****************************************************************************** This author's e-mail address has changed to: glavnik@volja.net ****************************************************************************** From: "Mojca Glavnik" Date: Sun, 12 Sep 1999 00:04:28 +0200 Subject: a new story Source: direct Found and Lost Disclaimer: All Characters: Samantha A. Mulder, Cancerman, Fox W. Mulder, Walter A Skinner, Dana K. Scully, the lone gun men and Alex Krycek all belong to the great king CC and Fox. No proffit in this for me. Spoilers: None A short story of Samantha finaly getting the chance to meet her brother and a lot of people don't agree with that but she doesn't listen to his fathers wornings. So he stops her. Character death Hey! It's me again and yes, writing about Samantha again, but totaly different story. It came up while I was sitting at the front desk of our school with the security guy who I just couldn't stand to listen. Well plesent reading. Oh by the way when there is a star on the edge - those are memorys. PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE! U HAVE GOT TO TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK! The story was good; this is the worst crap I ever read? I don't care, just type in some words, so I'll know that someone actualy read it. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - o-0-o- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - FOUND AND LOST As she was searching threw the files all she felt was unimaginable fear. This was the first time in her life she ever felt like this. She finaly had acces. Her hands were deadly cold and her face was pale as death itselfe. Her whole life flashed in front of her eyes. In her stomach there was a horrible fealing of uncertainty. She was scared to death and filled with questions ~ what if ~? Sweat pouring down her face irritated her? then she founaly found it. It said SAMANTHA ANN MULDER. She stared at the file for a cuple of seconds. This all felt so unreal. Carefully she paged threw. She found nothing new accept the thing new to her she could not remember was her house adresse where she grew up. She wrote it on a small peace of paper and shakely put it in her pocket. This was her moment and noone could ruin it. Chilmark, MA 8.00 AM It was spraying outside as she parked her car on what used to be her garden,her playground where she used to play when she was a little girl. She hasn't been here in 25 years and yet it seamed like she was here just yesterday teasing her big brother. She forgot the adresse in her time of confusion when she was a kidbut she still remembered where things stood. Nothing changed but the trees that had grown bigger. The house looked abandoned. The windows were shut down and there was no sound of any life. Sudenly there was a weave of memorys in her head that made her chilly outside and worm within * ?Fox!! Give me gack my diary! You gonna regreat this!? shouted a little 6 year old girl madly at her brother as she broke in his room ?Shut up and get out. Normal girls of your age don't write diarys so that means you don't have one for me to take.? He said cocky ?You are normal aren't you? Stupid me for asking that when I already know the answer. I dont have it!? She hated him when he called her Sammy. She gaved him a killer look and as she turned her back on him to walk out of the room he started to sing in whisper. ??Sammy an' Joey sittn' on a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g?? She slowly turned arownd to see him lying on his bed holding her diary. She stoped herselfe from crying. ?What are you staring at shorty?? he smiled. ?NOOO! Mom!! Fox is reading my diary! Make him stop!? she screamed and crasy attacted her way to strong brother for her to take out. ?I'll kill you you wheasel.? ?It's Fox you little spoiled brat. Here..? he got out of her way before she completly scratched his face and threw her the diary ? there's nothing interestig for me to read here anyway? But Joey is just gonna love this.? He said and started runing away from his wild sister. She chased him for few feet and than suddenly stopped. He was surprised at that move. ?I'm gonna kill myselfe now and Mom and Dad will punish you for that.? She told him with a smile and ran off in the kitchen. Their father wasn't home and their mother was speaking with the new naighbour outside ignorring her children scream. He thought to himselfe ~ she's crasy enough to do it ~ and followed her in the kitchen. He saw her grabing the knife. ?Sam no! Have you lost your mind. MOM!? he yaled. She had that evil smile on her face and those big sparklin eyes were red from her almost crying before. She looked like a devil. Suddenly she grabed a lock of her hair and cut it off and dropped the knife so he would pick it up. And he did. He just looked at her like she was crasy. Well at that point she was. She took the advantage of the moment: ?NO! HELP! MOMMY! NO! HELP ME PLEASE!? she sreamed out. Teena Mulder ran in the kitchen. He just stood there. He got grownded for a month that day. And that little monster didn't even feel sorry for him. * She smiled to herselfe still proud of her acting abillitys. The door of the house was opened. She walked in that dark place filed with memorys that had been lost for so long. It was obvious that noone lives here any more. She stopped in a hallway to see a picture of her familly, but she hated them both ? how could they let her go? She shuted her eyes to stop the painfull memorys but it didn't help. She started looking for an adresse to keep her ocupied from thinking, but she didn't found it. She couldn't stay anymore. It was too hard. She left. Driving away she thouught ~I had 25 years to preapare for the first words to him and yet I have nothing. I can't thik of anything to say to him. Is he gonna belive me even if I say the right words? Do the right words even exist?~ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ She walked into the conference room where she she had expected to find her father alone, but she found him in a middle of a meating. She didn't care. She knew all those people and she just starred at him ignorring the remarks of others. ?I demand to speak to you now ? she said almost calmly. He was sitting there in a smoke screan of his own creation. He pulled in so his face has tightened up. ?You are interrupting a very important meating ? he said calmly. ?I don't realy care ? she said in the same tone of voice. He slovely stood up. ? Will you excuse me gentelman. I have a matter to take care of.? He followed her in the hallway. Ready to talk, he starred at her with those dead expressionless eyes. But she couldn't look him in the face. She looked like a shy little girl, shamed to admit the wrong she did. ?I just wanted you to know that I'm going to him. I don't realy care what you think about hat I just wanted to let you know. I don't know when or how but I'll do it ? I will ? It sounded like she was trying to convince herselfe. Now she was ready to look at him hopping to see the reaction, but there was none. He just turned arownd, when she tryed to stop him from leaving. ?Wait. You owe me ?. I need your help with this. Please. It's the only thing I can ever ask for you to do.? She didn't realy expect an answer but surprisingly he stopped and turned arownd. ?To betray us? To turn against us? I can't allow that and you know it.? ?But I just want to meet him. I want to know him, spend time with him. I promice I won't say a word who I am to him.? ?Fine. Under one condition.? She smiled. ? You don't let him know who you are. I'll make sure that you are asighned on a case with him. You'll know today? ?What? He's here? I mean.. he's a govenmant employee?? She asked dissapointing. ?You'll know today? he said with his small eyes and dissapeares into the office. She stood there for a minute, unwilling to accept. ~what if he's one of them ? one of us? That can't be. I wont let it be~ she thought to herselfe. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ When after a slepless night she got out of bed, she found a newspaper lying on her desk. In the newspaper there was a disk. She went over to the computer and opened the file that was coded. Without a problem she decoded it and started to read. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ?Why do we need her on the case sir? It's nothing that we can't manage ourselves ? complainted the man. ?You need an outside source. And she has the acces to the things we don't even know exist. Belive me agent Mulder ? you need her on this one ? replied AD Skinnner. ?What you mean we need a superveisor. Maybe someone sain? ? he didn't wan't to quit. ?Sir this is not an file. It's a serial killer file. What is so secrative with that that we need Central? There's something elce ? isn't it?? ?No agent Muder not that I'd know of. She's a CIA agent and anyway? this was not my desidion to make.? ?Exsactly. Then why don't they do it themselves if it's so 'high'? Why do they need us? ? ?Agent Mulder ? he worned him ?you will be taking orders from her and obay them. Is that understood?? he leaned over ?Very important men are behind this and you are not to be causing problems. Agent Scully I expect you to keep him on a leashe.? ?Yes sir ? she said with a smile. ?You will be leaving tomorrow. Dismissed.? They sure werent looking forward for the next few days. ?There is something behind this Scully ? he said to her as they walked down the hall. She gave him the look. ?Call it a gut feeling ? _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ For the first time in her life, she was realy nervious walking down the hall of a Federal building. She was feeling like her whole life depends on this day. She walked down the small dark hallway and stopped in front of his door. Her heart was pownding wiled. She took a deep breath and entered. Both agents sudenly stoped the convercation and stared at her not moving a muscle. She too stoped and looked at them. She got even more nervious than before. She almost started histericly laughing but she held herselfe back and just smiled. ?Mornin' ? he said braking the scilence. He looked awfully strict and that scared her a bit. ?Good morning!? woman agent said. She was shaking so heard she could heardely stand on her two feet but she was doing her best in hiding it. Her hands were again ice-cold. .?Hello ? she said. Thank good that there's somebody kind in this room ?My name is Emilly Spender. It's nice to finaly meet you both. There's a lot of talk up there about you two. Well to be specific? ? ?Spender you say?? he stopped her. ?Yeah.? She didn't realy think about what he ment by that. She decided she couldn't stare at him all the time so she searched his office with her eyes. ?Nice. You belive in all this?? she asked him carefully. He ignored that remark. She reminded him on someone he just couldn't think of who but it made him shiver. Scully noticed his confussion right away. A beautifull brunette with hazel eyes looked at him in an admiring way. Still looking at her suspiciously he wouldn't let it go. ?Why?? She choked when she heard his voice again. She couldn't stop looking at him. ?What why?? He didn't answer. He just leaned back in his chair and cross his fingers on his stomach. ?Well?.I?I don't realy know ?.-yet ? she was acting realy good. He almost fell for it. ?So what were you told about the case?? ?You know.. you asked that in a right way 'what were we told'? she felt his resistance. ?Mulder ? his partner finaly stoped him. They startet discussing about the case. The right aproach. The susspects. All this time he looked at her. He didn't know what to make of it. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ A whole week passed by and the case was far away from being solved. It wasn't realy an X file. It was a 'usual' case about a serial killer who skins his victims and then covers them with the balket he makes out of their skin. Anyway the circumstances of the case were rather strange than simmular so the profiling was difficoult. None of the agents seem to notice that Emilly was following Mulder every step of the way. She just wanted him near no matter how rude he was to her. They didn't even talk about anything elce but the case in front of her. They were driving in the car when she quit. She decided she had enough. While she was thinking how to breake the news, his phone rang. ?Mulder.? ?Is it a clear line?? the voice said. ?Wait.? He turned off the speaker. ?OK. Spill.? ?We checked that Missy out. The Spender chik. She's Cancerman's daughter or at least she was rased as one. She worked with Alex Krycek for several years and got out as dead. A blank hole for two years as she was seen with him again. They think she stayed in contact with him all the time while working in Russia. No family, no kids, no boyfriend ? well if you count off the intercourse with Krycek. Mulder she is a being without fealings. She's killled inocent peole. She doesn't care about anybody and has no weak spot. She works for three sides and noone knows whos side shes on.But get this. Are you sitting down?? ?Yeah I'm in the car goin' west.? ?Stop the car now!? He obbayed the voice and pulled over. ?Mulder? What are you doing?? he shut her up with the look she couldn't read. ?What is it?? His heart was pounding wiled. ?I want to tell you all her names. You send me her hair and blod ? I don't even want to know how you get to that one. Her DNA?Well here this out.? ?Should I watch out of this person?? he asked with a shaky voice. She was sitting in the back not paying to much atencion on the convercation. ?No you're probably the only man on the face of this earth she won't hurt. Anyway listen. Her name is: Emilly Spender aka Caitlin Krycek aka Lily Capshaw but her real name?? ?Who?? ?Your baby sis.? A leathal scilence ruled the world for the next 30 sec for agent Mulder. ?If this is a joke it's not very funny and I've killed for it before.? He got mad but unshure. ?You don't belive me? Fine. Don't ask me how I know this but you'll get a phonecall fron the big guy in a cuple of hours. Ask him. He'll tell you. From your father that is. You're a seed of evil. I was affraid of this.? He hung off the phone and collapsed back in his seat. ?Who was that Mulder?? Scully asked him. ?Langly.? He looked in the back mirrow where he saw her worried looking at him. ?Who are you?? there was anger in his voice and she felt it heard. ?Emilly Spe?? ?NO! Tell me who you realy are.? he stopped her. ?I can't.? she whispered. He turned arownd suddenly staring at her. ?DAMMIT! I demand to know!? the yellig was the drop over the edge. She couldnt take it anymore. She got out of the car and started walking away from it. Almost runnig she was crying like never in her life. For a change this was a genuine cry. ?Mulder? What's going on?? she tried. ?Not now Scully ? He got out and ran after her. Scully stayed out with the car trying to understand what was happining. ?Wait.? When she heard his voice behind him she started running even faster. ?Leave me alone! This was a mistake.? she stoped ?It was a mistake.? she said threw her teeth clutched together as heard as she could. He didn't notice that she was crying when he first looked at her. ?Please. Make me understand. Is it true?? then he saw her red eyes looking at him. It was a look that not ever her could fake. She closed her eyes. And bowled her head. ?Yes ? came out a short scilent word. ?It's true ? He smiled. ?What?? she asked him. ?You aren't anything like what I amagined Ifind.? ?You don't know me yet. Don't tell me you belive them - who ever they are?.and whatever they told you.? ?How do you know it isn't something good?? he asked with a smile. ?Is it ever?? ?No. No I don't belive it.? He hugged her and held her tight. ?I mean what are the chances. You and Alex Krycek ? he said satisfied but he felt she loosed the grip and looked at her without any wish of founding out if it's true. ?So it's true isn't it?? he stepped a foot back. ?Are you going to denie me becouse of that?? she asked him. ?He's a ?. What elce is true? Look I want to know now.? He waited for her reply and then releaved not willing to accept the truth said: ?They probably didn't tell you who he was and all. Let's talk about this from the begining. Ok?? ?Mulder.? Came a voice from behin him. ?Bad time Scully go away.? ?We're of the case. He's caught. We have to go back.? she said and just stood there. ?What do you mean caught?? ?By a local sherif. He was caught in the act Mulder. It's over.? He looked at her and then his sister. ?Let's go somewhere to talk. You have 25 years to make up to.? Scully rased her head and opened her eyes as wide as she could. ?Scully I want you to meet my?? ?Mulder? look.? All three of them looked down the dusty road that they been dryvig on. ?Oh God no. NO!? she cryed out. Her heart stopped. She knew it ment the end. ?What? Who is it?? he askes scared. ?Them.? She took the mobile phone from him and broke it. ?Look. You've been bugged all this time.? They were to far from the car to run back now. He looke again in their direction. ?What now?? ?Now one of us lives the other one dies.? When she said that last word the man they all new walked out of the car that stopped about thirty feet away from themand pointed at Scully, shot her in the right shoulder, pointed at Mulder, shot him in the left side of his lower body and pointed at Samantha? ?I'm sorry ? the shooter cencearely said. She saw the face of her lover as he pulled the triger. She saw her father comming out of his car. She saw her brother lying on the flor. She saw red, white ? She reached her hand to her brother. ?Help me Fox?? Then it all went black. ?No Sam please! Not now.? The pain of the bullet in his body was nothing compared to the fealing of loss. The pain that tored him in the stomach. He found her and he lost her. Like 25 years ago again, he did nothing to help her. He couldn't. He felt weak. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ He opened his eyes. He saw white. He felt fear. Has it all bin just a bad dream? He looks at his left to see Scully sitting beside him in hospital clothes. He rolles his eyes. ?Oh no! Is she alive?? ?I don't know Mulder. Noone seems to know where she is. But not to get your hopes up ? I saw it ? Krycek shot her in the head and she was bleading real bad.? ?Everybody betrayed her Scully. She had no one.? ?You don't know that Mulder.? He turned arownd so she couldn't see him cry. ?I'll revendge her Scully or die trying.? ?Mulder, you better rest now. And don't you go and do something stupid. I'm still here and I won't let you leave me all alone, you got that?? ?Well Scully then we'll just have to do it together won't we?? 'I'm sure you'd change your midnd after I told you the truth about her. But I won't 'cause I know it's your one and only maening of life' She thought to herselfe. ?Rest.? she demanded. He closed his eyes but you could see the pain and ager. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxx WHAT DID YOU THINK? Please you've got to write. It's all I live for. I promice I'll reply. 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