From: "shabby chic" <s1152157@student.gu.edu.au>
Date: Thu, 16 Apr 1998 13:11:16 EST+10000
Subject: "Excuses, Excuses" (1/2) and (2/2) attached

Title: Excuses, Excuses (1/2)
Author: shabby chic
Rating: R
Class: Story, romance
Spoilers: None
Keywords: Mulder/Scully romance

Summary: Mulder and Scully stop over at an old hotel that is
rumored to be haunted by aphrodisiac spirits.

Disclaimer: The X-Files and characters Mulder and Scully were
created by Chris "The Man" Carter and belong to him, Ten Thir- 
teen Productions, Fox etc etc etc, not me.

This is my second attempt at fanfic (number one still in the 
works).  I wrote it between Season 4 and 5 before I knew about
Scully's past liking of the song Hotel California (cool coincid-
ence, huh?), but it isn't set in any particular time.  I'd appre-
ciate any and all comments.  Thanks.  <romanesc@hotmail.com>


        **********************

        EXCUSES, EXCUSES (1/2)

        **********************


        Mulder turned off the engine and popped the trunk as
Scully got out of the airport rental car.  With a tired heave, he
pushed against the seat and stood on the asphalt, his muscles
aching from immobility.  He tensed them, relaxed them, then 
stretched them.  The he shut his door and checked that the car 
was secure.
        "Hey, Scully, how is it that after a flight as long as
this one I look like I just swam through sand and you're able to
look like. . . to look like you do?"  He had to be careful about
what he said to her.  He might've said something really 
flattering like. . .  Well, he would've said whatever came into
his head and he knew it could've sounded like he was coming onto
her.  To look like she does was pretty flattering anyway, he
thought.  Even if she didn't realize it herself.
        "I /feel/ like I just swam through sand," she replied, a
note of weariness on her voice.  Scully pulled her bag and elec-
tronic notebook out of the trunk as Mulder reached in for his 
bags.
        "By the way, I'm sorry about this place.  I called 
around, but this one had the only vacancies in this area," Mulder 
said as he untwisted the strap of his bag on his shoulder and 
clicked the trunk shut.
        "Why?" Scully eyed him suspiciously.  "What's wrong with
it?"
        Mulder shrugged.  "They say it's haunted," he answered
nonchalantly.  The receptionist at the Motel Lancia had referred 
him to the haunted hotel over the phone when he had rung in-
quiring for vacanies and warned him in a joking manner that the 
place was haunted.  "Oh, by the way," she had said.  "That place 
is haunted.  Again, I'm sorry we don't have any rooms for you.  
Motel Lancia wishes you a good day."  Beep.  Beep.  Beep.  Ah, 
Mulder smiled, the courtesy of West Coasters!
        Scully raised her eyebrows at Mulder in mock interest and
glanced over her shoulder at the buzzing neon lights that ad-
vertised the hotel.  "'The Californian Hotel'," she read.  Then
looking at Mulder, "Welcome to the Hotel California."
        He smiled at her reference to The Eagles song and, as 
they made their way towards Reception, returned with, "Check out 
anytime you like, but you can never leave."
        The hotel was a modest building, no more than ten or
twelve years old.  Parts of it looked younger, though, as if some
major and pending renovations were taking place.  It was better
than some of the places they had retired into before.  Mulder 
chose the worst places sometimes.  Scully wondered if he did it 
on purpose, to feel more at home in a messy dump.  She preferred
neatness and order, and that wasn't too much of an ask.
        Mulder held the door open for her and they stepped
inside.  She looked around the lobby and a strange warm sensation 
flooded her that made her flinch.  There was something peculiar 
about the hotel.  Like there was some kind of a. . .
        "Scully, are you feeling okay?" Mulder asked after walk- 
ing towards the desk and turning around to see that Scully wasn't 
following him.
        She blinked and furrowed her brow.  "Yeah. . . I'm just
tired, that's all."  That's it, she thought.  I'm just tired.
        Mulder nodded understandingly and guided her to the desk
with a hand on her back.  It was difficult not to touch her.  It
was easier than telling her how much he appreciated her company 
and fairness in judging the credibility of their work, of him.  
How the hell was a guy meant to tell a woman how he feels if it's
not an extreme like hate or love?  By touching her and smiling at
her and joking with her, she seemed to know what he meant when he
did those things.  Body language was so much easier to do it was
hard not to do it.
        He realized how it had become increasingly difficult not
to touch her.  Every chance he had, he touched her.  Little 
touches that might not seem significant individually; a light
hand at the small of her back, a lingering tap on the shoulder, 
an arm around her to whisper something in the corridor. . .
        "Dana Scully and Fox Mulder," Scully told the
receptionist.
        "Under 'Scully' or 'Mulder'?" the receptionist asked
politely.  Scully was confused for a moment and looked towards
Mulder.
        "Uh, both.  Separate rooms," Mulder told the woman with-
out receiving Scully's gaze.  Then he looked at Scully for her 
reaction and saw that she was reading a flyer displayed on the 
counter.  He wasn't sure if she was distracting herself to avoid 
answering his glance or if she was genuinely reading the flyer 
because it interested her.
        "Rooms 23 and 25," the receptionist told them as she 
handed him the keys.
        "Thank you," Mulder smiled briefly and caught up to 
Scully on her way to the elevator, giving her the key to her 
room.
        "Oh, the elevator's under repair at the moment," the 
receptionist called after them.  "If you want, I could get some-
one to help you up the stairs with your bags."
        Mulder didn't know what Scully was thinking, but he knew 
he wasn't keen on carrying his bag up a few levels.  He looked 
at her for confirmation and she nodded.
        A young man barely into his twenties appeared and took
Scully's bag without a word.  He took Mulder's suit bag as well 
and asked as he headed towards the stairwell, "Which floor?"
        Mulder, who had expected his heavier bag to be carried 
for him, stared at the young man's back, then looked at Scully.  
Then using his least offending brusque tone, Mulder told the man,
"Top."
        The man stopped and looked back at Mulder.  "Top floor?"
        Scully smiled at Mulder's good-natured animosity and 
turning to the hotel employee, correctly informed, "Second."
        Halfway there, Mulder felt the shoulder strap burning 
into him.  He transferred the weight to his other shoulder.  "I 
can't wait to have a nice long hot shower," he thought aloud to 
no one in particular.
        "Me too.  I don't think I'll get up until noon tomorrow 
morning," Scully agreed.  "We don't have to be anywhere before 
lunch, do we?"
        "No.  We have all of tonight and tomorrow morning for 
ourselves."
        "Good."
        When they scaled the second flight of stairs, the young 
man handed Scully her bag with a polite smile and gave Mulder his 
suit bag.  "I hope you have an enjoyable stay here," he told them 
before passing something like a matchbook to Mulder.  Mulder 
looked at it and flipped it open.  He stole a glance at Scully 
who was curious about the matchbook, then quickly whispered to 
the man, "Uh, we're not. . ."
        He looked at Mulder and shrugged, "Doesn't matter."  Then 
he disappeared back down the stairwell, leaving Mulder feeling a 
little awkward and Scully, even more curious beside him.  She 
looked at him quizzically, then pulled his hand towards her by 
the wrist so she could see what it was.  Inside the matchbook 
style envelope printed with the hotel's insignia was a small foil 
pack that undoubtedly contained a condom.
        Mulder looked at her with some uncertainty as to what to 
say but she surprised him by offering an explanation instead of 
being embarrassed.  "While we were in the lobby, I read a flyer 
about this place.  Apparently, it used to be the site of an 
aphrodisiac inn."
        Mulder raised his eyebrows.
        "Nearly fifteen years ago, it was abandoned because 
popular belief was that it was haunted.  Word got around and 
eventually the constant stream of tourists and honeymooners 
diminished."
        Scully started walking slowly in the direction of her 
room.  Mulder followed her after quickly tucking the condom into 
his pocket, thankful for a conversation.
        "With a reputation like that," Scully continued, "the 
owners couldn't sell it and so, abandoned it.  A couple of years 
ago, everyone forgot about it and new investors took the place at 
a bargain price."
        "And they're reminding everyone about its past hauntings 
with colorful flyers at reception?"
        Scully shrugged.  "It's a novelty now.  It sells."
        Mulder nodded.  "So, did the flyer tell you anything 
about what haunted this place over fifteen years ago?"
        "Just your conventional spirits, apparently; gh˜¢ts and 
poltergeists.  They say that they're still here, but they're not 
your standard spooks anymore."
        "They say the place is haunted by cupids and aphrodisiac 
entities, now?"
        Scully nodded and teased him with a smile, "I hope you 
don't believe that."
        "No," he assured her, grinning back.  "If it were true, 
there wouldn't be any vacancies, would there?"
        Scully smiled at his joke, knowing he didn't mind if it 
were true.  He would've preferred it to be true.  She found her 
room and slid the key into the lock as Mulder passed her to the 
door neighboring hers.
        "I'll leave my door unlocked," he whispered from behind, 
over her shoulder.  "So if you're in the mood for anything 
strenuous. . . It's my birthday tomorrow, you know."
        Scully shook her head, laughing quietly.  "Good night,
Mulder," she said, rolling her eyes and stepping into the room.
        "Good night."
        Mulder made his way to his room and heard Scully's door 
click behind him.  He unlocked his door and went inside, still 
smiling at their fun little exchange.  He tossed his bag onto 
the wide expanse of the bed as he rolled his aching shoulders 
then hung his suit bag on a convenient little hook on the back 
of the door.  He unzipped the larger of the bags and pulled out 
a clean pair of boxer shorts and a shirt and lay them on the 
bed.  The he went into the bathroom and turned on the shower so 
that steam rose to the ceiling.

        **********************

        Scully was too tired to have a relaxing shower.  She 
slipped out of her shoes and coats and threw herself onto the 
bed.  She lay on her side with her head nestled snugly on the 
cool pillows.  In no time, she found herself drifting out of
consciousness and into the delicious silence of sleep.

        **********************

        Stepping out of the shower fully refreshed and in the 
mood for a well-deserved rest, Mulder grabbed a towel from the
rack and dried himself off.  He walked into the bedroom naked and
grabbed the shirt and shorts from the bed.  He slipped into the
clothes and sat on the edge of the bed, sitting there for a few
seconds before finally lying down.  Stretching until he touched
the headboard of the bed with his fingertips, Mulder pointed his
toes, tensing his stiff muscles and feeling the dull and pleasant
pain of them, then completely relaxed with a rugged sigh, his
head tilting to one side.
        He was near sleep when he heard a soft thud from Scully's
room.  His eyes flicked open, but he didn't move.  He wondered
what it could've been and if she need his help.  He decided to 
wait for another thump before breaking down her door.  Scully's
safety ranked right up there with government conspiracies in 
Mulder's list of paranoid fears.  He listened carefully, but 
there was only silence.
        For a long time, he continued listening and found himself
starting to fall asleep again.  He didn't fight it.  Nothing was
the matter next door.  Mulder heard his breath slow down and 
deepen.  He listened to it, feeling sleep come over him more 
quickly.  For a second, he thought he could hear the sound of
absolute silence, but the rare experience was broken by more 
noises from Scully's room.
        Mulder listened, cautiously getting out of bed and reach-
ing for the gun he always put within easy reach.  Bumps sounded
irregularly through the wall so softly he wasn't entirely sure
he heard them.  He briskly walked into the hallway and over to
Scully's door.
        Tapping lightly on the door, Mulder called, "Scully?"  He
tried the doorknob, but it was locked.  "Scully?"  He heard locks
unlocking on the other side of the door and let his guard down.
Slowly, the door opened and Scully stood before him in the dimly
lit room.
        Her face was tired, even sickly.  She looked at Mulder
wearily, "What is it, Mulder?"
        Suddenly, he felt regretful.  He had disturbed her.  "I'm
sorry, Scully.  I thought something was wrong.  I heard sounds 
coming from your room. . ."  She didn't seem to be listening. 
Her head was bowed and her fingers pinched the bridge of her
nose between her tightly shut eyes.
        "Scully?"
        He was answered with a questioning hum.
        Mulder put his hand on her arm and bent down to look at
her face.  "Are you okay?"
        "Yeah. . ."
        He prompted the truth with a soft scolding, "Scully. . ."
        She laughed inwardly at her typical response to the
question.  Forcing a small smile, she looked at him weakly.  "No,
actually.  I haven't been feeling well since we came her," she
admitted.
        Before she knew it, Mulder's arm was around her and
steering her back inside towards the bed.  He sat down beside
her, supporting her swaying body with a firm arm.  "What were
the noises I heard?" he asked.
        "I, uh, I got up to go to the bathroom for a drink."  She
indicated a glass of water on the bedside table and chuckled 
almost drunkenly.  "Actually, I got up to /stumble/ to the bath-
room."
        Mulder smiled, then asked.  "What about that big thump I
heard before?"
	"What big thump?"
        "The big thump before the little stumbling thumps."
        Scully cocked her head and looked at him thoughtfully.  
After a few seconds, she closed her eyes and smiled to herself,
remembering what had happened.  "Oh, that was when I fell off the
bed."
        "You fell off the bed?"
        "I tried to get out but lost my balance," she whimpered.
        There was a pause before they both burst into controlled
laughter.  Mulder squeezed her with the arm that was still around
her and pressed her close to him as their laughter subsided.  He
felt her head on his cheek and pulled away to touch her neck with
his free hand.  She was a little feverish.  That explained her 
drowsiness and unusually frequent giggles.
        "You'd better get some rest," he told her, standing up to 
help her lie down.  He pulled a thin sheet over her.  "Get some
sleep.  I'll be sitting here."  He walked towards an armchair
leaning against the wall not too far away.
        "Mulder?" Scully called.  He turned around.  "Thanks."
Her voice was solemn and sincere.  It surprised him, but he 
didn't say anything or react to it.  He knew she wasn't waiting 
for a reply.  Sitting on the chair, Mulder watched her get com-
fortable in the warmth of the bed and close her eyes before 
drifting off himself.

        **********************

        Half of the night went by without much incident.  Mulder
woke up twice in the first three hours to check on Scully.  She
seemed to be sleeping deeply both times.  Another hour later, 
his light sleep was disturbed when he heard Scully mumble, then
sigh more audibly.
        The lamp beside her bed let a soft luminance fall on her
face and Mulder saw that she seemed to still be asleep. 
"Scully?" he called softly across the room.
        Another mumble.
        Mulder got up and quietly padded to the bedside.
"Scully?"  There was no answer.  Her eyes were closed and Mulder
decided she was definitely asleep.  He walked back to the chair 
and shifted in it until he was comfortable.
        He looked over to her before closing his eyes and saw
what he thought was her hand disappearing under the sheet.  Then
there was a rhythmic motion down there as he heard a drawn-out 
moan from her.  He swallowed.  It didn't take a genius to figure
out what she was doing.  She was very definitely asleep.  There
was no way she would share something so intimate with him.
        He felt himself become aroused.  He couldn't stop looking
at the body moving under the sheet.  It was hypnotic and absol-
utely erotic watching her in her guilty indulgence.  What else
was he going to do?  He couldn't wake her up, and he couldn't 
ignore it either.  He was hard underneath his boxers and he 
squirmed uncomfortably in the chair.  He hesitated reaching into
his shorts for some kind of control and grabbed the chair's arms
instead.
        He shut his eyes and took deep breaths, willing his urges
down, but only felt the deliciously unsatisfied throbbing jutting
out from between his legs.  He opened his eyes to see Scully
still maintaining the rhythm.  It was clear that she was never
going to climax.  She's going to touch herself for God knows how
long, Mulder thought.  He knew he couldn't watch her for long 
without losing himself.
        Scully mumbled in her sleep.  She sighed and moaned.  
"Mulder. . ."
        His control slipped.  It was too much.  Too much for him
to take just sitting there watching, not doing anything.  He knew
what he had to do in order not to blow his mind.
        Quietly, Mulder locked himself in the bathroom and sat
on the edge of the sink.  He closed his eyes as a hand traveled
down his stomach and under the garter to encircle his painfully
stiff erection.  Slowly, he pushed his boxers down in front and
began his ascension into climax.
        He thought of what Scully was doing; exactly what /he/
was, finding satisfaction in imagining unimaginable thoughts
about the other and spurring on the idea by autoerotica.  The
image excited him even more.  Mulder saw Scully in that bed, her
delicate fingers sliding over her moist self in expert explor-
ation, dreaming he was touching her then.  How often did she do
that? he asked himself.  Probably not as often as he did thinking
about her, he decided.
        His hand's movement increased its pace to fill a more 
urgent need.
         He imagined being with her in that bed, being the one 
who touched her and making her writhe in impatient desire.  
Moving against her, with her, in her, faster and faster, coming
closer to breaking with every intense thrust.  She would push her
hips against his to meet his plunges and scream his name when 
they reached the end together.
        By now, Mulder's hand was uncontrollably jerking up and
down the hard length of him.  He gritted his teeth, knowing he
was on the border of coming to orgasm.  Then, a few more furious
jerks later, he exploded in a sensational rush of warmth and
relief.
        He sat there, feeling the hot stickiness in his hand,
waiting for his heart to slow down and his breathing to regain
a calm rhythm.  After a few silent minutes, he decided he'd
better clean himself up.

        **********************

        In the morning, Mulder woke up on the floor by the bed.
He looked straight up at the ceiling, wondering what he was doing
there.  It took a moment for him to remember he had moved to the
floor after finding the armchair less than a comfort to sleep in
for long periods of time.  Mulder squeezed his eyes shut and 
sighed heavily.  When he opened his eyes, he noticed a face look-
ing at him from the bed and knew Scully had been watching him 
since before he woke.
        "Good morning," she greeted him with a coarse whisper.
        He rolled onto his side to face her and propped himself
on an elbow.  "Are you feeling better?" he asked, his voice
creaky from sleep.
        "Yes.  Thanks for staying.  You didn't have to, you know.
I slept pretty soundly."
        "Yeah, I know.  I watched you all night."  It slipped 
out.
        More than a hint of horror found its way onto Scully's
face.  She knew what she did in her sleep some nights.  "/All/ 
night?"
        "No.  Just for the first two hours.  I slept pretty well
after that," he lied.
        "Oh."  Scully slowly pushed herself up to sit on the bed
with her feet almost touching the floor where Mulder got up to
sit cross-legged directly in front of her.  Their positions made
her feel awkward and she stood up abruptly, gesturing towards the 
door of the bathroom, "I'm going to freshen up."
        "Okay.  I'll see you down the street in the cafe for
breakfast," Mulder told her as he got up as well.  "In about a
half hour?"
        Scully nodded as she backed to the bathroom.  "Okay."
        Mulder nodded as he let himself out.  "Okay."

        **********************

        end of Excuses, Excuses (1/2)
        continues on to Excuses, Excuses (2/2)
        comments welcome <romanesc@hotmail.com>


Title: Excuses, Excuses (2/2)
Author: shabby chic
Rating: R
Class: Story, romance
Spoilers: None
Keywords: Mulder/Scully romance

Summary: Mulder and Scully stop over at an old hotel that is
rumored to be haunted by aphrodisiac spirits.

Disclaimer:  The X-Files and characters Mulder and Scully were
created by Chris "The Man" Carter and belong to him, Ten Thir- 
teen Productions, Fox etc etc etc, not me.

This is my second attempt at fanfic (number one still in the 
works).  I wrote it between Season 4 and 5, but it isn't set 
in any particular time.  I'd appreciate any and all comments. 
Thanks.  <romanesc@hotmail.com>


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        EXCUSES, EXCUSES (2/2)

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        Mulder sat outside the small coffee shop at a table for
two on the sidewalk.  It was already way past breakfast and not 
quite time for lunch, so there weren't many people dining there.
There were exactly five other people, actually.  Three of them
looked like business men on a coffee break.  They each wore ties
and owned briefcases.  Two of the business men were middle aged
with facial hair and the other was young and clean cut.  Young
Urban Professional, Mulder thought.  Y.U.P.  Yuppie.  The other
two were a couple in their late teens or early twenties.  Other
than the occasional sound of dishes and coffee cups being washed
in the kitchen in the back, they made the only conversation.
        A figure came into Mulder's view.  It was Scully.  She 
recognized Mulder easily and made her way through the small maze
of tables and chairs to reach him.  She looked better than she
had the night before.  Her illness had come suddenly and left the
same way.
        "You look much better this morning," Mulder said as she 
pulled up a seat across the table from him.
        "I feel just as good.  Have you ordered?" she asked.
        "Yeah, I have."
        Scully started to get up to order at the counter for her-
self but Mulder leaned over the table and touched her arm.  "I
ordered for you as well.  Coffee with cream, no sugar, right?  I
also got you a grilled cheese sandwich."
        She looked at him in surprise, then nodded, impressed.  
"I'm the one who usually gets our coffees.  How do you know what
I take in mine?"
        Mulder shrugged and played with the little jug of cream 
at the center of the table.  Over the years when she ordered
their coffees, he had watched and listened to her ask the counter
attendant for the beverages.  He loved watching her in her simple
candid moments.  Of course, as soon as she turned around, his 
eyes would be somewhere else; on the report in front of him, or
out the window looking at traffic.  Sometimes he wondered if she
knew he was watching her.
        "What time is it?" she asked.
        Mulder looked at his wrist.  "Uh, looks like. . . about a
hair past a freckle," he told her.  "I forgot my watch," he said
apologetically, raising his left arm.  "I took it off when I had
a shower last night."  He looked inside the open set coffee shop
and found a small analog clock for her on one of the walls and 
pointed to it.  It was nearly eleven o'clock.
        A counter attendant approached their table with a round
stainless steel tray, balancing two black coffees, an apple cinn-
amon muffin and a slice of tomato centered on a grilled cheese 
sandwich.  The delicious smell of coffee and the freshly baked 
muffins made Scully's stomach rumble silently.  She hadn't had 
anything to eat since the quick snack at the airport.
        The counter attendant left them to enjoy their order too
quickly for Mulder to ask her which coffee was which.  He looked
to Scully for help, but she was already taking a sip out of the 
cup in front of her.
        She made a face.  "Mmm.  I think this one's yours.  It's
too sweet."  She put the cup down and pushed it across the table
to Mulder.
        Mulder took a sip out of the other cup and also made a 
face.  "It's bitter."  Then he put the cup beside Scully's 
sandwich.
        "Why did you try it when I already figured out whose is
whose?"  Scully smiled curiously, taking the cream jug in one 
hand.
        "I wasn't going to let you steal a mouthful of my coffee
without taking it back from yours," he told her.
        Scully shook her head, smiling, and poured the cream into
the black coffee.  "What time do we meet Mr. Shane Hawkes?"
        "One thirty," Mulder answered, breaking off a bit of his
muffin and popping it into his mouth.  Scully nodded and took a
bite out of her sandwich.  She looked at Mulder's steaming fresh
apple cinnamon muffin; it looked more appetizing than her sand-
wich.  She wondered if he'd mind if she asked for it.  Scully 
hesitated a bit, but since the mood was casual and joking, she 
asked, "Can I. . ."  She pointed at the muffin.  "It looks deli-
cious."
        Mulder smiled, knowing she was waiting for him to offer
her the muffin.  "Yeah, it is."
	Scully paused, staring at him.  He just smiled back.  
When she realized he wasn't going to volunteer the muffin, she 
sank back into her chair, pressing her lips together, and picked
up her coffee.  She took a few sips before Mulder said, "For 
yours."
        "What?" Scully asked.  She had already forgotten about
what she had wanted, thinking he wasn't going to sacrifice it.
        "This for that," Mulder indicated the two different 
foods.
        Scully smiled and traded the plates of food.  "Done and
done!" she said with finality.
        They talked more during the length of their meal, mostly
about the current case and what they thought about it.  When the
last of the coffee had been swallowed, Mulder stood up and took
his wallet out of his pocket.
        "No, I'll pay," Scully waved him down, taking some notes
out and heading towards the counter.  "Consider it my birthday
present to you."
        "I thought you forgot," Mulder called into the shop.
        "I tried to, but trying to purposely forget something 
just makes you remember it even more."  Scully came back to 
their table after paying for the meal and they started heading
back to the hotel.
        "You /tried/ to forget?" Mulder asked.
        "Mulder, you remembered my birthday once in /four/ years
and gave me a key ring for it," she reminded him.
        "I didn't just do that. . ." Mulder started.  He thought
of the trouble he had gone through some time ago, telling the
waiters of the restaurant about Scully's birthday before-hand.
Scully remembered the little twinkie and sparkler floating 
towards her as the whole bar restaurant sang 'Happy Birthday'.  
It had been typical for Mulder to embarrass her in public like 
he had that night, but she was genuinely surprised and touched
by the gesture.
        "No, you didn't.  Sorry. . . That was really sweet sur-
prising me like that.  I never expected it," Scully told him
quietly.
        The rest of the short walk to the hotel was quiet.  
Mulder thought about the birthdays of Scully's he had missed.  
He hadn't given her much, or thanked her for what she gave him 
or what she gave up for him since the start of their partnership
nearly four years ago.  He had always assumed she wanted what he
wanted; his goals were her goals, but it wasn't true.  She 
wouldn't have wanted to be part of the X-Files if she had the
choice.  He was selfish, inconsiderate and unappreciative.
        When the hotel came into view, Scully asked, "What are 
you going to do for the next hour and a bit?"
        Mulder shrugged.  "Dunno.  Guess I'll watch a bit of 
television or something.  What are you going to do?"  They 
entered the lobby.
        "Start my report on this case, I suppose.  The first 
paragraph, anyway."
        Scully continued walking towards the stairs but Mulder
stopped.  "Actually, I think I'll just wander up and down the 
street," he said, starting to walk backwards towards the exit.
Scully turned around and nodded, then went back to her original
route.

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        Sitting cross-legged in the middle of the bed, Scully
tapped at the electronic notebook keyboard.  She had made a
little nest of papers and files around her that she'd pick up,
briefly scan, then return, typing a bit more of her report.  
After about half an hour doing this, a knocking sounded at her
door.  Without looking up, she said loudly, "Yeah, who is it?"
        "Mulder."
        "It's open," she called as she took off her glasses and
got up.  Mulder opened the door and stepped inside.  "I was won-
dering when you were getting back," Scully said, rummaging 
through her bag on a small table against a wall.  "I have some-
thing for you. . ."  She pulled out a flat wrapped box and gave
it to Mulder.  "Happy birthday."
        Surprised that Scully had actually taken the time to get
him something, Mulder took it and asked, "Thanks. . . what is 
it?"
        "Something you need," Scully answered as she watched him
slowly unwrapping it.  He tore the paper, exposing a cardboard
box with a clear plastic cover.  Inside, a stylish silk neck tie
lay.  It was black, with a simple but elegant design on it; like
a silver-gray ribbon outlining a silhouette profile of a face.
        "It's a tie with taste," Scully told him.
        Mulder smiled as he pulled at the neck tie he was wear-
ing.  "What is it that you're implying, Scully?"
        Scully saw him take his tie off and open the box.  "You
don't have to wear it now."
        Mulder put the new tie around his upturned collar and 
began tying it.  "Too late."  He made it to a half Windsor knot
and undid it.  "I hate doing this without a mirror."
        "Here, let me."  Scully eased his hands away from the 
unsuccessful attempt and started tying it for him.  Mulder stood
up straight and raised his chin to allow her ease.  "You're too
tall.  My arms are starting to hurt," Scully complained good-
naturedly as she continued working on the tie.
        Mulder tried to look at the knot but couldn't.  Instead,
he watched Scully as she worked.  It was another time she was
her most honest.  "Thank you, Scully," Mulder said softly.
        "I haven't finished yet," Scully said, referring to the
Windsor knot.
        "No, I mean thank you for everything you've done for 
me."  Scully glanced at him for a second then returned to the 
tie.  "And not just for the present or tying it for me," he con-
tinued.  "I mean thank you for sticking around and for tolerat-
ing my selfishness, my. . ."
        "Your constant ditching me, dragging me across the coun-
try to investigate weird cases about lake monsters among other
things. . ."  Scully added as she tightened the tie.  She didn't
seem to be aware of how close they were, otherwise she was com-
pletely mindful and tried to distance herself with little eye 
contact.
        "You made a list?"
        Scully folded down his collar, grinning at his tie, "I'm
not done yet.  Actually, I haven't even begun.  Don't forget 
about the countless parasites and diseases. . ."  She raised her
eyebrows on the last sentence to suggest nonchalance, as if the
dangerous infections were part of everyday X-File life.  She 
stopped and looked at him in honesty.  She knew he was actually
apologizing to her.  "But seriously, Mulder, I don't mind.  Some-
times I wish you would realize how much you do it, but 
really. . ."
        Her assurance made him smile in relief and in apprecia- 
tion of her unconditioned acceptance of him.  Abruptly, he 
reached into the inside pocket of his coat and said, "I, uh, got
you something from down the road."  When his hand came out, a 
shiny silver Parker pen came with it.  "It's. . .  It's just a
pen, but. . ." he started, speaking almost timidly.
        Scully looked at him in surprise.  His thoughtfulness
moved her.  She took the pen and weighed it in her hand.  It was
heavy and she found it balanced beautifully as she took a
writer's grip.  "It's magnificent to hold," she told him, awe
tracing her tone.
        On the sleek steel barrel, she could see some kind of 
pattern or etching.  Scully held it closer to study the marks and
saw that they were letters finely engraved in an impressive call-
igraphic font: Dana Scully.
        " 'Dana Scully'," she read under a soft breath.
        "You always seem to be losing your pens."
        She looked at him and he shrugged modestly.  Scully 
couldn't believe he noticed something like that; losing her pens
and before, what she has in her coffee.  What else does he take
notice of? she wondered.  "I'm surprised it doesn't just say 
'Scully'," she smiled.
        "I wanted to have 'Dana' on it to say that it's a gift
from a friend to a friend, not from FBI partner to FBI partner,
but you're always 'Scully' to me, so. . ." Mulder explained,
pointing at the etched names.  He was looking at the pen she 
held, as if he was the one now, avoiding looking at her then,
embarrassed about the sentimentality of it all.
        With her free hand, Scully took Mulder's pointing hand 
and squeezed it, winning eye contact from him.  She was about to
thank him, but the words wouldn't come out.  Instead, on a mutual
impulse, they found their heads gravitating towards each other.
        The kiss was a lingering friendly kiss on the lips.  It
could've stood alone but after it was broken, it was replaced by
another soon after.  This second kiss was much longer and had a 
sweetness that slowly turning into a craving.  Mulder started
lowering to sit onto the bed, holding Scully against him.  He 
pulled her down onto his lap as he sat on the edge of the matt-
ress, one hand moving up into her hair and the other staying 
around her waist.
        Mulder's tongue gently probed deeper past her lips and
met hers.  They teased each other, tasting and exploring, thrust-
ing in and pulling out.  His hand untucked the blouse from her
slacks and lightly slid over her smooth bare back.  He felt her
response in his mouth; a moan and an increase in passion.
        Slowly, Mulder leant back, pulling Scully on top of him.
She straddled his hips, feeling the tautness in his pants under
her.  She heard his groan.  Then a loud crinkle.  And another.
        Scully murmured something quick in Mulder's mouth then
pulled away, breaking the kiss suddenly.  "The files!"  She
rolled off the disappointed Mulder and pulled him up off the bed.
Then she gathered the creased papers and roughly put them back 
into their bent folders.  "I wonder what I'm going to say when
Skinner asks me what happened to these files," she laughed.
        "The truth; you left them on the bed and forgot they were
there, then started making out on top of them with your
partner. . ."  Instead of laughing at his sarcastic joke, their 
faces became serious as they realized who they were and what they
had done; FBI partners becoming romantically and almost sexually
involved.  Taboo.  Scully slumped onto the bed.  "You know, we
can't do this," she finally said.
        "I know," Mulder conceded, looking at the floor with his
hands on his hips.  "But. . ."
        "But what?" Scully prompted, smiling.  "But can we just
do it anyway?"  Seeing Mulder shrug a 'Well, can we?', Scully 
said, "There's definitely something going on in this hotel."
        "What?  With the ghosts?  What makes you say that all of
a sudden?" Mulder asked, unsure where the comment rose from.
        "Maybe not ghosts," Scully replied.  "But something.  I
mean, look at us!  Two normally staid FBI agents who usually keep
at arm's length throwing themselves at each other!"
        Mulder smiled back and sat beside her.  She was trying to
deny that her actions were her own.  "So what's your theory,
Agent Scully?"
        "I'm not sure, yet," she told him thoughtfully.  "Maybe
it's from the fumes in the building.  It's obvious that it's been
undergoing renovation for some months now.  That could explain
why I was so ill last night.  /That/, along with the suggestion
of romance and sex we were given byt he flyer and the condom, we
probably. . ."
        "Isn't it more conceivable that you got a twenty-four 
hour bug, got over it and threw yourself at me because you're 
physically attracted to me?" Mulder teased.
        Scully scoffed.  "I wasn't just the one throwing myself."
        "Whatever."
        "That's what /you/ want to believe," Scully smiled.
        "Then what do you believe?  I know you're not entirely
sure about the theory you just gave me," Mulder said.  Scully 
looked at him.  He was smug, knowing he was right, expecting her
to admit that she was very attracted to him.  Scully didn't want
to give him the pleasure of winning.  "Tell me, Scully," he 
pressed.  "What do you believe?"
        "I don't know," she told him, then smiling confidently,
"but I guess if I have to believe in /something/ in this in-
stance, I'd better start believing in ghosts."

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