From: "Midge Mulder" Date: Sat, 3 Apr 1999 12:19:51 +0100 Subject: Lost and Found Title: Lost and Found Author: Midge E-mail: Midge.Mulder@tesco.net Rating: PG Category: SRA Spoilers: Never Again and all Cancer episodes really Keywords: MSR Summary: Mulder loses Scully. This is my first story I have written and posted so please be nice although flames are welcome (just please be nice) Anyway hope you all enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm from the UK so thing may not be right to the US so forgive me Lost and Found Washington D.C Federal Bureau of Investigation 3rd April 99 9:45am Special Agent Fox Mulder walked quickly through the halls of the FBI building, he was going over his fourth excuse of the week to why he was late. Yep Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday late and now Friday, the day before was fine he was in earlier than Scully. With his excuse ready he turned into the office that held their desks and around 30 other agents desks, not the most private office around. Mulder opened his mouth to start his apology but he noticed that Scully's desk was empty. "Strange" he muttered to himself. He walked around her desk looking for a note of something to indicate her whereabouts, nothing her computer wasn't even on. Walking around to his desk he plopped into his chair and turned his computer. "Oh well she's probably stuck in traffic or something," he thought to himself, After all the grief she gave him of being late, he could have some fun when she did arrive. Busying himself with his e-mails he didn't notice an hour go by with no sign of Scully. Looking up at the clock he noticed the time and a wave of worry hit him full force, grabbing the phone he dialled his partners home phone number, three ring four five six then the answer phone. He left a quick message: "Hey Scully you must be on you way in I'll try your cell phone bye" hanging up the phone he dialled the other number he knew so well. "Hello" surprised at the different answer he lost his words. "Oh hi Scully, hey where are you? I was getting a bit worried," "It's none or your business all right, why is it that you get so worried I'm a big girl and I live my own life why can't you just but the hell out," stunned Mulder managed to reply, "Are you OK Dana?" "You know what Mulder you can be so thick sometimes, I'm fine and I'll be even better when I hang up the phone and stop talking to you, goodbye Mulder?for ever," After the angry word came across the phone into Mulders ears the cell phone was turned off. Slowly Mulder put the receiver down into its cradle. Sitting back he rubbed his head and tried to work out what had just happened. Had Scully just said she never wanted to see him again? He pictured the last time he saw Scully and what they had said. Previous Day "Hey Scully wanna get a bite to eat?" "No thanks I got plans tonight," "Hot date?" He said trying to cover disappointment. "You could say that," She replied "Who is he?" "Well his name is Michael and he is a high school teacher. Anything else, do you want his date of birth, parents names?" "Well excuse me for being interested." He turned around to face her desk. "I just wanna make sure your safe Scully, I care" He said with a little too much sincerity. "Look Mulder please, we have this conversation so many times its getting very boring, I'm 35 I can take good care of myself now stop obsessing that something will happen and for one night please do not call me OK?" Clearly hurt by Scully's harsh words, his defence mechanisms shot up, "Fine OK Scully you tell yourself that when you go out with some physco who is trying to kill you. if I remember rightly the last time you went on a date, you ended up nearly being killed by a guy who's tattoo talked to him," Satisfied with his point he turned back around and carried on typing. "Your right Mulder I'm sorry, I just want a normal life, you know dates, girlfriends, marriage blah blah," She sighed and began picking up her stuff. "See ya tomorrow Mulder," She muttered walking past his desk. "Yeah bye Scully," Sighing himself Mulder switch off his computer and went home to not think about Scully out on a date with a man that wasn't him. Present day Scully had been so cold on the phone, her words had hurt a lot. Mulder tried not to think about the pain running through his chest, it felt like his soul was being crushed, Scully never wanted to see him again. Why? He had no idea, surely it couldn't be what they had said yesterday before she left. Suddenly realisation dawned and Mulder realised that Scully had said she never wanted to see him again, what was he meant to do except that and move on. Should he carry on his life, working without the X files and now Scully, was he meant to forget the fact that he loved Scully so much that he knew for sure if they ever became lovers or even married and she had an affair he would forgive her. Because life without Scully, would be unbearable. He had to do something to find out what had happened. He picked up the phone and typed in Margaret Scully's number. "Hello," "Hello Mrs Scully its Fox Mulder," "Oh hello how are you?" "I'm fine, I'm fine, look have you spoken to Dana recently?" "Well um yes I have, why do you um ask?" "Because she told me she doesn't want to see me again and I don't know why, can you help me?" "Look Fox I cannot help you Dana is my daughter she has told me something private, that is the way it will stay," "Is she there?" "Yes," came an even answer Scully was obviously listening. "Let me talk to her," "Sorry," "Please," Mulder practically whined frantically. A couple of agents around him were casting glances in his direction, although he didn't care. "No sorry," "OK look please tell me is it something I have done that is making Dana so angry with me," "Well yes and no," "OK do you think she will calm down and talk to me?" Mulder asked pleadingly. "Look Fox I have to go, take care goodbye," With that the tone appeared annoyingly in his ear, Mulder slammed the phoned down in frustration. Agents openly stared now. "You gotta problem?" They all turned back to their own business. Mulder was at a loss a complete loss, he knew where she was which was one thing but he couldn't see her. He wanted to know what he had done, perhaps something had happened on her date. He put his head in his hands and rubbed his temples. The sound of his phone ringing made him jump, leaning over he slowly picked up the receiver, "Mulder," He sighed into the phone. "Don't call my mother and do not try and get in contact with me OK is that clear?" "Scully why please tell me why," "You wanna know Mulder? You're one sad sad man. Wake up and realise your sister isn't coming back. Your quest for the truth is no longer worth it, you have nothing Agent Mulder and I will be damned if I wait around any longer for you to realise what I feel. I want a life and I'm gonna get one so leave me alone," Once again the tone echoed through the phone, absolutely lost for words Mulder left the phone drop on the desk with a loud thump. Mulder thought the pain in his chest hurt before, now he could just about breath. It felt as though his heart was being crushed. Grabbing his jacket he walked out of the office and towards home. Mulders Apartment 12:30 Sitting on his sofa Mulder played over the words Scully had said, over and over his mind repeated them. The one person in the whole wide world he had ever trusted the one person who he had ever truly loved had said the most hurtful things he could think of anyone saying. Holding a photo of her in his hands he starred at it, he only barely felt the tears burning down his cheeks. Scully was gone and there was nothing he could do. Outside his apartment a petite redhead marched up the corridor, when reaching Mulders door she hesitated before slipping an envelope under the door, as she slowly began to walk away she could hear and anguished cry followed bye wild sobs coming from inside the apartment. With a tear running down her cheek she got in her car and drove off. Mulders Apartment 6:08pm Mulder awoke with a start, realising he must have fallen asleep he looked at his watch and saw that the whole day had gone. He was hoping that Scully leaving was just a dream, but it wasn't. How could he not try to contact her of find her? But then again he loved her enough to realise she was unhappy with him and it would be best to let her go and have a life while she still could, he only wished he could be a part of that. He stood and walked into his bathroom, washing his face with cloth and cold water, he looked at the reflection that stared back him, "Your one sorry son of a bitch Fox Mulder," turning round he walked back into his living room and dialled the pizza place phone number, he automatically order extra pepperoni, which was what Scully always ordered. He didn't mind but it was the fact that he knew that Scully had somehow become a part of everything he did, ever move he made and every action he took. Getting over this would be the hardest thing he had ever done. Realisation hit when he realised that he would give up the X files, the truth and his quest to find his sister if he could have Scully back, even of it wasn't or would be in a romantic way. 30 minutes later, a knock sounded through the apartment, Mulder tiredly walked over to the door, he saw a flash or white caught his eye and he noticed a small envelope with his name written on it with Scully's neat and precise handwriting. Grabbing it up he opened the door, as a frustrated pizza man handed over the pizza, Mulder snatched it out of the young boys hands and threw 15 dollars at him then slammed the door. Running over to his leather couch he put the pizza down and ripped open the letter. Dear Mulder, Look Mulder I realise I must have hurt you with the words I said but it was the only way. I do not mean what I said. Yes I do want to have more of a life but what I said about the X files and Samantha, I had to say that so that Cancerman would believe that what I was saying was true. You see he had wiretapped my mother's phone so I had to be harsh. I still have to go and leave you, we can't have any contact and I can never see you again. If we did the chip in my neck would become void and wouldn't work and the cancer would return. He told me that if I go he will give you back the X files. Mulder they are your life's work and you CAN go on without me. Please do not confront him about it Mulder, except my decision and move on, forget me and find the truth. We have had so many good times together and I have loved working with you, even if you are a little "out there". I love you and I always will. Goodbye Luv Dana Fresh tears coursed down his cheeks for the second time that day. How could he go on with the X files without her, she was his everything. Didn't she realise that she was his everything. He had to speak to her again, he had to. Jumping up he walked out of the door and down to his car. Driving well over the speed limit her raced to Scully's apartment. Running through her building he banged on her door, then got out his key and opened the door. He sucked in a sharp breath as her looked around her apartment, completely bare apart from the answer phone on the floor. The red light flashed indicating a new message. Mulder new it was his and Scully's things could have been gone days ago, as he hadn't been there for a few. Walking through each room he was greeted with the same bareness. He walked around her bedroom, it still smelled like Scully. He leaned against the wall and sank down to the floor. For the third time that day hot tears burned their way down his cheeks and again anguished sobs could be heard from outside the apartment. Six Months later Chicago Fox Mulder stumbled down the dark alleyway way from the dark bar he had just visited. Cancerman had for once been true to his word and had given him back the X files with ten other agents and Mulder heading the official X files division. Although four months ago Cancerman had fallen victim to a drunken driver both had died instantly. Mulder had seen the body. No conspiracy's nothing-just Mulder and his X files. Everything had died down no death threats, lying or covering the truth. Life would be good apart from the fact he still didn't have Scully. He and no idea where she was or what she was doing, or even if she was alive. He had tried dating but no one could live up to Scully's standards. He felt so alone. Mulder continued to stumble his way down the alley. Heavy footsteps joined his in the alley, they quickened their pace and got closer and closer to Mulder, he didn't realise what was happening until he was struck in the face with a large fist. "Give me your wallet now!!" a deep voice ordered. Waving a knife in Mulders face "Wh..what," Mulder answered confused. "Give me your Fucking money," The voice shouted. Awareness shot through Mulder. "OK OK hold on," He reached round and gripped his gun, he pulled it out in one swift movement, pointing it at his muggers head. Taken off guard the man swung his knife catching Mulders arm. Pain shot through him but he kept his grip on his weapon. Mulder fired his gun to left of the man, hoping the alcohol hadn't clouded his vision. The mugger turned around and ran off down the alley. Mulder moved and leant against the wall, his arm really hurt and blood was seeping through his coat. He moved to stand up, although with difficulty, he managed to stumble out of the alley and down the road. A man and woman walked arm in arm, Mulder called over to them "Hey can you help me, I'm a federal agent and I've been stabbed please," The tall lanky man walked over to him, "Sure man, you wanna hospital?" "That would be good, he only got my arm but I think it's deep and it hurts like hell," The women walked behind them while her boyfriend held Mulders arm up. "Hospital is just down here man," "Thanks" They burst through the doors off the hospital. Mulder had lost a lot of blood and was now slowly losing consciousness. "Hey can I have some help please," Three doctors ran around the reception desk and grabbed Mulder, they put him on a gurney and led him to an exam room. The doctors disappeared and a nurse came in and took off his coat jacket and shirt. "OK sir what's your name?" "Um Fox Mulder, look my arm really hurts and look at all this blood," "Yes I can see that Fox," "A doctor will be with you shortly, now breathe this oxygen ok?" Mulder took the oxygen mask and breathed deeply. "Ok so Mr mum, June what is this mans name?" "Oh Dr he has the most unusual name, Fox Mulder." "Oh my God," the small doctor sucked in a breath. "Mulder," she ran over to his bed, Mulder looked at the doctor, "Scully," he shouted and sat up quickly, pain shot through him and he groaned in agony and fell back against the bed. "Mulder sit back ok," "Dana you know him?" "Um year we used to work together," "Oh right well I'll leave you to it," The nurse turned and walked out or the room. "So Mulder what happened to you," She began to take of the dressings the nurse had put on. "Oh Mulder, you poor thing, who did this to you?" "Ahhh, Scully is that you?" "Yes Mulder it is, long time no see" "Scully is this weird or what?" "It certainly is, OK lets get you fixed up," Next Day Mulder whistled as he walked to the diner where Scully had said to meet, he couldn't believe he had found her like that, if he could he would go ant give the guy who tried to mug him a great big kiss. Well maybe not. Mulder felt alive again, his arm was a bit painful and stiff, but that didn't matter, he would have a gunshot wound and it wouldn't matter, he had found Scully. He walked into the small diner and saw her already sitting there as beautiful as ever. He saw him and stood up, he enveloped her in a painful hug. "Mulder this must hurt," she said pulling away. "Believe me it's worth it," They both sat down and ordered coffee. "So Scully how have you been?" "Fine, look Mulder I'm so sorry about the way it ended, but I wanted to give you the X files back and that was the only way to do it, I'm so sorry," He reached over and grabbed her hand. "I understand, I admit that the past six months have been hell without you." "I'm sorry," "Lets just forget it, look I don't know whether you know Cancerman died," "NO oh my god how?" "Drunk driver, no conspiracy nothing. The consortium has gone as well, I have no idea why or why but they have, I have the X files, with 10 agents so life should have been good. Now it's fantastic." "Oh Mulder, I love you," Dumbstruck Mulder was lost for words, but managed to say, "Dana I have loved you for longer than I can remember, please tell me we can see each other again," "Of course, I'm gonna quit the hospital and come back to DC, although not in the FBI sorry but I just can't" "I don't care what you do as long as you're with me," They looked into each other's eyes, Mulder leaned forward and gently kissed Scully. "Come Mulder lets go," They stood up and walked out of the diner hand in hand. "So Scully how'd that date with that guy go?" "What da.. ph yer well not so good," "Why not?" She stopped and looked up at him. "He wasn't you," Mulder smiled and bent down to capture Scully's lips in another long kiss. Finally he was truly happy and finally his life was complete. They continued walking along the street and to a new life?together. The end What dya think. Send comments to Midge.Mulder@tesco.net