From dementia911@hotmail.com Sat Mar 08 13:40:45 1997 Subject: Sub: Eroding Shores From: " Erin Mary" Date: Sat, 8 Mar 1997 11:40:45 -0800 (PST) -------- This just fell out'a the blue and wacked me on the head. Hope ya like it. The X-files are CC's and 10/13 productions mind candy, not mine. I just "borrow" from the jar occasionally. Eroding Shores Erin Mary (aka toocat) >From the journal of Dana Scully March 8, 1997 Sometimes I feel as if I were on top of the world, that my illness can't touch me; others times I feel as if I were a sea shore, being re-claimed by the ocean bit by bit and that parts of me are gone, never to be seen again. I feel right now like I am dissapearing beneath the waves, Mulder, and there is no escape but submission. I have not felt like this in a long time. Not since I thought you were dead. You were gone to me then, and there was no salvation. I am the walking dead now, Mulder. There is nothing that can be done. Do you feel the same way as I did? As if you were going to go mad from the longing? Do you want the Scully you knew to return? Even as I write this I can feel the old one eroding away, like that sea shore. The shore that is gone is being replaced by stone, and by the time you read this I will be as solid as that stone.Eventually that will be gone as well and there will be nothing there at all. I will be truly dead. Deader than I even feel now inside. Maybe tomarrow will be a better day. Maybe I will be the waves instead of the shore, reclaiming what was once mine. One can only hope for such miracles. But not me. Never me. I don't belive in such things, remember? You do. Can you, even though you haven't read this, help me? Be my salvation, Mulder, like I know you can. You are the only thing that keeps me from sinking beneath the waves. If you love me as I have loved you I could pull though. We could find an answer to the deadly question I have been asked. Together it should be easy. I am a 'shipper at heart, so shoot me. Send comments, flames, and anything else you feel like to toocat@hotmail.com . Flames will be promptly charred by my dragon Sanath. Or eaten by my cat Norman. --------------------------------------------------------- Get Your *Web-Based* Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ---------------------------------------------------------