From: Megan Andres Date: Tue, 29 Feb 2000 11:44:55 -0800 (PST) Subject: submission part 2 Source: direct NOTE: A while ago, I was asked to try to follow up on my Letters Series by providing some kind of closure for Mulder, Maggie, and Skinner. I wrote this at about two in the morning when I knew I would be able to best immerse myself in the feeling. I hope e veryone enjoys this as much as they liked Letters Series. If anyone missed those stories, you can find them at Church Of X. TITLE: A Letter To My Soul (5 of 5) AUTHOR: Spendergirl RATING: extremely G SUMMARY: It's been a year since Mulder recieved Scully's letter. There is not a real summary type deal here. Just enjoy! SPOILERS: Letters Series by Spendergirl DISCLAIMER: I do not own Mulder, Scully, Skinner, Mrs. Scully, Charlie, Samantha, Byers, Langly, Frohike, or Tina Mulder. DEDICATION: For Maga. A Letter To My Soul Scully,     Why? I mean I know why you didn't tell me, but did it ever occur to you that this might hurt more. If you had told me and then begged me to stay with you, I would have. I would have been honest with you. I have to be honest with you. Things have chang ed here. And not for the best.     I confronted my mother after reading your letter. I never thought that my father was to blame for my fear of fire. He was a man I looked up to. A man who I needed to live and breathe. I had nightmares about what he did to me after Sam disappeared, but I had always forgiven him.     Your family has always been my safety net, but that net is gone. Maggie moved out to live with Bill. Your brother Charlie moved here for about six months but left when Bill called him "home." After I read about my surrogate family, I brought the lette r to the guys.     Frohike cried like a baby. You would have been proud to know that. Langley was friendly up until I read about them being surrogate brothers. He took off. I don't know why. Byers and Frohike seemed to know why. I asked and they told. Did you know that Frohike wasn't the only one that thought you were hot? Didja?     It turns out Langley liked you for your mind. Now if only Byers liked you for your personality, we could've put them together to get the ultimate boyfriend. I know it's just wishful thinking. Don't worry. We all know your personality was the worst aro und. ;O)     After the funeral, Skinner shut the X-Files down. They have not been reopened. I once told you that I couldn't do this without you. That I wouldn't do this without you. But that damn bee stopped me from showing you how much I cared about you. Anyway, I took up a position in VCS again. At least Skinner is still my boss.     For about a month after your funeral he acted really nervous. During that time he gave me anything I asked for. I know you sent him a letter. What the hell did you tell him? You will be proud to know that we have found out who infected him. I had to h old a gun to his head, but he told. That ratbastard did it. He was holding it over him.     I hope you don't mind but I read your letter to Sam. She would've loved it. I think... no, I know she would've liked you. When Sam disappeared, I thought I was alone. I always felt empty inside. I felt incomplete. That changed during our friendship. A t some point in our relationship, I stopped needing her.     Maybe she did die all those years ago. I wish she had. Then it would've meant she had some say in who I fell for. You told me that you loved me in your letter. I'm telling you the same thing. I loved you. Mulder