From: "Cheryl Massie" Date: Tue, 22 May 2001 19:24:52 +0100 Subject: Heaven (1/1) Source: xff Title: Heaven (1/1) Author: CM Email: nuttier_tart@hotmail.com Archive: Yes. Anywhere. Disclaimer: Okay, it *is* official now. Mulder & Scully belong to each other! Keywords: MSR Spoilers: Existence *melts* Rating: PG Summary: Am I in heaven? I must be. Is this a dream? It must be. It is just too good to be true. Author's Notes: Okay, I know there must be soooo many fics based on "Existence" going around at the moment, but I just had to write this little piece. I hope you enjoy it. I'm still smiling from the end scene :-) ^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~ I'm sitting here searching for the right words to make sense of my emotions. I am searching for the impossible. How can something as simple as words put such emotions into description? Am I in heaven? I must be. Is this a dream? It must be. It is just too good to be true. I have everything my heart could ever desire. I have Mulder. And I have a beautiful baby boy. Our son. Little William. When Mulder first took William into his arms, something powerful hit me deep inside. It was so intense. So immediate. So overwhelming. I don't know what it was. I don't think that feeling has been given a name yet. Mankind is still struggling to understand love. This feeling goes far beyond love. It would scare the hell out of them. But for me, it was the most wonderful feeling I could have experienced. Mulder was perfect with William. So loving. And gentle. I thought that he might be a little unsure at first. He hasn't exactly had a lot of experience with children. But when he pulled our son into his arms, and softly hummed until William settled, it looked as though it was the easiest thing in the world for him. So natural. He looked at William in complete awe. I looked at Mulder in complete awe. He couldn't take his eyes off William. I couldn't take my eyes off Mulder. Earlier I had been the same. Unable to take my eyes off this beautiful life that we created together. Off this miracle. I knew Mulder believed it. When he said, "...but the truth we both know." I knew exactly what he meant. But I had to ask. I needed him to be specific. "Which is what?" I asked. Then I saw it clearly. His eyes burnt with love. Drinking me in. Claiming me entirely. I felt his lips getting closer and my knees trembled. My heart danced in my chest. My stomach warmed and tickled. When his lips touched mine, soft but firm, I cried inside. It felt so very right. I needed to touch him, so I brought my hand to his arm. William cooed peacfully as the extreme love encased him. It was such a beautiful moment. One that I will remember and cherish forever. I am finally happy. Complete. And as I look at Mulder now, sleeping with William on his chest...I realize something. Something that I should have realized a long time ago, despite everything that I have been though. I am the luckiest woman alive. ~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^ END Did that make you smile? I LOVE feedback to bits and if you want to put an even BIGGER smile on my face (if that's possible) then please drop me a line: nuttier_tart@hotmail.com Thank you! Oh, and could you guess that the last paragraph was sort of describing how i feel too? "Such a beautiful moment...one that I will remember and cherish forever...etc etc" :-) Visit my site: http://shipperstruelove.homestead.com for fanfiction, poetry, pictures and more....