Date: 09 May 1998 03:17:27 GMT From: MaraKara Subject: Kiss Me Once by Mara (1/1) Angst--US Season 5 spoilers Kiss Me Once..... by Mara MaraKara@aol.com Insert (ahem) standard disclaimer here. They are Carter's, not mine. Not done for profit, done for fun. No harm, no foul. Archive -- Please, as long as my name stays with it. Spoilers: The Red and The Black. U.S. Season 5 Keywords: Mulder angst. Summary: What Mulder was thinking before Scully arrived in "The Red and The Black". Thanks to the Screamers -- you all are the best. Kiss Me Once......by Mara ---------------------------- My cheek still burns from where Alex said goodbye. Bastard. He shows up and its wham-bam-hit me with his new hand. I wonder if that arm hurts. Bastard -- I hope it does hurt. I hope that everytime he looks at that plastic arm he remembers his treachery, his lies. Judas....Judas kiss. God, why am I obsessing on this. It is not like I've never seen men kiss platonically before. OK, I've never seen men kiss platonically before. My goddamn Father could barely hug me. But I know why it was done and whatever Krycek mumbled to me in Russian after the kiss didn't have the feeling of any life committment or undying pledge of love. Bastard. I should have shot him. I had the gun, I have the bruises to prove he was up to no good and let's face it -- I killed that guy upstairs and once pressing charges became too hard to explain, the charges went away. No one in the FBI wants to explain Alex Krycek -- Russian Spy so it was open season on Alex. Except I couldn't. I've tried to kill him in the past. Scully was right in shooting me. I would have killed him in the driveway and would be sitting in jail today. I should have killed him in the airport in Singapore, but hell, they whipped that kid for spraypainting graffati, imagine what they would have done to me. And Russia. Schmuck that I am I trusted him in Russia. I let him talk me into trusting him one last time -- and for a while it felt right. Oh sure, I slapped him around a little but you only hurt the ones.... whoa -- don't go there. He lies and lies to me and now, somehow I believe him. I am a cheap date -- kiss me once and I'm yours. # # # Feedback is another way of saying I care