From kellerp@norwich.net Sat May 24 22:29:15 1997 Subject: Please Post! From: kellerp -------- If you could please post this that would great. Thanks for your time Disclaimer: We don’t own them, we don’t claim to, we are just borrowing them, CC and 1013 productions own M&S, and unless you want about $3, a couple sticks of gum, a pez dispencer, no pez (what is pez anyway?) and lots and lots of Bio homework, I wouldn’t recomend sueing us. Anna, Marie, Bec, Chris, Laura, Julie, Sha,Theresa, Maddie, and Alicia do belong to us though. Oh and all songs used don’t belong to us, they belong to whoever wrote them, we aren’t sure who wrote each. Category- S, MSR, Alternate Universe (plese erase season 4) Rating- PG a couple of bad words This story is dedicated to Laura (Sam, B.B.) Samuelsson. We miss you! Send all praises! Flames? To kellerp@norwich.net and please be kind this is our first post HEAD OVER HEALS- by BOO and BLUMBA J Edgar Hoover, Building Washington DC He walked down to the offfice. Just a normal Friday, well not actually normal, he and his partner were in the office doing paperwork and were not on the field, Great, he thought 10+ hours in front of a computer, because the case report was due to Skinner at the end of the day. The office was empty when he walked in. He looked at his watch, 7:30. Scully wouldn’t be here for at least a half an hour. He’d better get an early start. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- She was happier then she’d ever been. She thought she was happier than she’d ever been. Of course she was happy about the engagement. Jeff was a great guy and he treated her like a pricess, she was happy. She wasn’t happy, however that today was her last day on the X-Files assingment. He already hated Jeff, she knew that. What would he think about him now. She looked up from her feet and at the door of their office, corredtion, his office. Five Years and she still didn’t have her name on the door. He heard the knob of the door turn. She’s here, he thought, let the fun begin, paperwork sucks! “Mulder?” “ Scully. Wait, jsut a sec,” he reaches behind his back to his desk and grabs two pieces of paper, “Pick a hand.” Knowing that if she didn’t he would continue to nag her until she does, she points to his left hand. Mulder proceeds to reveal a piece of paer he was holding saying, “Scully,cOngrats! You have won this cases expense report. Enjoy!” “ MULDER!” Scully is desperate to change the subject, “ I need to tell you something.” “ You have the floor Ms. Scully.” “ Mulder, this is really ahrd for me, so please don’t interupt.” “ You got it.” “ Ok, well her is goes, Mulder you know Jeff,” “ Yes I do,” Mulder interupts with a hint of jealousy in his voice. “ Retorical question Mulder, well he proposed.” “ And you said no?” “And I said yes,” she holds out her left hand, which bears a diamond solitare. “ God help you,” Mulder mumbles not quite out of Scully’s earshot. “ MULDER!” “ Well you know I hate the guy.” “ Mulder! Stop interupting! Anyway I accepted, and as you know his new job is in Californoa, I’m moving out there right after the wedding, which will be tommorow in a small court cermony. The wedding is so soon because Jeff really needs to get to California and I am going to be with him when he leaves. You are invited, and because of the cicumstances ths will be my last day here.” “ Shit why didn’t you tell me sooner?” “ Because I didn’t know until last Monday and I didn’t tell you then because I was afraid you would do something rash.” “ Are you happy?” Mulder asks looking and sounding like the saddest lost puppy. “Very.” “ The n you have my blessing, but I refuse to watch you marry that jack-ass.” Scully turned her heal and walked to her area of the office. The rest of the day passed in virtual silence. The hour hand of the clock hit five Scully decided it was time to leave. “ Well I guess this is it,” Scully began. Mulder jumped from the paperwork and stood. “ We keep in touch,” it was a statement, not a question. “ You betcha mister,” Scully said trying to joke, but failing miserably. They look into each others eyes, both filled with tears. They take a step clsoer to each other and Mulder pulls Scully into a hug. She finally broke down, shaking in his arms for at least ten minutes. When she finally regained control and looked up into Mulders own tear stained face stating the obvious, “ I’m going to miss you.” Knowing that if she din’t leave now she never would. “ I love you,” Mulder told the shut door. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Mulder’s Car He had finaly stopped crying. God it was hard to know she would be in the office on Monday. Friends like her were a once in a life time thing. He couldn’t wait to get home, he just wanted to get drunk, and try and forget this entire day. Traffic slowed down, he turned on the radio to entertain himself until it began move. His hand turned on the radio jsut as a song began to play. I could hardly believe it, when I heard the news today. I had to get it straight from you. They said you were leaving some one had swept your heart away. By the look on your face I know it’s true. So tell me all about it, tell me all the palns your makin’ And tell me one more things before you go. It could be him singing that song, he had practically said that to Scully today, though not in as many words. Tell me how am I supposed to live without you? When I’ve been loving you so long. Oh, tell me how am I supposed to live without you? How am I supposed to carry on? When all I’mm livin’ for is gone. That was him, this song was him. God, it hurt so much, but he couldn’t bring himself to turn off the radio. Too proud for cryin’ didn’t come her to break down, Just a dream of mine that’s comin’ to an end. Wh yshould I blame you, that I built my world around The hope that we so much more than friends! And Idon’t wanna know the price I’m goin’ pay for dreamin’ Even that is more then I can bere. That was why he would go to the wedding, not because he hated Jeff, although he did, and he knew it hurt Scully not to have him the wedding, but he couldn’t let her go and he couldn’t watch someone else take away his angel. Oh tell me, how am I supposed to live without you? When I’ve been lovin’ you so long. Oh, tell me how am I supposed to live without you? How am I supposed to carry on? Whe all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone. This hurt so much, God it hurt, but why couldn’t he turn off the radio? Because it was so true and the truth ment so much to him, is that what drove her her away? I don’t wanna know the price I’m gonna pay for dreamin’ know that your drem has come true. Oh tell me... Mulder finally turned off the radio, the tears were freely falling as he walked into his apartment. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Scully’s Car Scully was not having much better luck than Mulder getting home. Although she was not in a traffic jam, she could barely see the road because her eyes were blurred with unshed tears. Listening to the radio station, she always picked when she and Mulder were on stake outs, Dana, she thought to herself, you have to stop thinking about him, you’re getting married tommorow, after all. Then a song came on, she had heard it once or twice bfore but she couldn’t remember the lyrics, so she listened. Every now and then we find a special friend who never lets us down, Who understands it all, lifts us up each time we fall, Your the best friend that I’ve found. I know that I can’t stay, but part of me will never ever go away My heart will stay. This is what she should have told Mulder today, this may have helped his pain a little, and mabye even her’s too. I’ll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true. That life will just be kind, to such a gentle mind. And if you lose your way, think back on yesterday. Remember me this way, Remember me this way. Yes she and Mulder both needed to remember the good times, the first year before her abduction, and after she had been returned, the late night stake outs and the candids they took to use up the rolls of film in the evidence camera, the meetings with Skinner, the 2:00 am phone calls, man would she miss those. I don’t need eyes to see the love you bring to me No matter where I go, I know that you’ll be there. Forever more a part of me, your everywhere. I’ll always care. He loved her, she knew that, and she loved him, but their love went beyond marrying love, the kind she had with Jeff, it went deeper, that was why it was so hard to leave him. I’ll make a wish for you and hope it will come true. That life would just be kind, to such a gentle mind. And if you lose your way think back on yesterday. Remember me this way, Remember me this way. Mulder, she thought had better remember to stay in line, he better not get shot or lose his way and get into something he shouldn’t, she had always kept his head out of the clouds. And I’ll be right behind your shoulder watching you Standin’ by your side in all you do. And I won’t ever leave, just as long as you believe. You just believe. Mulder, you believe in everything else please have the strength to know that I will always be with you in spirit. I’ll make a wish for you, in hopes it will come true. That life would just be kind, to such a gentle mind. And if you lose your way, think back to yesterday. Remember me this way, Rememder me this way. And please Mulder, please don’t forget me. The tears began to fall as she parked her car and headed for her apartment. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Scully’s Apartment “Who stepped on my foot?” “ Your lucky Maddie that you can still feel your feet” “ Not my fault you got pregnant Bec.” “ Screw you Maddie.” “Shut up everyone, here she comes!” shouted Ellen , the organizer of the fiasco that had now become Scullys apartment. She was still crying when she reached her apartmant. Tey key turned in the lock, the light switched flipped on and, “SURPRISE!” Dana, still sobbing, mangaged a gasp of surprise while exclaiming in utter frustration, “ Now would not be the time.” “ Buck up Dana. This is your bachlorette party.” “ I’m not blind Ellen, I’m just not in the mood for partying,” Dana had regained some conrtoll and had stopped sobbing, but uncontrolable tears still fell on the already tear stained checks. “ Your crying,” another friend observed. “Just like Anna to state the obvious.” “ Marie, she was just trying to be helpful. I just had a really bad day at work and you will not believe how truthful the radio stations are,” Dana wiped her face and regained some of her composure, she was determined to have a good time, after all she was getting married, “ Oh okay so who’s all here and where are we going because we are not staying in my apartment.” “ Me, Anna, Amrie, Julie, Maddie, Alicia, Laura, Chris, Theresa, Shannon, Bec, and the bar,” Ellen offered. “ Oh, they are going to love this group,” Dana replied sarcastically, “ Who’s driving?” she asked, forcing a smile and with that they were off. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Bud’s Bar and Club “ I hate my life, I hate my life, it was bearalbe with her but now she’s out and it is worse than before she came. Why didn’t I tell her? I just let her leave.” Mulder half told the bartender half told his beer. Mulder noticed the group walking into the bar, but didn’t spot Scully who was hidden by some of the other women. “Go find a date,” the bartender said, nodding to the group, “ it’ll make you feel better.” “Nothing will make me feel anything unless she comes back.” “You are so far gone,” the bartender stated. He had met this person the guy was talking about, and while she was pretty, but not all that special to look at. He knew that the two of them had something special, how couldn’t they? This red-head that he was mourning had picked this guy up after he’d been wasted more times than he could count, and she had been sympathatic, like she knew that something was worth getting as wasted as he did. Everything should work itself out, if the world was fair, but then again, the world isn’t fair. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Table at the other end of the club “ So Dana, where are you going on your honeymoon?” Maddie, one of the curious single friends asked. “ No clue, the whole thing was so sunden I don’t even know if we are having one,” Scully asnwered monotonously into her drink. “ You’re a bore.” “ Gee, thanks Bec, you’re so helpful.” “ Anna, Marie, Julie, Maddie, Alicia and I are going guy searching, All you boring one man girls can stay here.” “ Bite me Laura.” “ Careful Sha, she may you up on that offer. “ Theresa, butt out.” “ Foul mood?” “ Kinda, Mike didn’t come home until one last night and I just met his new secratary.” Many Ohhs were heard by the group and that subject was dropped for the night and Ellen moved tocomfort her. “ Okay all singles,” Julie announced cheerfully, trying to brighten up the party, “ put your smiles on, hottie at 3:00 o’clock. At that they all got up and rubbeds Scully’s and Sha’s arms as a sign of sympathy and were off. Both Sha and Scully remained with their heads hidden in their crossed arm. Now only Ellen, Chris, Bec remained with Scully at the table. Theresa had taken Sha to the bathroom to clean up her face and then to buy the food. “ Dana dear, why so glum?” Scully barely responded to the name, she wasn’t Dana she was Scully, but she had left him, she would never be Scully again. “ Wha? I’m sorry Bec. What were you syaing?” “ I was askingwhy you were so depressed. You should be estatic or nervous, not sucidal looking. Your getting married tommorow!” “ Oh, Bec. I’m not sure I want to leave my job and move half way around the country.” Scully explained. “ Is it the job, or this partner of yours?” “Never Chris, Dana doesn’t think that much of her partner at least she didn’t four years ago. If I recall correctly, and I quote, ‘He’s a jerk. No. He’s not a jerk he obsessed with his work.” “ Ellen!” “ Well that’s what you said.” “Four years ago! Mulder is Mulder and his obsessions are part of him and he is one of the best friends I have ever had. I’m going to miss him a lot, does that explain hwy I’m upset? I had to say goodbye to him today and he refuses to come to the wedding.” “ It’s okay D.K., you still have Jeff and here is a sight that may cheer you up. Look at the others swarming that poor guy, Ellen, Bec, you look too this is too good to miss!” -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Bar “ Okay guys, I got him first.” “ Why you Julie?” “Because, Alicia, I spotted him first.” “ You go girl!” “ Laura you need a life,” Julie remarked as she walked towards Mulder. Laura the youngest of the group, maturity wise, stuck her tounge out at Julie in a playful manner. The mass then began to inch towrds Julie and Mulder, effectivaly blocking out them from the table where the others sat. “ So you here alone?” “Wha?” Mulder, startled, looks up “ Oh, yeah I guess.” “ You wanna dance?” Mulder then realized a new dance was now starting “Because You Loved Me” by Celine Dion. He and Scully had danced to that at the FBI Christmas gathering to which Skinner had made them attend, together at that. This all had to be a dream, she would be in the office Monday morning. Damn, why did this have to hurt so much! He made himself hide his emotions. “ No, no really.” “ You wanna talk?” Mulder noticed the other friends all leaning towards them and realizes that they are listening. His Mulder sarcasm kicks in, but the depression was too much and he couldn’t make a joke. “ If you and your friends want to talk to an extremely depressed guy who just lost his partner and has nothing but his sucky job left to live for.” As he says this, the rest of the group hears this and they swarm. “ Well maybe we,” Julie gestures towards the group,” can help to cheer you up.” “ I don’t think so but you can try if you like.” -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Back at the table “What are you guys staring at? You look engrossed.” Sha asked, she appeared to be in a better mood. “Sha, hi, they are staring at the others swamp this total unaware and helpless guiy that we can’t even see and they think it is totally hilarious. “ Thanks Da, that explains a lot.” Theresa procedes to wave her hand in front of Bec, getting no response. “ We brought some burgers and fries.” “ Thanks Theresa maybe the smell of food will break this daze the guys seen to be in it. That moment the single group gave up thrying to cheer up Mulder and started towards the table, this effectivaly broke the trance. While they were eating it seem ed that Dana might have been cheered up a bit and then, “Dana, if Jeff didn’t already have you, I would say that I have found the perfect guy for you. He was so depressed, kept babbling about some girl leaving him, poor guy was head over heals and beyond the point of no retrun.” “ ‘Licia!” “ So Dana, what is it like to be in love, head over heals and beyond the point of no return?” “ I’m not sure you should be asking me that Marie I mean I love Jeff, but it is a different kind of love.” “ Fine Dana. That enlighten and tell us what you think it might be like to head over heals.” “ Well Anna, for you I’ll try, Head over heals to me would be when you would do anything for a person, die, lie, kill, and they would od the same for you. They will protect you and you them, no matter what. They are like your other half, sometimes better, sometimes worse. You don’t feel right or whole without them. Your soulmate. They are alwaysthere for you, and you for them. Your are there to hold their hand, give them a hug, a shoulder to cry on and just be there and that will be enough, just to be with them. You believe in them always, even if you don’t agree with them. You trust them and most of all you have to be frineds first. How’s that for a defintion?” “ That sweet-heart is a defintion from a person who is head over heels. You and Jeff are so lucky!” “ Thanks Ellen, that was just what I needed to hear, it makes me feel more confidant about what I am going to do tommorow,” Dana added trying not to sound sarcastitic and trying to change the subject before the others realized as she had that she was not speaking of Jeff. “ Hey Julie,” Dana siad. “ Yeah, D.K.” lokking breifly up from her Bloody Mary, with in which she was making circles with her straw. She was obviously bored. “ Could you show me that guy you were talking about, maybe I could cheer him up a little.” “ Um, yeah sure,” Julie points over her shoulder towards the bar, “the guy in the siut.” “Thanks J.” -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Bar “ Oh God, please not another one,” Mulder mumbled to himself as he hears foot steps comeing towards him. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Table She looked up and saw who Julie was pointing to, Mulder. ‘Licia said he was head over heals, and Ellen siad I was head over heals, and I d olove Mulder, could he, does he, love me? I better go talk to him, just to see what is on his mind. Dana thought all of this as she made an almost mechanical motion towards Mulder. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Bar Mulder didn’t even look up when he felt a tap on his shoulder. “ I don’t want to dance, and no I don’t need another drink.” “ Fine, if you want to be like that I’ll go and sit down, but I just wanted to talk.” “ Scully?!” “ Yeah, but pretty soon it will be just Dana, without you to keep up that Scully nonsense.” “ Then don’t leave.” “ I have to Mulder. I’m getting married and his job is in California.” “ Then don’t marry him.” Why couldn’t he just say it. She saw it in his eyes he loved her, she knew she loved ihim, then why could she or he just admit it. “ I’ll still work with the Bureau so maybe we can still work together once in a while.” “ Scully we have already had this conversation once and I don’t want to have this conversation again. Your making a mistake, but I’m respecting your desicion. Now please lleave, I don’t want to ruin your party with my foul mood.” She had to find out, she needed to have him hold her one more time. “ Dance?” “ What?” “ Dance Mulder, its when you move around to the beat of music. You do know how to dance don’t you?” “ Yes of course but...” “Then dance with me. The band is starting a new song. “ Yes” They stood up and walked to dance floor. The music began to play, it was a sweet ballad. They stared dancing about a foot apart, very conservitavley and very nervously. It must have been cold there in my shadow. To never have sun light on you face, You were content to let me shine. You always walked a step behind. I’m so sorry Scully I never gave you the credit you deserved. He pulled her a little closer. I was the one with all the glory. While you were the one wiht all the strength. Beutiful face without a name. Beautiful smile to hide the pain. Scully, I’m so sorry for what I did to you. You had the strength to keep be sane and alive, You have always been beautiful, especially your smile as rare as it may be. I’m sorry I’ve caused you so much pain. He proceeded to puull her even closer. Did you ever know that you’re my hero, And everything I would like to be. I can fly higher than an eagle, ‘Cause you are the wind beneath my wings. Scully you truly are my hero. I wish I was more like you, more down to earth, stronger, but with you near me I can soar and feal safe, because you truly are te\he wind beneath my wings. She too felt the meaning of the son and leaned her head against his shoulder. It may have appeared to go unnoticed That I’ve got all here in my heart. I want you to know I know the truth. I would be nothing without you. Yes, for four years they had refused to noticed it, the feeling in their heart, but know they at least knew one truth, they were nothing if they weren’t together. They were a team. He bowed his head and she lifted hers. Did you ever know that your my hero And everything I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle ‘Cause you are the wind beneath my wings. They kissed, four years of tension. He knew then he had the one he could never leave, any pain he had felt because she was gone wouldbe far worse becasue know he knew she loved him. She would not marry Jeff, beacuse she was head over heals for Mulder. The wind beneath my wings. Fly, Fly, Fly away. You let me fly so high, So high I nearly touched the sky Thank you, Thank you, Thank God for you the wind beneath my wings. They looked at each other. “ Thank you.” The End? Should we continue, we have lots of ideas of how to tell Jeff. If so e-mail kellerp@norwich.net Oh and please be kind this is our first post.