From: "Dana Scully" Subject: "Old Souls" by Lindsey Date sent: Tue, 07 Jul 1998 10:41:04 PDT I don't remember If I posted this to this list.... forgive me if I have already, and I'm sorry if you got it twice... TITLE: Old Souls? AUTHOR: Lindsey (a.k.a. Dana Scully) E-MAIL: scully@kvi.net RATING: G SPOILERS: A mention of "The Field Where I Died" KEYWORDS: Mulder thinking DISCLAMER: Mulder and Scully aren't mine, they belong to CC and Co. FEEDBACK: Yes please!! I live for feedback. Direct it too scully@kvi.net or just hit reply. Summary: Mulder does some thinking about past life/reincarnation. Author note: This just came to my one night. My favorite Episode is "The Field Where I Died" I have seen it 38 time, so I just had to do this. Past life became an interest to me, so Mulder's going to do some thinking for me ;). Its short, but I hope good! ;) ~~~***** O L D S O U L S *****~~~ BY: Lindsey(Dana) I was never sure what it meant to have a past life. I still don't. I'm not sure I even have a past life. A whole two years after the Melissa Ephesian case and I still find myself thinking about it. The thought of living threw the Civil War, has now become apart of me. Just the thought of living as someone else, and being someone else scares me and at the same time excited me. Reincarnation has become a major interest to me. Possibly a new obsession? I haven't told Scully about it. I'm not even sure she believes in it. Hell, I'm not even sure I do. Souls passing from life to life. I sometimes wonder if my soul really did, and what kind of interesting lives I have lived, and why it chose this boring pointless one. Does it get to choose? Once my body dies what new life will my soul pass to? I hope better than this one. I have always wondered if Scully and I have been friends literally forever. Souls always together, again and again. I wonder if we were lovers in another life? Oh hell, there I go again. Anyway back to the subject at hand. Why can't we be aware of our past lives? To remember them, either to cherish or to forget them. We will never really know for sure if we have them, or even if they exist. I believe they do. One of the few things I believe these days. I'm just not sure to believe that I had one. I wonder if we take things with us from life to life. That being the way we act, think, do things, or maybe our personality, etc. I mean, there must be a reason why I watch pornography. Well, that could by because I'm lonely and I lack having the ability to get some, but that's beside the point. Maybe people who are criminals and murders have always been criminals and murders in past lives. Evil returns as evil. Rotten souls returning as rotten souls. But here I am fighting those rotten souls. "Mulder?" The sound of my name make me just a foot in the air. I hear Scully laugh and remember where I am. I'm at the office. "Mulder, your eating your pencil," she tells me. She's right. I was to deep in thought to notice the in my mouth. I spit it out and look at the pencil. Deep teeth marks are indented into my pencil. Damn. This was my favorite pencil... Scully laughed again obviously amused. "What the hell were you thinking about Mulder?" she asked. I debate on telling her. I can just see her raise an eyebrow, and then asking me if I'm ok. "Ah, I don't remember now, you scared it out of me." That's good. She has to believe it. "Sure. Well whatever it was just be glad I saved you from having slivers all over your tongue." Well ok, she doesn't believe it. "Yeah, thanks partner." I grin nervously. "What do you say we go get something to eat?" "Sure," she answers. Maybe I shouldn't spend my time thinking about the past, and start living the future. After all, Scully and I have a future to fight. Weather the future is just another version of the past remains a mystery. But still, it would be nice to know. ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com