From: Mooncombo@aol.com Date: Sat, 24 Mar 2001 19:43:33 EST Subject: Dog's Eye View (1/1) Source: direct Hi folks...I haven't written anything in quite awhile. Due the addition of Agent Doggett, we fan fic writers have a whole new dimension to explore...so here goes with my Doggett friendly story. Archive: Gossamer. Anyone else, please ask so I can find your site! Rating: PG, I guess Catagory: M&S romance Summary: Doggett's interpretation of Mulder and Scully's relationship Spoilers:This Is Not Happening and many other slight references to other episodes Disclaimer: No, I don't own 'em, no money is being made, don't sue me. I am a college student and have no money. ********************************* Dog's Eye View by J Moon I could hear her cry of anguish from outside the cabin. Her worst nightmare came true and I felt utterly powerless to help her in any way. I had promised to find her partner, and I had delivered. But Mulder was dead and I had hoped to find him otherwise. My investigation into Mulder's disappearance was certainly more complicated than I could have ever imagined. Oh, sure, I had heard the rumors. I had heard the references to Spooky and little green men. I had not, however, counted on the magnitude of this case or its predessesors. My first encounter with Dana Scully had been less than successfull. In fact, she threw water in my face. Over the months, I believe she has begun to trust me, but I also know that nothing could compare to her relationship with Fox Mulder. When I first began digging into the X-files, I was more than skeptical. I mean, really, human flukeworms, vampires, and of course, aliens. I was more amused than anything. At least I would have great stories to tell my friends. The closer I looked, the more I began to realize that the X-files contained cases regarding government conspiracies and the like. For some reason, this was not as shocking to me as I thought it should be. I began to look at the other agents and superiors in a different light. I started to adopt my own sense of suspicion. Then of course, there was Agent Scully. During my research, I learned that this woman was certainly a very complex entity. She was assigned to the X-files to debunk Agent Mulder's work. Over the years, she became his most loyal companion. I did my homework, of course. I listened to the water cooler gossip. No two agents in the history of the FBI have as many rumors floating around about them as Agents Mulder and Scully. I certainly don't mean to imply that I regard gossip as fact, but in every rumor lies a kernal of truth. Or at the very least leads to an element worth investigating. Unfortunately, the rumors about this duo swing from one end of the spectrum to the other. I heard that they hated each other. She was referred to as "the Ice Queen". I heard that they were secret lovers. Most often, they were simply ridiculed for their crazy beliefs. I have learned throughout my partnership with Agent Scully that she is never to be underestimated. I tried to bluff my way into a reaction from her in our very first meeting. I wanted to see if she would crack from the start. I told her that Mulder had many lovers. How did she respond to that? Well, she threw a cup of water in my face in front of a room full of her co-workers. I have to admit, that impressed the hell out of me. I have been much careful since that little episode. I believe that Agent Scully has long since parted with her care of her reputation. I certainly believed in her Ice Queen rep at the beginning. But beneath her ever so composed exterior, lies a woman drowning in pain. I had been told that she never cracks, and she never, ever cries. Well, let me tell you, she has been on the brink of tears constantly since I met her. That woman can feel, and she feels very deeply about her partner. What better place to begin my search than the X-files? I hate paper work. I detest writing reports and I can't stand to spend hours reading them. My little trip down paranormal memory lane certainly served as a huge eye opener for me. I no longer scoff at these cases. I can't say that I believe in them. I won't tell you that I don't think they are ridiculous. What I will say, however, is that the depth of some of these cases is shocking in the least. Not one simple answer to be found among those files. Not to mention the number of times Agents Mulder and Scully made personal appearances in them. It is definitely not uncommon for an agent to get wounded on the job or even killed, for that matter. But these two have been on the brink of death so many times, they might as well be cats with more than nine lives. Hell, Agent Scully has found her way to a hospital bed several times since I met her. I didn't really understand their closeness until I began to study their past cases. It is not uncommon for partners to develop a sense of telepathy over time. Actually, it becomes imperative when you hold another person's life in your hands. The sheer number of hours spent together under duress forces a bond that can rival that of a spouse. But Mulder and Scully are different. It's almost as if they share one mind. The concept of their relationship has fascinated me to no extent. At first, I simply figured they were close friends. Then I realized they were much closer than that. Not only did I read just about every case file, I also have the advantage of Mulder's personal files that were on his computer. I doubt Agent Scully is even aware that countless entries involve her. This no simply diary. The darkness of his writings depicts on man very near going over the edge. They also provide much needed insight in regard to Scully. Even Mulder is shocked when she cries. I only found a few references to this rare occurrance. Once when she was abducted by a serial killer. Another time when she pulled a gun on him after experiencing some sort of mind altering experience that led her to believe he had turned against her. Not to mention the time her heart was literally almost ripped out of her very much alive, breathing body. He blames himself for the loss of her sister. He blames himself for her cancer. He blames himself for pretty much every risk to her life she has experienced in her partnership with him. I realized fairly quickly that they were much closer than partners. No easy feat where Dana Scully is concerned. Hell, she has spoken to me with the utmost formality since I met her and I have responded in kind. The titles have always been in place. Only once have I heard the name Dana spoken. And only from AD Skinner. I learned that Agent Scully was infertile when I read the files on his computer. I also found out that once the possibility of fertilizing one of her eggs was a possibility, she asked Mulder to assist her. One does not ask just anyone for a favor of this caliber. Mulder never explicitly wrote that he and Agent Scully had ever engaged in any sexual activity, but references to the possibility can be found throughout the last several years of their relationship. At first, I couldn't quite accept the fact that a woman like Agent Scully would disregard explicit Bureau policies on the subject. Then it became quite clear that they had no one but each other to understand the depth of their suffering. Then there was the morning I found her curled up on Mulder's bed. I don't care how close you are to another person, only lovers do things like that. I have not broached the topic with Agent Scully. I know she would be mortified to know that I am aware of her secret. I'm also pretty sure Skinner is aware of this as well. I don't generally believe in withholding any information that is relevant to a case, but I can't bring myself to betray her secret. She has suffered enough and if we do not find Mulder alive, I would be willing to bet the secret will die with her. I can't help but feel protective of her. I don't discredit her strength, for surely it exceeds my own. She just seems so fragile. She's also a tiny little thing, although I hear she packs a mean right hook. I wanted to find him alive. I wanted to give him back to her. I wanted to restore the one element of her life that she truly needs. But I failed. Her cry from within the cabin still resounds within my ears, despite the fact that everyone around me is utterly silent. I look to Skinner, pleading with my eyes for some sort of signal as to how I should proceed. We both know that he is the only person here that can handle what awaits inside that cabin. With a slight nod and sigh, Skinner walks into the cabin to retrieve Agent Scully. ************************************** Comment welcome at mooncombo@aol.com. Thanks for reading!