Title - Give Me Another Chance
Author - Liz A. M.
E-mail Address - Rick@rmoser.freeserve.co.uk OR liz_a_moser@hotmail.com
Rating - PG
Category - S, A
Spoilers - None
Keywords - None
Summary: Mulder is full of angst after someone close to him tries to commit 
suicide

Disclaimer:  I do not own the characters of Fox Mulder, Dana Scully, Mrs
Scully.  They are the property of 1013, Chris Carter, 20th century and
last but not least the actors who bring these characters to life for our
enjoyment. 

"Give Me Another Chance" by Liz A.M.


How could he have let it happen?  He was meant to protect her.  He should have 
been there for her.  Now he found himself sitting in another hospital waiting to 
hear news on her.  

Mulder was angry with himself and of course blamed himself.

The doctors came out from her room about an hour ago and her mother was at her 
side as soon as she was allowed.  He couldn't go in though.  It hurt too much 
and he did not think he could stand up to the pain of seeing her like that - 
wired up to all the monitors and machine that were barely keeping her alive.
He couldn't face her because of his guilt.  He had treated her so badly in past 
few months; ignoring her, forgetting that she had needs too.  He was to wrapped 
up in work as usual to notice her cries for help.

How could she have even considered suicide?

He knew things had been tough on her lately - his kind of work had that effect 
on people.
He never should have got mad at her -just because he couldn't handle his own 
problems did not mean he had to take it out on her.  He could still remember the 
way he shouted at her, he swore he saw tears - but at the time he did not care.  

He was surprised though at her actions.  He thought.... He knew that she was 
stronger than this.  She was not the kind to commit suicide; she was a strong 
person.  
It seemed he did not know her as well as he had thought.

He watched as her mother left.  They did not talk to each other; they were both 
in too much pain.  

Mulder knew the pain she was feeling; she too would be feeling guilty.  The fact 
that her daughter felt that the world was so bad that she could no longer go on.  
That she did not turn to her mother in her time of pain.

Mulder could not look at her for the feeling of guilt.  He watched as she walked 
down the hospital corridor; he assumed she needed a break, some coffee and to 
contact the rest of her family.

Now it was his turn to be with her. 

As he entered the room, the site of her lying there was enough to set his 
emotions flowing and for the tears to fall.
He sat next to the bed and reached for her hand.  It was so limp as if she was 
not alive at all.

He finally found the courage from between the sobs of despair to talk to her.

	" Why the hell did you do this to yourself.... Godammit.... Did you want 
my attention THIS much cause you sure as hell got it now," he cried.

	"  I know I ignored you lately but.... But to do this.  Was I that hard on 
you?  Did I treat you this badly?
I'm sorry if I failed you, I tried my best.  I didn't mean to shout at you like 
that...I was just.. just."

	" Oh fuck who am I kidding.  I was wrong.  I admit it I was wrong.  But 
why the hell did you have to do this to me.  Is this my punishment."

Mulder continued to sob; he did not notice her standing in the doorway, watching 
him crying for her daughter.

	" I love you.. you know I do.. I always have.... I guess it’s my own fault 
that I never really expressed it much...but you knew I loved.  Your are the most 
important piece in my life.  If you leave me now it will all fall apart." 

	" You know that your not only punishing me... your mother is so 
distraught.  
SHIT... I'm doing it again...I'm sorry, I keep blaming you I know, but I just 
want you to see how this is effecting others beside the two of us.  What 
happened between us....... dammit I'm sorry, please come back to me.  Give me 
another chance.... I won't waste this one..I promise."  He could say no more, 
his throat was hoarse and the words were no longer audible.  He bowed his head 
and sobbed his heart out.

She decided to give him more time with her, and went to speak to the doctors.

He fell asleep by her side, and when he awoke he 
looked up as saw her mother watching him,

	" Fox, " she spoke softly, " She's okay, the doctors say her condition 
has become stable.  She should awaken soon."

" She's going to live?"

" Uh Huh."

" Oh God Scully, I’m going to make it up her ...... and to you too Scully"

"Mulder it’s not me you have to say that to..... Tell it to our daughter."

			
			THE END

Well that's all folks!!  What do think??  This is my first piece of fanfic.....I 
hope it was OK!!!
Please feel free to send your thought good or bad.... I can handle it.. to me, 
Liz at the following e-mail address
Rick@rmoser.freeserve.co.uk
OR at
liz_a_moser@hotmail.com