From: "Carolyn H." Date: Sat, 08 Jan 2000 19:03:23 -0800 Subject: I Want to Tell You Source: direct Title: I Want to Tell You Author: Carolyn H. Spoilers: None Rated: PG Category: MSR, Angst Archival: Yes! Leia1284@hotmail.com first please. Disclaimer: Mulder and Scully are sole property of 20th Century Fox and 1013 Productions. Dedication: I would like to make a special dedication to Nichole B. Feliz Cumpleanos mi amiga. And thank you. I Want To Tell You (1/1) Carolyn H. "Mulder. I want to tell you something." said Scully. Agent Fox Mulder turned in his chair and faced Scully. "What is it that you want to tell me?" he asked. What do I want to tell you? I want to tell you that I love you so much it hurts. I want to tell you that I want to go home with you tonight. That I want you to tell me how much you love me. Like you've never loved a woman before. I want you to hold me and let me know that I am important. I want to cry on your chest when something happens. I want you to know to stop me the next time I say "I'm fine." I'm not fine, Mulder. But I need to take care of myself, because there is no one else. I only want you. I want to be swollen with child. It hurts so bad that I can't have one. And I want it tobe yours. Another thing that we create together. Together Mulder. I never want you to leave me again, whether it be a case or a meeting. I need someone there with me Mulder. And I need it to be you. I want to tell you that I care about us. I want us to be together and to love each other. Not as a partner loves a partner, but as a woman loves a man. I want to kiss you until I'm dizzy. And then kiss you some more. I want to tell you how much I long to fall asleep in your arms, and to wake up in them. I chose loneliness, but I am ready to give up. I need somebody there. I need you. I want you to tell me that I'm beautiful when I'm seventy. And that you love me when I'm eighty. I need you to tell me that my love is your life. I want to tell you that your love is mine. I want to watch our children grow up Mulder. And I want to call you Fox. I want you to be my dear husband. And I'll be your wife till death do us part. I want to look at my daughter and see you. I want to look at my son and hear you. And I want you to be there. I want you to hold me when I'm tired. Just so I know I'm not alone. I want to comfort you through your nightmares. And stay with you at night so you know you're safe. I trust you with my life Mulder. But I want to trust you with my heart. I want to tell you that there has been no other. I haven't let myself after I met you. I want to tell you that I'm saving myself for you, because there will be no other. I want to hear you say you love me. And I want to know its true. I want you to know how much this is killing me. I want you to know it all. I want us to dance without sleeping. To act like there's no one watching. I want us to go on vacation together. I want to be by your side when you find Samantha. I want to be there. I want to be part of it. I want to bathe with you and stand with you. I want you to lean on me. I want you to open up to me. I'm ready to bare my soul; but I need to know you trust me to bare yours. I want more than trust. I want you to be special. And I want to be your girl. I want you to love me. Like my father loved my mother. I want to have children with you. For you to hold my stomach and tell me the baby's kicking. For you to tell me that I'm the most exquisite thing in the world even when I feel ugly. I want you to be there when I give birth to Matthew or Renee and I want to see your love for our child. I want you to become a father, Mulder. So I can be a mother. I never want to hear you stop calling my name. Whether it be Scully at work, Dana at home, or never to be repeated ones at night. And I want you to hug me every morning and tell me how much I mean to you and call my name. I want to tell you that I'm there for you Mulder. Tell you never to turn away from me. Tell you that I'll always be there. Tell you never to forget. I'm sharing my deepest secrets with you Mulder. I want to see you understand. Life is short, Mulder. I never know when I'll be gone. I want you in the hospital with me if my cancer comes back. I want you to know Mulder, that its not your fault I'm sick. We're in this together. We're equals. Two halves of the whole. Life is short but I want to spend every second left with you. I don't want to go to bed alone and wake up alone. I want to kiss you, to make love to you, to have children with you. I want to marry you, to spend forever with you. I want to tell you. "Scully?" "That's odd, Mulder. I can't seem to remember what I was going to say." End. Hope you enjoyed it Nichole. I wrote it just for you. :) Feedback please: Leia1284@hotmail.com