Date: Sat, 11 Mar 2000 19:42:14 -0500 Subject: NEW: Mulder's Reality Title: Mulder's Reality Author: Milargo07 Rating: G Classification: S,R Spoilers: None Keywords: MSR Summary: Mulder and Scully finally want to talk about their feelings for one another. Archive: Yes you can, but please let me know where. That would be coolJ Disclaimer: No matter how much I want to own them, I don't and that's all there is too it. Chris is a lucky SOBJ Feedback: DEFINITELY!!! **************************************************************************** **************** Mulder's Reality By: Milargo07 The case they were on hit a little close to home and of course, Scully was driving Mulder crazy with her theories. But he couldn't help but notice that she looked fabulous. Like, she had been renewed. Her face was alive with life and her eyes, well; they called to him, which made him want her more. It wasn't like that thought was anything new. It seemed to be occurring more frequently and he swore he didn't know what he was going to do to maintain that "profession" distance. It would take a miracle. Just to hear her say, "I love you." What a revelation. He wanted the games to be over. They were adults.her voice broke his thoughts. "Mulder, where are you? Keep your head down here please. Focus." She looked at stern but lost that and cracked a smile at his expression. He always knew how to get her to crack. Oh, how she loved that about him. He was strong, caring, and he could make her laugh like no one she knew. She looked at his face. He was good looking, no doubt about that but he seemed so unreachable to her. He was into the taller, more voluptuous girls. She knew all it would take to change him would be one night with a REAL woman... "Scully, did you hear that?" Mulder's hand came down on her shoulder. The image of him and her faded and she came back to earth. "No I am sorry, I didn't, what was it." "The sound of your head ascending to the clouds." He didn't miss a beat. "Did I rub off on you?" He said as he unlocked the door of their rental. "I'm sorry, I was just thinking," "Of me I hope." She glared at him hating him because he knew her so well and longing for his arms and touch. The man was her deepest enigma. "As a matter of fact." She teased him. It was time to start something, she didn't know what yet but she knew that he wanted it too. "Ohhh I see, well if the truth be told, you were walking through my mind as well." They sat in the car for a second. "Start the car Mulder, let's get back to the hotel, I am beat." He turned the ignition and the engine purred to life. Every being in her couldn't understand why now, all of a sudden, her longing for him was greater. The radio cut off from commercials and Mulder sang along to some songs. Then Scully heard a familiar tune that she didn't want to hear played. It was REO Speedwagon's I Can't Fight this Feeling Anymore. The words danced around in her head. "I can't fight this feeling any longer. And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. What started out as friendship has grown stronger, I only wish I had the strength to let it show," she thought. She looked at Mulder, and he tensed up. She felt a little uncomfortable herself. This song was talking about them. He wouldn't look at her. She knew that he was thinking what she was. Why was she feeling like this? It is not like the case was any harder than usual. Well, except for the whole Ahab thing. It had been painted on all the victims they had found. Neither knew what it meant but Mulder had noticed that it was bothering Scully. It hadn't really bothered her until she saw the little read hair girl and had to perform an autopsy on her. Mulder had said something to her about it and as usual she blew him off. He was used to it though. She needed to be with her thoughts. The car pulled up into the hotel parking lot. He parked and she got out. He followed. They walked to her door where he unlocked it with the key. He backed up to leave and go toward his door when a gentle hand came around his wrist. "Mulder, I know this is.. Well, this is really out of character for me and I know that I said I was tired but..." She stuttered. He couldn't believe it. He'd never seen Scully any way but calm and composed. Here she was fidgeting and falling over her words. "Are you ok, Scully?" He knew the answer. "Stay here for awhile, please, if you can't, I understand." He stopped her by wrapping his arms around her. She melted into them. She wasn't crying she just need to feel him next to her. He felt strong and warm. She never wanted this to end. He pulled her coat off and she was all of a sudden embarrassed. Like she was a 2-year-old hiding from a 6-year-old boy. "Sit down, I will get you some water." He went into the bathroom. She just wanted to sit and pour her heart out to him, something that she'd never done before. She thought it was time to do so. He came back with the water and she took a sip before sitting it on the nightstand beside the bed. She forced her self to look at his eyes. "Mulder.." She started but she didn't think she could finish. "Scully, I think I know what you are going to say because I have been wanting to say it too." She looked at him, not in surprise but in love. He saw it, for the first time he saw it. Dana Scully letting her guard down. He had to step lightly or they would come flooding back up. "I just feel we don't express ourselves the way we should." She said finally. "I just don't know what it feels like to let myself go, in anything I do. I know I can trust you with my life but sometimes, it's hard to just open up and pour myself out to you." He brushed some hair out of her face. He didn't think he'd seen her more vulnerable or more gorgeous. "I can show you how it feels." He said carefully. He leaned in slightly and for a moment, he felt hesitation on her part. But that was gone in an instant. She leaned in toward him. Their eyes closed and their lips met. To him it was well worth the wait, to her it was perfection. It was soft, gentle, and full of emotion and love. There was passion but they knew not to take it too fast and give into temptation. They parted neither really wanting to. "I'm sorry that was uncalled for. You are upset and you don't need this to complicate your life." "NO, please don't apologize, it's exactly what I needed." She smiled at him and he knew it was all right. Her eyes lit up as did his and he took her hand. "Why have we waited so long to express our feelings to each other?" Mulder asked stroking her hand. "Mulder, I just want to hear you say it." "I love you Dana Scully, I honestly do. With all my heart and soul." She began to cry. "And I have never loved a man like I love you Fox Mulder. I know we are meant to be." He grabbed her head in between his hands. He brushed the tears away from her cheek. "I love you." He said again. "I just never thought we would be in this moment. I'd never thought that I would hear you say those words to me." She began to look down. "NO, Dana look at me, see how much I love you. I want you to know that from the moment I knew you, I saw my future in your eyes. I saw me with a life of my own, a loving wife and some kids." She grinned. He pulled her to him and they kissed again. This one had more passion than the first. He wanted her; he wanted to prove his love to her. Would she reject him? That would break his heart. "NO Mulder, never." As if she was reading his mind, she spoke. She was answering him. Ever since they had meant, they had never needed verbal communication. He looked at her. "Really?" He asked. "I have never wanted anything more Fox. I want you to want me." He looked at her. "I can't go on alone without you Dana, ever." They kissed again and she began to unbutton her blouse. "Scully are you ." "Yes Mulder I have never been more sure of anything," She smiled at him and he knew it was going it happen. The moment that would define their relationship. Oh what would his colleges think? He and Dana Scully, who was longed after by all the men at the FBI. She was every man's fantasy but she was Fox Mulder's reality. **************************************************************************** **************** The End Feedback DEFINITELY appreciated!!! Please send all comments to: milargo07@yahoo.com