From: Scoob Date: Wed, 20 Mar 2002 00:58:35 -0800 (PST) Subject: Submissions Source: direct Title: A Hero Author: Nichole Rating: G Category: MSR, V, Scully's POV Spoilers: Takes place after season 8 Summary: Why have you left me, Mulder? Archive: Just ask. Feedback: Please do! scoob4u@yahoo.com Disclaimer: Not mine. Theirs. 1013 & Fox get credit, as well as Chris Carter. HomePage: http://www.geocities.com/scoob4u/Nicholes_FanFic.html Author's Notes: Okay, this may be a little depressing in some ways, but hopefully it will also be inspirational to the dreamer X-Philes. Read it and see what you think! X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X You were supposed to be here, but you're not. You were supposed to hold me, but you're not. You were supposed to wait for me, but you didn't. Why have you left me, Mulder? What wrong must you set right today? What life must you save, what atrocity must you prevent? You run off at the drop of a hat on a whim, and refuse to keep your feet planted for more than a day. You constantly blow me away with your theories and paranoia, but I never thought for a moment that you'd actually act on them after what has happened between us. I thought that you'd stay with me. I thought that you'd want to be here with me; that perhaps fatherhood would be your new mojo, your life force. Maybe I thought too much. You're a runner, Mulder. You always have been. You take off when you think you can save something dear. When someone dangles a carrot in front of you, you don't nip--you bite. Hell, you'd probably ask for another. But that's one of the most endearing things about you, Mulder. You're a fighter. I can only hope and pray that you'll be a winner this time. God help me if I have to bury you again. Every time that I look at William, I see your face shining back at me. Although he looks more like Skinner, as you once told me, I see you in him. I see your courage and your strength in his eyes, and that, in itself, has been a great comfort to me. I know you're doing this for us, and for William. You leave me just when life was beginning to look good, and run off to fight the aliens again. Do you have any idea how afraid for you I am? No, you don't. And maybe, that's a good thing. If you knew, you wouldn't have gone, and the world wouldn't be as safe as it is with you on its side. You're a hero, Mulder. You are my hero. You're William's hero. You are once again putting your life on the line for mine, and I don't know whether to kiss you for it or kick your ass. Hopefully, I'll have the chance to do both. But Mulder, I want you to know that my door will always be open to you, and that my home is yours. In my arms you will always find your refuge. I think you already know that, but in some strange way I feel that I should confirm it. You always seem to know what I'm thinking, so in this way I suppose I can communicate with you like no other. I love you, Mulder and I want you back. William wants you back. Hell, I think Frohike is a little lonesome without you as well. I know you'll come home when you're ready; when it's safe. When the danger of the unseen forces of darkness has been dampened, I know that you'll come home. You always do. All my love, Scully Tha End.