From: agent_elisa@my-deja.com Date: Sun, 26 Mar 2000 17:01:21 GMT Subject: New: Last Dance (Losing Her Innocence) TITLE: Last Dance (Losing Her Innocence) AUTHOR: Agent Elisa DISCLAIMER: Not mine, readers. FEEDBACK: Yes! agent_elisa@hotmail.com ARCHIVE: Yeah. SPOILERS: No. CREDIT: Robert Smith wrote "Last Dance". I didn't. Robert Smith is a hero. I am not. Are we clear on this matter? RATED: G CLASSIFICATION: VRA KEYWORDS: Mulder/Scully romance, Post-XF SUMMARY: On some occasions, dancing can mean losing your innocence... or discovering someone else has. **LAST DANCE (LOSING HER INNOCENCE)** by Agent Elisa (agent_elisa@hotmail.com) How beautiful you are tonight, Scully. You glow of a romantic scent, a taste of oriental flowers that could bring peace even into my haunted mind. Your ice blue eyes shine like the eyes of a goddess, like you ruled the world and a strike of your hand could easily knock me off the edge... but you wouldn't use those powers, Scully. You would never knock me off the edge. You are so beautiful, so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully pretty, so smart and so out of reach for that man in the left corner - he who is staring his eyes out at you - and so close to me. You sit across the table, a few inches from me, hands in your lap and those full usually pink lips, today colored red as wild roses, curved up into a special smile I wish you have reserved for me. I hope you'd only use it when you are in my company Scully, for every male being on earth would kill for a woman with a smile such as that one. And I wouldn't wanna lose you to one of them... You just sit there and smile, and you listen to the music they are playing. You arrived in time for my appointment, and at this moment you have no idea what I am about to say. You just keep on listening to the music, looking very unpartnerly-like, just as if you switched into Romantica!Scully before you put on that black dress and that red lipstick, before you worked for hours to make your discret make up look alright and before you slipped your small feet into those 4.5 inch heels. I smile back, hoping I send the same nice impulses to you as you do to me. This place is perfect for us, just because it is remarkably different from all other places we've ever been to together. Especially different from the place we were on last time we met... God, I've missed you, Scully. I've missed you badly over the past four years since you handed me your reassignation-letter with tears in your eyes, since you kissed me goodbye and swore to your name that we would see each other again and build up what we once had, start where we ended. After you left I did nothing, I just counted days and pissed Skinner off until he threathend to kick me out if I didn't help myself out of my misery. So I did. Not in the regular way, of course. Never expect the idiot that lives inside of Fox Mulder to solve problems in sane ways. No theraphy, no hypnosis, no nothing... except work. Yeah, I worked overtime, arrived earlier than the cleaning team and went home long after the last TV show had said goodnight. Sometimes I didn't even go home... Well, now that's in the past and now we are here to start again. Together this time. Not one by one, but together. We are here to begin an everlasting building-session. You gaze at me, not trying to read my mind but trying hard to find your own pleasures and enjoy them while they last. You rise, silently, and reach for me. You lead me onto the dancefloor and sweep me around amongst the peaceful couples, and I swear to myself this is the first dance in the first evening of our new life. And so we dance, you and me. We swing and hold and dance and dance and dance, and this song seems to have no end. Well, I don't mind... we fit together so nicely, it would be a shame to stop our lovely dance now. But, suddenly... your grasp is tigthening on my shoulder, your body is hardening against mine, your eyes are darkening... and you drag me closer to you, nearer your pale face... and the heat is so hot, the urge is so hard to resist and the force of want and love and lust and passion is too intense, and too soon we reach for each other's mouths and join in an never-ending dance of love with our tongues and lips and... this is what I want, this is what I longed for those horrible four years, this was in my dreams and fantasies, but... this is not my Scully! My Scully tastes not of danger and dark passion but of innocence and truth, comfort and compassion, trust and... kissing my Scully is not walking, no, running down a new path, it is wandering the same safe old path, it is coming home... to a place where you belong... My Scully does not change like this, she stays the same! She does not taste of this! This is wrong, I say to myself, this is wrong... all those years, Scully... they transformed you into someone else. They made you abandon your post as my loyal defender and dragon-slayer, they turned you into a vampire of erotic passion... you used to be a girl, a sweet little princess of courage and trust, and now... you are a woman with needs, you are the queen of lust and you want satisfaction, not comfort... this is something new, and where there used to be a girl I knew, there is now standing a woman. I am sorry Scully, but this was our last dance... and this is how I'm ending it... *end* Last Dance I'm so glad you came I'm so glad you remembered To see how we're ending Our last dance together Expectant Too punctual But prettier than ever I really believe that this time it's forever But older than me now More constant More real And the fur and the mouth and the innocence Turned to hair and contentment That hangs in a basement A woman now standing where once There was only a girl I'm so glad you came I'm so glad you remembered The walking through walls in the heart of December The blindness of happiness Of falling down laughing And I really believed that this time was forever But Christmas falls late now Flatter and colder And never as bright as when we used to fall All this in an instant Before I can kiss you A woman now standing where once There was only a girl I'm so glad you came I'm so glad you remembered To see how we're ending Our last dance together Reluctantly Cautiously But prettier than ever I really believe that this time it's forever But Christmas falls late now Flatter and colder And never as bright as when we used to fall And even if we drink I don't think we would kiss in the way that we did When the woman Was only a girl **** I'm thinking of doing some changes, if you want I'll post them when I'm finished ****