her over and over again. "No, don't do this. Please! Ed, give me a little time to deal with this new situation." her words were stifled into his mouth. Panic raised in Scully as he ripped her shirt. He was all over her, covering her body with his own. She tried to push him away, but it was impossible for her to escape. He was enjoying her helplessness and touching her breast and belly with a smile on his face, not realizing how much he was hurting her. "No, no Ed, please let me go, please" her pleadings changed into screaming, filled with fear while she realized that this wasn't a game anymore. Ed raised his hand to shut her mouth while he used the other hand to open the zipper of her black pants. Scully's mind was paralyzed, she needed to find a way out of this. So, she reached for the wineglass and tried to hit it down into his face. His hand which had been clamped on her mouth grabbed the glass. It broke in their hands and her hands and a small part of her face got cut. She cried out in pain, felt her blood running down her face, while he slapped his hand again into her mouth, to stop her screaming. After a while Ed had pulled down her and his whole clothes. His knees forced her legs to spread and Dana's resistance against him grew weary. She closed her eyes, but he yelled at her "I want you to open your eyes and look up to me. So, I can look down to you, while I make love to you," he hissed. Her cries turned into low whimpers as he entered her with a hard thrust. She cried out in pain as he pushed himself deeper and deeper. Finally she lost consciousness. The Days After Part 2/12 (NC-17) By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Scully felt very dizzy when she woke up, trembling while the memory returned into her brain. Run away, Dana, you must leave this place! This thought was roaring into her aching head, she tried to sit up, but noticed that her hands were tied up at the heater. She was tied by her own handcuffs. Where in hell had he found my handcuffs, she wondered. They were in my car. Dana was confused as she saw Ed standing in the doorway. "Good morning my Dana-baby. I hope you had a great night, it was a little uncomfortable at the wooden floor, I am sorry for that, but if you had been easier to handle, we could also have used the bedroom." Ed had a big smile on his face. "Ed, you should let me go right now." she said with a strong voice but couldn't hide her fear totally. Her body was aching all over and she felt the blood at her face and the lower part of her body. "Dana, I am very sorry, but I think I cannot let you go. You should know that I found out something about you. Yesterday, after we made love, I took your clothes into the washing machine and I found your ID. Damnit, Dana you are a fucking ... I am sorry for those words, I tried to say that you are with the FBI." his face flushed because of his anger. "Ed, I am sorry that I didn't tell you, but yesterday I was only a private person who wanted to have some fun with you. I wanted to go out with you and to get this tattoo and, please, remove the handcuffs, they are hurting me." Dana's attempt to negotiate was useless, it just made his anger increase. "Sorry, I cannot let you go anymore. You need to understand that, baby, if I let you go, you would lock me up. I need to eliminate you, so you can't threaten me, some day." he looked at her sadly and added "I am really sorry about this, Dana. I would prefer to be with you Forever... to make love to you again. Dana was so scared. She looked at his face while she regretted that she hadn't told Mulder where she was. He's the only one who could save me from this hell... she thought, while Ed left the room and entered it a moment later again with a piece of paper and a pen into his hands. "You can write a last letter to your family or a friend, but you need to give the impression that you planning to commit suicide." "Fuck off! Bastard!" was the simple answer as Dana furiously shoved the paper and the pen away. "But Dana, try to understand me, I need to protect myself. I just want to give you a chance to say goodbye to the people you love." he handed her the paper over again. After some minutes of thinking and silent crying, Scully took it and thought about what to write. First she wrote a letter to her mother. She told her that she loved her very much and her heart was nearly breaking when the idea arose how her Mom would feel if she also lost her second daughter. She had already lost Melissa and her father. Tears ran down her cheeks and Dana needed to take a deep breath to regain her courage. When she had finished the letter to her mother, she began to write Mulder's letter. Even at the beginning she had a problem. When she thought about him, a smile crossed her face. She remembered the moment when she called Mulder Fox for the first time. They were investigating the Eugene Tooms case and after calling him Fox, he begged her not to do so again. But now, this was a special moment and Dana wanted to call him Fox once again for the very last time. Dear Fox, I am sorry but I have to say good bye this way. I am very sick and I can not live with this. Please, I do not want you to make yourself feel guilty, it's not your fault. I've always felt safe in your presence and I really enjoyed working with you very much. I do wish we could stay together, but - Sorry. I love you. Take care, Love Dana More tears streamed down Dana's cheeks and her hands were trembling when Ed took the letter from her hands to read it. "Oh" he looked down to her with a surprised grin "You love him ? Is this your secret admirer, your partner? Incredible romantic. O.k., if this is all you want to write, we should get to it. Would you like to cut your wrists or prefer to swallow sleeping pills?" Dana looked up to him and her thoughts and feelings were whirling into her brain. "I would prefer to cut my wrists, you fucking bastard!" she decided furious with the last hope she could use the knife to attack him. He sighed. "Okay, but don't make a mess. I'll be right back, just need to get the knife- and a basin for the blood." He left the room and Dana Scully tugged another time at her handcuffs, trying to open them, though she knew she couldn't open them without her key. She heard him come back and saw how he held the knife carefully to her. She grabbed it and tried to stab Ed, but as if he had known, he pulled back fast. "Dana, you shouldn't do this or do you want to make me angry?" "Why shouldn't I try to save my life?" Dana was almost crying, but she didn't want to lose her courage in front of this person. She glanced at the knife with a scared look on her face. "That was not a good idea," he shouted and took the knife out of her hand. "I better do that myself." He grabbed her hand and posed the knife at her wrist. Scully bit her lips when the blade slid into her skin, cut her arteries and the blood squired out and ran down her hands. Then she felt Ed holding her hands over the basin, saving her blood. Rapidly, Scully felt dizzy and warm, her thoughts were away from Ed and the rape, only resting on her mother and Mulder. Mulder was definitely the last person she thought of before she lost her consciousness, again. The Days After Part 3/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com President Reagan Hospital Philadelphia, Pennsylvania Dana opened her eyes in shock. She didn't know if this was just a nightmare, but as she saw Mulder sitting at her bed, holding her hand carefully, she realized that it was no dream. "Scully!" her partner's voice sounded a little helpless. He opened his mouth, but he wasn't able to say anything. Then he asked "How are you feeling, Scully?" "I am fine, Mulder" Dana lied, knowing that he wouldn't believe it anyway. Her abdomen hurt very much while the pain in her face, traced back to the cutting from the splinters was just a light burning. Her wrists were bandaged, but she didn't feel any pain at them. "You shouldn't lie to your partner, Scully" Mulder responded. "No, I shouldn't" Scully closed her eyes for another minute and added "I feel so tired, Mulder. I do not remember what happened." Mulder pressed her hand lightly while standing up "Get some sleep, Scully. We can talk later." "No!" Scully's hand reached to his "Please, Mulder stay with me, don't leave me alone here. I've been so alone. Can't you stay a little bit longer, until I fall asleep?" Mulder nodded and returned to her bed, sitting down, holding her hand until she felt asleep. ***** Scully was confused when she opened her eyes again in the hospital. Slowly, she remembered that she had been awake some time ago. She had asked Mulder to stay with her, until she fell asleep and there he was. His hands were holding hers and his head lightly rested on the bed near her hip, as he slept. She thought about how long he had been with her but couldn't remember. >Poor Mulder, how much had he suffered with worry until I was awake< she carefully released her hands from his holding and stroked his hair lightly. Hastily, Mulder raised his head, glancing over to his partner with a worried face. "Hey" he whispered with a smile on his lips. "Are you awake, again?" "Seems to be so, Mulder. How long have you been here?" Scully looked at him tiredly. "Oh. I don't know, Scully." he glanced at the clock, hanging above the door "I came yesterday." "Yesterday??? Oh my God, I've slept for such a long time. I can't believe it." "Dana, calm down. You have all the time in the world." he assured her. "Do you remember, what happened?" "Yeah... yeah, I think so. I've been at this apartment in Philadelphia. I've been with this man. Ed." she began in a low voice, sounding shocked and she was not sure how much she could tell Mulder. Oh, my God, what happened to the letter, I wrote him?< Her mind was whirling. "Yes, that's right, Scully but why were you there?" Mulder's question was simple, but she wasn't in the condition to talk about this right now. She needed time. The time, Ed hadn't given her when he had raped her that night. A night she would never forget in her whole life. "I, uhm, I don't know, Mulder. Please, could we speak later about this, I feel so dizzy and I can not think about this, now. I am sorry." she apologized with a light smile at her lips, trying to change the subject as soon as possible. "Sure, Scully. I don't want you to rush things. If you need time to remember, you can have it." he pressed her hand gently and changed the subject, as it was Scully's wish, asking her how she was feeling, now. "Oh, I think I am o.k., but I still feel a little dizzy and my stomach is upset. I would like to drink something, is there anything at the nightstand? "Yes, but there is only water, if you want anything else, I can get you..." "No, thank you Mulder, water is great." she interrupted him quickly. "But I think I can do it by myself." Scully wanted to fetch the bottle, but she got stuck on her IV. She gulped in pain, her abdomen was incredibly painful. She let out a small gasp of pain and Mulder shook his head. "You should let me help you. You are still not in the condition to do these things." Mulder fetched the bottle and filled a glass up with water. Then supported her neck with his hands, helping her to sit up a little to drink the water. "Thank you, Mulder. I don't know what I would do without you." she smiled. "Scully, I informed your mother, that you're here. I hope you agree with me that it's better for you, if she's here, with you." Scully lowered her gaze to the blanket. "I think you didn't need to do that, I am fine, but if she wants to come here, I can tell her myself. She is always so worried about me. I don't want to make her nervous." "Dana, this time she is right to be worried. You are hurt and you've experienced some pretty bad stuff." he spoke compassionately. "Mulder, I..." she wanted to change his opinion, but at this moment the door opened, the senior consultant and his team went in to do their consultant's round. "Oh, I need to go. I'll talk to you, later. Take care." he caressed her hand for a last time, then left the room. The Days After Part 4/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Doctor Walker studied Scully's medical file carefully until she stepped to her bed and spoke to her. "Good Morning, Ms. Scully, I am the head gynecologist at this hospital, my name is Dr. Marcy Walker. How are you feeling today?" "I am fine, I feel just a little dizzy." "You've lost a lot of blood, so we gave you pints of stored blood. Three of your ribs are broken and we needed to stitch up your gashes at the face." she explained, than asked "Do you remember what happened that night?" Scully bit on her lip before she answered "I don't know exactly, what happened, because I lost my consciousness from time to time." "You were raped," Dr. Walker began gently. Scully looked down, it seemed to be embarrassing to her, but she nodded her head in agreement. "We've given you some pain killers and we've done some tests. The evidence of the police department told us that he used no condom when he raped you. Your dizziness is most probably traced back to the shock." Dr Walker continued, "I hope it'll stop today or tomorrow. Fortunately you have no other internal injuries besides the ribs, but your abdomen could hurt for some days." Scully nodded. "Ms. Scully, if you need someone to talk, apart from your family, partner or friends, you can talk to me, at any time. My colleague, Dr. Lockwood, is also a very good therapist and we have a self-help group at our hospital." "Thank you, but I think I can deal with this by myself." Scullys voice sounded determined. Dr. Walker looked down at her. "O.k., so you should rest now, before we'll make the last tests, tomorrow." "Dr. Walker, when do you think can I leave here? I would like to go home to Annapolis." She nodded understandingly. "If the blood tests give us a negative result, you will be able leave the day after tomorrow. For all other examinations, you can consult your doctor at home, too." Scully smiled in return. First she wanted to tell her that she didn't need a medical help if she were at home, but she didn't want to provoke another discussion. Dr. Walker shook Scullys hand and said goodbye. When the team left the room, Scully closed her eyes, happy to be alone again. She felt that her stomach was rebelling and her whole body was aching very much. Tears were running down her cheeks. She realized for the first time that she was raped by Ed. Now she remembered that night. Before she had suppressed all the memory of it, until Dr. Walker made it all come back again. Mulder entered the room again and saw her. She sat there and silent tears began running down her cheeks. He hurried to her bed and put his arms around her. "Oh, Scully" he whispered softly into her hair "if there is anything I can do for you, let me know." More tears were falling, and she looked to him with wet eyes. She leaned back against the pillows and she closed her eyes. The she slowly nodded her head. "I know that you want to help me, Mulder. But at the moment-" He nodded in agreement. "You need sleep." Then he took her hand again and watched her until she drifted into sleep." ***** When Scully woke up again, Mulder wasn't in the room. She got up slowly, her back hurt because of the broken ribs and she needed to support herself on the nightstand. I need to take a shower, she thought. After entering the bathroom, she took off her hospital shirt and turned on the faucet. The shower cubicle filled with hot water and Scully enjoyed scrubbing herself. It was wonderful to feel clean again. To her great dismay, she heard a voice from the other side of the curtain, but soon she realized that it was Mulder, calling her. "Mulder, what are you doing here?" her voice was half angry. "I am sorry, Scully. I'll wait outside." Scully couldn't keep back her smiling. He was just worried about her. She stood there, dried herself quickly and then her gaze fell on a bathrobe. >That wasn't there before< she thought, while putting it on. It was a nice blue one and at the front there were some nice embroiderings. Flowers. With an apologetic face, Scully stepped out of the bathroom. "I am sorry, I didn't want to yell at you, but you scared me, when you spoke." "No, I should apologize myself for entering your bathroom without permission." Dana grimaced at Mulder and sat down on her bed, covering herself with the blanket. "You shouldn't have stood up, Scully. It is better to stay in bed and have a rest." She glanced at him annoyed with his mothering. But then she remembered the bathrobe. "Where have you found this bathrobe, Mulder? It is beautiful, thank you very much." "Oh," he stopped her immediately "I found it at the shopping mall next to the hospital. I thought you could need one, as long as you are here." "Oh, by the way, I hope to go back to Annapolis in two days." "That's great." he glanced down at her face. She was looking sad and uncomfortable. He wished he could give her some strength, but had no idea how to do it. He just moved to the bed and hugged her carefully. The door suddenly swung open, as Margaret Scully entered the room. "Dana, darling, how are you feeling? I am sorry that I am so late, but my car had a problem." She sat down on the bed with a compassionate expression. "Hey Mom." Dana hugged her mother for a moment, adding her standard sentence "I am fine, Mom." Margaret nodded and hugged her daughter again. Mulder was going to leave the room to give Dana and her mother more privacy, when she stopped him with her hand. "Mulder, I thank you so much for your help, your presence." her eyes were wet again. He nodded, gave her a reassuring smile, kissed her hands and left the room. The Days After Part 5/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Scully was sitting at her bed with a big white teddy bear in her arms. Mulder had been there all the time, but when she woke up this morning, she was alone with this teddy bear called "Jimmy". Jimmy lay in her embrace with a piece of paper in this pocket. On this paper Mulder had written an excuse for not being with her now. He had to go back to Washington, to give Skinner a report about what had happen. Instead of her real partner, he had left "Jimmy" for her. But Mulder promised to be back at noon, to drive Scully home by himself. Dana smiled down to her new partner. He was really good looking. White fleece with dark eyes. He was wearing a black lederhosen - german style - with black baby-shoes. Mulder really had a good taste when he bought this gift for her. This was the day, she could go home. Her test results were o.k., no pregnancy and no inflammations in her body. Her whole body was still a little black and blue especially the face was not good looking. But Dana only wanted to go home and have a rest. Mulder had informed her that Ed was in custody and waiting for his trial. There was the fact that he raped and tried to kill her and also, the FBI found proof that he killed his neighbor. She still couldn't believe that she was so naive and made this mistake to join him in his apartment. Officially, she had no permission to investigate alone, without a partner. Mulder had told her that he was looking for her after he couldn't reach her by phone that night that she had gone with Ed. The local police helped him to find Ed's apartment and after breaking in, he did find her at the floor. Close to death because of the slit wrists. Ed had escaped, but the local police got him soon. But Mulder never reproached her for her erratic behavior that night and he had never urged her to say anything, always respecting her feelings. Scully was really thankful for that. The door opened carefully and a tired looking Mulder entered with a wide grin crossing his face. "There she is!! The patient of the week. How are you feeling, patient of the week?" "Great, thank you." "Can you work with your new partner?" "Oh, yes he is a really nice guy, really sexy, wearing his lederhosen." "Really, you like him, Scully?" "Sure, I love him, but I prefer to get my partner back." Scully joked back. "Scully, are you just kidding? You really want me back.?" "I want you back, Mulder. I would never change you into a bear. I promise." "Oh, I hope so, because this bear is really nice, silent and great for snuggling, but it can not drive you back to Annapolis and entertain you as good as I can, on the journey home." he grinned. Scully still sitting on her bed, jumped off abruptly, when she heard the word "home" escaping Mulders mouth. "Home, sweet home, I am coming. Let's go, Mulder" she smiled at him with an inviting look. "Come on, let's get going." "Where is your mother?" Mulder ask. "She is still at her hotel and waiting for us. Her car has problems again, so we have to pick her up." "O.K., let's go." with these words, he took her case and opened the door for his partner. Scully took Jimmy the Bear into her arms and walked over into the corridor, leaving this place of sickness where she had been too long. She wanted to leave this whole town as soon, as possible and never visit it again. Mulder and Scully left Pennsylvania quickly. They were quiet the entire time. Neither one of them wanted to talk about the incident, especially with Mrs. Scully sitting in the backseat. They would have time to talk about later, when the memories wouldn't be so terrifying and painful. The Days After Part 6/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Annapolis, Maryland 3170 West 53rd. Apt. 35 Scully entered her apartment, holding the door open, while Mulder walked next to her. He went down the hall, until he arrived her bedroom and laid the suitcase down next to her bed. While he went back, he checked Scully's rooms with a careful eye, just to give her a safe feeling. He was a little worried about her. Sure Ed was arrested and normally, he couldn't attack her, but Mulder was nothing if not paranoid when it came to Scully's sefety. Scully placed herself at the couch in the living room, pointing with her hand to the empty place at the couch. "Mulder, would you like to stay just a little? We could order a pizza, or something from the Thai restaurant at the corner." she offered him, but in her mind she would have appreciated being alone. "Scully, don't you think you should get some sleep?" Mulder just wanted her to get well. "It was a long trip home and you are still in shock." Scully nodded in agreement and closed her eyes for a moment. "I can stay here if you like, but you really should get some sleep." Mulder offered. "Yes, I think you are right. Sleep will be better for me. But you don't have to stay. I know that you have a lot of work... " she paused for a moment. "I really thank you for... your help. All of it." Mulder watched her face carefully. Then he stood up and walked across the room. "I will be home, working on my report, if anything happens. If you feel alone or if you have a bad dream, or feel hungry or,or,or, whatever I want you to call me and I will be here, very soon. I promise." he looked down to her insistently. "I know, that you would never do it by yourself, but please, you know you can trust me and I only want to help you." "O.K., I promise to call you, if I don't feel okay. But, if you would like and if I don't call you, you can visit me tomorrow. You could bring fresh rolls, so we could have breakfast together." "That's a really great idea. When do you want me to be here, at 9.00, or do you want me to visit you later?" "Oh, no 9.00 in the morning is a great time. I'll see you tomorrow." Scully stood up, accompanied him to the door and closed it right behind him, locking it safety. She stood there, breathing deeply, feeling free, but alone at the same time. Her body was trembling, so she slid down the door and began to cry in silence. There, she sat for hours, until she could stand up and moved down the hall, entering her bedroom, laying down on her bed. She needed time to assimilate everything, but she decided she could talk with Mulder, he was the only one she would trust. He was the only one - except her mother - to whom she was going to tell her feelings. ***** The knocking at the door was really noisy, but Scully's sleep was so deep, that nothing could awake her. Mulder was nervous. Why didn't she open the door, she had to be there, they had a date for breakfast. He grabbed into his pocket, searching for her spare key. He felt the cold, small object in his fingers - There it was. Knocking a last time, he slid it into the lock and opened the door. "Scully?" his voice was as loud as the knocking before. He got no answer. So, he lowered the bag with the fresh rolls he bought down to the kitchen table and strolled down the hallway to her bedroom. Standing at the door, he saw her. She laid on the bed, her body fully clothed, curled up like a child. Silently he sat down next to her, gently stroking her cheek with his left hand. "Hey, Dana wake up" he said softly, shaking her a little. Scully turned to her back, opening her eyes slowly. Her eyes were red-rimmed, as though she had been crying. >She had a rough night< Mulder thought while he smiled softly down to her. "Mulder, I have missed our breakfast date by oversleeping. I'm sorry." she raised herself, rubbing her eyes because she was still a little tired. "It's okay, Scully. I am still here and we can have breakfast an hour later, no problem." he still sat at the corner of the bed. "I'll get up and make the coffee for us." she wanted to jump off of the bed, but Mulder hold her back by grabbing her arm. "No, tell me where the coffee and the filters are and I will do that for you. You can stay here and I will bring the breakfast to you. I am a gentleman, remember Scully?" he said softly, not sure she would allow him to bring breakfast in bed. But to his surprise, Scully agreed with a smile. But she went with him to the kitchen, showed him the coffee and the rest he would need for the breakfast. Then she went back into the bedroom, opened her suitcase, took her clothes out of the case and entered into the bathroom to take a shower. As Mulder entered the bedroom after fixing their breakfast, holding the tray, he stopped for a moment, as he saw her, sitting at the bed and wearing the bathrobe that he bought her. She really looked great with her wet hair, her eyes more bright and a smile flashed across her lips. Then he went over to her, placing the tray next to her and sat down at the edge of the bed. Straight away, she slipped over to the other side of the bed, offering him the free place. Mulder took off his shoes and occupied her former place at the bed. "So, let's have breakfast. You don't believe how awful the menu at the hospital is." Scully grabbed a roll and spread some butter on it. Mulder filled the cups with coffee and handed her a cup. After she took a sip and finished her roll, she sat there in silence. "I'm, glad you are here, Mulder. I should talk to you about the events from the last few days." Scully sat there, seeming like a little child, who had done a bad thing. Her eyes were locked to her feet, never meeting his gaze. "Scully, you don't have to do this" he hesitated "but if you need anybody to talk, you can really trust me." "Thanks." she bent herself over to Mulder and pressed her forehead against his shoulder. "But you shouldn't hurry. Take your time." He said. "Okay." She sat against the pillows and took a roll into her hand. "Could you please give me the butter?" He grinned. "Yes, sure." Then he gave her the plate with the butter and took a sip from his coffee. "Do you have any plans for today?" "Hmm, yeah. I would like to go to my Mother's place and then- Hmm, I don't know. Any ideas?" "Hmmm, give me a few minutes, maybe I have an idea." Scully nodded and they finished their breakfast silent. Then, Mulders grin changed into a serious face. "Scully, I had a wonderful idea for both of us, you just need to say yes." Scully looked curiously at Mulder "What is it?" Mulder hesitated, a little afraid to hear her say no. "I want to go away with you for a few days." His voice was quiet as he looked at her with an anxious expression. Scully was taken aback. She needed some moments to take a deep breath and to digest this offer. "Where do you want to go with me?" "Honolulu!" he answered with a smile on his face. " I thought you need some days off and I need a vacation, too. I surfed the internet and found a wonderful hotel at Hawaii, I hope that you agree with me. We could have a wonderful time there." He was worried again that she could tell him he was nuts. "O.K." Her simply answer brought a happy grin to his face. "Really?" Mulder couldn't believe it that she really agreed with him. "I will take care of the reservations, but when would you like to go?" "Soon, how about tomorrow, if we get a room and a flight?" "The flight is no problem, being FBI has it's perks." Mulder pulled his cell phone and a small piece of paper out of his jacket, and dialed the number from the paper to talk to someone. Scully just heard "Honolulu? Is that possible? Oh, just a minute I have to check that with my partner..." Mulder turned his head over to Scully and asked "Would you be okay if we took a suite with two rooms?" Scully nodded and said "Sure, Fine, Whatever." Mulder grinned and confirmed the decision to the person at the other end of the line. The Days After Part 7/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Honolulu, Hawaii Albatros Beach Resort Junior Suite Dana Scully stood at the big balcony, while Fox Mulder gave the bellboy a tip for bringing their cases. As the boy left the suite, Mulder turned around to join her. He saw her standing there, her red hair blowing in the wind, and she wore a white light summer dress and she looked so damn beautiful. "You like it?" he asked, standing right next to her. "Yeah. Mulder stay here for a second and enjoy this fantastic sight over the ocean." "Now, can you understand, why I've chosen this hotel for our stay?" he said, motioning out to the view. "Oh yes." "Would you like to visit the beach before dinner?" "Oh, I would but I am so tired. Could we have a little break and go to the beach after dinner? I would like to be at the beach when the sun is going down. That must be wonderful. Also I need to call my mother and tell her where I am." she answered a smile. Her eyes were twinkling. "O.k., so I'll begin to unpack my cases." his hand stroked over her shoulders as he left the balcony and entered the suite again. Scully just stayed there and watched the ocean. ***** After Scully called her mother, they went to the dining room. The dinner was great, a Hawaiian buffet. After they finished, they went to the garden of the hotel to explore their resort a little more. Scully had read the hotel guide and informed Mulder, that there was a sauna, a indoor and outside pool. They wanted to start with a visit at the garden bar. They took a nice place under a palm tree and ordered a bottle of champagne. Scully was happy. She had never been to Hawaii before and she knew that she would like visit the islands again after this vacation, with Mulder too. "If we have finished the bottle, would you like to go to the beach?" asked Mulder. "Sure, I love the beach. If you want, we can go now and finish the bottle there." "Sure," Mulder agreed. He went to the bar and signed the bill. Then they took the bottle and the glasses and walked down the path to the beach. As they arrived the beach and the path changed into sand, they stopped for a moment to slip out of their shoes. Then they went down and ambled along the water. After a walk of half a mile, they began a break to drink their champagne. They sat in the sand and watched the sun go down. Soon it was dark, only the moon gave a dim light which gleamed on the water. They talked a lot about the work, their families and about the beauty of the island. As Mulder filled her glass again with champagne, Scully began to speak about Ed. "Mulder, I know, what happened a few weeks week ago was only my fault. I can't believe that I was so... so stupid. Why?" "Scully, that isn't true. What happened was-" he stopped for a moment. "Only this bastard Ed is guilty. It wasn't your fault. You trusted him." "No, I went out with him and I was at his apartment, alone. That was a mistake and I feel guilty as well. Stupid, but guilty." "He raped you and you feel guilty? What happened to you?" Scully's gaze sank down to the sand, her knees were trembling and her eyes slowly filled with tears. Mulder sighed. "I am sorry, Scully. I didn't want to hurt you. I will respect your feelings, but you need to know that you are just a victim, no guilty person." he slowly took her hand into his, caressed it gently to calm her down. "I trusted him," Scully said. "I don't know why I've done this, I just wanted to have a friend. Why did I choose a psychotic? I must have been crazy." her voice broke and she began to cry. "You just did wanted a friend. That's pretty normal, Scully. Every human being needs a friend, but you had no luck. Good friends are definitely hard to come by. This man didn't respect your wish. He did the wrong thing, Dana. I am so sorry that I couldn't protect you." His voice changed into a whisper and his eyes also filled with tears. "I was such an idiot, Dana. I laughed about you as you told me that you needed to go at that night. I teased you. I am so sorry. I didn't want to provoke you to do this." "You've done nothing wrong." her voice was a sob. Then she twisted into his arms, burying her face against his chest. She wasn't able to stop her crying, long wrenching sobs escaped her mouth, that made his soul ache. Her body was shaking and her arms wrapped around his neck. She needed him so much. She needed his strength to get over this. He held her tight, strong and protective while he murmured a litany of endearments to stop the flow of her tears. She needed some time to begin to relax, her sobs trailed down to a combination of whimpers and sniffles as she tried to breathe deeply. Her arms released his neck and her lower body sank down. Her head rested into his lap as she said "I am happy that we are here together." "So am I." His hands gently caressed her head and played with her red curls. "I feel so tired and weak. I don't know what to do. I've never felt so weak, Mulder." she admitted slowly and began to shake again. "I am so sorry, Scully. Tell me how I can help you, I would do anything." he still held her safe. "Just stay with me and hold me." He agreed and they both laid down in the sand, Scully placed with her head on his chest. This was the first time that she felt safe again, since the rape. She wished she could stay forever in his embrace. Two hours later, they began to go back to the hotel. Hand in hand they entered their suite. Mulder brought her to bed, held her hand until she felt asleep and then entered his own bedroom. The Days After Part 8/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com He was there again !!! Scully felt him touching her body, hurting her... He threatened her and then he attacked her with this knife. "No, don't do that again. Ed! Let me go, please, let me go!" Her voice was shaky. She felt him press her down to the floor, she felt the splinters hurt her face and his hands pressing her breast, her mouth. She wanted to cry, but couldn't breathe because his hands covered her mouth and because she was paralyzed by fear. She tried to ignore her feelings but it didn't work. Again she felt his hands. Now, they were pulling down her trousers, tearing up her panties and then her bra and then she felt him touching her everywhere. She tried to cry, but his hands hit her again and again, always screaming at her. She stopped crying and let it happen, just praying that this would end as soon as possible. She closed her eyes and just for a moment she felt alone and free. Then, the hands were there again, they touched her face and grabbed her by the shoulder. But they weren't as violent as before. No, they touched her kind of affectionately. She thought about Ed and screamed again, her hand were fighting against the others and she kicked her attacker with her feet. Then she slowly felt herself waking up, she tried to breathe but got no air. She opened her eyes fast, constantly thinking about the rape and the horrible things that happened when Ed touched her. She sat as straight as a board on her bed at the hotel room and fought against the hands which grabbed her by the shoulders, always panting "I can't breathe! Don't touch me! I can't breathe." "Scully, please take it easy, you were just dreaming! Breath in slowly and deeply, please Scully, calm down!" Mulder's hands held her steady while she struck against his chest. She stopped hitting him and closed her eyes, reassured that she was safe again. Then she sank into the pillows, just embarrassed that this happened to her while Mulder was with her. Sometimes she had nightmares but she had always managed to keep them secret. She lay there, quietly. "Are you o.k.?" Mulder bent down to her carefully. "Yes, I am fine." Scully answered in her normal "I am fine" slogan and opened her eyes again. "Scully, can I help you in any way? Is there anything you need or I could do for you?" "I don't need anything, Mulder, but could you, you ... oh, forget it, I am o.k., you can go to bed. I am really sorry for waking you up." "What can I do for you, Scully? I want to know your wish, please don't close me out." his voice was pleading and penetrating. Scully knew that he wouldn't go if she didn't tell him what her wish was. And she had no other excuse to send him away. She was too tired to argue with him, so she just told him the truth. "Mulder, would you stay here with me tonight? I know, this sounds childish, but I don't want to be alone at the moment. There are this dreams and I think they will come back if I close my eyes again." "Sure, whatever your wish is, I'll do it." he went to the other side of the bed, and slid under the blanket. He put his arms around her and held her tightly and safe. When she closed her eyes and snuggled against his chest, he added softly " You are never childish, Dana." The Days After Part 9/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Honolulu, Hawaii Albatros Beach Hotel A deck-chair at the sea terrace She knew that he was mothering her and she wanted to stop him. But on the other side, Scully knew it was just his concern about her health and that he would stop when the time was right. So she ignored the fact he was around her all the time. Besides, she also she felt safe and loved in his presence. But this morning, they spent their time away from each other. Now, Scully was laying relaxed on her chair, her hair was put up and the sun shone on her face. The sun was hot. In the morning she had been swimming in the indoor-pool without Mulder, then she had spent time at the sauna, while Mulder was doing his exercises. And now, she was laying there, waiting for her partner's arrival. The rest of the night had been peaceful, no more nightmares had tortured her and she was really thankful for that. Mulder had spent the time with her in the bed and then arranged the breakfast in the suite for her. A smile came across her face while she felt a shadow covering her body. "Mulder, is that you? Have you finished torturing yourself? "Yup, I had a really great time. What about you, are you relaxed, now?" "MMMhhhh," she groaned slowly with a light smile on her face. Mulder sat down next to her on the chair. "Scully, would you like to have lunch on the beach bar or do would you prefer to go into the city?" "Definitely the beach bar, Mulder. We could go and have dinner into the city, tonight." "O.k., you're the boss, Scully and I am just your muscle-bound slave." Scully giggled "Oh, that's good! Never forget that, Mulder?" "Never, Scully, never." ***** Restaurant Orient Express Honolulu, Hawaii Mulder and Scully sat there and discussed about the restaurant. They had found it as they strolled through the streets of Honolulu. The restaurant was small and quiet. They had a great selection of sea food and the atmosphere was almost romantic. The waiter brought the menu while Mulder poured champagne into Scullys glass again. The mood between the couple was great. They laughed a lot and talked about their past. They ordered lobster and a great dessert. Scully confessed Mulder that she was a real ice-cream addict and Mulder told her that he would kill anybody for a huge bar of full-cream milk chocolate. So, they had a feast the whole evening, had a drink at the old piano bar and sat two hours on the beach, just talking. ***** Albatros Beach Hotel Junior Suite. Mulders Bedroom Mulder was laying asleep into his bed when suddenly a small body slid under the blanket and pressed itself near to his. He opened his eyes sleepily, glancing down to the red head in his arms. Her hair was tangled, her face was wet and slight film of tears and sweat glistened on her skin. "The nightmares were there again, Mulder" she whispered with a sob "may I stay here with you, tonight?" "Sure, Dana. We'll banish your nightmares forever." he kissed her forehead lightly then pressed her tightly against his chest. They were laying there in silence for a couple of minutes, then she began to shake and tears ran down her cheeks again. She clasped Mulder with her arms, pressing herself really hard against his body, whispering the sentence "Fox, don't leave me, don't leave me..." again and again and again. He stroked her face reassuring by his right hand, while the left one was holding her back tightly and steady. She needed some time until she stopped crying and shaking, but when it ended, Fox felt her lips gliding across his face, placing some cautious kisses at his cheek. "Dana..." he began carefully to stop her actions. She drew away quickly, apologizing for her attempt to kiss him. Then, she left the room and hurried back into her own. "Fuck!!!" he said mentally berating himself. He jumped up and followed her into her bedroom. "Dana, please, stay with me and talk to me!" Dana slipped into her jeans and covered her upper part of the body with a sweatshirt, then went out of the suite, without a word. "Dana, please ..." Fox pleaded concerned about her. He ran back to his room, dressed himself and then left the room as quickly as she had left before. The Days After Part 10/12 By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com He had no idea where to search for her. He just left the lobby, asking the nightwatchman, if he had seen her, but he hadn't. Then Mulder remembered how much Dana loved the beach and so he went there. When he walked into the cold sand with his bare feet, he saw her small silhouette down there at the water. He slowly walked nearer to her. When he was standing right behind her, he hugged her from behind and rested his head on her shoulders. "I am really sorry, Dana. I didn't want to scare you." he whispered into her ear, wrapping his arms around her stomach. She leaned back against his chest in relief, placing her hands on his. "I didn't want to hurt you, Scully, I love you too much." She closed her eyes as he kissed her neck softly. "Fox, I know that I need to talk about what happened between Ed and me, but I can't." she admitted with a husky voice. "Dana, you don't have to speak about this, I really respect your feelings." he released her body, but still held his hands wrapped around her waist. "Thank you." She took his hand into hers, guided it to her mouth and kissed his palm lightly. "But I need to explain the circumstances of this meeting between Ed and me." "Scully, no! I think it was my fault, I lead you to this, because I teased you at the phone that evening." his voice sounded sad. "No, that's the fact, it wasn't your fault, it was only mine. I ..." "Scully, you don't have to do that." "No, let me talk, now! It is time to tell you how much I love you!" she stopped, surprised about herself. She had never thought that she would tell him these words so honestly. Mulder was sitting there, absolutely shocked, and he had no idea how to react. He wanted to kiss her and clasp her to his chest, but he didn't want to push her into a situation she wasn't ready for. So, this time he just took her hand into his, kissed it softly and replied "I love you too, Dana. I have been in love with you for such a long time... such a long time." "Mulder" she began again slowly with a trembling voice "I know, we shouldn't do that. This is against bureau policy. I mean, if anybody would see us here, together! It could end bad for us." "Dana, the whole job with the bureau is bad for us. I mean, I would never like to chance it, but we are not the bureau's most Beloved. Remember, we are sitting down there in this office with just one desk. Such is life. The main subject and the biggest event in my life is that I love you. You are the current reason for me to live. I can not speak for you, but I wouldn't chance that for the world." She smiled in response, knowing he was right. "I think, I think so, too. I love you." Overwhelmed by his words, Scully turned around, shoved him back into the sand and placed herself into his lap, snuggling her head to his neck. Mulder tried to stop her, but she said "Please, let me. I am not going too far, I promise." Softly and restrained she kissed his cheek, nipping his ear. Mulder held her face steady while he kissed her cheekbone and jaw. Unexpected and without warning Dana bend down and her lips touched down upon his mouth. Her tongue sucked at his bottom lip, pleading for entrance. Mulder was still unsure if it was right to allow her and himself to touch her as intimately as it was, now. He was afraid to scare or offend her, but also he didn't want to draw back, she could think he didn't want her and that wasn't true. He wanted her more than any other person in the world. He slowly opened his mouth and invited her tongue into it. His hands slid down the small of her back and than up to her shoulders, he tightened the embrace and deepened the kiss. Their tongues explored each others mouth affectionately. Dana's hands fumbled with his shirt and opened it slowly, when she placed soft kisses on his chest. Fox thought he got control about the situation and rolled her over, so she was laying under him. He slowly kissed her neck and cheekbone. After some minutes, he felt her tighten up and her hands pressed against his chest, urging him away from her body. She tried to breathe, but her lungs got no air. He moved back, worried that he could hurt her and just managed to say "Scully, I am sorry!" Her eyes watched him, filled with tears. She looked really sad. He tried to take her hand, but she rolled her body away from his, her face pressing in the sand and finally she began to cry loudly. Once again, her sobs were so heartbreaking, but Mulder was helpless to do anything. He talked to her, tried to calm her down. His hands caressed her shoulders, holding her steady. "He raped me!" she cried out in anger. Again and again these words came gushing out of her mouth. "I am so sorry Dana. Please, calm down, I won't hurt you, I promise. You're safe. You're with me, I'll protect you. Dana, please, how can I help you? Tell me. Talk to me." he pleaded over and over again until her sobs got weaker with every word. "Fox--, Mulder, I love you and I want to make love to you, but if I feel this touch on my body, the pictures of the rape are in my brain again and again. I can not get them out of my mind. I don't know how! I am so sorry that I cannot be a great lover for you..." her tears began to run again. "No, Dana! I don't want to force you. I love you and I'll wait for you. You need time, that's pretty normal and you should take enough time to recover. But, tell me what you need. If you want a kiss, I am really happy to kiss you. If you want to cry, my shoulder will be there for your head and I will try to comfort you. If you need me for any other things, I'll be there. I am happy, if I can lie next to you, holding your hand or cradle you into my arms, but if you feel restricted by this, tell me, so I leave you alone, if this helps you. But I will wait and fight for you. I'll never leave you alone again." He breathed deeply, "I hope you know that." She turned her face to him and placed her head back against his chest. "I love you, Fox Mulder!" Their faces returned into a soft smile and he leaned back into the sand thankfully. The Days After Part 11/12 (NC-17) By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Annapolis, Maryland 3170 West 53rd. Apt. 35 Two weeks later "Scully, are you sure?" Mulder asked while he brought the suitcases into Scully's apartment. "Yes, I love your apartment, but I am the one who owns a separate bedroom with enough space for both of us." Dana took her suitcase away and kissed him lightly on his cheek. "You don't like my apartment?" Mulder sounded a little offended. "I love your apartment, Mulder." Scully answered dryly. "Why??" "Oh, because it is yours." "You are getting cheeky, Dana. I think I'd better go home and leave you alone at your big and beautiful apartment, including the bedroom." "No, stay!" "That depends on your behavior." At this moment, he sounded really offended and she knew that she should apologize. "What can I do to make you happy, again?" Dana slipped out of her shoes and went across the room until she stood directly in front of him. "You should think something up, Dana." His grin grew bigger and bigger. "O.K., I'll think about that." She stepped away from him with a morose look on her face and left the room, going into the kitchen. "Dana, what do you want to do?" "I'll make some tea for us and we can sit in front of the TV. Today's Millenium day. I know, how much you like that show." "Oh." Mulder nodded "But you don't like it. We can watch another channel, maybe the "Larry Sanders Show", that's funny." "Maybe." Scully smiled while a thought raced through her mind. A thought that had nothing to do with a quiet evening in front of the television, watching the Larry Sanders Show. ***** Mulder and Scully were sitting on the couch together, she was dressed in a wonderful white crushed velvet nightie and he was dressed just in Boxers and T-shirt. They were watching the "Larry Sander's Show", as they had decided and Were drinking some blackcurrant tea. Scully carefully lay her head into Mulder's lap and snuggled against his thighs. Mulder stroked her head with his left hand, while the right one was holding her own. He was happy just sitting so close to her. Then, she shifted and turned her face towards him. Her hands slowly slid over his T-shirt, then grabbed his face and pulled it down to hers. Her lips plundered his, their tongues dancing with each other tenderly. Mulder groaned when he felt her cool hands under his shirt, stroking his nipples. He was fascinated with the feeling of her skin meeting his. "Dana, oh Dana." he muttered, then his voice trailed off as he felt her press against him. "Fox, I love you. I love you so much!" she whispered into his ear, then licked with her tongue carefully the in- and outside of his ear. "I love you." He tightened his hold around her waist. Slowly she pulled his shirt over his head and threw it on the armchair next to them. Then her lips found their way down to his chest, biting softly at his nipples. He moaned loudly in response. Then her hands slipped under the fabric of his boxer shorts, very slowly she stroked his thighs, but not touching his cock, trying to drive him crazy. It worked. He inhaled sharply and then stopped her with a gentle grab. "Scully-"he said breathless, "stop... stop, now. I can't... Please, we should stop-" he whispered hesitantly, afraid to push her too far. "Every resistance is useless, Mulder." she smiled "I want to make love to you. And I want to make it right now. I feel that I am ready for that. I want you, I want you." her smile changed into laughter, filled with so much happiness and Mulder felt more wonderful than ever before in his whole life. "Oh Dana," he stroked her face carefully "I love you, too and I would like to make love to you so much, but I will wait, if you need a little more time." "No!" she decided and opened the first button of her nightie. He stopped her hands with the words "Let me do that for you, honey." and opened all of them, placing little kisses at her neck, shoulders and finally her breast. Scully closed her eyes, enjoying the feeling of him. Then Mulder got up, holding Dana still safe in his arms and carried her into her bedroom. Carefully he placed her on the middle of her bed, slowly undressed her and then admired her body. She lay there, just wearing her black panties, looking so beautiful but also so vulnerable. He wouldn't hurt her. A hint of hate flashed through his mind, when he remembered what Ed had done to her, but he calmed himself down fast, concentrating on this wonderful person in front of him. The Days After Part 12/12 (NC-17) By Daisy-Grace DaisyGracy@aol.com Scully watched him pulling his shorts off. She felt like in a dream, a wonderful dream. "Mulder, it's been so long. I need you. I need you in me, tonight." Mulder smiled. "Look before you leap, Scully." "Mulder!" she answered impatient, but then saw and felt him laying down next to her, nipping and kissing her all over the upper part of her body, then kissing the silk fabric of her panties. "Ohhhh, Mulder, you drive me crazy!" "I know, honey, but you should enjoy and never forget this night." "I will never forget the night when you made love to me for the first time, Fox. Never!" That was enough. Mulder needed to touch, not to argue with her. He slid the panties off of her body, closed his eyes and laid his head for a second upon her belly, just to savor the moment. Then, he stroked her body lovingly, touching and kissing every corner of her. She was just able to lie there and let him go while she enjoyed his caresses. At the end of his tender, loving care, he brought his face down between her legs and studied her center. She was really beautiful, all of her. Scully closed her eyes and groaned softly. She felt his tongue, gliding in and out her wetness and his hands were stroking her inner thighs. She couldn't stop herself from crying out in passion and she searched blindly for his head, touching and stroking and scratching his hair, while her pelvis pushed lightly against him. His tongue teased her clitoris while two of his fingers slid in and out of her in loving thrusts. She couldn't hold back her desire, any longer, so she begged "Mulder, please. Help me, I can't wait." She squirmed with pleasure. "Let me finish this, Dana. Please, I promise you I'll give you what you want, but first I need to spoil you a little." he moved closer again and went on with his licking once again. "Mulder, ahh. Oh God!" her moaning was a wonderful sound in his ears. "Let it happen, Dana. Just let it happen. I am with you." he whispered while his fingers continued flicking in and out of her wetness. Scullys moans grew more and more wild and she felt the climax come, pushing her over the edge. She closed her eyes slowly in satisfaction. Mulder heard Scully cry out and felt her muscles spasm. He released her, but his hand remained at her center, to feel every motion of her. He jerked up to her face and kissed her softly, reassuring her that he was with her, while she came back to consciousness. His other hand rested on her breast, feeling her strong heart beat. "Mmmhh, ohhh Mulder, you are so great. you're fantastic." she opened her eyes slowly, her hands reached for his face, while she felt tears running down her cheeks. She couldn't hide the tears from him, but they both knew, that these tears were tears built in happiness, not in angst. Mulder felt own tears dwelling in his eyes. He just pulled her lovingly into his embrace and held her tight for a moment. He was really thankful for this moment in his life. His hands brushed a red strand of her hair gently. Scully freed herself gently from his embrace, turned him onto his back and kissed his face lovingly. "My turn" she said softly. "Dana, you don't have to do this." "Let me. I want you and I want to give you pleasure." with these words, she kissed her way down his body. Her hands held his balls and her fingers stroked them gently when she placed her mouth seductively around his rock-hard shaft. "Ooh God... Dana." he could barely speak. She sucked gently, her tongue circling around his tip and her hand stroking his cock tenderly. After some minutes filled with stroking and caressing, she felt that he was close and her own body's reaction to his feelings were overwhelming, too. She released him, turning her head to his face. "Fox, I am sorry, but I am impatient. I need you inside me. Please, fill me, I want you to come inside me. I want to feel you." she uttered these words with a hoarse voice. "Oh, Dana." his hands slid down and cupped her cheeks, urging her to look up at him. He kissed her deeply and ardently, while rolling her over. She laid on her back, her eyes never leaving his gaze. Her hands slid under the pillow, pulling a green condom with peppermint taste out of the hiding-place. She handled it Mulder with the words "I can't wait! Fox-" "Have you planned this, Dana?" he smiled, a little surprised. "I prepared for it while you were watching The Larry Sander's Show." she confessed with laughter. His grin disappeared as he slipped the condom over his erection and placed himself upon her body. "Dana, tell me if I go too far." with this words he guided himself slowly into her body, moaning in realization of what was happening between them. He rested there for a moment, kissing her softly again. Scully shifted restlessly under him, waiting for his movements, but enjoying his body joined with hers. "Mulder, believe me, I am not as fragile as I look." She restlessly thrusted her hips against him and wrapped her legs around his waist, urging him deeper inside her body. "Yes!" he thrusted hard and harder against her, his hands cupped her breasts and he moaned. They were both wild with passion. He could feel his climax coming and he knew that she was close, too. He moved against her again and again, stroking her breasts and face, until he felt his release. His body was jerking against hers and he was trembling. Dana felt herself exploding, quivering and tensing beneath him and she closed her eyes in ecstasy. She arched her back and he knew that her climax arrived at the same time he came. Her cries echoed through the room, while she opened her eyes to look at him, finding his eyes open as well. She moaned loudly squeezing his back with her fisted hands. They watched each other closely until he collapsed on top of her, burying his head in the pillow near her neck. His whole weight was still on her, neither of them wanted to break the connection of their bodies and she was happy to feel him covering her. He felt her hands rubbing his face gently, when he came back to consciousness. Then he opened his eyes and turned his face to her. Her eyes gave him a smile. "I love you, Fox Mulder. I also want to thank you for the wonderful days you gave me here and in Hawaii. And you were right, good friends are definitely hard to come by." Scully told him, kissing his mouth passionately. "You know, I love you, too. I love you more than my life and I will never leave you alone, again. I'll try to give you more wonderful days in the future. I promise!" he slid off of her carefully, holding the used condom and throwing it into the trash can at the corner, then he placed himself next to her and pulled her with him, placing her body half on top of his. "Comfortable?" he ask, while pulling the blanket to cover their bodies. "I feel comfortable wherever you are, but I need you next to me." she slid her hands around his neck in relief, holding him tight. He put his arms around her waist, and they snuggled together and drifted into a long exhausted sleep. Jimmy, the teddy bear was sitting on top of her bed, protecting them in their dreams. ~*~ Ende ~*~ Completed December 2, 1998 by Daisy-Grace