From: Jenni Bundick Date: Sat, 24 Mar 2001 09:34:38 -0800 (PST) Subject: xfc: NEW: Finality By Jenni Bundick Source: xfc TITLE: Finality AUTHOR: Jenni Bundick CLASSIFICATION: MSR, ScullyAngst RATING: PG SUMMARY: " Death isn't a disease that can be escaped; it's a finality that will forever be." SPOILERS: This Is Not Happening, Cancer arc AUTHORS NOTE: This story was started from a burst of inspiration while reading another fan fiction. It wasn't a TINH fic, but one that had to deal with Scully's cancer. I got thinking and this story was born. FEEDBACK: send all feedback to jenni_bundick@yahoo.com DISTRIBUTION: Everywhere and anywhere, just as long as you tell me DEDICATION: Dedicated to J. Chiprich who's fanfic "Souls" made me write this. +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+ Finality by Jenni Bundick +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+ It's the day after Mulder's wake, well, more like early in the morning of the day after, and I'm laying in my bad, starting at the ceiling. Emotions flow through my veins, closing my throat with tears and clenching my hands in disbelief. My eyes sting with unshed tears that threaten to brim and spill over my face in gushing rivers of grief. Mulder is dead. Mulder is gone, never to come back and see his child. I blink rapidly as my thoughts continue. Is this how he felt during my cancer, faced with the reality that I was going to die, to leave him forever? Did he lay awake at night, starting at the ceiling like I am now? Did he cry at night for a partner that was more than a partner? Did he mourn for me before I was dead? Did he hope that I would miraculously survive and start bantering like everything was normal again? Only, in my case, Mulder can't make a miraculous recovery and come back. Death isn't a disease that can be escaped; it's a finality that will forever be. And as I lie in my bed, my thoughts turn towards the man I loved, the man I still love, lying in the cold hard ground with only dirt to embrace him and my tears finally fall. +*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+ Sorry for this being so short, but I think it works. Send me feedback if you liked it, disliked it, or just plain hated it. I won't be able to respond for awhile, though. I'm going to D.C. and I won't have internet access for a couple of days. Hope y'all have a great spring break!