From: "Cheryl Massie" Date: Wed, 06 Sep 2000 21:19:02 BST Subject: Need, Secrets and Love: eXposed Source: xff TITLE: Need, Secrets and Love: eXposed (1/1) FROM: CM EMAIL ADDRESS: nuttier_tart@hotmail.com DATE: 6th September, 2000 RATING: Erm, NC-17, sexual content but it's not *too* graphic KEYWORDS: Slight Mulder/Scully angst, MSR SUMMARY: When Scully is attacked, Mulder and Scully finally face, expose and explore all their true feelings... SPOILERS: None! ARCHIVE: Yes! Anywhere! DISCLAIMER: Even if i did say they were mine-you wouldn't believe me anyway! In other words you know they belong to CC, Fox and 1013 productions. FEEDBACK: Please, please, please...just take a few minutes out of your life to make me :-) Hope you like it: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dana Scully stood lost in the blinding darkness of her own apartment. It was becoming increasingly difficult to keep a grip of her gun, due to the continual build up of perspiration and her small, severely shaking hands. She closed her eyes and concentrated on using her other sense, hearing, as fully and completely as she could. The silence was deadly. Her own comfort was the constant sound of her own speeding heartbeat pounding in her ears. She knew he was near, she couldn't hear him but she could feel him. He was waiting for the right moment to pounce, waiting and the only purpose being that he enjoyed watching her suffer. The thought of just running in the direction of the front door crossed her aching mind again, but what if he was there? She could be running right into his arms. 'It's your turn Danes, you can't run when it's your turn! No matter where you hide it will find you Daney! It always finds you when it's your turn!' Her pounding heart sank into her stomach when she felt his hot breath against the back of her neck. For a moment it seemed as though time stood still, then she felt a sharp, hard pain on the back of her head that was so intense it took her breath away. It knocked her to the ground, a trip which appeared to last forever. She felt his heavy body on hers, holding her down, she couldn't breathe, she couldn't even move, her body was paralysed. 'Please, please don't kill me! You don't have to do this'She sobbed. 'You don't...' 'Shut up! Don't act as though you know what i'm going through! I do have to do this, when it's your turn, it's your turn..' As she felt his stong hands close tightly around her neck, her previous opinion that her surroundings could not get any darker was proven incorrect. The world was becoming more and more distant and darker and darker and darker and darker.... 'SCULLYYY!!!' She felt a sudden release, but after a few brief moments she began to frown at the pain around her neck and the frightening tightness of her chest. Struggling, she began to make an attempt to sit up when she felt a thick, wet substance on her stomach. It was blood, but was it hers? 'Scully?' A soft voice spoke and a gentle hand touched her cheek. 'Scully, it's me. Don't try to get up, just...just lie still for a while. He guided her back to the floor and held her for a moment. 'Mul...'Her voice was hoarse and unrecognisable. She released a painful cough. 'Muld..Mulder?' 'Yeah, it's me. Sssh, just lay still Scully! You're okay, everythings gonna be alright!' She was disapointed when she felt the comfort and warmth of his embrace leave her. Her eyes followed him as he leant over a dark, still figure. She realised that the blood wasn't hers-it was her attackers. Her, now dead, attacker. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A FEW HOURS LATER.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Finally the police and everyone else had gone...as had the body! She and Mulder were sitting on the sofa, he sat close enough to feel that she was still shaking. She didn't want to talk and hoped that Mulder wouldn't begin asking her a hundred and one questions. Even if she did want to talk she still couldn't answer his questions because she didn't have the answers...she didn't know how He had found her or how He had gotten in to her still locked apartment. However, she knew she would have to talk to him about it sometime. *Tomorrow* she thought *I'll talk tomorrow, but not tonight, i just want to forget about it tonight*. Scully wondered how long they had been sitting together in absolute silence. Eventually Mulder spoke, 'Um, do you want me to go Scully?' 'No!!' She panicked, she didn't want him to go; she needed him to stay. Okay, so she didn't want to talk but just having him there was a much needed comfort. 'Mulder, will you stay with me tonight?' 'Of course i will. If that's what you want! Scully, are you sure you're okay?' She forced a pretence smile and thought about the most cunning way to answer the question. She understood it perfectly, but maybe if she pretended that she didn't... 'Oh Mulder, I'm fine! You heard what the doctor said, I'm okay!' He moved even closer to her. 'Scully i didn't mean physically. You could have been killed tonight and you have been through so much with this case, all the things that bastard tried to do to you...' She dropped her head, trying desperately to fight back the tears as he continued: 'Scully, i know that you're a strong person but you are only human! I don't understand why...why you feel like you have to lie to me! Why are you so scared to tell me what you're feeling?' She felt his hands firmly on her face and she lowered her eyes in defeat. She just couldn't lie to him anymore. All the tears that she had been desperately fighting to conceal exploded to the surface and she broke down and fell, sobbing helplessly, into his open arms. She was clinging to him, needing more and more of him to comfort her. He pulled her in to him tightly, as though wanting to take her inside of him so he could protect her completely. Tears filled his own eyes and her pain filled his own heart. Seeing her this hurt, this weak, made him ache. His hands soothed her cheeks, taking in their shape, they ran through her hair, his lips touched her forehead, desperately trying to spread the comfort through his touch. Slowly and almost unsurely, his mouth moved to her ear and whispered in it, 'God Scully, i can't take this anymore!' now it was his turn to try and contain his tears. Scully's crying had calmed a little now and she pulled out of his tight embrace to look at him. 'Can't take what Mulder?' His hands were on her face again and she watched as a lazy tear crept down his cheek. As he looked into his eyes she could see his hurt and this only added to her own. It took him a while, but finally he began to explain: 'Seeing you hurting like this Scully it...it kills me! Everytime i see you like this i just want to...hold you so close, i need to take away all your pain and i feel like i'd do anything to be able to do that. I just wanna make it all better. I want to make you feel safe, secure and whole...as i'm holding you the love just surges through me, I touch your face, your hair, i just need to express it so badly, i need you to feel it, to feel how strong it is. But it's not enough Scully, holding you, touching you, even kissing you...there's something inside me-a feeling or a yearning...i can't quite explain it but it's something that i need you to see, to feel. I need to be as close as i can be to you, skin against skin, i need to be inside you Scully! I need to love you, god i love you, you know that don't you? I love you so much and i'm sorry that...' 'Woah, Mulder, Mulder, it's okay! Sssh, it's okay.' She pulled him into her arms as he cried. She just had to stop him talking before her head exploded. She had to have time to absorb everything that he had just said, to take it in, but her mind was racing. Never before had she seen him this open and she doubted that he had ever been this open to anyone before. He had exposed his heart and soul to her, opened it up to let her look inside and when she did she had never seen anything more beautiful. As he was in her arms she understood everything that he had said completely. She kissed his forehead, ran her fingers through his soft, brown hair and pulled his face up so he was looking at her. 'I love you too Mulder. I really do and, and i do know that you love me, I always have.' Her own tears were returning. 'I want you to know that i know exactly what you mean, about the...about the yearning, about the need...i understand it because i feel it too Mulder.'She kissed him on the lips softly then looked back up at him. 'I feel it too!' Once again his hands were back on her face and his soulful eyes were back on hers. Never before had she seen them so serious, so intense, so honest and so very beautiful. They were now half-closed as he leaned towards her and kissed her powerfully. She realised exactly what he meant when he used the words 'feel the love surge' because as their tongues met, she felt all the heavy feelings in her chest flow up to her throat, to her mouth and then to her tongue and pass from her to him, just as she felt his pass from him to her, and damn, did it feel good! As the kiss became deeper and deeper, their emotions became clearer and clearer. It was so easy to see now: all the love, all the trust, all the need, they were exposing their inner secrets and letting each other know that they belong to each other. Right now, their bodies were saying more than words ever could. When she noticed him pulling away, it was as though someone had turned a 'tap' off and stopped the flow. A moment of panic filled her and she looked up at him in confusion. He couldn't think that this is a mistake could he? How could that be possible after everything he had just told her? 'Let's go to the bedroom!' He stood up and took her hand and the negative emotions left her. The 'tap' was turned back on again as their fingers locked and they walked towards the bedroom. Her heart was racing like mad and she was actually having difficulty breathing. When they finally reached the bedroom he gently sat her on the bed and smiled, almost shyly. He didn't join her on the bed, but stood directly facing her and bent down to kiss her once again. 'This is so right Scully' he mumbled not taking his lips from hers. 'I know it is Mulder...I know!' He stopped kissing her and held her hand in his. He noticed that it was shaking uncontrollably and smiled relieved. 'So you're as nervous as i am then?' He giggled. 'Nervous, happy, ecstatic, excited...Mulder i'm feeling so many things!' 'Me too!' He smiled sweetly and started to unfasten her blouse. He kept giggling as he struggled with each button. 'My hands are shaking so much I...' 'Here, let me help you!' Finally her blouse was off and without thought or hesitation she reached back and unclasped her bra. 'Thanks' he muttered. He stood, still facing her and admired the beauty before him. Quickly, and now more confidently, he took off the rest of her clothes. He wanted her completely naked in front of him, he wanted to see everything, every part of the woman he loved. When he finally exposed her fully, he stood back a little and stared at her so intensely that she felt herself blush all over. 'So beautiful Scully, inside and outside, you're perfect.' 'And you're still fully dressed!' He looked at his clothes and nodded, laughing a little. Looking back in her eyes, he slowly started to undress in front of her, without realising it he was performing a kind of striptease. All the time she was staring at him, he could see her pupils dilate and her breasts rise and fall heavily as her breathing increased dramatically. When he was fully exposed to her,he saw her eyes roam over his body and when they reached the part that would soon be inside her, he noticed her smile and was almost certain that she licked her lips. Now it was his turn to blush. He crawled towards her slowly; quite proud of how seductive he was being and traced kisses from her ankle all the way up to the inside of her upper thigh. They were light, gentle, feathery kisses that made her moan in delight. When he reached her breasts, she flung her head back in pleasure and grabbed his head 'Oooh Mulderrr!' He got an extreme rush, he was loving what he was doing to her, how he was making her feel and didn't want to stop. The confidence soared in him as he sucked, licked and nibbled her-he was driving her crazy! She seemed so free and so real, and it was turning him on so much he wasn't how much more he could take. Her next words were like sweet music to his ears, 'Mulder, i need you inside of me now!' As he slowly entered her, being so gentle it was irresistibly sweet, they both felt that 'tap' overflow. It was as though they were finally complete, that they had discovered the missing piece of the jigsaw puzzle. They were telling each other absolutely *everything* that there was to tell. With each thrust came every secret, every fear, every wish, every dream and it felt so good to finally reveal them. They loved the fact that they were making each other feel *so good*, joined together as one, their bodies moving together in harmony, it was so perfect, it was meant to be! They both began to moan loudly, her nails digging into his back as she started to scream his name, she could feel everything that was left to tell reaching the surface, ready to explode, her body was shivering and his was too. His thrusts deepened, releasing his deepest secrets, increasing his pace frantically, needing to release more and more, to release everything, he could feel that it was close, their hands joined, their fingers locked tightly, one final heavy moan, one final hard, deep thrust, one final secret and he collapsed on top of her. They lay in each others arms, all the cold and emptiness that they had felt inside for so long had gone, they lay still feeling more happy, more needed and more loved than ever before. Finally they were 'whole', finally they were free..... ~THE END~ :-) You like?? Please let me know what you think, I'd really appreciate some feedback on this one! nuttier_tart@hotmail.com Thanks! Oh sorry, if there is a lot of spelling mistakes but i'm kind of in a rush when posting this! Bye!