From: =?iso-8859-1?q?Catherine?= Date: Fri, 6 Jun 2003 13:52:22 +0100 (BST) Subject: I Only Wanted by Caite Source: direct Title: I Only Wanted Author: Caite Date: 22/5/2003 Rating: PG-13/R Category: Relationship Keywords: DRR. Reyes. Doggett. Skinner Summary: Reyes and Doggett are emotionally confused by each other. A drunken one-night stand has made them feel more confused. How do they really feel? And what do they want from each other? The lean more by being open and honest than either of them had imagined possible. Spoilers: Empedocles, Release, Sunshine Days (vague references) Disclaimer: Although Doggett, Reyes, Skinner, and Follmer are not mine Chris was in a good mood when I started this so he doesn't mind. The records I picked I have in my collection but unfortunately I don't own the copyright to any of them. However Julieta & Drake are mine ;D Authors Notes: Reyes & Doggett are lil bit out of character but this wouldn't have worked otherwise. I tried writing Reyes & Doggett fic before & always included Scully & Mulder. It didn't work. This is only my 1st attempt at Reyes & Doggett fic so if it's crap forgive me! My American geography isn't all that good, as I never touched on it in school! My X-Files knowledge however is a lot better than my geography! This was written while I was in the middle of doing coursework and revision for Uni. Feedback: All feedback welcome send it to terricaite@hotmail.com Archive: On the condition I know where my baby goes & that my details are kept on! I Only Wanted by Caite Fox Mulder's office, 3:12pm Doggett is writing up a case report and thinking about Reyes, who he hasn't seen since that night 2 weeks ago. Reyes enters the room ignoring Doggett "Evening Monica" "Whatever John, Whatever" Doggett says "I don't get it Monica, I don't understand any of this" "Well that makes two of us john as I don't understand it either" Reyes adds "I'm gonna be off work for two weeks, Skinner gave me some leave to sort myself out" Doggett in a sarcastic tone "wow two weeks have fun" "Bye John" 67 Bennett Avenue 72 hours later Reyes is sat on the edge of the bath drumming her fingers impatiently *Alarm clock beeps* "Five minutes are up, two blue lines - PREGNANT" Reyes mutters "oh crap what the hell do I tell John? Tuesday 2nd March, 6am Falls Church, Virginia Doggett is thinking out loud "Do I phone her to talk? Go over to her place to talk? Or do I write her a letter telling exactly how I feel about her?" "Oh crap, I only wanted, now I'm confused!" "Screw it, I'll write her a letter and tell her exactly how I feel about her" *NEW MESSAGE: READ NOW? * -JOHN I ONLY WANTED, I'M NOW CONFUSED OUT OF TOWN REST OF THIS WEEK, MONICA- Doggett mutters "well at least that gives me a bit of time" AD Skinner's Office, 11am Skinner says "Agent Doggett I'm sure that you are aware that I granted Agent Reyes two weeks leave, affective of Friday last" Doggett enquires "She tell you why she needed two weeks?" "Not really, she just said that she had to get her life into perspective after something that happened with a close friend" Doggett in a state of confusion "A couple of weeks ago, we were out and had a bit too much to drink, I think even you can figure the rest" Skinner says "I know there is an attraction, but when Monica comes back you'll have to resolve the situation" "Monica sent me a text around 6am she's gonna be outta town the rest of this week" Friday 5th March, 9:25am Mexico City Reyes is making coffee "Morning Nic, been up long hun?" "No I just got up, morning mom" "Any coffee left sweetie?" "Yeah, plenty I just made it" "What's wrong hun?" Reyes sighs "Everything, nothing, everyone, no-one" "Nic spill, I know you too well and you've never been any good at hiding your feelings" "Maybe later I'm going for a drive I need to think" Monterey Bay 11:04am Reyes is sitting on the beach drinking a can of Diet Sprite "John, John, John What are we gonna do now?" *Reyes phone rings* "Hello" "Agent Reyes it's AD Skinner, where are you?" "I'm in Mexico City with my family, why d'you ask?" "Well when you get back to DC you and Agent Doggett are gonna get everything out in the open, anything you need to tell him Reyes?" "Yeah it'll keep till I get back" "My office Monday morning, 8am" *Reyes turns phone off* Mexico City, 10:13pm "Finally Nic you're back now spill" "OK dad I'll tell you both, it's important" Reyes begins "A couple of weeks ago I was with John hanging out after work" Julieta urges Monica "Go on hun, what happened?" "Well we went back to his place for a couple of beers, as we'd ran out of cash, anyway one thing lead to another" Drake curiously says "and?" "We had sex" "Now you're telling us what Nic?" "I'm pregnant but I have my reasons for not telling John" *Julieta leaves the room* Monica asks Drake "Dad what am I gonna do?" Drake replied "Nic tell me why you find it hard to tell him?" "You might not remember but back in '93 I was working a case that involved John" "Yeah vaguely carry on hun" "His son. Luke was 7. He was kidnapped and murdered by small-time New York gangster Nicholas Regalli" Drake sympathetically " So you're having a hard time telling him because he" "Still holds a lot of pain for his son. I wanna tell him real bad. Yet I'm a little confused as he's been carrying on like nothing happened. I don't even know, not for sure how he feels deep down, y know in his heart, he's had that barricaded for the last 11 years" "Nic maybe you being pregnant is like giving John a second chance at fatherhood, a chance to start over with his life, maybe you're meant to be together" "Yeah you might be right dad, but there has been the lil problem of his ex-wife from the day that they" Drake asks "from the day that they what hun?" "The day they scattered Luke's ashes in the ocean at Virginia Beach" "I take you were there Nic" Monica answers "I drove him up there. I parked the car up on a hillside and waited. Anyway afterwards I hugged him I didn't really think anything of it y'know I was there for him as a friend" "Continue Nic" "A Couple of weeks after that we were working a case that basically could have validated The X-Files unit. Oliver Martin was a man who had these amazing powers, was gravely ill in hospital and we walked outta there holding hands" Drake insistently says "Nic when you get back to DC tell John, I'm urging you to tell John the least you could do is give him a chance considering all he's been through in his life and times, so what if his ex-wife's jealous she's the past you're the future, he deserves a second chance to be a father again doll" 2am Monica says "I'm flying back east tonight so I'll be in DC around 11pm and I'll tell him on Monday" "Why Monday Nic, why not tomorrow?" enquired Drake "AD Skinner arranged a meeting for Monday morning so although I'll still have next week off I've to go into work" "Nic I think this whole situation is messy and it" "It could get a whole lot messier" 7am Julieta says "Your dad told me about the talk that you had last night" "Yeah what of it mum?" "Nic when you get back to DC you have to tell John and get your man" Monica replies "I'm gonna make sure I get my man when I get back to DC" Julieta says "Describe him to me Nic" "John is basically the old cliché tall dark handsome, although there is nothing basic about him, he has the most intense eyes the shade of Ocean blue that you could just go swimming in" Drake enquires "all packed hun? I'll drive ya to the airport" *Monica hugs Julieta and Drake* "Bye guys I'll be back before the baby arrives" Julieta tearfully "Make sure you do Nic and next time bring John" Fox Mulder's Office 24 hours later Skinner enquires "Agent Doggett what are you writing, I know it's not a case report" "Nothing much, a letter to Monica" "Saying what exactly?" Doggett answers "I'm telling Monica exactly how I feel about her, cause if I tell her to her face she'll laugh at me and then that'll confuse me even more" "John what if she feels for you what you feel for her, maybe she's just as scared and nervous as you are, or maybe you get a second chance at family life" Doggett shocked "Monica's pregnant?" "I don't know but what if your one night stand has given you a second chance, this time with someone you truly love" Doggett says "For these past few weeks Monica has been really cold towards me, especially afterwards when I tried to carry on like nothing had happened, I'm thinking maybe I confused her emotionally" AD Skinner's Office, 8am Skinner asks "You been waiting long Reyes?" "No sir I just got here" Skinner sternly "My office both of you" "You have to do that?" enquired Doggett Skinner laughs "Quite frankly yes I did, AD Follmer was walking by and looking" Reyes asks "Can we just get on with this I have a doctors appointment at 9:30" "Monica you really screwed me up emotionally by been so cold towards me after we" "After we had sex, John you're not the only one who's confused, I'm emotionally confused by you acting like nothing had happened, like I was nothing to you" "Monica this needs resolving for the better, where did you go? I want the old you back, not this cold hate-filled person you've become" Reyes says "John I agree with you that this little situation of ours needs resolving but I have not become cold or hate-filled all I've done is put my barriers back up" "Where you run to Monica?" "I went home to see my family while I was there I had a real long talk with my dad, he said the I should just tell you but it's really hard to say to you" Doggett quips "Dollars to donuts Mon, it can't be that hard can it?" "Yes it can, that for me?" "It is Mon, read it then get back to me when the old you returns, I have work to do" "John I only wanted" "Yeah Monica I only wanted, just read the note" Skinner enquires "all resolved?" "Not yet sir" Reyes answered *Doggett slams Skinner's door * 67 Bennett Avenue, 11:30am Reyes reads "Dearest Monica, I've loved you since the day we met all those years ago. I've been in love with you from a distance for the longest time. All I ever wanted to do is tell you but it was either fear or cowardice on my part because of my not knowing how you felt or even if you felt the same for me as I feel for you. All I'm asking for Monica is a chance, a chance at spending the rest of my life with you. Monica I only wanted you to be more than my friend; I honestly believe that in crossing the line with you that I have been given a second chance. Monica I'm gonna let you decide whether or not we have a future together. This is in your hands now. I need to know no longer am I able to live my life like this. Yours for eternity (if you'll have me that is) Love John" Reyes emotionally "He feels the same I do, I'm gonna have to tell him" 12:59pm *Doggett knocks on Reyes's door* "John what are you doin' here? I was gonna call you later" Doggett says, "I take by your mascara running you've read my letter, feel the same and have something to say" "You're right john I do have something to say, yes I do feel the same and yes John I only wanted you to be more than my friend so I'm glad that we crossed the line but what I'm gonna say to you now is gonna be a lil bit difficult for you to take in" "How difficult Mon?" "Not sure what your reaction will be" "Continue Monica" I'm pregnant John, it's why I had to see my doctor this morning to have the pregnancy confirmed and that was after I bought three home tester kits" 4:01pm Doggett says "Monica the one thing I know, I remember for sure about our one night stand is that I used a condom, you insisted that we used something and I respected that" "Yeah I know you did john but they do sometimes split" "For real?" "Yeah I read it in a magazine ages ago" "Monica tell me something" "What do you want me to tell you?" "I wanna know how you feel about me now, you gotta be honest with me" Reyes sweetly says "Ok John I'm always honest with you, I feel the same things for you that I've always felt" "Come on Monica hit me with it" "Like you have me, I've loved you from a distance, been in love with you since the day we met. I even felt the same level of pain you did when we found Luke but for different reasons" "Monica what reasons?" Reyes pauses "I don't now if you're aware but I was adopted as a baby, Julieta and Drake aren't my real parents but they always have raised me and treated me as theirs and not that I'm grown they continue to do so" "But" "Finding Luke made me realise that my real mum didn't really care enough or have the decency to give me hope before she gave me life" Doggett asks "Do you hate your real parents Monica?" "No I've never seen a picture, contacted or even met them so how can I hate someone who is just basically faceless and nameless" Doggett says "I hate to interrupt Mon but we were talking about how we really feel for each other" "Oh yeah" *Radio: Otis Redding - I've Been Loving You Too Long To Stop Now* I've been loving you too long to stop now There were time and you want to be free My love is growing stronger, as you become a haven to me Oh I've been loving you a little too long I don't wanna stop now, oh With you my life, Has been so wonderful I can't stop now There were times and your love is growing cold My love is growing stronger as our affair [affair] grows old I've been loving you a little too long, long, I don't want to stop now Oh, oh, oh I've been loving you a little bit too long I don't wanna stop now No, no, no Don't make me stop now No baby I'm down on my knees Please, don't make me stop now I love you, I love you, I love you with all of my heart And I can't stop now Don't make me stop now Please, please don't make me stop now [Good god of mine]I love you I love you, I love you, I love you I love you, I love you I love you in so many different ways... I love you in so many different ways.... Doggett stares at Reyes. Reyes smiles back "What John?" "Nothing Monica" "John this song is just so us" "Sure so now is the time for you to tell all" "Ok Bashful, your smart. Sexy. Funny. Beautiful. You are not the kind of man who can take a small piece of my heart. You've taken my heart over and John I have to admit I like it......a lot. I'm glad we've broken the 'make love don't fall in love' rule. Ok so we were drunk but I knew what I was doin' I also knew what I wanted. I only wanted you" *Doggett leans closer and softly kisses Reyes* *They break from the kiss* Reyes says "It's your turn John be honest" "Ok Happy, your sexy. Gorgeous. Smart. Focused. A little crazy but in a good way. Monica I can't just give you a piece of me, I have to give you all of me. Although I drank more than you did, I only wanted you. You're the only thing I've wanted since we found Luke" "John I detect an and" *Radio: Van Morrison - Brown Eyed Girl* Hey, where did we go Days when the rains came ? Down in the hollow Playing a new game, Laughing and a-running, hey, hey, Skipping and a-jumping In the misty morning fog with Our, our hearts a-thumping And you, my brown-eyed girl, You, my brown-eyed girl. Whatever happened To Tuesday and so slow Going down to the old mine with a Transistor radio. Standing in the sunlight laughing Hide behind a rainbow's wall, Slipping and a-sliding All along the waterfall With you, my brown-eyed girl, You, my brown-eyed girl. Do you remember when we used to sing Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah Just like that Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah La dee dah. So hard to find my way Now that I'm all on my own. I saw you just the other day, My, how you have grown! Cast my memory back there, Lord, Sometime I'm overcome thinking about Making love in the green grass Behind the stadium With you, my brown-eyed girl, You, my brown-eyed girl. Do you remember when we used to sing Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah Laying in the green grass Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah Dee dah dee dah dee dah dee dah dee dah dee Sha la la la la la la la la la la la la Dee dah la dee dah la dee dah la D-d-d-d-d-d-d-d-d-d... "And when I'm with you I'm happy. You complete Monica. The heartache and loneliness I feel go flying outta the window." *Radio: Aaliyah & Treach - A Girl Like You* I'm Lookin For A Girl Like You. (Well Here I Go) I Hope, I Hope To Me You Wont Lie To. (Well Tell Me More) I'm Lookin For A Guy Like You (Treach: Yeah You Know Me) (I Hope) I Hope You Feel It In Your Needs. When I First Saw You (First Saw You). That's When I Knew, I Really Knew, I Wanted To Get Close To You. I'm Watching, Clocking You. I Just Spend My Days, Wondering When I Will See Your Face, Boy I Just Wanna See Your Face, And Hear You Say.... I'm Lookin For A Girl Like You. (Well Here I Go) I Hope, I Hope To Me You Wont Lie To. (Well Tell Me More) I'm Lookin For A Guy Like You (Treach: Yeah You Know Me) (I Hope) I Hope You Feel It In Your Needs. (Da,Da,Dah. Un Da Da) It Would Not Be Too Hard, If You Want My Heart, Just Say You Love Me. (Treach: I'm Lovin Every Inch) No One In The World Could Tell Us Apart, I'Il Be Your lady (Treach: Well Can I Have A Pinch?) So What You say?(Treach: What Do I Say?) Baby Tell Me Whats Your Name (Treach You Wanna Play?) It'll Be OK I'm Lookin For A Girl Like You. (Well Here I Go) I Hope, I Hope To Me You Wont Lie To. (Well Tell Me More) I'm Lookin For A Guy Like You (Treach: Yeah You Know Me) (I Hope) I Hope You Feel It In Your Needs. [Treach:] Oh Baby I Could Touch Ya, (Da Da Dah) You Kiss Me Right (Da Da Dah) Be Your Lover, Undercover, Get A Woman Wit (Da Dahhh) [Aaliyah:] I Wanna Get To Know, A Little More About You. And Then You Smile (Treach: And Then What Follows?) Our Love Is Pouring Down (Treach: Like There Aint No Tomorrow) Baby Can We Talk (My Heart Aint Hollow) About Us? And Then You Smile (Treach: And Then What Follows?) Our Love Is Pouring Down (Treach: Like There Aint No Tomorrow) Baby Can We Talk (My Heart Aint Hollow) About Us? I'm Lookin For A Girl Like You. (Well Here I Go) I Hope, I Hope To Me You Wont Lie To. (Well Tell Me More) I'm Lookin For A Guy Like You (Yeah You Know Me) (I Hope) I Hope You Feel It In Your Needs. (Oh Yes In Deed) Reyes asks "So John do we announce that we're together or do we go for the slow and steady option?" "Slow and steady Monica it's the only way. We'll tell people in our own time." *Radio: Delta Goodrem - In My Own Time* So much is happening to me. So much that I can't even see. So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be. Catch me if I should fall. And even more so while I'm standing tall. My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy. I'm spinning around and it's making me ill. You don't understand what I'm going through just to find a way to climb. It'll be in my own time. It'll be in my own time. Whispering thoughts in all different ways. That I'm in a daze. My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy. I'm spinning around and it's making me ill. You don't understand what I'm going through just to find a way to climb. It'll be in my own time. Cause it'll be in my own time. In my own time. In my own time I'll take a chance. In my own time I'll find romance. In my own time. It'll be mine. After the clouds there'll be the rain. After the sun there'll be the moon it doesn't matter. Cause it'll be in my own time Fox Mulder's Office 72 hours later "Good morning Monica" "What's good about throwing up John?" "Morning sickness already?" "Oh god, I gotta run" *Skinner stands in the doorway* "Agent Doggett is everything that happened between you and Agent Reyes resolved?" "It is sir, you was right I am getting a second chance at happiness, Monica's pregnant, but we've decided to go slow and steady for now and sometime down the line announce that we're together and that we're gonna be having a baby" Skinner blushing "I'm so stoked for you guys. I think I'm gonna have to bring my assistant down here" Reyes enquires "Sir why do you wanna do that?" "Because this office has an effect on all who work from here, Mulder and Scully and now you and John" Follmer snidely "what about Monica and John?" Skinner smiles "Well AD Follmer it seems John Doggett has something to tell you" "Bye sir" Doggett sniggers "well Mr Follmer it seems that I have the one thing you want" "Really Agent Doggett?" Reyes laughs "Yes Brad really" "How's that Monica?" "Well Brad I'd hate to spell it out to you but erm, I'm pregnant with John's baby and he has me and you don't. So please do everyone a favour Brad. Get over yourself" Falls Church, Virginia Reyes says "John, I'm gonna let you call me Nic" "Why?" "Y'know my family call me Nic all the time, and you're family now" "Thanks Nic I will" Reyes smiles "This is good" "I pride myself on cooking" "Wow I really have got myself real a catch haven't I?" "How you mean Nic?" "I mean you cook, clean, iron, do laundry and it doesn't bother you" 11:04pm Doggett and Reyes are asleep on the sofa holding hands -The end-