Date: Mon, 13 Mar 2000 21:17:19 EST
Subject: Melded
Source: direct

TITLE: Melded
AUTHOR: Keva E. Andersen
EMAIL ADDRESS: DrKevaScully@aol.com
DISTRIBUTION STATEMENT:I love to have my work posted, so go ahead!! 
Just PLEASE let me know where and send a link, so I can come visit.
SPOILER WARNING: Orison
RATING: PG-13 maybe?
CLASSIFICATION: vignette, post-ep, ScullyAngst, 155 word format
SUMMARY: Somethings in your mind will always stay
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Another wrote on a whim piece....definitely not my best work, 
but I had to get it out there. The muse wouldn't leave me alone.
DISCLAIMER: I'm a broke college kid with a broadcast journalism major. You 
don't want to sue me, you'd only get my XF collection, cause that's all I 
own, lol!


Melded
by Keva E. Andersen


        My mind falls blank.
          
         Or so I wish it would.

      I pulled the trigger, you know.

     And Donnie Pfaster will torment me no longer.

     Blood flowed from his bullet riddled body, 
   
    wounds caused by the molding of flesh.  
     
    My flesh....melded into the cold, unfeeling steel of my gun. 
     
      So entertwined that I could no longer tell where I ended and it began.  
  
    Heavy. Stoic. Like the weight that now falls upon my heart.

     I killed a man.

  In an act of vengeance.  Pure and simple.

       I couldn't think, I couldn't react, I couldn't feel. 

         The fatal round left my hand..and with it took my soul. 

    In an instant, I fell to the depths of a murderer. 

        Explanations fail me now.

  Perhaps my new found desolation is to prove that lifelong testament,  
     that Nothing good comes of violence and nothing ever can.

      That proof is found on blood spattered walls that tomorrow's 
     work can scrub away. But the stains that will forever taint my soul can 
     never be washed away. 
  
      
    FINIS


This one, although it's not a happy piece, is for Londa. My thanks to you for 
your encouragement in my writing. And to Tim for always being there. My love 
to you. 
~K