From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: 13 Feb 2007 16:44:12 -0000
Subject: Overcoming My Fear 1/1 by Erin M. Blair
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TITLE: Overcoming My Fear
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net /  erinmblair@gmail.com
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DISTRIBUTION: OK to Gossamer and Ephemeral. All others - please
ask me first. 
RATING: PG
CATEGORIES: VRA -- Vignette, Romance, Angst. 
KEYWORDS: Mulder/Scully Romance.
SPOILERS: Triangle.
DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to Chris Carter.
SUMMARY: Mulder overcomes his fear to tell Scully how
he feels about her.
NOTES: Special thanks to Jen and Lisa for beta reading this
story. 

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I never thought I was scared before. When I couldn't save 
my sister from being abducted that November night, I tried 
to right that wrong a million times. I tried to empathize 
with women who I subconsciously believed needed my help. I 
always thought of myself as a brave FBI agent who had saved 
countless lives, due to the serial killers and monsters that 
I had profiled and had taken off the streets over the years. 

I always tried to separate myself from various X-Files 
cases that came my way - I keep telling myself what I'm 
doing isn't exactly in the personal territory, but when I 
think about it, I realized the truth of the words that I 
told Scully. 

What we've been doing for years is personal. Lately, I have 
been aware how my feelings for Scully have grown from 
friendship to something much more. I'm not sure if it's 
lust, but I know that I want her. I think it's love, but 
I'm so scared to tell her. I'm scared that she might think 
that I don't love her after that fiasco after dealing with 
Diana. After the continuation with Gibson Praise at the 
nuclear reactor, I thought Scully wouldn't talk to me 
especially with the way I treated her.

I glanced at the clock directly above the television set; 
it's now or never. I know she would be coming in to see me 
with the gang in tow. I needed to wait until she was alone 
to let her know how I truly felt.

I looked up at her as she walked over to me, and I saw 
Skinner and the Lone Gunmen following her in. They told me 
everything they went through to find and save me. I told 
them about how they also saved me in 1939. I knew they didn't 
believe my story, but I still felt the pain when the Scully 
from 1939 slapped me. 

When Skinner and the Lone Gunmen finally left the room, I 
decided to tell my Scully what I've been scared about for 
months, if not, years. All of the love that I kept trapped in my
heart for her has been growing stronger, threatening to burst.
"Scully?"

"Yeah?"

In full honesty and with complete truthfulness, I knew my 
mind was sound. "I love you."

I finally told her. I didn't care she thought I was drugged 
from the pain, but I saw a look on her face that told me 
the truth - she believed me. She didn't think much of the 
time we shared in the past, but I knew her heart, which was 
as clear to me as the brilliant indigo sky.

Her eyes don't lie.

She loves me, too.

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The End