From: scullychic@bolt.com
Date: Thu, 10 Aug 2000 15:50:43 -0700
Source: direct

VRA - Vignette/Romance/Angst

Title - The Letter
Author - Liz Catherine Huberman
Rating - PG, PG-13- language, don't worry!
Classification - Um... Not Classified?
Spoilers - Requiem, Fight the Future, All Things
Keywords - Mulder/Scully Romance/Angst
Summary - Scully's letter to Mulder after his disappearance, somewhat
dramatic and contemptuous.


Dear Fox,
You may never read this, but I'm going to hope one day you do. 
It's been a few months since you've disappeared, and I just don't know
what to do with myself. I have this life growing inside of me that keeps
me sick and in bed most of the time, so I can't even go out to entertain
myself. I know you're somewhere out there, I can feel it everyday.  I
feel you thinking about me to, about how you miss me. I miss you, do
you realize that? I think, God, what was I thinking? That one night,
that one slip of common sense. Sure, I didn't exactly announce that I
didn't have cancer anymore, not after Antarctica, and that vaccine you
gave me, but I thought, maybe it didn't fix *everything* inside of me.
But that vaccine wasn't just a vaccine, Mulder. There were nanotechs
in it. Did you even know what the hell it was you injected into me, then?
How did you know it wouldn't do away with me for good? So we did the
nasty. After our 7 odd years of playing games, we fucked. It was a hard
time for me, that day. I had just seen a man that I had an affair with
so many years before, and all of his emotions must have come running
back. And you were so beautiful to me. Beautiful. There was no other
word for it. And it seemed so special, I fell in love with you. I am
in love with you. But I wasn't careful. No, you weren't. The more I think
about you, the more I believe you're just an insensitive bastard, and
all this is about is you knocked me up, and then bolted at the first
sign of my pregnancy. And then there's Skinner, the soul witness to you're
*abduction*. He just doesn't want his ass beaten to a bloody pulp for
letting 2 agents start an F.B.I family, so he goes along with you're
little alien story. God, I have to sleep. Here I am, a few hours later.
I'm sorry I've sounded so vicious. I'm pregnant, remember?  I want you
to return to me, Fox. Return to your child. I want you to be here when
you're child is born, right there in the delivery room. And I just want
to see you and have you tell me you love me....... because I'm still
in love with you.
-D