From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org Date: 29 Nov 2007 05:32:03 -0000 Subject: Of Mothmen and Militant Nationalists by 19 Source: direct Reply To: xff19@yahoo.com TITLE: Of Mothmen and Militant Nationalists AUTHOR: 19 E-MAIL: xff19@yahoo.com DISTRIBUTION: Archive freely RATING: R for language CATEGORIES: S KEYWORDS: MSR (implied) SPOILERS: minor ones for Detour, Field Trip, FtF, Squeeze, the Host, 731, Anasazi SUMMARY: Another attempt at a partnership seminar. Disclaimer: X-Files characters belong to FOX Corporation and 1013. If I could make money at this, that would be ridiculous. Author's Notes: Randomly started writing X-Files fanfic how many years after the end of the show? Oh well, let me know if you like it and maybe I'll write more! Of Mothmen and Militant Nationalists "Okay, Agents. Agents. It looks like everyone is here now so I'd like to get started." The speaker looked around the room at the twenty or so people seated on uncomfortable government-issue chairs in a large circle. The room itself was drab and uninspiring but there was a strange mental buzz in the air, likely the combined electrical impulses of so much nervous energy bundled in an small confined space. It wasn't hard to get the attention of most of the agents in the room - in fact, it had been fairly quiet already, with only a few agents making awkward small talk. "My name is Dr. Allan Benton and I'm here today to lead this debriefing on the events that occurred during the Partnership Seminar last week. I am a clinical psychologist specializing in Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and I lead the Bureau's Critical Incident Stress Management team. I have led many agents through this debriefing process throughout my years with the Bureau and, believe me, what we do here today will help you process what happened. If you have any doubts about that, I'm confident that, by the end of the session, you will have changed your mind." Dr. Benton looked around again with an experienced eye. As expected, most of the agents seemed to be buying into what he was saying. In fact, they appeared to be eager to talk about their experience - for a lot of them it was their first shooting incident and hostage incident rolled into one event. A few of them looked uncomfortable and he made a mental note to keep an eye on those agents. Then there were the two in the corner who had been talking quietly through his introduction. They both clearly hadn't heard anything he had just said and wore slightly pained expressions on their faces. Well, at least the woman's expression might have been due to a physical condition - her arm was in a sling and her shoulder was clearly bandaged under her suit jacket. However, he suspected that both their expressions were due to heavy feelings regarding what happened. As the two most affected by the incident, they were his biggest concern. He hoped that, in due time, they could come to terms with what had happened. "So let's start by setting some guidelines for today's session. Does anyone have any suggestions?" "I think what's said in here should stay in here," a young male agent suggested. He looked to be straight out of the academy and was eager to participate in the discussion. "Good idea. Do anyone disagree with that?" Of course no one did. A few other agents laid down more basic ground rules; speaking one at a time, respecting differences in opinion, being open to new ideas. "Okay, that's good. We have some established guidelines to work within now as we start to explore our feelings about what happened at the seminar. But to start with, lets try to establish, as a group, a narrative of the events that took place. Who would like to start?" Dr. Benton looked around to room as to open the floor to the participants. There was a brief uncomfortable moment of everyone glancing furtively at each other before someone began to speak. Benton noted that it was a slim man who looked slightly out of place sitting next to a broad shouldered man who was older but clearly fitter. Benton recalled that they weren't part of the agents pairings - the younger man, Mitch Kearns had been the facilitator of the seminar and the older was an Assistant Director who was sitting in on the session to hear a first hand account of what had happened to two of his agents. "Well, I guess I can start as I was the facilitator of the partnership seminar. It was supposed to be a two-day condensed course at Quantico for agents who couldn't make to any of the regular four-day weekend getaway courses. There were twenty agents signed up - ten sets of partners and, ironically, we started just like this, with all the agents sitting in a circle." A couple of knowing murmurs around the room indicated that he wasn't the only one experiencing a slight case of deja vu. "We started with a common icebreaker, the one in which you tell two truths and a lie about yourself and the group tries to guess which is the lie." As Mitch began his narrative, Mulder glanced over at his partner. She sensed his eyes drift over her and tried to not twinge in pain as she shifted positions, settling in for what was bound to be a long day. Dr. Benton looked like he was going to be pretty thorough and the other agents in the room looked eager to participate. Scully sighed inwardly and looked up at her partner's eyes as she thought back to the events of the partnership seminar. * * * * Mulder sat in his seat with his arm slung behind the back of the chair, fingers idly drumming a tune. He turned towards his partner, rolling his eyes. At the same instant, she turned towards him, eyebrow characteristically raised and with a slight knowing twitch on her lips. Even if she hadn't already known his feelings regarding teamwork seminars, she could have read his expression easily. He looked every bit the smart-ass he was - cocky, bored, and slightly mischievous all at the same time. Suddenly, Scully's amusement at his distress was joined by a slight feeling of dread as she spied the twinkle in his eye. If he was going to have to do this, he was at least going to toy with some heads. Scully sat and thought about what Mulder was going to say for his two truths and a lie. So far agents had been throwing out some pretty boring stuff about numbers of siblings or family members, places they'd worked, where they'd gone to school. A few agents had elicited a laugh or two with amusing anecdotes involving high school pranks or personally embarrassing incidents but nobody had really offered up anything too interesting. Now it was almost Mulder's turn and she was pretty sure that he was going to up the ante on the game. She had to think quick if she was going to ready to compete with his little game. "Okay, Rob, was the group right? You were never a professional golfer?" Agent Rob Jones of computer crimes nodded with a slight look of chagrin. "Okay, then next is..." "Mulder." "Mulder - we're trying to go by a first name basis here. To get to know each other better and feel more comfortable with each other." "Sure. No problem. I'm just more comfortable with everyone if they call me Mulder." "Okay, fine then, Mulder, what are your two truths and a lie." Back came the twinkle in his eye. Scully silently prayed that he wouldn't say anything supremely embarrassing - she was resigned to suffering moderate embarrassment but if he brought up that Cops thing on Fox or that goddam travesty of a movie 'loosely-based on them', she was going to have to hurt him. "Okay, well, let's see..." "I was attacked by a giant mushroom." "I've been trapped in a bomb-rigged train car with an alien." "I've never been shot by another agent" Mulder sat back, looking rather self-satisfied as the murmurs began. He had long ago come to terms with the idea that pretty much everyone thought he was crazy. There was no harm in perpetuating the 'spooky' rumours and it was always fun to see how people reacted to the stories. Everyone, including the facilitator, Mitch, but excluding Scully was looking around, slightly bewildered at this new turn in the game. Many of the agents were whispering to each other with the typical 'what a nut' looks on their faces. Finally, Mitch composed himself. "Okay, so who thinks Mulder is lying about the giant mushroom - you did say giant mushroom right?" Mulder nodded, his usual deadpan blank look on his face. Quite a few agents raised their hands to vote for the giant mushroom tale. "Okay, and the alien train bomb thing?" Pretty much all the agents that hadn't already voted raised their hands. "How bout never being shot by another agent?" There was only one hand raised. "So which one was the lie Mulder?" Mitch asked, ready to move on but managing to keep upbeat. "Scully wins, of course," Mulder answered, looking over at his partner who wore a bemused expression on her face. Mitch nodded a bit nervously. "Right, good, good. It's good when your partner can guess which one's the lie. Okay, so, next, it's..." "Dana Scully." "I've been attacked by a liver-eating mutant" "I was rescued from an alien spaceship in Antarctica" "My favourite memory of my work is examining a giant fluke" Mitch looked at her, mouth slightly agape. The murmurs began again as she looked smugly over at her partner. Mulder grinned at her, excited that she had chosen to participate in his little game. The Mrs. Spooky myths were going to get a big boost if Scully was going to act the part. "Okay, well who thinks Dana was not attacked by a, um, liver-eating mutant?" A few hands went up. "And who thinks she was not rescued from a space ship in Antarctica?" The rest of the agents raised their hands. However, Mitch sighed inwardly as he noticed Mulder had yet to cast his vote. Either Mulder wasn't going to vote or he was obviously not playing the game properly. Really - not only a spaceship? But in Antarctica? They were supposed to be being realistic. "How about the giant fluke?" Mulder raised his arm and silently laughed. They were two for two but, of course, they had insider knowledge. He supposed that he couldn't blame the others for their incredulity - in fact, he almost couldn't believe she had just admitted, in front of him, though in a surreptitious way, that it was a spaceship. "I suppose Mulder is right Dana?" Mitch asked with evident annoyance, though trying to keep up his happy facilitator act. Scully nodded stoically. "Yes. That was the lie," she said evenly, as if she had not just basically admitted to seeing both a spaceship and a liver-eating mutant. Mitch nodded and continued on to the last couple of agents who had not gone yet. It had taken some time to get around the whole group and he was anxious to get onto the next activity. They finished the game with another two mundane 'lies' and then he started to introduce their first teamwork activity. "Alright, now that we know each other a little better, let's get started with our first activity. For this one, you'll get a chance to stretch your legs and get some fresh air. In the first part you're all going to go out on your own and find one item that represents your partnership. You have twenty minutes to find this item - it can be anything - a rock, a leaf, a newspaper, whatever just as long as you can explain why it is representative of your partnership. Does anyone have any questions? Ok, perfect, then we'll meet back here in twenty minutes." * * * * Scully walked out of the building onto the general Quantico campus and took a long breath of fresh air. It had been awhile since she had been at the FBI Academy but it still felt familiar and she smiled to herself at some of the memories it brought back. She glanced over in the direction of the Forensic research training centre where she had once taught classes. It felt like a long time ago, a lifetime ago really and she reminisced somewhat fondly at her innocence in those days. Even in her second stint there, after her first year with Mulder and the X files, she had been so young and naive. In a way she wished she could go back to the easiness of being in the dark, not knowing about the vast government conspiracies that perpetuated evil doings in the world. But she knew that, given the chance to go back she wouldn't hesitate for a second, she would still make the same choices that had led her to this moment, walking around aimlessly trying to find something that represented her and Mulder's partnership. Ignorance might be bliss in some cases but not when it came to Mulder. To think of the things she would have missed had she never been partnered with him made her somewhat queasy to her stomach. Sure, he was infuriating at times but he was also, somehow, endlessly endearing at the same time, she thought. Take last night for instance. He had invited her over for dinner and a movie, a regular Friday night for them. After dinner, during the movie she had fallen asleep snuggled up against him, also a regular occurrence. Normally, he would wake her up after the movie with his signature gentle touch and they would eventually make it into the bedroom but last night she had planned to go back to her own place as she needed to change her clothes and put on her professional face before they went out to Quantico in the morning. Also, his place was on the way to Quantico so it only made sense for her to pick him up in the morning. Knowing her plan, Mulder hadn't woken her up or tried to get her to the bedroom at all. Instead, he had taken advantage of her sleepiness and had settled into the couch with her, pulling her tight against him until she melted into his arms and sighed contentedly. They slept like that for a few hours, entangled on his couch which was definitely not big enough to sleep two, even when one of the two was as small as Scully. She had woken in the middle of the night and attempted to extract herself from his grasp but he was clearly not willing to let her go without a battle. He had mumbled some incoherent arguments about her being too tired to drive and finally resorted to rubbing her back gently while pleading with her to stay. She didn't know what happened to her usually strong willpower when Mulder was involved - somehow, he could convince her to do pretty much anything and that was when he wasn't massaging her sensuously. She had finally gavin in and let him drag her into the bedroom, definitely not regretting her decision as she settled back into the warmth of his body. He had pulled her close and murmured a promise that they would get up early and go over to her place so she could get ready for the seminar. Scully sighed to herself, knowing that it wasn't entirely his fault that they had been late getting to Quantico in the morning. It was easy to blame things on him though - he was completely incorrigible and impossible to resist, especially when he insisted on waking her up with the most gentle of caresses. By the time they had finally gotten to her place they were basically late already and by the time they got to Quantico they had missed the morning coffee and pastry session and disrupted the introduction of the icebreaker activity as they took their seats. So here she was, trying to think of an object that would represent her and Mulder's partnership while all she wanted was an extremely large cup of coffee and a bagel. 'Seriously, what the hell am I going to find here that represents me and Mulder?" she thought to herself as a glance down at her watch informed her that she only had fifteen more minutes to find something and get back. * * * * Mulder breathed a sigh of relief as he was allowed out of the conference room to find an object to represent his and Scully's partnership. He wasn't sure he knew quite what to bring back but was confident that he would find something appropriate. As he wandered about the Quantico grounds, he thought back to the previous night and morning. Sure, it had mostly been his fault that they had been late but, as he had reminded a slightly cranky Scully that morning while en route to the seminar, it takes two to tango. Still, he had felt a twinge of guilt when they had to interrupt the first activity - Scully hated being late and she really hated missing out on her morning coffee. Now he wanted to do something to make it up to her but he had to find an item for the stupid teamwork activity too. God, he hated these teamwork games - he and Scully weren't going to learn anything about their partnership by saying how they were like a rock or a leaf or a bagel with cream cheese. * * * * EIghteen agents milled back into the conference room at the end of the twenty minutes. Mitch looked around and saw that they carried various items with them, flowers, sports equipment, rocks, books. He noticed that many looked around nervously, not sure if they had picked the right thing. Where were the two nuts though? he asked himself - neither had made it back yet. He sensed that they would be troublesome for the whole weekend - they had looked alternately bored and mischievous during the first exercise, not making eye contact with anyone else in the room except each other. However, he also noticed that they seemed completely at ease with each other.in a way that he didn't often see and he had run training seminars for a lot of law enforcement and military agencies. He had watched them closely from the minute they had walked in late, Mulder with a subdued smirk on his lips, Scully with a barely hidden look of annoyance in her eyebrows. Now, he watched as Scully walked in to the room, late again and this time carrying two coffees and a paper bag. She looked around the room, noting that everyone except for Mulder seemed to be back already and walked around to her seat. Just as she was sitting down, Mulder walked into the room, also bearing two coffees and a paper bag. He looked across at his partner and grinned stupidly. Scully couldn't help but to offer a small twitch of the corner of her mouth in return. It didn't always happen, but sometimes they really were on the same page. "Hey Scully, what's in the bag?" he asked as he sat down in her seat. "What's in your bag Mulder?" she asked back. "No fair - I asked you first." Scully considered the validity of his argument and acquiesced. "Bagels and cream cheese and lox," she said. " How bout you?" Mulder grinned slyly. "Bagels, cream cheese, lox and a danish." "Well, Mulder. then what does coffee, bagels, cream cheese, and lox have to do with our partnership?" Mulder's mouth was too stuffed with food to answer before Mitch started speaking again. "Okay, now that we're all back, we're going to take some time in pairs to look at and discuss what we each brought back. You can choose to stay in this room or find a more private spot to discuss your..." Mitch's instructions were interrupted by the arrival of two men dressed in black commando uniforms, one of whom strode up to him and calmly placed a large gun to his head. "Everyone hands over your heads and lie down on your stomachs or this piece of shit is dead," said the one pointing his gun at Mitch. There was a moment of stunned silence. What the hell had just happened? Many of the agents thought that it was part of the teamwork games but, even so, it was probably best to play the situation realistically and, realistically, when someone threatens to kill the seminar leader, you obey. All of the agents, one by one, held their hands up and lay down on their stomachs. Quickly, his partner ran around the room and collected all the agents' weapons, putting them in a bag in the far corner of the room. * * * * "Okay, thank you, let's stop there," Dr. Benton said, interrupting Mitch's account of what had happened. "I want to give everyone a chance to talk about how they felt at that point in the events. Mitch, if you wouldn't mind, I'd like to start with you." Mitch looked a bit green by this point and took a deep breath before starting. "Um, okay. How did I feel? I was terrified - it's not like I've ever had a gun pushed up against my head before. I mean, it still makes me a bit jumpy just thinking about it. I've had nightmares ever since. I guess I'm still trying to get over that feeling of pure fear but I can't stop thinking about it and reliving that moment. Every time, it's just as intense too - I can't help it." "Okay, that's good. Thanks for being honest with the group, Mitch. It's really helpful when everyone is up front with their experiences. So what I heard is that you felt fear like you've never experienced before when your life was threatened. I think that everyone in this room can relate to that. Would anyone else like to share their feelings from this moment?" Dr. Benton asked while making a mental note to check in with Mitch later as he was exhibiting signs of both ASD and, potentially, PTSD. "Well, at first, I thought that it was just part of the seminar, you know, like a scenario to test how we would react so I wasn't really that scared at the start," a young female agent, Watts, answered. Many of the agents around the room nodded in agreement and a few 'yeahs' were heard. Dr. Benton looked deliberately over at the two he was keeping tabs on - they looked to be deep in whispered conversation, most likely discussing how things had gone so wrong at the seminar. He wandered closer to listen in on their conversation. "Mulder..." Scully said, her whisper low, like a warning. "C'mon, Scully, do it - I double dog dare ya," Mulder replied, with a glint in his eyes that belied his serious expression. "Mulder, I am not going to fake anything, ice cream or not," she replied. 'What the hell were they talking about?' Dr. Benton asked himself. It didn't seem like they had heard anything that was being said by the other agents. In fact, they seemed to be off in their own little world. He figured they were repressing their emotions regarding the event, pushing their feelings aside in order to avoid dealing with the experience. Benton decided to stay close to try and get a better idea of what they were thinking as he continued on with his standard debriefing strategies. "Okay, so most of you weren't very scared at the start - when and how did that change?" "Well, one of the guys started yelling something about snakes and that confused me a bit but then it was obvious that something was wrong when the shooting started." Watts continued. At the word shooting, most of the agents minutely flinched and Dr. Benton looked sideways at the two whisperers. They were still at it and had barely bothered to listen to the ongoing debriefing session. "When it rains sleeping bags Mulder, when it rains sleeping bags," Scully was saying, her mouth exhibiting the slightest twinge of a grin, which was only noticeable to her partner. Mulder was giving her a pretty good orphaned puppy-dog look, his lower lip displaying a perfect, but fake, pout. "Fine, then I get to choose next pizza and none of that half and half crap - you have to eat what I pick." Scully looked dismayed, like he had finally found something she truly dreaded. Dr. Benton, on the other hand, looked confused as he had absolutely no understanding of what was going on. He was used to dealing with trauma survivors and victims. He couldn't remember anyone ever talking about food in the midst of discussing the shooting of a fellow agent. He couldn't even figure out if Mulder and Scully were having a conversation. They seemed to understand each other but for him it was like listening to a conversation with most of the lines removed. Dr. Benton sighed and turned his attention back to the rest of the group - whatever Mulder and Scully were talking about could wait - he had to get through the rest of the debriefing. "Alright then, why don't you continue the story for us then," Dr. Benton suggested, nodding towards Agent Watts. * * * * All of the agents were lying face down on the ground, still roughly arranged in a circle. Most were craning their necks to see what would happen next, to try and figure out what they were supposed to do next in the exercise. Suddenly though, the second gunman, having put the agents' weapons in the corner, started yelling. "Okay, so who's the snake? Which one of you is a real man?" he shouted into their ears. The agents all looked completely baffled. What was he talking about? "Who's the snake? You bullshittin' us man? You a chickenshit? Be a man!" the gunman yelled, pacing and staring at the agents, working himself into a frenzy. He waved his gun around maniacally and pointed it at the agents, one a time. "I'm going to start shooting soon snaky - who's gonna be the first one to die?" Still no one moved. The air was pulled tight with confusion and tension. Was it a game? An exercise? It was getting harder to tell what the hell was going on. The gunshot was excruciatingly loud and cut through the stiff air of the room with a concussive force. It was followed by an equally excruciating scream that emanated from one of the older male agents, Bob something or another. Everyone turned to look as he grabbed his knee in pain. Blood spurted everywhere, it seeped and ran through his fingers, soaking into the carpet around him as he moaned in pain. * * * * "Okay, thank you, you can stop there," Dr. Benton interrupted, bringing the agents back to the present. He could see that many of them had been vividly reliving the experience as Agent Watts described what had happened. It had been less than a week since the incident and many of the agents had reported experiencing flashbacks in that time. Hearing it described again and being in a room with all the other agents made it just that much more intense for a lot of the agents. He glanced over at Mulder and Scully, to gage their reactions to the retelling of the events. As per normal, they were turned towards each other. Mulder was smirking and Scully was pretending to scowl. Dr. Benton looked closer and caught a glimpse of Scully trying to pry something out of Mulder's hand. She was being very discrete about it and he wouldn't have noticed had he not been so focused on their behaviour, but even he couldn't see what she was after. Again, he had no idea what was going on - it was like they were living in a different existance than the rest of the agents in the room. "So, how did you feel then, after Bob was shot?" he asked, trying to tear his eyes off of the two disinterested agents. This question brought out an on slot of answers. Even some of the older male agents who disliked all the newfangled ideas such as Critical Incident Debriefing were contributing their thoughts. They talked about feeling powerless and the shame that went along with being unable to help their fellow agents. A lot of the younger agents admitted to a feeling akin to panic - they had undergone so much training but, when faced with a real life-or-death situation, they had no idea what to do. Finally, Dr. Benton couldn't stand it anymore. He was only listening with one ear to the many agents eagerly contributing to the discussion because he was still trying to eavesdrop on Mulder and Scully's conversation. He had to get them talking to the group, other wise the whole debrief was going to be pointless. Sure some of the agents were talking about their feelings but no one, with Mulder and Scully being the possible exceptions, really even understood what had happened! "Uh agents?" Dr. Benton said, trying to make eye contact with either agent. Both were still facing each other and seemed to be deliberately ignoring him. "Ahem, Agents Mulder and Scully?" he tried again. Finally, they couldn't decently pretend to not hear him anymore and turned their attention back to the group. Scully, who had been close to a full-fledged smile, immediately put on her game face, and instantly became someone that was clearly not to be trifled with. Mulder, on the other hand, looked both irritated that he had to look at someone other than his partner and bemused by the attention they were getting. "As you two were key participants in the ensuing events, can we get your view on what happened that day?" Dr. Benton asked, trying to ease them into what could be a difficult conversation. They looked at each other and shared a moment of silent conversation that Benton could not decipher before, finally, Mulder sighed and started talking. "Well, as I explained to Assistant Director Skinner, Agent Scully and I were just not meant to attend partnership seminars," he said with a small shrug. "You know, if it's not mothmen then it's radical nationalists." Benton glanced over at the Assistant Director to help interpret Mulder's obscure comment. Skinner looked a bit pained, as if he wanted to both agree with and punch his agent at the same time. Looking over at Scully, Benton noticed that she was rolling her eyes while also giving her partner a tiny grin. Benton, however, was not surprised by the agent's glib comment - he was sure that Mulder harboured hidden feelings and was just using humour as a crutch. "But how did you feel when Bob got shot and it became obvious that the situation was real? There was another indecipherable glance between the two agents before Scully answered the question patiently. "Dr. Benton, I think I am speaking for both Agent Mulder and myself when I say that we both felt relatively fine. The situation was problematic but, with proper communication, it was going to be under control. The bullet wound that Agent Debakker sustained was not life-threatening in the short term so we had time to deal with the gunmen." Dr. Benton suspected that she was lying but Skinner knew differently. He had seen Scully lie before and, if there was one thing she was terrible at, that was it. "Agents, we're really doing our best to keep an open mind about our emotions here and it only really works if everyone is being honest. Now I don't want to accuse you of lying but maybe you are not being honest with yourselves. I, for one, don't see how anyone could have felt 'fine' in a life-threatening situation." The look on their faces was priceless. They looked at each other, irony lost on neither of them. In fact, Skinner himself had to hold back a minor guffaw. Now Dr. Benton was really confused. Something he had said had set them off again and they were no closer to the deep emotions he was looking for. "Okay, agents, we don't have to discuss emotional reactions right now. Maybe, though, you can help the group flesh out what happened after the first gunshot was fired." They eyed each other warily, each waiting for the other to suck it up and begin. Finally, Mulder took pity on his injured partner and started to tell the story. "Fine. I'll start. We were lying on our stomachs and goon number 2 had just shot Agent Debakker. Agent Scully had a weapon but was originally facing away from the gunmen. I was... "Wait, " interrupted Dr. Benton. "I thought the gunmen disarmed everyone. How did Agent Scully still have a weapon?" * * * * Mulder arched his back as he lay, belly-down, on the ground, to get a better look at the two gunmen. One still held his gun to Mitch's temple and hte other had just collected all of the agents' weapons. 'Well,' Mulder thought to himself, ' Almost all the weapons.' A glance around the room showed all the agents down on their stomachs, still in a circle, mostly all with their heads facing towards the middle of the circle. Beside him though, Scully had lain down with her head toward the wall so that they were facing in opposite directions. In fact, she had carefully positioned her right hand close to his right ankle and, as the second gunman was busy putting the weapons in the corner of the room, she deftly unsnapped his backup weapon from his ankle holster and snuck it under her torso. Mulder felt her slip the weapon off of him and sighed internally. They had only had a couple of glances to work out a silent plan as the gunmen had stormed in and taken Mitch hostage. With mouths stuffed full of bagels and lox, they had wasted one look on expressing confusion but then Mulder had used the last second before dropping to his belly to deliberately look down at his ankle. He knew that she had gotten his message with she had quickly turned around, ostensibly to look at something, before reacting to the gunman and also lying down on her belly. * * * * "Hold it - you're saying that Agent Scully knew to take your weapon because you looked down at your feet?" Mulder looked at Dr. Benton like he was a complete moron."Yes, that's exactly what I said," he said impatiently. "One glance, over maybe a few seconds and she got enough out of that to figure out what you were looking at? What if you hadn't brought your weapon? Why did you bring two weapons to a partnership seminar? You could have just been looking down for no reason. It seems unreasonable to me that your partner could have answered all of those questions in the time to act." Finally Scully couldn't take it anymore. Mulder was right, this was pointless and she should totally have faked sick. She would way rather be strolling around outside with her partner, eating ice cream instead of explaining their actions to a facilitator that clearly just wanted them to say that they were suffering from post-traumatic stress. But now she had missed her chance at faking enough pain to get them out of the debriefing and was going to have to explain her actions to a moron. "Yes, one glance. Is that really that hard to understand? Why else would Agent Mulder look down at his right ankle? He sure as hell wasn't just looking for a comfortable spot to lie down. And of course he had brought his ankle holster - like anyone who constantly loses weapons in dangerous situations with armed combatants would. And just because we made it to the seminar this time doesn't preclude trouble from mothmen or militant nationalists." Scully was at her best - firing lines precisely and articulately in a derisive manner only reserved for total idiots. As he watched her address Benton, Skinner flinched, realizing that she had, on more than one occasion, used that tone with him. For some reason, being thought of as an idiot by Scully was something he particularly dreaded. "Okay, fine, so you got Agent Mulder's weapon," Dr. Benton said, finally realizing that he wasn't going to get anywhere by continuing on that path. "Tell us what happened then." Scully still looked annoyed. She didn't really want to be responsible for getting a dim-wittted facilitator to understand what had happened between Mulder and her that day. Also, she wanted to wash the smirk off of her partner's face. He was reveling in her irritation at the debriefing process, as if suffering together made up for his annoyance at being there. But she couldn't see a way out of the debriefing without cooperating so she sucked it up and followed protocol, as usual. * * * * The tension in the air intensified immediately as all of the agents in the room very quickly realized that they were not dealing with an arranged teamwork exercise. A couple of the agents moved to help the injured man but the gunman harshly ordered them to stay still. The palpable silence was suddenly interrupted with the sound of two equally confident voices. "You can't just let him bleed out. I'm a doctor, let me help him," Scully said, glancing over at the injured agent, who was trying to staunch the flow of blood but quickly succumbing to shock. At the same time, Mulder started talking too. "Okay, okay. It's me. Don't shoot me! I'm Snake." The two gunmen looked first at Scully, then Mulder. "Shut up, or I'll kill him quicker," one of them said to Scully before regarding Mulder with a disarmingly nasty look. "So you're Snake. What the fuck happened man - fucking chickenshit. You got no balls you piece of shit? Stand up." he yelled, glaring at Mulder with dark eyes. Everyone's eyes were glued to Mulder as he stood up, his hands heldl high over his head. He stood, facing the two gunman. The one had let go of Mitch and was now pointing his gun at Mulder's head. The other was still pointing his gun at the other agents but was also looking at Mulder. "Piece of shit! You're going to be the first to die if you don't prove you're worth something. Here, take this," the second gunman snarled as he walked over to the weapon stash and threw a gun a Mulder. "Now, who are you going to demonstrate your loyalty on? You pick the first to die for their country." Mulder fingered the gun nervously. He knew there was really only one choice for what he had to do. But still, even as his only viable option, he was loathe to go through with it. He could feel the sweat in his hairline, threatening to expose his nervousness. He wiped his palms discretely and looked around the room again. "Wait, what's the point of this? What are you trying to prove? You're never going to get out of here if you kill any of us. We're all federal agents and we're in a heavily secured federal building. What do you want? Maybe we can work out a way for this to end favourably for everyone." Everyone now swung their attention to the speaker. Scully was still lying face down on her belly but had managed to turn towards the middle of the circle and looked up at their captors. Apparently, she asked the right question too as one of the gunmen started to rant. "We want to show America how pathetic it's national security is. This is FBI property, it's the fucking place where you learn to be a FBI agent and we basically just walked in here with our guns and took you all down. What the hell is that? No wonder we're getting our asses handed to us by the fucking A-rabs. Them fucking Arabs at least have the right fucking idea - kill or be killed or die killing. So we want to make a point. Prove to the American public that our security is shit and our training is shit and our strategy is shit. Them fucking Arabs - they're showing us up. They've got fucking martyrs blowing shit up every fucking day. And what do we have? Weak ass bullshit fucking FBI agents who don't do nothing when Americans are dying. We are regular fucking people and we can walk in here and kill a fucking roomful of FBI agents. That is fucking bullshit! If this is what it takes to get the fucking government to learn it's job, then at least we're fucking man enough to do it. So yeah. That's what we fucking want. We want to make show our American boys that them that it ain't just Arabs that can be martyrs. Show them there's a price to pay if America is gonna be safe. What do we want? We want a fucking room full of dead fucking FBI agents for the news." Scully was definitely regretting she had asked. Apparently, the gunmen had no real intention of getting out of the building alive. And they definitely had intentions of killing all of the agents. There wasn't even any point in stalling for the Hostage Response Team to show up. They had to resolve the situation soon or there was going to be a lot of dead agents in that room. She looked up at her partner, standing in the middle of the circle with a gun in his hand, ostensibly choosing the first victim of the day. Scully was pretty sure the gunmen weren't going to be shooting at knees anymore and, from the nervousness in his face, Mulder was pretty sure of that too. "Hurry up and choose, man - we don't got all fucking day," one of the gunmen said impatiently. He was the one standing next to Mulder, a gun to Mulder's head, prodding him to pick a victim. "Yeah man - anyone of them will do. Let's get the show on the road!" the other gunman yelled. He still stood outside the circle of agents, with a gun at hand and a good shot at anyone in the circle. Mulder licked his lips nervously. He had to do it but he needed to make sure that she understood. His eyes met hers and saw her give him the slight eyebrow. The expression in her eyes told him she knew exactly what needed to be done. Other than that she was as stoic as a statue - all business, ready when he was. Damn. He wasn't fucking ready at all but his hand was being forced. There was nothing to do but act. Mulder looked at the guy holding a gun to his head. This had to work perfectly or they were all going to be dead. He took a deep breath in a futile attempt to bring down his escalating heart rate. Then he indicated towards Scully with his gun. "Her. I pick her," he said slowly. It was like a momentous collective gasp. The agents in the room craned their heads to look at each other. Even in the midst of a hostage situation the urge to exchange a look of shock and a whispered 'no way!' was difficult to resist. What the hell was going on? He had a roomful of people to choose from and he chose her? "Stand up, red." the gunman behind Mulder said gruffly. "Good pick man - she looks fuckin' feisty. Good to do her first." Mulder tried desperately to calm himself down as Scully stood up in front of him. She held her hands to her sides and he could see her right hand inching almost imperceptibly towards the gun tucked into her waistband behind her. He had to do this and he had to do it right or they were both dead. He looked into her eyes and the vivacity of the blue in them showed exactly how ready she was. For a millisecond, his confidence wavered and he considered taking the half-assed approach to their problem but she saw it in his eyes and glared at him until he acquiesced. Apparently she wasn't going to be changing her mind so what right did he have to chicken out? Mulder raised the gun and deliberately targeted the perfect spot. He was nervous as hell but his hands were steady, the hours of shooting practice paying off when he needed it most. If he was lucky, he would get her in exactly the right spot - the same spot where she had gotten him. "Okay man, no more fucking around. Take the shot." the gunman with the gun trained on Mulder was getting impatient and Mulder didn't like the idea of a twitchy trigger finger right next to his head. It was now or never. He looked at Scully and made sure his aim was true. His eyes and the smallest nods of his head started the countdown. Thankfully, countless games of Rock Paper Scissors had their countdowns perfectly synced. No questions on whether you go three-two-fire or three-two-one-fire. Three Two One Fire They fired just milliseconds apart. Mulder pulled the trigger on his gun just as Scully aimed her weapon and fired. She had pulled the gun out during the count and timed it perfectly so that her shot caught the goon with a gun at Mulder's head square in the forehead. Mulder's shot hit her in the left shoulder just before she saw the gunman's brains spill out of his head. Then, instantly, as soon as he had fired the first round and while everyone, including the second gunman, was trying to figure out where the second shot had come from, he turned and placed a bullet dead centre to the second gunman's chest. The sound of the three gunshots rang through the conference room and was followed by dead silence. The shots had been consecutive, seconds apart, and had come from at least two directions. Everything had happened so quickly that none of the agents, except for Mulder moved for at least thirty seconds. They were all still busy trying to figure out what had happened and whether it was safe to move yet. Finally, one agent was brave enough to stand up slowly while another realized that it was probably best to disarm the gunmen even if they didn't seem to be in any shape to use their weapons anymore. Eventually all the agents got up dazedly, most still completely unaware of what had actually happened. Mulder, on the other hand was moving more quickly than a cheetah on speed. He almost got to Scully before she hit the ground but wasn't quite quick enough to save her from a big bruise on her hip. At least she was conscious enough to not have hit her head but the hole in her shoulder was bleeding fairly profusely. Mulder took off his jacket and applied pressure to the wound. "Hey Scully, how are you feeling?" he asked, glad to see that she still had a strong grasp on consciousness. "I'm fine, Mulder," she said because it was what he expected her to say. She knew that the pain in her expression and the clench of her jaw told him the truth - that it hurt like hell. And as much as she was all for taking care of her own injuries, she figured that letting him staunch the flow of blood was probably for the best - she wasn't sure she could hold onto consciousness much longer. "Of course you are, Scully," he murmured in her ear. " Of course you are." He looked down at her and gently brushed some hair away from her eyes. "You're gonna be okay. It's going to be okay. That was some nice shooting Scully. Now you can close your eyes, sleep for a bit. Everything is gonna be okay," he whispered to her, not really for any reason other than to keep on holding her and touching her. He sat down and took her shoulders into his lap, carefully protecting the wounded one while still managing to stroke her good shoulder gently. "It's okay, Scully, the paramedics will be here soon. You're going to be fine, just like you always say." Scully felt herself being pulled into Mulder's lap and considered struggling against it. She was in a roomful of agents that did not need to see her being held in her partner's lap. The rumours were really going to be going all out on Monday, she thought warily, but, in the end, she couldn't be bothered to resist the warm feeling of her head and shoulders being cradled in Mulder's arms. The pain in her shoulder was excruciating, even through the dull feeling she recognized as shock. Mulder was saying something about sleep and she was mumbling that she was fine and that she wasn't tired when she passed out in his arms. Mulder looked down at his unconscious partner - so much for being fine, he thought, grinning to himself. For once, he wasn't panicking about her lack of consciousness - the ambulance was on it's way and the pressure on her wound was keeping the bleeding to a minimum. Still, he let his breath come in out with her heartbeat, attuning his life to that of his partner's. He loved the feeling of touching her hair, her skin, her everything. He loved the feeling of whispering sweet nothings in her ear and seeing her lips twitch in response. A Scully lip twitch was like a full-fledged smile from most women. He didn't get the chance to take care of her very often and he reveled in it when he did. Next time though, he hoped that he didn't have to shoot her to get the chance. * * * * The room was silent. Everyone except Mulder was gaping at her. Even Skinner was having a difficult time keeping his jaw from dropping. Scully wasn't sure what part of the story was so surprising. They had all been there - they had all witnessed the events. Surely, they had all figured out what had happened. Dr. Benton took a second to compose himself before speaking. "Um. Okay. So, Agent Scully, you are saying that you knew Agent Mulder was going to shoot you?" he finally said. Scully was now the one who wanted to gape in confusion - hadn't that been obvious from the start? It was the only way that things made sense. "Well, clearly that was the only option," she said. "Um, agent - I don't think I understand what you mean. How did you come to that conclusion? And how did you understand that Agent Mulder had come to the same conclusion? From what I gather, the two of you didn't have any time to come to a plan." Dr. Benton replied. "As I said, sir, that was the only option. Agent Mulder had to shoot someone in that room. He couldn't risk shooting anyone else and I needed a reason to stand up or I wouldn't have been able to draw the weapon I had, let alone fire it quickly and accurately," Scully explained. Dr. Benton nodded slowly. It did make sense. But the likelihood of a such a risky plan succeeding was close to zero. There were too many variables. What if Mulder's bullet hit Scully too soon and knocked her aim off? What if they had then both turned their weapons to the same gunman leaving the other time to shoot? What if Scully flinched or moved (as almost any human would) and the bullet hit her in a more dangerous spot? This wasn't a plan that most agents would come to even after hours of preparation and debate. And then to go through with it? It would take a lot for things to go back to normal after such a dramatic event. Dr. Benton didn't even want to think about the traumatic stress that both agents had experienced. Likely, they were struggling with the incident and he wanted to break through to them. In most situations like this, he would have stopped and invited the two agents for a more private session to work through their issues. However, he could tell that neither agent would be interested in going to a follow-up session with him. Therefore, unfortunately, the session would have to take place in front of all their peers. "Agent Scully, Agent Mulder, please explain to us the reasoning you went through while this situation was developing. I still see a lot of holes in this story. For example, why, Agent Mulder, did you assume the role of informer? What if the real snake had been in the room too? You would have been found out right away." Dr. Benton finally said. "Just before the gunmen entered the room one of the agents at the seminar left, ostensibly to visit the restroom. When they were calling around for Snake, I realized that it was the guy that left, that he had chickened out so I was safe in assuming his identity." "But why do it at all? Why not just play dumb?" "They were on the edge. I thought they might shoot someone else so I went for it. And I thought they might give me a gun. Seeing how I was the only other person in the room that knew Agent Scully had my weapon, I figured I was the best qualified person to help her plan a way to take out the gunmen." "And when you say plan - how exactly did you plan with Agent Scully? Neither of you could possibly have said anything to each other and I imagine even if you were both proficient in lip-reading, it would have been difficult to communicate with the gunmen watching your every move." Mulder stopped to think. How had they communicated? It was like he could have a conversation with Scully in his head and get a close enough approximation that they could come to the same conclusion. Sure, sometimes she still threw him for a loop but, most of the time, he could read what she was saying with a combination of the look in her eyes and the countless past conversations they had had. How could he explain that? He was still thinking about how he could effortlessly communicate silently with Scully when she started speaking. Maybe she was silently understanding that he was having a hard time coming up with the words. Scully would know what to say - bless her logical heart for being able to come up with the stuff that saved him from times like this. "Agent Mulder and I have worked together for over 7 years. In that time, we have been involved in countless stressful situations in which we have resolved in numerous ways. Most of the time we are reasonably successful in coming through without serious injury. Knowing what Agent Mulder is most likely to be thinking in a situation gives me the ability to formulate a plan that meshes our two styles of problem solving and I believe that Agent Mulder would say the same thing." It sounded pretty reasonable but still damn risky. To trust yourselves that completely to follow through on a plan that involves being shot or shooting your own partner? "Agents. You know that the slightest mistake and you would likely both have been dead, along with everyone else in that room. How could you be sure that it was going to work out?" "Gee. I hadn't felt the traumatic stress until you put it like that." Mulder deadpanned as Scully discretely nudged him with her elbow. "But it was going to work out because the plan was perfect." "If executed perfectly. Why, Agent Mulder, didn't you deliberately miss when you fired your weapon? What if one of you had shot too soon or too late?" "The goon was right behind me. He would have noticed if I was aiming to miss. And Scully knows it's three two one shoot." Mulder said by way of finishing. He was done with Dr. Benton. The man was clearly not understanding the situation. He and Scully were fine except they had to get through this dull bureau-required exercise. "How did Agent Scully know which man to aim for? Scully looked over and saw the set in Mulder's jaw. He was done talking. She had to suck it up and get them through. "Dr. Benton. I would think the reasoning is obvious. Mulder couldn't possibly have reacted fast enough to shoot the man behind him but he had plenty of time to aim at the other gunman once he was distracted." "Okay. Fine. So let me get this straight. You and your partner were able to agree on a plan which involved shooting you in the shoulder. How did you even know where he was going to shoot you?" At that question Scully looked over at her partner with a tiny, enigmatic smirk gracing her lips. He returned her look with a knowing grin. He wondered how exactly she was going to say it. "Uh, Agent Mulder knows that is the best place to shoot someone if you are able to get it through clean. No major organs nearby, away from major arteries, and won't do a lot to affect a right-handed shooter's shot." "Did you have a discussion with your partner on where best to shoot one another? Because that's what it sounds like to me and, correct me if I'm wrong, but this topic isn't really something that comes up in conversation too often." Scully might have looked unflustered to all the other agents in the room who were all, including Skinner, gaping at her and Mulder but her partner could see through the professional face she had on. She did not want to have to explain to a room full of agents that she had also shot her partner once before. A story like that would only add fuel to the flaming rumours ran rampant around the Hoover building. "Agent Mulder and I often converse about things that don't usually come up in other peoples' conversations," she replied truthfully. Dr. Benton nodded in defeat. He was clearly still skeptical but couldn't seem to come up with an argument so he moved onto the topic that he really wanted to cover. "Okay, then. So you formulated this plan together you say. But, in my experience, often plans that are understood logically sometimes don't work out emotionally. So, Agent Scully, Agent Mulder, how do you feel about what happened?" They looked at each other with matching expressions of dismay and Dr. Benton noted that he had hit a tender spot in them both. Repressed guilt and anger would be spilling over soon as the agents confronted their feelings. Oblivious to the nervous tension in the room, Mulder and Scully were having a staring contest, each challenging the other to give in and start talking. Finally, the exasperation on Scully's face made Mulder give up the silent routine. "What do you want us to say? Wait - forget it, I know what you want us to say. You want me to say that I feel horribly guilty about shooting my partner. That, despite the fact that I know it was the logical thing to do, I still feel terrible about it. So I could say it but it wouldn't be true. I don't feel guilty about this and I haven't repressed my emotions about it. And, let me tell you, I know what guilt feels like - this isn't it." Mulder stopped for a breath and looked over at Scully who was hiding a knowing grin at his last comment. Mulder was the king of guilt complexes and it felt good to know that he wasn't feeling guilty about what had happened. They had talked about it right afterwards, while she was still in the hospital and, even then, she was able to tell that he wasn't doing the usual guilt trip thing. "Okay. Fine, so you don't feel guilty about shooting Agent Scully because you knew it had to be done. However, that doesn't mean that this incident didn't affect both of you. Agent Scully, you took a bullet to the shoulder - that must have hurt. How did you feel about it?" Scully gave Dr. Benton a skeptical look that challenged even the best raised eyebrow looks she usually saved for Mulder's more imaginative theories. Mulder noted her expression and winced - he was sure he didn't want to be in Dr. Benton's shoes right then. "How did I feel about it? Well, you're right, it was painful - physically. Emotionally, though, I was extremely relieved." "What do you mean by that?" "I wasn't sure Agent Mulder could go through with it. I thought that he might look for another solution even though we had agreed on the most logical plan. When the shot hit me I had already fired and I was fairly certain that I had hit my target. So I was relieved - that the plan had worked, that Agent Mulder trusted in our decision, and that the situation had been resolved with minimal damage." "So you felt relieved because the problem had been resolved successfully. Did you feel any other emotions towards your partner?" "Again, Mr. Dr. Benton, what you want us to say and what I feel are clearly two different things. How can I make this clear to you? I do not feel angry at Agent Mulder. He does not feel guilty about shooting me. Neither one of us resents what the other had to do - in fact, I would say that I am more satisfied with the level of trust and commitment in our partnership than ever before. Agent Mulder followed through with a plan that he had personal qualms with because he trusted in our decision. I allowed him to shoot me because I trusted him. This is the type of respect that we have for each other and I ask you not to suggest that this respect can be marred by such a trivial occurrence. It may not seem trivial to any of you, but, believe me, for us, this is a mere anecdote - something we will look back on with something akin to fondness." Dr. Benton looked at the red-haired agent and didn't bother to open his mouth. What was he going to say? If he challenged her statement she was clearly going to tear him a new orifice. So he decided to take her at her word. "Okay then. I guess that settles it. Our time is up and, unfortunately, I have to be somewhere else soon. If any of you would like to set up a time to meet and talk more closely about this I would be glad to meet with you. Otherwise, I hope that everyone has gained some insight into their personal experiences and emotions through this debriefing process. It's very important to sort out our emotions after stressful situations and this is the first step to a healthy recovery for all of you." Dr. Benton definitely seemed to want to get out of there fast. He was stopped, however, by a certain voice that he had started to fear. "Dr. Benton? I would like to ask something before we adjourn," Scully said loudly, over the din of agents starting to stand up. Mulder, for once, looked surprised. He glanced over at Scully with questioning eyes but she was focused on her own plan this time. Dr. Benton looked at her warily and nodded briefly, indicating that she should continue. "Dr. Benton - how would you rate Agent Mulder and myself in terms of positive partnership qualities such as trust and communication? Mitch, perhaps, as the leader of many partnership seminars, you could help Mr. Dr. Benton evaluate our partnership." Benton still looked wary but couldn't figure out what Scully was getting at so he just went with the easy way out. "Agent Scully, I would say that I have never seen or heard of a partnership that is more sound in trust and communication and I would be very surprised if Mitch has either. It is a rare to see such high levels of respect in any two people. If what you have described here is true then I can't say that I'm qualified to evaluate your partnership, having never encountered something like this before." "Thank you sir. Mitch - would you agree with Mr. Dr. Benton's assessment?" Mitch, who was still looking a bit woozy at having to relive the stressful hostage experience, was quick to answer. "Yes, I would definitely agree." "Seeing as you have led many partnership seminars in the past, would you be able to tell me what Agent Mulder and myself would have learned that would have improved our partnership?" "Um... Well, we cover issues of trust and communication mostly. And I guess I would say that you two have that covered pretty well. I'm not going to suggest that we would have done any exercises that require the levels of trust and communication that you two demonstrated. So I can't say that you would have gained anything during the seminar." Scully smiled and nodded her head as she turned and looked pointedly at Skinner. The look on her face spelled satisfaction as she made her final point. "So, then, you would both be willing to recommend, officially, that Agent Mulder and myself are no longer required to attend partnership seminars?" Skinner scowled. He had been outplayed and he knew it. Both seminar leaders were nodding like morons and agreeing readily with Scully. Mulder was grinning like a cat who had just ingested the largest canary to ever live while Scully was giving her partner a sly look that suggested that, under her poker face, she too was hiding a satisfied smile. Mulder held her jacket for her as she struggled into it with her good arm and she took the opportunity to lean into him and whisper into his ear. "Mulder, you owe me big time." Mulder smiled even wider and gave her a gentle squeeze before moving his hand to the small of her back as he led her towards the exit. "Yeah, Scully, I owe you big time."