From: Angel Mulder Date: Fri, 8 Dec 2000 11:31:00 -0800 (PST) Subject: xfc: Out of the darkness (1 of 1) Source: xfc Title: Out of Darkness (1/1) Author: Muldersangel E-mail: mulderzangel@yahoo.com (I am an author who lives for feedback, lol!) Spoilers: Milagro Rating: G Keyword: MSR, Scully POV Archive: Sure, just let me know so I can visit. Disclaimer: They are not mine, I am simply borrowing them for a bit. Summary: Scully's thougths after Padgett's comments outside his cell. She opened her eyes and realized it had gotten very dark. Where had the time gone? Years passed like minutes and yet stretched out before her, unending. Darkness...some things were better left there, and yet, she hadn't chosen to bring this one to light. She had even tried to suppress it, and over the years had denied it over and over, never talking about it, never allowing it to show or get out of control until she herself had begun to believe. Oh sure, it had come up out of the darkness, almost touching the surface a few time; in the hallway when he had almost kissed her, the soft touch of a hand in passing. But it always slipped back down again to be denied once more. Sometimes that darkness was comforting, familiar, far easier to control than the swirl of emotions; the feelings, desires, needs that rose. But this time Scully could not deny it. Someone else had seen it. He had looked into her eyes and seen in her soul that which she was trying in vain to hide. She wondered, did *he* ever see it? No, surely Mulder hadn't... "I've made a mistake," the writer had said. "I've written that Agent Scully falls in love, but that is obviously impossible." And with the next words came an awareness she'd hidden from, suppressed for so long. "Agent Scully is already in love." The words rang in her head, spilling into her heart, the one place she knew she couldn't deny then. Yes, darkness, that is where they belonged, but here they were, out in the light. She could analyze, rationalize, use logic and science, but she couldn't put them back, back into the darkness. Slowly, she reached over and turned on a small lamp on the table next to her. She squinted her eyes at the sudden invasion of light. She continued to blink until she adjusted to the light. Yes, the light would take some getting used to, she decided. But it seemed it was here to stay. She played with the idea in her mind, allowing it to direct her thinking, to take her wherever it willed. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing, after all, she thought to herself, a small smile playing upon her lips. ===== Scully: Mulder, it is such a gorgeous day outside. Have you ever entertained the idea of trying to find life on this planet? Mulder: I have seen the life on this planet, Scully, and that is exactly why I am looking elsewhere. And check out my website at: www.muldersangel.homestead.com/xfshome.html