From: SuzDork Date: Thu, 3 Aug 2000 00:35:53 -0700 (PDT) Subject: I Think It's Love by SuzDork Source: direct Author: SuzDork E-mail: shipper_16@yahoo.com Title: I Think It's Love classification: MSR Rating: PG Spoilers: Triangle, happens somewhere after that. Summery: Fluff, Fluff and oh did I mention Fluff? Warning: NoRoMo's TURN BACK NOW! Disclaimer: don't own them no infring blah blah etc. etc. Archive: sure just as long as you keep my name and tell me where. Feedback: purty please with sugar on top?!! (author notes at the end) X-files office 3:16 I once thought that by the time I reached this age my life would be all planned and in the process of happening. How wrong I was. I never thought I would end up an FBI agent who works on cases outside the bureaus mainstream. I cannot say that when I look back on it all that I would never change a thing. There are many things I would change. Such as the main reason the x-files exist, Samantha's abduction. But then I ask myself: would there be any x-files division, and would I be on it? Changing that would change everything. I never would have met my partner. Now *that* I would not change for anything. My partner is my life, my strength. And, I admit, my love. Sometimes thought I think it would be better if Scully had never met me. She has lost so much. Another thing I would change is Scully's abduction. It has resulted in so much pain for her. Her cancer. Her bareness. Where did I think I would be? I guess I figured that by now would have found Sam and I would have a family and all the normal stuff you would expect an all American family to have. And now that I think of it I don't want it. And if I did have it, I would most likely be in the loony bin right now. Scully once asked why don't I just stop the damn car and although I am hurting myself (and others) I would never trade my life for something like that. Well... maybe I would but only if I had Scully with me. Of course if I had replied like that she probably would have checked to see if I was feverish. She seems to think me to never be serious. Just like the time in Bermuda. I told her I loved her and of course she thought I was high on the pain meds they were giving me and just gave a brief *oh brother*. I cannot figure out why she can't believe that I might have feelings other than friendly. I wonder if she knows how many office pools there are to see when we will *do it*, that is if they don't already believe that we are *doing it*. *not a bad idea*. I shake my head and take my feet off my desk. JEA-SUS! My mind was really starting to wander... into forbidden territory, I remind myself. I look over at Scully typing up the expense report and my mind starts to shut down again. She then finishes with a few decisive taps on the keyboard and moves the mouse over to click print. I look down and act like I am arranging something on my desk before she looks this way. Damn! How do I always do it? I always seem to get out of doing the expense report and she ends up doing all of it. Now I really feel guilty. how long had I been daydreaming? Then I remember my train of thought and I feel like an even bigger SOB. I really need to get my Scully fantasies in check, especially during the day. I finally notice Scully has been looking at me. Oh god no anything but DR. Scully. "Mulder are you ok? You look kind of flushed." "I'm fine." I cringe at my own words. Good going Mulder, I think to myself sarcastically. "So whatcha doing tonight Scully?" *oh good idea change the subject* I criticize myself. "I was just going to finish up some medical journals I have been too *busy* to finish." "Ooh Scully you party a-ni-mal!" "Oh I'm sure you have a much more exciting evening planned. So Mulder what are you doing?" Hmmm" I've got an idea. "Well I was thinking of having dinner with this beautiful woman tonight. Its kinda to say sorry for something." Hehehehehe "Mulder you really know how to live it up. So what did you do this time?" I ignore the latter question. "Yeah I'm thinking of keeping it a surprise. Just bring dinner over to her house." She sighs and shakes her head "just like you Mulder, going over uninvited." "What do you think it's a bad idea?" "No Mulder it's a good idea" looking at her watch "well I better not keep you from you hot date" she gets up grabs he coat and walks out the door. "Damn" I hope I didn't make her mad. "Yeah Scully my date with my beautiful redheaded partner." XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Scully's apartment 5:45 Standing in front of Scully's front door, toting some good smelling Italian in one hand and a rented video in the other, I'm having second thoughts. Tons of 'what ifs' run through my mind, 'what if she takes this the wrong way and throws me out?' well Mulder what *are* you trying to do, my conscious asks. *sigh* might as well. I then find I cannot shift stuff from one hand to the other so I knock on the door with my head. "Who is it?" "It's me, moose. Let me in squirrel." I hear a muffled laugh from behind the door. She opens the door and gives me the famous Scully raised eyebrows. "I thought you had a hot date tonight?" I don't respond and I just stare. I'm speechless. How can a woman do this to a man. It's pure torture. I thought Scully looked cute in those skirts of hers, well I had never seen her like this. She's wearing gray sweats and a gray shirt that's 5 sizes too big (and it looks suspiciously like mine). "Mulder?" I realize I'd been staring. "Well Scully my date hasn't accepted me yet." "Then why are you standing here?" "Well I am waiting for *you* to let *me* in" She gives me a puzzled look and then it dawns on her. "Come in Mulder" I don't think I could have a larger grin on my face. *Wrong* I look dawn at the book Scully has been reading and scan the title and my grin just spreads wider. 'Scully I never would have thought.' "Medical journal huh Scully?" Holding up the romance novel "so I lied. Like I was going to say 'Mulder I have a stack of romance novels that I have not been able to get to' yeah right Mulder. Now can we get that food onto plates before it gets abducted by aliens." "I thought you didn't believe in aliens Scully?" She just gives me the *shut up Mulder* look and I just laugh and hand over the food. She walks into the kitchen to get some plates while I walk into the living room to sit down. She comes out with two plates heaped with food. "So Mulder, what are you sorry for this time?" "Those damn expense reports. I always end up doing nothing and you do everything. So I thought I would say sorry." "Mulder even if I got you to help you would start raving like a lunatic after 30 minutes." She hands me the my plate and sits down next to me on the couch. She then notices the video on the coffee table. She picks it up and looks at the title and I hold my breath waiting for her approval. *pleasedontlethersuspectanythingpleasedontlether suspectanything* I repeat in my head. She turns towards me and says "message in a bottle?" "That's the name of it" "Mulder I know what it says. I can red. I was asking why you rented this one. It's sappy. My friend read the book and she was crying and She has an even bigger reputation for being an 'ice queen'" than I do, she leaves out. "I like sappy what's wrong with that?" Seeing that look on my face stopped her from saying anything else. Hehehe, she always falls for the puppy dog look. "All right Mulder" she says with a sigh "but get your own damn tissue." I pop in the video and we eat. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX 1 1/2 LATER We have both long finished dinner. We were to captivated to put the dishes in the sink or to even get up and make popcorn. As the credits roll I sniffle trying to suppress the tears that have been running down my face. I look down at Scully to find her face also wet with tears. Sometime during the movie I must have complained of being cold cause I ended up with the blanket. Scully must have been cold too because she is cuddled up next to me underneath the blanket. I reach over to the side table and grab the tissue box and hold it in front of her as an offering. After she takes some I have to pull my arm from around her waist so I could blow my nose. As soon as I loose contact I groan inwardly. Damn it was nice while it lasted. *Oh great* now the mood is broken. Scully gets up to put the dishes in the sink and I turn on the TV and start flipping channels. I then come across a channel showing a Monty Python marathon. Cool! "Hey Scully make some popcorn" "Why" her voice comes from the kitchen. "They're showing a Monty Python marathon on TV." "Who's that?" "Scully I'm surprised! You don't know who Monty Python is?" "No Mulder I don't" "Then you gotta watch this" "Mulder we have work in the morning" she reminds him. "So" I hear a sigh from the kitchen, the slamming of cupboards and the sound of popcorn in the microwave. She walks in the living room holding a big bowl of popcorn. "So Mulder, who is Monty Python?" I inform her that its not who 'is' but who 'are' and how they have a tv show too but tonight they are just going to show a couple of the movies tonight. 12:24 Scully has probably become a big fan of Monty Python. We have both been laughing so hard for the last couple of hours that neither of us noticed how close we have been sitting or that we have our arms around each other again. The credits of the last movie roll and I reach for the remote and turn the tv off. We just sit there for awhile in the now dark room contented to be holding each other. I breath in deeply and smell the sweet smelling shampoo that Scully uses. I commit the smell to memory, like so many others, considering I wont always get to do this. "Mulder?" "Humm" I purr. "Did you mean it?" I start to panic. What did I say? Did I accidentally let it slip that I love her (again). After the last time I said that... "Don't worry Mulder you didn't say anything wrong." *If she only knew what I was thinking* "When you were talking about your date you said she was beautiful did you mean it" I really do talk too much. I can't tell her I was joking, I have been wanting to tell her that for a long time. "Scully how could you doubt that, of course I think your beautiful" "You could have fooled me. I always thought that you thought I was just one of the guys. That that was how you always viewed me." Far from it. Gee Scully, if you only knew. "You really think that?" Scully asks. "Why wouldn't I?" "Well you never said anything" "Yes I have" I grumble, thinking about the time I had admitted how I really feel. I don't know what I had been on but I know it had not inhibited my thinking. I had meant every word of it. She must have figured out my train of thought. "Mulder you were under the influence of some very heavy drugs, you had just survived being stranded in the middle of the ocean you-" "Scully why is it so hard to believe?" I interrupt her rationalizations. "Well Mulder its not so much as you loving me that is hard to believe but the context of loving you had meant at the time. I know you love me but I know its in a friendly sister/brother type of love. And I love you the same way." Oh really. I'm not so sure about that. "you Really believe that?" she nods at me so I just lean over and give her a kiss so tender and full of love that it leaves us both breathless. After I catch my breath I lean over and whisper into her ear "do you *really* believe that now?" She just kisses me again in response. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX In the morning Last night we fell asleep in each others arms on Scully's couch. Nothing happened, it just felt so good. I love to watch Scully sleep. About ten minutes after I wake she starts to stir. I can't help it and I kiss her awake. After that we just lay together content. "Scully?" "Yes" she purrs "What do you think now?" She just looks up at me with a sleepy smile and says "I think its love" -END- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX YOU GOT THIS FAR?!! Wow I am surprised! So what did you think? Oh the reading message in the bottle thing that was me. I read it and I was bawling! Its a real tear jerker. I don't really cry at things like that much but that was SAD! Oh I love Monty python! Just had to add him in there. Well I hope you liked it. I also love all feed back. Even criticism. except From NoRoMo's (those people don't have any sense!)