From: Mkp1176@aol.com
Date: Thu, 25 May 2000 00:21:59 EDT
Subject: Dear Mulder    by Miranda
Source: direct

Title - Dear Mulder
Author - Miranda
Rating - G
Spoilers - Requiem
Summary - Scully writes to Mulder.
Disclaimer - Characters are not mine.

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Dear Mulder,

It's been two days since you left me.  It might as well been
two years.  I miss you so much. 

How could you go now?  Things have been different between 
us.  We are no longer against each other.  We used to be 
enemies, as much as we have always loved each other.  Not
anymore.  Now we are so close I don't even know where you 
end and I begin.  We are in sync.  How could you leave me 
when everything was just starting to fall into place?

Seven years.  Seven years, Mulder!  We've been working on 
this thing we have for seven years, while we thought we were
solving the problems of the world.  We don't know anything 
more than we knew when we first set out together.  Except 
what true, meaningful love is all about.  It sure isn't what this 
society of ease and comfort and safety says it's all about.  
You don't really learn to love someone until you visit Hell 
with them and live to tell about it.

Have you lived to tell about it?

I want nothing more than to feel your strong arms around me
as we lay in bed together like we did earlier this week when I
wasn't feeling well.  I will cherish that moment for the rest of 
my life.  I'm so cold now, knowing what true warmth really 
feels like.  

I have no one to share this burden of confusion I am bearing.  
No one would believe me even if I told them the truth.  
But you would know.  You would know that there is no way
I should be carrying a child within my womb.  You would 
know, above all else, the complete impossibility of that 
scenario.  You would understand.  No one else would.  The
only one I told was Skinner.  He thinks it's yours.  I told him
it wasn't, but I could tell he didn't believe me.

I want it to be though.

Mulder, I need you to come back.  There are so many things
I never told you that you have to know.  I never told you that I
love you.  I know you probably figured it out by now, but I want
to say it to you.  I want you to see how deeply, how 
passionately, how completely I love you with all of my
heart and mind and being.  I want to kiss you back the 
next time you work up the nerve to plant one on me.  
I want to laugh at all your silly jokes and wipe away all
your tears of dedication to your cause.  Our cause.  I 
want you to hold my hand and encourage me as I bring
this life into the world in a few months.  I want you to be my 
baby's "daddy."  I want to help you find the courage to turn 
this love into a family.  

I want to be your family.

Please come back, Mulder.  I need you.  I need your strength.
I need your wisdom.  I need your insight and your love.  How I 
need your love.  Come back.

I'll be waiting.

Scully