From: =?iso-8859-1?q?Kessia=20Nina?= Date: Fri, 17 Dec 1999 05:09:43 -0800 (PST) Subject: xfc: Fanfiction Source: xfc From: =?iso-8859-1?q?Kessia Nina?= Title: " Nirvana" Author: Sarah Robinson E-mail: Minginmare@hotmail.com Rating: NC-17 for sexual content and naughty language! Spoilers: Fire, Syzygy and The End Category: Mulder/Scully Romance Summary: Mulder and Scully decide to admit their feelings to one another. While at a Bureau dinner, but Diana Fowley (Hiss!) and Jeffery Spender do their best to prevent this. Calling all shippers and Fowley haters! Feedback desperately wanted!!! I'm not insecure. Honest! It's my first fanfic so go easy on me! Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me. They belong to Chris Carter, etc. I'm not making any money out of this, so don't sue, I'm broke! This Is for David and Gillian, an inspiration to us all! Dana Scully had just slipped into her new red satin dress. She had bought it that day, just after Fox Mulder had asked her to accompany him to the Bureau dinner. He had left it a little late to ask her, but that's Mulder! They both hated those Bureau dinners, people would probably stare and gossip, not that she cared, she knew that they did it already. Dana's hands smoothed over the silky fabric, the material shimmering in the moonlight. She was putting the finishing touches to her makeup, just as there was a familiar knock at the door. She crossed the apartment and opened the door to find a very handsome, very sexy Fox Mulder standing in her doorway. He flashed her one of his brilliant smiles that never failed to turn her on. Fox Mulder's eyes were fixed on Dana. Her fiery hair hung in loose curls around her face. He noticed that the tiny mole above her lip wasn't covered up with makeup like it normally was, it was undeniably sexy, she was undeniably sexy. Her dress clung slightly to her small figure. He had never seen her like this before, her clothes at work were always smart suits. They were blocky, designed to keep people at a distance. But tonight he could see a whole new side of her coming through, a side he had caught glimpses of during the years that they had worked together, a side he couldn't wait to explore. " Are you okay Mulder? You look a little flushed." Scully grinned a little at his reaction towards her, she was enjoying it. " Y-Yeah." He managed to choke out. Mulder picked his jaw back up off the floor and followed Scully into the apartment. " You look amazing, Scully." He said after closing the door behind him. He couldn't take his eyes away from her. He couldn't see her legs because of the length of her dress, but the outline of her body was simply arousing. He had allowed these thoughts into his conscious mind for a while now, ever since he had admitted to himself that he was in love with her. She was everything to him, she was his life. The tension had increased between them during the last few months, it was becoming unbearable. Seeing her everyday in the office, just wanting to throw her on the desk and let loose the years of passion that had built up inside him. He couldn't hold it in any longer, before he had left his apartment he had decided that tonight would be the night, he would tell Dana how he felt about her. Her voice snapped him out of his thoughts. " Thankyou, you don't look so bad yourself. You've redeemed yourself in the tux department." The last time that she'd seen him in a tux was when Phoebe Green had decided to make reappearance in his life. She had been jealous. A jealous bitch to be more precise. She always was when another woman was involved in Mulder's life. She had thought nothing of these jealous feelings at first, things were less complicated that way. Until she saw Detective Angela White on top of Mulder in a very compromising situation. Her heart felt like it had shattered into a million pieces at that moment. She had been so angry, she could have strangled them both right there on the bed. Dana tried to push those thoughts to the back of her mind, she was going to have a good time tonight, and then she was going to tell Mulder that she was in love with him. She had been ever since the first time that they had met. She couldn't keep it inside anymore, it was eating her up. " You ready to go?" Mulder asked, still admiring her. " Yeah, let me just grab my purse" " We'll get a cab so we can get smashed!" " I'd like to see how Skinner would react to that." " Come on Scully, let's be impulsive. Let this be a night where we don't give a toss what anyone thinks, deal?" " Okay, deal. But you may live to regret it." She flashed him an amazing smile. God, her smile had given him a hard on! He hoped that she hadn't noticed. Damn, she was gorgeous! He could never tell her how much he was in love with her, but tonight he'd try. They caught a cab outside Scully's apartment and they arrived at the Bureau dinner. As they made their way through the crowded room, men practically fell at Scully's feet. Mulder felt jealousy rising from the pit of his stomach. He placed a possessive hand on the small of her back and led her to their Assistant Director. Mulder's touch sent a jolt of electricity coursing through her body, just like all the other times he touched her. But this was different, it felt more personal. " Agents." Skinner said as Mulder and Scully approached him " It's nice to see you here. You look amazing, Dana." Mulder gave Skinner a tight smile. Dana?! Where the Hell had that come from?! " Thankyou, sir." She smiled politely. Her smile faded when she turned and saw Diana Fowley in a short black dress and Jeffery Spender chatting to a couple of other agents. Hate was not a strong enough word to describe how she felt about that woman. When she had met her for the first time, and discovered that they had worked together, she felt jealous. But when she had found out that they had been involved, not only did she go into jealous overload, she felt extremely threatened aswell. She hated this woman for causing the emotions that ran rampant through her body. She hated this woman for making her feel so insecure about the one thing that she was sure about in her life, her relationship with Mulder. She hadn't been the least bit sorry when she had learnt that Diana had been shot. She'd felt guilty then, because she saw how much it had upset Mulder. But that only made her hate the bitch more. " Well, why don't you two get something to drink and enjoy yourselves. Maybe I'll see you later in the evening." Mulder led Scully to a table and they were greeted with a glass of champagne. Mulder had seen how Scully had glared daggers at Diana Fowley. He knew that there was always a strange electricity when there was another woman in the same room as them, more so when that woman was Diana Fowley. He could only dream of Scully returning the feelings he had for her, but when he saw her reactions to other women who he took an interest in or when they took an interest in him, he became a little more convinced that that dream could become a reality. Scully found herself thinking of all the things that she loved about Fox Mulder, his quirks, his dry sarcasm, but the most compelling aspect of him was his eyes. His eyes were amazing, as she looked into them now, she found herself getting a little wet. She could read his heart through those eyes. She never knew what to expect from them. His eyes would change from a smooth shade of brown to a breathtaking green when he was hurting or worried about her. She focused on his lips. What would it be like to kiss him, to have his tongue inside her mouth? What would he taste like? She started to lose control of her mind as she imagined what it would be like to have him inside her, thrusting her so hard, so passionately that she'd cry out in pain, or would it be pleasure? The two were hard to distinguish. She realised that she was starting to get incredibly wet. " So," Mulder brought her back to reality " are we having a riot or what?" She smiled her little smile at his dry sarcasm. " Hell yeah! Best time I've had in years." She came back quickly. He gave her a wide toothy grin. " You wanna dance?" " You can dance? I'm impressed." " You ain't seen nothing yet, Scully." There were a few people on the dancefloor. The band began to play ' Lady In Red' by Chris De Burgh. Mulder raised his eyebrow and signalled to her dress. "C'mon Scully. It's fate." He had extended his hand towards her, he was irresistible. She placed her hand in his as he pulled her up from her seat and led her to the dancefloor. His hand went around her waist, pulling her close. He held her hand on his chest. Scully could feel his heart beating rapidly. She closed her eyes as they swayed to the music. I've never seen you looking as lovely as you did tonight, I've never seen you shine so bright, I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance, They're looking for a little romance, given half a chance, And I have never seen that dress you're wearing, Or the highlights in your hair that catch your eyes, I have been blind. Mulder embraced the words, etching them permantely in his mind. It would take a lot for him to forget how she looked tonight. He'd never knew how desirable she was until he had taken a long, hard look. Not only was he feeling a physical need for her, but an emotional one aswell. He loved the way her mind worked, how she kept him on his toes, challenging everything he believed in, how she brought him back down to earth when he was too far 'out there'. She was one of a kind. The lady in red is dancing with me, cheek to cheek, There's nobody here, it's just you and me, It's where I want to be, But I hardly know this beauty by my side, I'll never forget the way you look tonight. She felt his arm tighten around her. She slipped her arm around his neck. Dana heard her partner sigh with content. She smiled into his chest, she could stay like this forever. He needed to tell her how he felt, he needed to tell her now. He was so scared though. The fear of losing her terrorised him to the core, but she had to know that he loved her, even if she didn't feel the same. He drew in a deep breath. " Scully," he whispered into her hair. His deep, husky voice sent a shiver down her spine. "I-" He was interrupted by the arrival of Diana Fowley. She looked at Scully with a look at pure innocence, but her voice betrayed her. " May I cut in?" she asked smugly. Scully's eyes blazed white hot with rage. She was sure that Mulder was about to tell her something important. She glanced at Mulder and stepped away as Diana moved close to Mulder, relishing in making Scully suffer. Scully turned and walked away from the dancefloor. Tears of fury glazed her eyes. She was met by Jeffery Spender. " Don't you think they make a lovely couple? They belong together, accept it." He stated coldly " He doesn't want you, he never has and he never will." Spender's words struck her with a stinging blow. She was shocked by his statement. How could he be so cold? He had no right talking to her like that. The tears of anger began to overflow. Scully swiped at them angrily. She began to move away, but Spender grabbed hold of her arm tightly. " Get the hell off me, you fucking bastard!" Her voice tight with cold fury. Mulder looked after Scully longingly as she had walked away. She had been confronted by Spender, a few tears had fallen from her eyes. He paid no attention to Diana as they moved to the pace of the music, his focus was on Scully. He saw Spender grab Scully's arm, and tension wracked his body. She pulled her arm away and made her way out of the ballroom, but Spender was in hot pursuit. Mulder left Diana standing in the middle of the dancefloor without an apology. He didn't care. He'd come to this dinner with Scully, and he wanted to be with her. He knew that Scully could handle Spender, but he couldn't help being protective of her. He exited the room to find Scully and Spender in the hallway, arguing. Spender had backed Scully up against the wall. " Who do you think you are?" Scully was on the verge of screaming. " I'm trying to be a friend, Agent Scully." " A friend?!" She spat in disbelief " A friend!!! Fuck you, Spender!" " Mulder doesn't want you, but there are plenty of men that do." Spender stared down at her chest and reached to cup her breasts. " Get your hands off me, damnit!" Mulder snapped when he saw this. He felt an animal roar build up in his lungs. He lunged towards Spender and pulled him away from Scully. He swung him around to face him. The expression on Spender's face was pure shock, Mulder's was an expression of fury like Scully had never seen before. Mulder's fist connected with Spender's jaw with an ear splitting crack. Spender crumpled to the floor clutching his face. Mulder dragged him to his feet and slammed him against the wall. " You ever touch her again, you fucking son of a bitch, and I'll make sure you stay down!" Scully placed a hand on Mulder's tense arm. He held Spender with a glare that could melt the Antarctic. " Come on Mulder, he's not worth it." Mulder released Spender, but not without another hard shove against the wall. Mulder slipped his arm around her waist, his fingers gliding over the red satin, as his silently led her out of the building. " Are you okay?" Mulder was concerned. He didn't know whether Scully was annoyed or thankful. "I'm fine, Mulder." The words came out of her mouth before she could stop them. A cab pulled up and Scully got in. They didn't say a word all the way home. Mulder was still furious with Spender. He would have shot the shithead right there if Scully hadn't held him back. Scully closed her eyes with fatigue, it had been a long night. She contemplated telling Mulder about her feelings another night. She instantly rejected that idea, if she didn't tell him tonight, she never would. Mulder walked Scully to her apartment. He silently pleaded for her to invite him inside. He didn't want to tell her that he was madly in love with her in the doorway, but he would if he had to. He smiled in relief at her next words. " So, do you want to come in for a coffee or something?" " Sure." They entered the darkened apartment, and he wondered whether to dive on her right here. He didn't think that she'd appreciate that though. Scully flicked the switch and the apartment was flooded with light. Mulder squinted a little as Scully threw her purse on the couch and went into the kitchen. She began to make the coffee when she felt Mulder's presence behind her. She could smell him, his unique musky scent filled her nostrils. She closed her eyes as the smell lingered in the air. " Mulder," she began " I want to thank you for coming to my rescue with Spender, he was way out of line." " It's okay." " No, it's not okay, I just wanted you to know that I appreciated what you did, to protect me." She tried to find the words to tell him what she needed him to hear. Mulder placed his hand on Scully's own. She could only stare at it. Mulder turned her around and held her by waist. Her heart was beating rapidly. " Scully" he started " I need to tell you something, something I've wanted- needed to tell you for a while now." Scully saw it in his eyes, what he wanted to tell her. She smiled as she put a finger to Mulder's lip and impulsively pulled his head down. Their lips met with a jolt of electricity. The kiss started off tenderly. They gently wound their lips around each other's mouths. The sexual tension and passion built up so quickly, it was mind blowing. The protective walls that they'd built over the years collapsed each letting the other into their heart. Scully opened her mouth to his, inviting his tongue to explore. Mulder accepted the invitation and slowly slid his tongue past her lips. His tongue probed every part of her mouth, exploring, thrusting. Their lips parted as they panted breathlessly. " I love you too" Scully gasped, her voice thick with lust. Scully flashed him a little smile that did it. Mulder scooped her up into his arms and carried her into the bedroom. He closed the door with his foot and gently laid Scully on the bed. Her eyes were dancing with passion. " Scul- Dana, are you sure that you want to do this?" She nodded. His hands sweeped over her face, making sure that she wasn't a figment of his imagination, that this wasn't really just in his head. They both knelt up on the bed. They began to kiss again, pressing hard against each other with uncontrolled passion. Mulder caressed Scully's shoulders. He nuzzled her neck as his hands reached to cup her breasts. He squeezed and she arched her back with a gasp. He was immediately turned on by her reaction to his movements. Scully's hand ran down his chest to his hardness. He groaned as she grabbed it through his pants. Mulder's hand reached around the back of Scully's dress to the zipper. He slowly unzipped her dress, relishing her impatience. She stood up on the bed and the dress slipped smoothly down her curves to her feet. Her hair slipped over her face as she looked down at Mulder. His eyes moved down her body, he stopped on the bra covering her breasts. He could see her hardened nipples through the silk. His eyes roamed down when he realised that she wasn't wearing any panties! If he'd known that before, he would have had a hard on all night. She knelt down opposite him and began working on his shirt. Mulder just stared at her face, he couldn't believe this was happening. She tore his shirt off and caressed his chest with her hands. Mulder lowered her on to her back and crawled on top of her. He reached for the front of her bra and released the clasp. Her breasts spilled out and his mouth covered one, then another. She cried out as his tongue flicked over her hardened nipple. Her hands were entwined in his hair. Mulder's mouth left her breasts and kissed her smooth stomach. His hand slipped down her navel to move between her legs. He discovered how wet she was, because of him. Feeling this, his erection throbbed to be freed. Scully swung Mulder around so that she was now on top of him. She played with his belt, a mischievous glint reflected in her eyes, slowly undoing it, making him suffer as he had done before. She unzipped his pants and reached inside his boxers, her hands closed around his erection. " God, Dana" he groaned. Scully smiled at him and pulled his pants and boxers off him. Her lips closed around him, taking him in her mouth, licking and teasing him with her tongue. He grasped hold of the covers. He was going to come, and he couldn't control himself any longer. In one quick movement, Scully was on her back again. Fox and Dana stared into each other's eyes with love and an untamed animal lust. " I want you inside me" breathed Scully. Mulder couldn't hold back if he'd wanted to, his desire to please her became overwhelming. He gently slipped inside her. Scully gasped in delight as he penetrated her. They took it slowly at first, wanting to make it last. But as Mulder moved deeper inside her, they both began to lose their grip on control.Mulder's thrusting became more frantic, as did Scully's groans. Mulder bit her neck as she cried out. Mulder lifted his head up to watch Scully's face. Her eyes were tightly shut, she bit down on her lip. She opened her eyes, feeling Mulder's gaze on her, she kissed him with a passion like no other. They both came simultaneously, both screaming out each other's name as they grinded their hips together. One word came into Mulder's mind as he moved deeper within Scully, Nivana, a higher state of consciousness. That's what it was like making love to Dana Katherine Scully. They both collapsed into an exhausted heap after years of lingering looks and endless flirting had come to a head. They held on tightly to one another, as they fell into a well-earned sleep. Scully awakened to find Mulder staring longingly at her. His fingers running gently through her hair. He bent his head down and Scully moved her lips to his offered mouth. She pulled away from him and looked at him. He looked so beautiful. His hair was ruffled and there were signs of an early beard on his face, it was nothing less than erotic. Scully smiled in content. She didn't know where they went from here, at that moment in time she didn't care. She could stay like this forever. They would probably keep their relationship a secret, they both knew the Bureau's views on relationships between partners. Besides, she wasn't sure if Mulder would give up the X-Files to be with her. Mulder didn't think that he'd slept so well in his life. As he had watched Scully sleep, he felt that he could accomplish anything as long as long as she was beside him. She looked up at Mulder and smiled lazily. " God, I love you. I don't think I could ever tell you how much. I've loved you for so long now, I wanted to tell you, but I was so afraid that I'd lose you. I still am." Mulder whispered into her hair. Scully's eyes glistened with tears. She wouldn't cry, not yet anyway. She had to tell him how much he meant to her. Her finger slowly caressed his cheek. " I know. But there's no need to be afraid. I love you, and I want to be with you. Nothing's going to come between us. Ever." She said it with a certainty that sent reassurance coursing through his body. His hand ran down his shirt that she had slept in. She looked so sexy in it. They went into a tight embrace, crooning ' I love yous' in each other's ear. Mulder positioned himself on Scully, ready to move inside her. " Agent Mulder, are you coming on to me?" " You bet your ass I am." He smiled. They began to kiss passionately, Scully's tongue thrust past Mulder's lips. She moved underneath him, ready to let him in. They were interrupted by the slamming of Scully's apartment door. They both looked at each other and froze. Diana Fowley's voice shattered the silence. " When are you going to get the picture, bitch?" She spat as she made her way to Scully's bedroom " Fox wants me, not you. No man could ever want you, ice queen!" Scully's eyes burned wildly with anger. Mulder had never seen her like this. Questions bombarded his mind. What was Diana doing? Has she done this before? Entered Dana's apartment and started hurling abuse at her. If she had, it was going to stop here. Diana was stopped in her tracks as she entered Scully's bedroom. Mulder was laid possessively on Scully. " Fox!" Diana was shocked to the core, she stammered on " W- What are you doing here?!" Diana was squirming, trying to get herself out of the hole she had dug. Her eyes darted nervously to her surroundings. " What am I doing here? What are you doing here?" He jumped out of bed wearing just his boxers. He marched towards Diana, confronting her. He had never felt so angry in his life, what right did she have talking to the woman that he loved like that? Scully got out of bed too, moving towards Mulder. The look in his eyes told him that he was going to shut the bitch up. Scully placed a reassuring hand on Mulder's tense arm, she wanted to be the one to shut her up. Mulder backed off and Scully slammed Diana hard against the wall, so hard that she was surprised that it hadn't fallen down. " You're not going to come between us, do you hear me?!" Scully's eyes were flared up in anger. She had her arm against Diana's throat. " Get the fuck out of my apartment!" Scully took her arm away and shoved her through the apartment. Mulder paced the bedroom as he heard the door slam. Scully returned to Mulder, her face flushed with anger. She exhaled deeply as Mulder took her hand and pulled her into his embrace. They didn't say a word as they prepared breakfast. They had to be at work in a couple of hours. The phone rang and Scully left the kitchen to answer it. Mulder set the table as he heard Scully's half of the conversation. " Yes, sir......... okay we'll be there......... goodbye." He heard the tightness in Dana's voice. She slammed the phone down on the table and he heard her curse. " Bitch!" Mulder stopped what he was doing and went into the living room to join Scully. " What is it?" Mulder's voice was full of concern. Scully jumped and turned to face Mulder. " Skinner wants to see us in his office in an hour. He says that Diana Fowley has just informed him of some developments between the two of us." She turned away from him " Damn her!" Mulder slipped his arms around her waist and she turned into his embrace. " Do you regret it?" He asked, voicing his worst fear. Dana shook her head into his chest. " No" She whispered, as she heard Mulder breathe a sigh of relief. " Then we stick together, we're a team. I'm not going to lose you. I don't want to lose the X-Files either, but if Skinner makes us choose, I choose us. How 'bout you?" His voice was firm, but his eyes were pleading with her. Scully smiled in agreement. Her eyes shining with unconditional love for this wonderful man standing in front of her. Mulder took her face in his hands and placed a tender kiss on her on forehead. " Well, if we've got to meet our fate in an hour, then I'd better go home and get changed, or I could just turn up in my tux! Do you think Skinner would be impressed?" Scully grinned at his little comment. She couldn't stop smiling, no matter what he said. " I'll meet you in Skinner's office in an hour. I've got a few things to do first." Mulder nodded and Scully walked him to the door. " I love you." Mulder whispered in Scully's ear. " You know what? I love you too." Mulder smiled and kissed Scully goodbye. Mulder entered the Assistant Director's office, he saw that Scully wasn't there yet. He himself had been late to their meeting, it wasn't like Scully to be late. " Agent Mulder," Skinner greeted him " Sit down, Agent Scully's going to be a little late to the meeting, she's at the hospital." " The hospital?!" Mulder's heart caught in his throat " What's she doing at the hospital?" " She didn't say, but she said that it was nothing serious." The hospital? Why hadn't she called to tell him? He felt a slight tinge of anger, but he was overcome by worry. His frantic thoughts came to a halt as the office door opened. Scully appeared in the doorway. Mulder's eyes skimmed over her body, checking her out. His eyes settled on her arm, it was in a cast. Her face seemed a little bruised aswell. Mulder's face was creased with worry. " I'm sorry that I'm late." She crossed the room and occupied the seat beside Mulder. " What happened Agent Scully?" Skinner's voice betrayed a little worry. " I have a broken wrist. I- uh- I hit something hard." " What?" " Diana Fowley's face." She said simply. She avoided Mulder's gaze. " W-What?" Skinner choked in disbelief. Mulder couldn't believe it either. " She came by my apartment and she started on me. She hit me, so I hit her back. I guess I didn't realise how hard. What did you want to see us about, sir?" She changed the subject, shuffling around in her chair. She felt Mulder's eyes burning into the side of her face. " Um, yes, speaking of Agent Fowley. She came to me with information indicating an evolvement in your relationship with one another. She said that she saw you in bed together. Is that true?" " Yes." Mulder said, firmly. He didn't want to deny it, he didn't regret it. He wanted to spend the rest of her life with Dana. Skinner exhaled loudly. " I can't say that I'm surprised, I've been expecting it for a while now." Mulder and Scully had braced themselves for his reaction, but this wasn't what they'd expected." Listen, you two are probably the best agents in the Bureau, I don't want to lose either one of you. So, if you can keep your relationship strictly professional while at work, then I think that it will be fine for the both of you to continue working on the X-Files." Mulder and Scully's faces simultaneously broke into relieved sighs. Scully looked at her partner for the first time during the meeting, and gave him the most wonderful smile that he had ever seen. " Thankyou,sir." Scully beamed. " You're welcome." He returned the smile. Mulder and Scully both rose from their seats and Mulder led Scully out of Skinner's office with a hand on the small of her back. They walked down the corridor to the elevator. " Is your wrist okay? What happened with Diana?" " She must have seen you leave and she came back to the apartment. She said some things and she hit me. I just lost control, and I hit her." " You must have hit her hard to break your wrist." " Yeah, I think I obliterated her cheekbone." Scully smiled. They glanced at each other with a secret look that told them that as soon as they got into that elevator........ The doors flew open, the elevator was empty. They turned and looked at each other with wide grins. They stepped inside, Scully pushed the button for the ground floor, and as soon as the doors closed, they flung themselves at each other. They kissed each other with a passion that was unknown to man. They broke away only for air. Mulder saw that Scully's lips were swollen from the kiss, she was breathing hard. He looked deep into her eyes, and gave her a ' Come fuck me now' look. " Nirvana." He mumbled as he returned to Scully's lips. END. Feedback? Please!!!!!!