From: Hugs2Kissz Date: 13 Feb 2000 23:45:36 GMT Subject: NEW: Eyes Closed Title: Eyes Closed Author: Casey E-mail: Hugs2kissz@aol.com Disclaimer: The X-Files and all characters associated with the show do not belong to me. They are the property of Christ Carter, 1013 Productions, and 20th Century Fox. No infringement intended. Rating: PG Spoilers: Basic ones for Triangle. Summary: Scully wakes up to a situation. Note: Wow^it has been a very long time since I've posted. Here it goes. Feedback: Please! I can hear the rain as it hits the window and then falls to the ground in soft splatters. The sound brings a sense of security and cleansing. Ever since I was a child, the sound of the rain has been soothing. It sounds so trite, but it is true. When you wake up in the middle of the night to the sound of rain, you feel just a bit more relaxed than usual. For a moment, you are at peace. This morning, that peace lasts longer than just a minute. It is dark in the room. The sun is hidden behind the dark clouds of the storm the newscasters have been promising for the past week. I am lying on my side, facing away from him. I can feel his warmth behind me. He is completely silent. I move slowly and quietly closer to him until I feel my back make contact with an arm. I reach behind me and move his arm to lay over me, and I scoot back even further. Finally, he unconsciously takes notice of me and gathers me to him. He nuzzles his nose behind my ear and sighs. I can feel his body completely relax again, and I know he is asleep. "I love you." He speaks it so quietly that I consider I just imagined it. He has told me that, in actual words, only once before and I brushed it off. What else could I do? I was terrified. Now, the urge to return the sentiment is unbelievable. I am guilty of one thing in our relationship. I am yet to tell him three simple words that I know in my heart will mean the world to him. I can't be sure what his reaction will be when I do it, but I know that I will remember it for the rest of my life. I do love him. I always have. He knows me better than anyone in the world, and I depend oh him for everything. Did I hurt him when I acted as if he was joking when he said those words to me just a few months ago? If I did, I am so very sorry Mulder. So much has changed between us. We slept together for the first time only three months ago. It all seems so new. But, I am sure of one thing right now; I am ready to tell you I love you. I can't describe the feeling that is overtaking me right now. It's as if I can't breathe until I tell him how sorry I am, and make absolute sure that he knows I love him. My desperate thoughts are interrupted when I feel him shift slightly behind me. His left arm tightens around my waist and he presses a soft kiss to the spot just behind my ear. I can't do this anymore. I can't hold back from him what is threatening to drive me insane. I loosen his arms with my hands and turn in our embrace until I am on my side facing him. His eyes are closed and he seems unaware of my move. This gives me a minute to look at him. He looks so peaceful. I reach out with my hand and gently run it through his hair and then down the side of his face. My thumb comes to rest on his mouth while the rest of my fingers are splayed out on his cheek. I trace over his bottom lip slowly and then lean in and press my lips to his. I hear him sigh, again, and then as I lay my head back on my pillow; I see his lips curve into the tiniest of smiles. He keeps his eyes closed. I let my hand return to trace the side of his face ever so slightly. I watch him closely and, my heart begins to beat faster and faster. I have to tell him. I want to tell him. I need to tell him. I look closely at his face. His eyes are still closed, but by the way his breathing has changed, and the way his face twitches as I move my hands soothingly over his skin; I know he is awake. I kiss him lightly once more. As I go to move back, his hand reaches to the back of my neck and holds me close. Never once has he opened his eyes, and he still doesn't. He kisses me deeply this time. I can feel his smile under my lips when we stop. The time is now. I watch him carefully and take a breath. I lean into him and whisper into his ear. "I love you." I lean back instantly and he still doesn't open his eyes. He is still. His eyes are still closed and his face looks relaxed. "Open your eyes Mulder." He doesn't. I start to get a bit nervous and upset, until I notice tears start to stream from under his closed eyes. I am stunned and overwhelmed. I whisper a bit louder this time. " I love you with everything that I am, Mulder. You are everything to me." This does the trick. With a sob, his beautiful eyes snap open, and what I see is breathtaking. He reaches out to me, and I willingly go to him. I will never forget the look of pure love and desire I saw when Mulder opened his eyes to me that morning. How can I forget? I see that look every minute of every day now. I can even see it when his eyes are closed, and I see it when I hear the rain. The End Please let me know what you think. It has been a long time since I've written anything so I need some practice and comments.