From: "Leek, Janelle" Subject: REPOST(?) A Missing Love (1/1) by leekj@hsd.k12.or.us Date sent: Fri, 26 Sep 1997 07:42:00 -0700 Disclaimer: Mulder and Scully belong to CC and Fox. The lyrics from "How Do I Get There" are sung by Deana Carter and are copyrighted to Emi Princeton Street Music, Full Keel Music Co., and Farrenuff Music. Basically, none of this belongs to me. Rating: PG-13 Distribution: Just keep my name on it and let me know where it's archived. Classification: Mulder-angst, I think. I don't know, I haven't been writing that long. Maybe some MSR? Spoilers: Reference to second season's 'Duane Barry', 'Ascension', and '3'. Also fourth season spoilers. Summary: Mulder tries to sort out his partner's abduction while trying to decide how to tell her how he feels should he ever see her again. Author Note: If this is hard to follow, it's probably because I've twisted both second and fourth season into one story without any of the developments revealed by third season. A Missing Love The song coming onto the radio turned Mulder's attention from the TV program that he wasn't watching anyway. Different from his usual listening, he had tuned into a country station on the recommendation of a friend outside the Bureau that he'd confided in about Scully and his growing affection for her. Now he was finding that the lyrics said exactly what he wanted to say. Deana Carter's 'How Do I Get There' drifted from the speakers towards his waiting ears. We've always been the best of friends No secrets and no demands But suddenly from somewhere out of the blue I see a different light around you One thing I haven't told you, I just want to hold you And never let go, I need to know How do I get there from here How do I make you see How do I tell you what my heart's been tellin' me Lost in your lovin' arms that's where I wanna be You know I love you How do I get there How true. How indeed? But it still didn't answer his question. And now that she'd gone and gotten herself abducted, how was he supposed to tell her at all? The next verse lazily wafted through the room. You probably think I've lost my mind Takin' this chance crossin' that line But I promise to be truer than true Dreaming every night with these arms around you I can't wait any longer this feeling's gettin' stronger Help me find a way As the song switched back to the chorus, he knew that insane was definitely what she'd think he was if he ever told her. If he ever got the chance. God, why had he hesitated so damn long? Now he may never see her again, and she'd never know, which really stank now that he knew how to tell her. I know the shortest distance between two points is a straight line But I'll climb any mountain that you want me to climb The perfect combination is your heart and mine Darlin' won't you give me a sign Listening to the chorus again as it faded out, he sighed. Why hadn't he told her when he had the chance? All he'd had to do is pick up the phone and call. Or go over to her apartment and tell her to her face. She would have understood, wouldn't she? ***** "Well, sir, the meteor seems to be hovering over a small town in eastern Wisconsin." -Chief Kortez, Project Falcon, 'Fallen Angel'