From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org Date: Fri, 8 Dec 2000 20:29:03 -0600 Subject: The One You\'re Leaving Out by Kelly J. Thompson Source: direct Title: The One You're Leaving Out Author: Kelly J. Thompson Category: Song Fic, Scully Angst, implied MSR Rating: PG 13 Summary: Is Someone trying to tell Scully something? Spoilers: Elusions made to the eighth season so far. Disclaimer: Chris Carter, 1013, and Fox Television. own The X-Files and it's characters. They are being used without permission. If I owned them this fic and many others like it wouldn't even need to be written. The song which I used in this fic, "Leave" by Matchbox Twenty has also been used without permission. The song hasn't been released yet to my knowledge any way but, you can find it on the album Mad Season from Matchbox Twenty. Authors Notes: This song says what I think Mulder would be feeling right now. When I first heard "Leave" all I could see and hear was Mulder saying those things. I know nothing about radio station operations so, if I got anything wrong I send my apologies. Special Thanks to Kelly Moreland, Vickie Moseley, and my sister Crystal without your encouragement and advice I would have given up on this story a long time ago. Feedback: This was my first angsty story so it probably sucks, but constructive critism is greatly appreciated. Flames will be used to light candles to put in the window to guide Mulder safely home. This wasn't really beta read. So please forgive any mistakes I may have made. ****************************** The One You're Leaving Out By: Kelly J. Thompson kjt1575@juno.com Dana Scully stood in the apartment of Fox Mulder, her partner and best friend of seven years . Who had recently become her lover. She had come here after she had an argument with Frohike about her neglecting the search for Mulder and how quickly she had begun to trust her new partner John Doggett. So maybe the search for Mulder isn't my number one priority what's so wrong with that . I do have my own life and my pregnancy to worry about. Frohike can be so damn infuriating at times she thought. Frohike said that she is trusting this "Dogbert" guy far too easily. What does he know? Anyway, what am I supposed to do? Alienate the guy so he doesn't even watch my back she thought. "I'm not Mulder for god's sake, trust no one is his motto not mine" she had told Frohike. As Scully stood in Mulder's living room thinking about her and Frohike's argument, the silence began make her uncomfortable, so she decided to turn on the radio. "This is W.F.O.X 101.3 FM the Fox and this is Dedications After Dark." Love song dedications were the last thing Scully needed to hear at the moment, so she decided to change the station. But just as she reached for the tuner knob, she heard a voice she thought she would never hear again. "It can't be Mulder" she whispered to herself as she again started to change the channel. But the more she heard, she became almost sure that the voice on the radio was the same one that has been haunting her dreams. " I would like to dedicate a song to the woman in my life." " What can we play for your lady love this evening?" " Leave by Matchbox Twenty. To Dana from the one she's leaving out." " Well, that doesn't sound too good. Want tell us about it? " "It's a long story and I'd rather not get into it, but, I just wanted her to know that this is how I'm feeling right now. She'll know what I mean." "Okay, Dana here's "Leave" going out to you from the one you're leaving out." As the slow strains of the song started to play, Scully still considered turning the station because there was no way in hell that could've possibly been Mulder she thought. But when the lyrics began she froze. As the song played the whole apartment got very cold. And she found herself listening to words that chilled her to the bone. It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall how you take your heart and turn it off how I turn my head and lose it all "No, he hasn't lost it all he still has me, he still has the X-files. I still love him, I only put his nameplate in the desk drawer. I needed to move on with my life a little, Mulder would have done the same thing right? I mean the only reason I gave Doggett a desk in Mulder's office was because I never had one there. I mean the man is my partner after all." It's unnerving how just one move puts me by myself there you go just trusting someone else now, I know I put us both through hell " No, Mulder you still have ME damn it. I could never trust Doggett the way I trust you. I'm not even sure if I really do trust him but, you aren't here, he is. And I need to trust someone." As the song progressed and the tears started to flow, Scully found herself in an undignified heap on the floor next to Mulder's stereo with a jumble of wild thoughts going through her mind. It's aggravating how you threw me on and you tore me out how your good intentions turned to doubt the way you needed time to sort it out "God, Mulder, I didn't want to doubt you. I really didn't believe you had kept anything from me, that's more something that I would have done. But, what was I supposed to do, over look the fact that there's evidence showing that you have a brain tumor that you never told me about? That there is also evidence that you might have been planning to fake your own abduction? That I felt hurt that you may have not told me about your illness? I know you better than anyone and I thought you didn't tell me, that you didn't trust me enough to tell me. How could I ever think that? DAMN IT, how could I ever think that?" I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on I just couldn't ever let you get away from me But if that's how you're leave straight out from underneath then we'll see who's sorry now if that's how it's gonna stand, when you know you've been depending on the one you're leaving now the one you're leaving out the one you're leaving out "We may not have had a perfect relationship, but we were right Mulder, we ARE... right. I can't, I won't get tired of you it's just not possible. You have brought so much excitement whether it be good or bad into my life. I will hold on to this thing we have forever. I will never, ever let it go. I just got so caught up in my feelings of hurt and betrayal that I have been blinded by it. Please forgive me Mulder. I will fix this. Starting with John Doggett because he has to be involved in this some how, he was the one who planted the seed of doubt in my mind to begin with." As the song draw to a close Scully picked herself up off the floor and dried her tears. What do I do now she thought. She decided that she should call the Bureau and see if she could get the call to the radio station traced. But first she would call the radio station to see if she could get a tape made of actual dedication that Mulder had made, so she could take it to the Gunmen and a professional voice analyst to make sure that was really Mulder. Scully found the number for the radio station. She got out her cell phone and dialed the number. While waiting for someone to answer she thought that it was typical Mulder, to leave a cryptic message in the form of a song dedication, to give me a swift kick in the ass so I would get motivated in this search again. " Hello, this is W.F.O.X 101.3 FM the Fox." " Hello, I'm Special Agent Dana Scully with the FBI. I'm calling in regard to a dedication you just aired. I'd like to have a tape of it copied for me. " The FBI? Is this about a case?" " Yes, would I be able to get a copy?" " I'd have to check with my bosses but, I don't think it would be a problem. Just tell me which dedication it was and I'll do what I can." " It was for the song Leave by Matchbox Twenty. Dedicated to Dana from the one she's leaving out." " Let me see if I can find it. Can you hold for a few moments? " " Sure " " Okay, I'll be right back " While Scully waited for the disc jockey to come back on the line, she left Mulder's apartment and made her way to her car. As she settled into the driver's seat the disc jockey came back. " Um, Agent Scully" " Yes " " I'm sorry to tell you this but, I searched my tapes for the dedication you were asking about and I found that, that particular dedication has not only never been aired but it was never even made." THE END **************************** " I was just here. Where did I go? " -Fox Mulder- From Small Potatoes. Leave Performed By: Matchbox Twenty Written By: Rob Thomas From the album: Mad Season It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall how you take your heart and turn it off how I turn my head and lose it all It's unnerving how just one move puts me by myself there you go just trusting someone else now I know I put us both through hell I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on I just didn't wanna let it get away from me But if that's how it's gonna leave straight out from underneath then we'll see who's sorry now If that's how it's gonna stand, when you know you've been depending on the one you're leaving now the one you're leaving out It's aggravating how you threw me on and you tore me out how your good intentions turned to doubt the way you needed time to sort it out I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on I just couldn't ever let you get away from me But if that's how you're leave straight out from underneath then we'll see who's sorry now if that's how it's gonna stand, when you know you've been depending on the one you're leaving now the one you're leaving out the one you're leaving out I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me But if that's how you're leave straight out from underneath then we'll see who's sorry now if that's how it's gonna stand, when you know you've been depending on the one you're leaving now the one you're leaving out Well tell me is that how it's going to end when you know you've been depending on the one you're leaving now and the one you're leaving out I'm the one you're leaving now the one you're leaving out