From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: Thu, 15 Jun 2000 20:04:22 -0500
Subject: Dear Emily... by Daisy_Chain 
Source: direct

Reply To: summerphoenix@yahoo.com


Titel: Dear Emily
Author: Pandoras Kiss
Disclaimer: X files belong to Chris Carter and Fox Productions
Spoilers: Emily, Requiem (a little bit) Closure (kind of)
email:saskiasghost@hotmail.com






Dear Emily,
           I know you will never get to read
this letter, because there isn't a mail service
directly to Heaven, but I hope you hear every word
I write. Have you learned to read yet? Are there
storybooks up there in the clouds?
You don't know me very well, sweetheart, but Im your
other Mommy, do you remember? The lady with the fire
for hair? You were a very lucky little girl, Emily, 
because you had two mommies, and we both miss you very
much. We really do. I was the mommy who helped 
to make you, your other mommy was the one who raised
you to be the fine little girl you came to be. I
know she misses you too, but we know that you are
happy now. We know that you are safe, you aren't hurting
any more. 
Have you met your grand-daddy yet? Im sure he's watching
over you as you play with all your other angel friends. 
Tell him his Starbuck says 'hello', and sends him all of
her love. 
I really wish that I had known you a little better, 
honey, so I could know what to say to you. I didnt get
to know your favourite colour, your favourite song. I 
didnt get to push you on your swing, or rock you in your
cradle, but I know that Jesus has a swing and a cradle up
there in Heaven, and he can push you and rock you until
I get there to do it myself. Maybe sometimes your grand-daddy
can take over too. I remember how much he liked rocking his
favourite girls to sleep at night.
Do your remember Fox? The man with the funny name? His sister
is up there somewhere, too. If you get to see her, please
tell her to watch over her big brother. He needs her very much, 
because he is lost. He doesnt know how to find his way home.
Did you ever lose your Mommy or Daddy and didnt know how
to find them? Thats what happened to him, Emily, he lost 
his way. Maybe he is up there with you, too!
Is it nice up there? Do the birds sing? Do flowers grow?
Can you make pretty daisy chains to plait into your hair?
Can you see me from up there?
I have a new baby growing inside of me, Emily. I dont know if
he is like you or not, but I know he is there. I never got to
feel you living inside of me, I never knew I was keeping you
warm. I didnt know you were there....Emily, if Id known, Id
never have let them take you away from me.
This baby will be your little brother. I know he's a boy, don't
ask me why....like I would have known you were a little girl.
Will you look after him? Will you make sure he is safe? I 
think he'd like that very much, to know that you love him. 
One day you'll see him, and you'll get to be his big sister
for real, but until then, will you be his guardian angel?
Your Aunt Missie was your guaridan angel when you were here 
on Earth. Give her a cuddle from me.
I'll have to go now, sweetie. Im tired, and baby brother needs
me to stay strong for him. 
Goodnight, Emily. Sleep well.
Love from 
Mommy
xxxx