From: "Stephanie Johnson" Date: Sun, 20 Dec 1998 19:57:38 PST Subject: My Rock (1/1) Disclaimer: they belong to Fox, CC and god knows what else...I just borrowed them for a few minutes..Fox doesen't need more money...SO LEAVE ME ALONE! Title:My Rock Catagory:Angst (?) Keywords:Scully Angst, M/S Friendship Rating: G Summary:Scully ponders her future with Emily. Spoilers:Christmas Carol/Emily Note to Reader: I typed this up 30 minutes after I saw Christmas Carol for the first time...just a little ponderment piece of what might have been. Thanx: The SEFAMSRN for all of their support and all of my buds....I love you all! Feedback: Any time of the year, I absolutely eat it up! My Rock By: Stephanie Johnson aka xfilenut32 Look at the snow. All white and glistening. So peaceful. Nothing stirs but the wind which moves it in little whisps. Peaceful thought..thats what I need...time to sort out my thoughts. Too much has happened...god, my little Emily. Thats just it, she's my Emily. Everybody was stunned I read out loud the news "according to this..I am Emily's mother..." After that, I couldn't hold out anymore. I had to call him. My Mulder, my rock. I called him, and told him of my situation. Me said he would be right there, god bless his soul. He's coming, it shouldn't be much longer now. God Mulder, I need you now, I don't think I've ever needed you more. After I called him, I called the children's home that Emily is staying at. They said that they wouldn't be able to help me until the next day. That it was christmas. I reluctantly hung up the phone. I went back in to join the family. I can't believe it, I've successfully ruined the whole family's christmas. They think that something was wrong with the test..but I know that there wasn't. I knew all along that she was a Scully. They all don't know how to deal with me today..so I stay out of their way. God, Mulder, where are you..I need you. The beautiful snow...it's the kind of snow that you'd read of in a novel. So perfect and light, and how it quietly glistens. It's dark out now, and I can see the lights from the house making little patterns in the snow. I wonder if Emily likes the snow. I'll bet she does. I picture myself and her playing in the snow. We're building a snowman. She smiles at me with her beautiful crystal eyes. "Mommy, help me put the arms on." Gladly. Mommy...God, Mulder where are you. I need you so. I sigh aloud. Everybody else has gone to bed, but not me...there is no way that I can sleep this night. I need my rock here to feel any comfort at all...my Mulder. And as I'm gazing out the window at a future that may never be. I hear a small knock on the front door. Thank you god..he's here. You brought me my Mulder safe and sound. I pad over to the door, and open it. He's covered with snow, and holding his suitcase. He wears a sad expression on his face...he's afraid for me. We silently greet each other and he steps inside, and closes the door behind him lightly. We look into each others eyes for a moment, sensing the need in mine he knows what he has to do. He must love me, for I am nothing without him. He knows what I need. I need to be held. He envelopes me in his arms, and I know that everything will be all right. My rock is here...my Mulder. ______________________________________________________________________ Feedback is *LOVED* at xfilenut32@hotmail.com Thanx for reading happy holidays! http://www.geocities.com/Area51/dungeon/1373 Visit the SEFAMSRN