From: Dianora2 Date: 29 Oct 1998 03:53:01 GMT Subject: NEW: "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 1/13 (NC17) "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 1/13 Started: June 1998 Finished: September 28,1998 Category: Let's just say S, although there's a definite plot here. Sub-categories: R, A Rating: NC17 for sex, plus language, violence, a little MulderTorture, a little ScullyTorture, the works Keywords: MSR (although I think the sappiness quotient is minimal) Archive: yes to Gossamer; anywhere else please ask me first Spoilers: Just about everything, including the movie. Summary: In the post-colonization world, a very changed Mulder and Scully struggle to find their way back to each other - both physically and emotionally. Disclaimer: No copyright infringement intended, but boy was this fun... Feedback: This is the longest, most ambitious thing I've ever written, and I would therefore LOVE feedback. Please. Write me at Dianora2@aol.com. Visit my website at http://members.aol.com/dianora2/main.htm This story benefited greatly from the invaluable advice and input of Nicole Perry. Nic, thank you for bullying me into sending you the first draft. You, quite simply, rock. :-) Thanks also go to Cafe UST for their nagging and encouragement, and specifically to Allegra for pushing me when I needed a push, and to MD1016 for all of her unconditional support. I also need to thank two friends who will probably never read this: Genny, for brainstorming with me even though she thinks I'm a freak for writing fanfic; and Ami, for patiently answering all of my bizarre medical questions. This is dedicated to my fellow Wisconsin Spice Girls: MD1016, Nic Perry, and Karen Rasch. It was our fanfic discussion in the hotel bar in Chicago that inspired this in the first place. Here's to hoping that Santa Fe is our best adventure ever. "There are rules!" ======================================= "Great truths are portions of the soul of man; Great souls are portions of eternity." -- "Sonnet VI," James Russell Lowell, 1819-1891 ======================================= It had been a very long time since he'd been here last. He was shocked, in a way, to discover that the cherry blossoms still bloomed, or that the Potomac still flowed. Or even that the sun still shone in the sky. He thought of every day as gray, now. But the blue sky above him was jarringly bright, almost cheery. He resented it for being so. Only the fact that he had a job to do kept him from giving in to the anger and despair. Yet it ate away at him with tiny, painful bites - being back here after so long, back where they had been together, where she had saved him over and over again, where he had been, for once in his life, whole -- it was almost too much to process. But he had a job to do. He hefted the heavy black bag he carried, glanced briefly at the spherical alien ship hovering in its permanent position over the White House, and continued on his way. Dana hated the parties. One of the drones -- Lisette, it must have been -- had meticulously laid out the gown she was to wear earlier that evening, as if to remind Dana that she wouldn't be able to avoid tonight's function. She smoothed the dress against her skin now: a silk, ankle-length, off the shoulder number; fairly slinky, but not quite cheap-looking. It was white, of course. She was so tired of white. As her limo rolled up to the steps of the Cooperative Center -- the =Kennedy= Center, she reminded herself grimly -- she took a deep breath and steeled herself for what was to come. Just a few hours, and then you can go home, she chanted in her head. You've done this before, you can do it again. Her driver opened the door and she stepped out onto the sidewalk, half-expecting to feel the flashes of paparazzi bulbs against her face, like a movie star from before. But there were only the silent hulking security personnel -- morphers, hybrids, drones; she wasn't sure, she still couldn't always tell and supposed it didn't really matter - waiting patiently for her to make her way up the marble steps. Waiting to make sure she didn't try to go anywhere else. She spotted one of the two henchmen assigned to her on a rotating 24-hour watch off to the side, observing her without expression. It was Freddie. Freddie and Felix, she called them in her head, in an effort to demean them, or to at least make them sound human, although she was pretty sure they were in fact hybrids. She threw Freddie an arch look before proceeding to the entrance, knowing it would have no effect on him, but needing to make the statement regardless. The bright overhead lighting bathed her in warmth as she stepped into the banquet hall. Deep red velvet drapes swathed the wide bay windows, plush red carpeting encased her feet, and red and white linen tablecloths adorned the china- and crystal-laden tables. It was like entering into a womb, filled with blood. The sharp, almost metallic smell that always accompanied the Colonists' presence permeated the filtered air, and she hoped she'd become inured to it quickly tonight. Scattered throughout the large, high-ceilinged hall, Colonists conferred with their human lackeys while local toadies worked the room, jockeying for any small scraps of power, patting themselves on the backs while making sure no sharp-edged knives were lodged there. Desperation, fear and subterfuge hung in the room like tangible presences and set her teeth on edge. Here and there she spotted the drones, dressed in yellow and attending to various needs: serving, cleaning, spying. She supposed they might be grateful to have drawn household duties instead of hard labor in the mines or on the farms, as so many others had, if they still retained any real consciousness. The color of their clothing stood out in sharp contrast against the red of the room. Not for the first time she wondered why They had chosen yellow. No one looked good in yellow. Obviously a decision made by men. And not even human men, at that. The thought humored her a little, and she almost smiled. She spotted a few Colonists and local leaders she should probably pump for information, but her heart wasn't in it tonight for some reason. Instead, she simply made her way to the table set aside for the other Mothers, trying not to wince as a Colonist slithered past her and emitted a low hiss. The women at the table greeted her warmly, as always, looking her up and down and then peering over her shoulder for a glimpse of Freddie. Dana was the only Mother with "bodyguards," and they simultaneously envied and pitied her for it. She'd never deemed it necessary to tell the women that Freddie and Felix were not so much bodyguards as spies to keep her in line. That kind of information wouldn't go over well at their sterile tea parties. "Dana." The woman Dana knew only as Kristina gestured to the empty seat next to her. Dana slid into it gratefully and favored the woman with a smile. Kristina was the only Mother who ever seemed to act like a normal human being. The others were too afraid of losing status with the Colonists, or of somehow committing a transgression that would revoke their Mother status. "Are we having fun yet?" Dana murmured, and was rewarded with a short laugh from her friend. "As soon as that happens, I'll be sure to let you know," she retorted. "So what exactly is on the agenda for tonight? I haven't heard a thing." Kristina pulled her copious blonde hair back away from her face in what Dana recognized as a nervous habit. "They say a bigwig from before is going to speak tonight. A governor? President even? No one seems to know. But I hear he has big news. Maybe something about Greenland." Greenland. Dana's stomach turned over, but she forced herself to look bored. "Have they finally managed to put a stop to the latest fighting over there?" Kristina shrugged. "Like I said, I don't know." She looked at Dana steadily with somber gray eyes, and Dana could see the unspoken message there: Let's hope we're winning. She didn't think Kristina was a member of the resistance, but she suspected the blonde woman shared the sentiment, at least, even if she would never be foolish enough to say so. "I need to use the restroom," Dana said abruptly; she was suddenly having trouble breathing normally. Praying that she wasn't about to experience another panic attack - it had been months since the last one, after all -- she rose from her chair and walked briskly across the width of the banquet hall, pausing only when the cigarette smoking man crossed her path. She stared at him stonily, not returning his insincere smile of welcome, and brushed past him with as much dignity as she could muster. She could feel his eyes on her ass as she walked away. Once inside the bathroom she closed the door behind her and then leaned against it, resting her forehead against the cool metal and taking deep, even breaths. Greenland. Skinner was in Greenland. Skinner was in Greenland at her request -- hell, at her pleading -- heading things up on that end while she continued her medical research and networking over here. Had they gotten to him at last? She thought she would have heard something, but the lines of communication from there to here had been iffy at best the past few months. No. She refused to lose hope. It was all that she had left now, other than her memories. She went to the sink and splashed some cold water on her face, not caring that it might ruin her makeup job. She dabbed her face with the towel provided and breathed deeply again, in through the nose, out through the mouth. She took one last look at herself in the mirror. Her makeup was intact, but if anyone who knew her well enough were to look closely, they'd be able to see the worry in her eyes. But no one was here who did. No one had been for a very long time. She stifled a sigh and walked out of the bathroom. He checked the settings on his weapon again, well aware as he did so that he was being compulsive about it. He was right to be nervous, he told himself; he'd never had to perform such a high-level rub before. Granted, he had little worry of being caught; enough of the Syndicate's men were in place here tonight to ensure that he wouldn't be apprehended, and his current perch high up in the rafters was both advantageous and discreet. But he nonetheless worried about botching the job. He knew what would happen if he did. So he checked the rifle, one more time. And when he looked back up he saw a dream walking. He supposed he should be thankful it wasn't a ghost. Dana Scully was directly below him, dressed in a stunning white gown, hair perfectly coiffed, makeup expertly applied. Ridiculously gorgeous; she probably hated the ensemble. To an untrained eye she was the very epitome of a Mother, and if she was anyone else he would assume she carried her barren womb with pride. But this wasn't any Mother. This was Scully. His Scully. He cursed at himself. Not anymore, asshole. Not anymore. He pulled back even more behind the rafters, knowing she couldn't possibly see him, but paranoid about it anyway. At the same time, a thrill rippled through him. She looked healthy. She was safe. And now he would get to watch her unobserved. It was an unbelievable luxury, one he hadn't anticipated. They'd told him she was in Louisiana these days, the last time he'd asked. He suppressed a bitter laugh. Strughold? Lie? Oh, perish the thought. He drank her in hungrily, determined to commit the vision to his well- trained memory. The gauzy white gown she wore clung to her body in a way her FBI suits never had, and her expensive yet understated jewelry glittered under the bright lights of the hall. The intense red of her hair stood out even against the overwhelming crimson backdrop of the furnishings. She held her head high as she crossed the room, fearless as a lioness, drawing her share of appreciative stares from the humans in the room, yet seemingly unaffected by them. She'd had a lot of practice at this, he reflected grimly. She'd never been one to enjoy being the center of attention. He wondered how she was holding up under the strain. And then in spite of himself wondered if she ever thought of him, late at night, or remembered a certain kiss... He closed his eyes and shook his head. Taking a stroll down memory lane was not an option on a job. But what choice did he have, with the object of his every waking and sleeping fantasy so close, yet utterly unattainable? She had made her way back to her seat, he saw when he was able to look again. She leaned over and whispered something to the blonde on her right, who laughed. In spite of the levity, he sensed that Scully was worried about something. He recognized the tense set of her shoulders. I have to see her, he realized. If I don't see her before I leave, I don't know what I'll do. Damn the consequences. He was supposed to head back to Denver right after this job, but he could probably finesse something if he talked fast enough. Get Marita to cover for him with Strughold. She had the damn German wrapped around her finger anyway. God dammit, it had been three years. How could he not see her, talk to her...touch her? It had to be worth the risk. Didn't it? Worth the risk to you, yes, he chastised himself. But worth the risk to Scully? A smattering of applause brought his focus back to the matter at hand. Robert Stanton Boston, former Speaker of the House of the United States Congress, was taking the podium at the front of the banquet hall. Mulder raised the gun sight to his eye and took aim. Dana had to consciously remind herself to breathe when she saw Boston take the stage. In the chaotic days following the Arrival, the elder statesman from Virginia had been radically outspoken against any kind of complicity with the Colonists. She'd assumed he'd been executed long before, and was even more surprised to find that he wasn't at the very least a drone, shuttled off to one mining facility or another. What did his presence here mean for the resistance? For all of them? The older man cleared his throat and smiled at his audience. "Elders, Ladies and Gentlemen, Mothers, it is my honor to be with you all tonight. I have exciting news to share, news that I am sure will bring you much gladness." He paused and cleared his throat again, fumbled with the cards in front of him, adjusted his bright red tie. He was visibly sweating, a light mist forming on his bald pate. He's too nervous, Scully thought. Something's wrong. Is he not going to follow Their program, whatever it may be? "Ladies and gentlemen," Boston said again, and then he seemed to call upon some inner reserve, and as he continued his voice grew stronger, even strident, "I am here to tell you that we cannot give up the fight --" He never finished his sentence; a bullet ripped through his forehead seconds after the loud report of a firearm from the rafters. The elderly man toppled to the floor, and Scully didn't have to be a doctor to know that he was already dead. Amid the screams and shocked murmuring of the gathered crowd, Scully leapt up from her seat and dashed toward the nearest fire exit, hoping to at least catch a glimpse of the culprit so that she might determine if he was friend or foe. Boston had obviously been about to make a terrorist resistance statement in direct opposition to the Colonists who had brought him here tonight, and it would be most interesting to find out which side wanted him silenced badly enough to make such a public scene. Her hunch had been right; a tall, dark figure was slipping through the fire door just as she reached it. "Wait!" she yelled reflexively, then stopped and cursed herself for being such an idiot; her days of law enforcement were long over, and she was weaponless, of course. But she had to know which side this executioner was on, if nothing else for her own future strategies. For her team. For Skinner, if he was still alive. She only vaguely hoped that the man wouldn't decide to kill her. Amazingly, he stopped and turned around to face her. And her heart stopped in her chest. Thank god he's all right thankgodthankgod "Mulder?" she whispered hoarsely. Her hands came up and gripped her own shoulders, nails digging through the silk into her flesh as she fought desperately against the emotion that threatened to carry her away. Fox Mulder looked wonderful. Fit, healthy - if a bit thin - and handsome as ever. Dressed all in black, and carrying a gun. Their eyes met, and white fire coursed down her spine. She had to bite down on her lip to keep from screaming. He opened his mouth to speak, his eyes as stormy as hers, when they heard footsteps headed their way, lots of them. He glanced nervously in the direction of the sound before looking back at her. "Tonight," he rasped, and slipped out the door. Scully stumbled back to the banquet hall, eyes unseeing and ears unhearing until finally her driver was at her elbow, urging her to go home and get some rest after all the excitement. "Rest," she murmured. As if that were possible, now. To be continued. "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 2/13 All info in part one. Feedback: Write me at Dianora2@aol.com. Mulder got away easily, as he knew he would, escorted to his car by the Syndicate's undercover goons. Piece of cake, as usual -- anyone could have handled this job; his personal services were required merely as a demeaning reminder of his continued lack of options. The alien Troops made a show of looking around outside for a little while, but gave up quickly. Executions like Boston's were too commonplace to cause much concern, and the loss of one more human didn't mean shit to the Colonists. The inconvenience of their party being interrupted was more of an offense. They probably even suspected that their "allies" in the Syndicate were behind the assassination, for that matter. The Colonists were firm believers in giving you just enough rope to hang yourself. Mulder wondered just how long it would be before Strughold and the rest were readied for the gallows. Mulder didn't leave the scene of the crime as planned. He sat like an idiot in his getaway car, until he spotted Scully's fiery hair getting into a black limousine. And then he followed, careful to stay a safe distance behind her obvious tail, until they reached her manor house in Chevy Chase. Perfect. Neither human nor Colonist had yet installed a security system that he couldn't crack. As he lit a cigarette and settled in to wait for the right time to sneak in - preferably when that hulking guy who'd followed her home fell asleep - his mind traveled back to their last moments together. He'd relived it so many times that he knew all the dialogue by heart. *** "I'm still not sure about this, Mulder. It feels too much like running away." Only one lamp had been turned on in her living room, and now her pale face looked haunted in the dim light. He stepped closer to her, took her hands in his, and spoke as persuasively as possible. "We don't have a choice, Scully. We can do a lot more good if we get out of here, go somewhere remote, than if we stick around here and wait for the shit to hit the fan. Right now the Colonists are promising us peace and happiness and the cure to every disease known to humankind, but we know what's really going to happen. They're just stalling for time until the bees are released. And we have to use that knowledge to our advantage while we still can." The cigarette smoking bastard had given him a chillingly knowing look in the hallway of J. Edgar Hoover the other day that had scared the hell out of him, although he hadn't shared that information with his partner. He didn't want to add to her anxiety any more than he had to. "I know. I...I know," she said with a catch in her throat. She looked away from him. "I already told my family. Bill and Charlie scooped up Mom and the wives and kids and headed for Ireland while travel is still allowed. We have some distant relatives over there, and god knows they won't be at risk the way they probably would be in this country. I'm not sure they entirely believed me, but how can they afford to take a chance that I'm wrong, right?" She almost attempted a smile, but then paused, and he could see her jaw work as she swallowed back threatening tears. "Mom didn't want to leave without me, but I convinced her that I'd be safe with you. "I'm scared, Mulder," she said quietly, finally meeting his eyes so that he could see the fear there. "I don't like to admit it, but I'm absolutely terrified." His heart wrenched at her forlorn expression. "I know you are. I am too." He reached out for her, tried to pull her to him, but she pushed him away. "No. You don't get it." She picked a white box up off of the coffee table. "This arrived earlier today." She held it out to him with trembling hands. "Open it." Inside the box was a floor-length white gossamer gown - in Scully's size. "What the hell is this?" he asked, fingering the material in horror. "I don't know," Scully said. "But it scared the shit out of me, Mulder. Look on the bottom of the box." He turned it over, and his heart skipped when he saw the red insignia there, even though he wasn't surprised. He'd heard rumors... "This is a Colonist logo." "Don't you think I know that?" she asked, practically shrieking. She stopped and held her hands over her face in dismay. "I'm sorry. I just... " "It's okay," he said, tossing the box on the floor. She let him pull her close this time, and he wrapped his arms around her, breathing in the scent of her hair. "We're going to get out of here, and we're going to be all right, Scully," he said against her ear. "I promise." "Don't make promises you can't keep," she said, her words desperate, her voice muffled by his chest. He pulled back, cupped her face in his hands. "What's to worry about? Scully, when we work as a team, anything's possible." She smiled slightly. "You may be overestimating us just a bit." "Never," he said, grinning, feeling strangely light-hearted suddenly in spite of the gravity of their situation. Maybe it was her smile, which never failed to get to him. He caressed her cheek with the back of his hand, and she reached up to hold it there, leaning in to his touch. They both felt the moment change. It was as if the air crackled with a cosmic energy and =pushed= them toward each other, and before Mulder even knew what he was doing he was leaning down and pressing his lips to hers, gently, tentatively. She hesitated at first, but then her mouth opened beneath his and she returned the kiss fully, taking in his questing tongue and caressing it with her own. Her hands roamed his back and her body melted into his. The sensation of her quickened breathing against his cheek made him light-headed. He pulled her even closer to him, conscious only of the smell, feel, and taste of her. Finally. God. They kissed for what seemed like forever, hungrily, with escalating passion, until Scully pulled away. She placed her hands on his chest and tried to catch her breath. "Mulder, I --" He cut her off by placing a finger on her lips. "Whatever you're going to say, Scully, don't. Not now. We have the rest of our lives for this. Such as they are." She hesitated, obviously wanting to continue anyway, then nodded in acquiescence. "I'll see you tomorrow morning." "Sunrise," he amended. "Be packed and ready." He smoothed her hair tenderly, and then, with one final look back at her worried face, he left her apartment. **** Mulder banged his fist against the dashboard at the memory. They had been so close, so damn close... And that kiss...it had haunted his dreams and inflamed his fantasies for years. That kiss had been a promise, more so than his words, and she had believed him. But how did she feel about him now? Hell, he hadn't been all that sure how she'd felt about him back then, although he liked to think he had a pretty good idea. But how had life under the Colonists' constant gaze changed her? Although many women thrived under their new exalted status, he'd heard tales of Mothers committing suicide as a final escape from the lives that had been thrust upon them. Every story that reached his ears had ground fear into his heart for Scully's own mental health. Had they managed to affect her soul as much as they'd affected her social standing? He was terrified to find out. But it didn't matter. He had to know. When he spotted a changing of the guard on Scully's spy, he took advantage of the distraction and slipped out of his car and into the night. He made his way to the far end of the estate and tested the field around the security gate by picking a stick up off the ground and hurling it at the wrought iron structure. Sure enough, the gate crackled and sparked and the smell of burnt wood instantly filled the air. Good thing he had thought to bring along his tool kit, among other things, in his all-purpose black bag. He extracted the highly rare and highly contraband neutralizer, pointed it in the direction of the gate, and pressed the activation button. The yellow beam exploded against the briefly visible bluish electrical field of the gate, then ceased, leaving the night silent once more. "Piece of cake," he whispered in satisfaction. He loved the irony: simple human electricity foiled by alien technology stolen by a human. Now he just hoped that there wasn't a more sophisticated system set up on the house itself. Alien-grown home systems were a bit trickier. And a lot more lethal. Dana's was disgusted to realize that her hands were shaking as she changed into her night clothes. Lisette had tried to help her get ready for bed, but she'd snapped at the older woman so that she'd leave and not return for the rest of the night. As all the drones had a healthy fear of her in spite of their programming, it hadn't been very difficult to get rid of her. Dana locked the door behind her, then continued to test the knob compulsively every few minutes. One of the most aggravating aspects of Motherhood was the fact that you never felt truly alone, not even in your own personal gilded cage. So what the hell was Mulder doing in Washington? He was supposed to be out in...Denver, she thought it was. He was supposed to be safe. A clerk, the cigarette man had told her, the one time she'd worked up the nerve to hold a gun to his head. A pencil-pusher at one of the mining facilities the Syndicate had helped the Colonists to set up out there. When had he become their errand boy on top of that? And could she still trust him? Should she? And what did he want with her, after all these years? For that matter, what did she want from him? How could he help her and the resistance? Would he even be willing to do so? Too many questions. She shoved them from her mind with an effort of will and slipped on a comfortable silk night shirt, then wrapped herself in a voluminous terry cloth robe. Mothers always had to wear white in public, so in private she adorned herself in jeweled tones: ice cold blues, rich and fiery reds. The clothes she wore now were a forest green, deep as the woods. ::Come on, Scully. It'll be a nice trip to the forest.:: Stop, she commanded herself. Don't do this to yourself. Don't let him do this to you. Too much time had passed; too much was at stake now. A sound at the window snapped her out of her self-indulgent reverie. "Didn't They install a security system on the house?" he asked as he climbed in from the night. He threw a black duffel bag on the carpet and wiped his hands on his jeans. "Of course. I turned it off. They don't know that I know how," she said. "Not the smartest idea," he said disapprovingly. Just like old times. "People don't break in to Mothers' homes," she said softly. He nodded, acknowledging the truth of it. "Bugs?" She shook her head. "Frohike does a sweep for me every week." "Frohike?" he repeated, eyes widening. "He's still around?" "He'll be here after Judgment Day, him and the cockroaches," she said, smiling in spite of herself. He laughed, then winced, as if unfamiliar with the sound. They just looked at each other, then. Scully could feel tears prick her eyes. She cursed herself, tried to stop them from falling, but couldn't. "Mulder..." And then he was holding her, crushing her against him as if she was the only thing keeping him standing. She buried her face in his chest, breathing in the never-forgotten, familiar scent of him, hardly daring to believe she was actually touching him once more, after all this time. The cool leather of his jacket contrasted sharply with the heat of his body against hers. Before she could think of anything to say to him he lifted her chin, capturing her lips, bruising her mouth with his, and the resulting conflagration shocked her system and drove away all coherent thought even as she realized with a start that he tasted sharply of cigarette smoke. They clung to each other in desperation, kissing and kissing and kissing until she found herself grabbing frantically at his clothes, pulling his shirt over his head as he tugged at the sash of her robe. There were no words or tender endearments or attempts at repartee, just the struggle to touch, skin to skin, to take back what had been forcibly taken from them before it had even begun. As her robe fell into a crumpled heap on the carpet he roughly pressed her up against the wall, knocking the breath out of her, then began clawing at his belt buckle, his zipper, with determined haste. She helped him with clumsy hands, then pulled her nightshirt up around her hips for him as he placed his hands on her ass and lifted her up and in one expert motion impaled her on his hard, swollen sex. He began pumping into her immediately, thrusting triumphantly, grunting with the effort of it. She held on for dear life, closing her eyes, letting the delicious, long-denied friction and fullness set her ablaze. He was everywhere, filling her, consuming her, with his hands, his mouth, his cock, his breath, again and again and again until her nails drew lines of blood on his back. They came together, quickly, quietly, breathlessly. He slumped against her, burying his face in the crook of her neck, breathing hard, then he eased out of her and set her feet back on the floor. He smoothed her hair, kissed the top of her head over and over again, and she closed her eyes to allow herself one more moment. One more perfect moment to savor and play back behind her eyelids at night when she touched herself under the covers. And then she opened them. "Why are you here, Mulder?" she asked. He tensed slightly against her, and the kisses stopped. "I had a job to do," he said in a controlled monotone. "Kill Boston." A pause. "Yes." "For whom?" Funny that the act of murder didn't seem to bother her so much; she just needed to know where he stood. And how she could possibly use it in her own favor. He ran his hand up and down her arm. "You know I can't tell you that." She looked up at him. His expression as he looked down at her was complicated, but no one knew him like Dana did. She saw the fear there, and the conflict. And the small glimmer of hope. At least that hadn't died. Yet. "Mulder. I think that after all we have been to each other," she said steadily, "we owe ourselves the truth, if nothing else. Don't we?" "You sure know how to play dirty pool, Scully." He sighed, moved away from her and sat down on the bed, not even bothering to zip up his jeans. "I work for Strughold and the rest of the Syndicate, both in conjunction with and in opposition to the Colonists," he said, not looking at her. Her breath froze in her lungs. "Why?" was all she could manage. "It's a deal, Scully, like everything else with these people," he spat. "I kill the people too dangerous to keep around, or the people they want offed in a showy fashion, and in return..." He trailed off. "Tell me." He looked at her. "And in return, you're still alive." She shook her head, disbelieving, even though she felt that somehow, on some level, she had known all along. She sat down next to him on the bed, pulling her legs up underneath her. "Mulder, I'm one of the original Mothers, remember? My payback for all those years of abduction hell is to live in the lap of luxury now, revered by all, while the world sputters and dies around me. Considering the hundreds of beings running around with my DNA in their cells, serving the expansion of the Colonists' empire, it's the least They could do. Alien code of honor and all that," she said sardonically. "You're not just any Mother, Scully. I noticed your tail." "My --? Oh. Freddie." She sighed. "You're right. Freddie and his counterpart Felix are your legacy to me, Mulder. Once Mrs. Spooky, always Mrs. Spooky, even if you once gloriously served the cause against your will." She took his hand, traced the unfamiliar calluses there. "You're telling the truth, aren't you? They've actually threatened to kill me if you don't cooperate." The fact that the thought was at all shocking to her merely underscored how accustomed she had become to her new life. No. Not accustomed. Adapted. He squeezed her hand so tightly she almost cried out. "Not just threatened. They tried once." Cold fear. "What?" "About a year ago, they wanted me to do something...something I could not bring myself to do. Something that I still hate myself for having done. So I refused. Or tried to. And then they...." "My car accident," she whispered. He nodded. "But Mulder, that was an accident, that old woman showed up out of nowhere --" "Damn it, Scully, don't be naive," he snapped. "You could have died, because of me." "But I didn't," she whispered. "I just have this souvenir of the occasion." She pulled up her nightshirt, took his hand and placed it on her thigh, where she sported a small pink scar. "The Colonists' technology is unbelievable. My leg was torn open, top to bottom. And this is all that's left now." His thumb traced the length of the scar reverently. "I couldn't live with myself if anything happened to you." "What did they make you do?" A long silence, so long she thought he was going to refuse to answer her. Then: "I'm...ah...living with Marita Covarrubius." Dana's head reeled, swimming with images of Mulder and that blonde in bed, limbs intertwined -- "But why?" He snorted disdainfully. "As a reward for her, for her service. Apparently she wanted me for some reason. She probably regrets that by now." He tried a smile, failed. Sleeping with Marita. Murder was easier to accept. "Do you love her?" His face froze. "What the hell kind of a question is that?" he snapped. "Of course not. I...you're the ..." "Never mind. I know," she whispered. She did. Not that it did either of them any good. She leaned into him, resting her cheek on his shoulder. "Mulder, what happened? The day we were supposed to leave." He let out a ragged sigh and rested his chin on the top of her head, smoothing her hair continually as he spoke. "I went home, packed up, got everything ready, and finally dozed off somewhere around 3 AM. The next thing I knew I was in the back of a truck, hurtling toward god knew where, with a headache from hell. I finally got dropped off at some kind of a prison, a penitentiary that had been converted into a hell of a more specific nature. They roughed me up for a while, interrogated me, the works, until finally Strughold himself showed up and coerced me into playing their games. I agreed, just wanting to get out of there, hoping I'd be able to make my way back to you." His hold on her tightened, and she could hear the catch in his throat when he continued. "But they were too damn thorough. They'd already found you by then, taken you to your new home, the same time they rounded up all the other Mothers and showed them their new lives. I was told that if I even thought about contacting you, or went anywhere that they couldn't find me, that you'd be dead within the hour. They...they showed me photos of you, as proof." She stiffened. "Photos of what?" "Of you, in white, playing the dutiful part of a Mother," he said, with an edge to his words. God damn. Where the hell did he get off? "You did what you had to in order to survive," she said coldly. "So did I. Do you think I enjoy associating with those beings? Interacting with Colonists, with women who've sold their souls for the privilege of spreading their DNA, with people like that black-lunged bastard who insists on paying me a visit every week? It eats away at me every second I'm alive. But at least I'm alive to feel it." She pushed away from him and rose from the bed, then began pacing, working off her anger, disgusted that she could still feel his semen on her thighs. "Do you really want to know how I spend my time, Mulder? Do you?" "I want to know everything, Scully," he said brokenly. "Everything you're willing to tell me." She folded her arms across her chest, tried to keep the superior glare from her face, but it didn't work. "I'm the goddamn head of the resistance on the East Coast, Mulder. And what have you been up to?" "Excuse me?" he asked blankly. "I have been putting my life on the line every day for the past two years," she said coldly. "They've allowed me to continue to be a doctor - most Mothers are content to just sit around and be catered to and throw tea parties, but as you said yourself, I'm not most Mothers. I needed something, anything, to give my life a shred of meaning beyond my existence as a walking used incubator. So I'm in private practice, catering to the elite, and I use every free moment there to work on developing a virus, a bio-weapon, designed to eradicate the slimies from our planet once and for all. And I'm on the verge, Mulder. I'm on the verge of blowing this whole colonization project sky-high. But if the fighting doesn't calm down in Greenland and our core group is destroyed, it's all going to be for shit. And I don't even know what's going on over there!" She heard her voice raising and lowered it immediately, fearful of discovery. "Skinner's over there, Mulder. Skinner's coordinating the movement over there, and we'd been doing just fine, but the recent offensives have us at a loss. The cold over there helps, of course, but it's not a definitive means of protection. And I haven't been able to get any word through to him or back from him." Mulder's jaw worked as he searched for something, anything, to say. Finally: "I can get you information on Greenland." She stopped mid-pace. "How? That bitch?" To his credit he didn't flinch from her expression. "Yes. She and Strughold are...close, if you know what I mean. And she trusts me far more than she should. I can get you the information you need. Just give me a few days once I get back." She nodded slowly. "That would be...that would great." She played with the hem of her nightshirt. "How could you get me the information?" Mulder thought hard. "Give me Frohike's e-mail address. I can probably find a secure T-1 line and contact him through it." "Thank you," she said, feeling a rare, unguarded moment of optimism, yet at the same time wondering if she could, in fact, trust him. But if she couldn't trust Mulder, even after all this time, then she truly had nothing. "So when do you have to go back?" "In a few hours, or the shit's really going to hit the fan," he said. His eyes bore into hers and she could feel his desire for her from across the room. "Then let's not waste any more time," she said huskily. She went to him, straddled him, and helped him slide inside of her as he whispered her name and reached for her breasts and they surrendered to oblivion once more. To be continued. "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 3/13 All info in part one. Feedback: Write me at Dianora2@aol.com. Finding out the information Scully needed was more difficult than Mulder had anticipated. He suspected it was partially due to the fact that he was having trouble concentrating on the subtleties of his task; he was continually distracted by memories of Scully and their all-too-brief night together and wanted nothing more than to lose himself in them every waking moment. And on top of that, Marita was in a singularly bitchy mood - more so than usual. For weeks all of his half-hearted attempts to draw her out ended in the silent treatment, and he began to get paranoid that somehow she knew on a weird psychic level that he had seen Scully. He was going to have to take drastic action. And so, late one night, after the lights were turned out, he swallowed his pride and his dignity and his revulsion and covered her breast with his hand. It was almost embarrassing, really, the way she didn't even question his motives, the way she participated with gusto, crawling over him, riding him like a bronco. He lay back and closed his eyes and focused on Scully, tried desperately to remember how she had felt against him, the warmth of her lips, the soft down of her hair. He reflected that he finally knew how women had been made to feel throughout the centuries: like a vessel to be used. When it was over - and it took mercilessly long, since his response was purely a physical one and not helped along by any ardor on his part - he took her in his arms and engaged in some carefully worded pillow talk. It worked. It worked so well that it only increased his disgust for her. Who knew all she'd really needed was a mediocre lay? Two days later, he sneaked into Marita's home office and used her secure modem connection to send a message to Frohike. Dana looked down at the small piece of paper that Rico had handed to her as soon as she'd entered the lab adjacent to her doctor's office. The message was scrawled in Frohike's chicken scratch; she was mildly surprised that he'd allowed anything written in his own hand to escape his clutches. "Mutual friend rang. Invasion imminent in Paamiut. Warn Hermes tout de suite." She crumpled the paper, fighting back a wave of panic. Hermes was their code name for Skinner; Paamiut their main base of operations. He'd have to relocate his team to one of the other scattered towns on the coast of Buffin Bay, but where exactly would have to be his decision. There was only so much she could do from across the Atlantic. Through the haze of her worry, she couldn't help but feel a pang that there had been no personal message from Mulder. It was unlike him, wasn't it? Perhaps she no longer knew him as well as she thought. She uncrumpled the paper and turned it over in her hands, and saw that Frohike had indeed scribbled an addendum. "ICED TEA??" Unwanted tears stung her eyes, taking her breath away. How could he possibly remember that long ago night? ::Mulder, I wouldn't put myself on the line for anybody but you.:: She bit back an ironic laugh at the realization that she now routinely put herself on the line for millions of people she didn't even know. The weight of the world wore heavily on her for a moment; then she shrugged. But the sentiment lifted her heart all the same. She felt an unfamiliar twist in her soul, and realized it was affection. It had been a long, long time since she'd allowed herself to experience anything of the sort. "Rico?" He was there immediately, her constant aide. His unquestioning loyalty to her had ceased to be unnerving long before; now, she merely counted on and even took advantage of his devotion to her. She looked up into his dark brown eyes and handed him the paper. "I know how rough communications have been lately, but we need to get this information to Hermes somehow, stat. He has to move. Immediately. Location is at his discretion, so long as he notifies us when they've set up again. I'm counting on you, Rico." Rico nodded and took the paper from her, his quick mind no doubt already racing with possible ways to contact the Greenland base. "Consider it done," he murmured. She touched him on the arm in thanks, and he smiled at the boon. When he had left she turned back to her lab book and studied the latest data notated there. She was so close to a breakthrough she could almost taste it; close to engineering a virus or antigen that would prove fatal to the Colonists and the hybrids. The drones would presumably be safe, since they were merely infected with the black oil; she'd already duplicated the vaccine that the Syndicate had come up with some time ago, and the lab in Greenland was working on producing mass quantities of it for worldwide distribution. The Syndicate might be too fearful of alien reprisals to actually use the stuff, but she had no such compunctions. But the time was not yet right; she needed the virus in addition to the vaccine, or else there was no point. It was to be a two-pronged attack or nothing at all. Still, she couldn't help but feel that she was continually racing against the clock, and no one had told her about the deadline. "Dr. Scully." She whirled around, closing the book as she did so. "What the hell do you want?" The black-lunged bastard wasn't smoking for a change; perhaps even he was smart enough to figure out that a medical lab wasn't the best place for incendiaries. "I was just wondering how your work is coming." "My medical practice is doing just fine," she said smoothly. "Are you here for a physical?" "Sadly, no, as much as I might enjoy your...technique." Dana fought back her revulsion and bit the inside of her cheek to keep from killing him with her bare hands. Simply knowing that she could would have to do. "In that case, I'm busy. Get out." She turned her back to him and pretended to write up a patient's blood work, hoping he'd lose interest. "Tell me. How is Fox? I haven't seen him in such a long time." She stiffened for a moment; but if there was one thing she had accomplished since the Arrival, it was raising the act of keeping her cool to an art form. "If you're referring to Fox Mulder, I wouldn't know. I haven't seen him since you bastards took him away, remember?" She barely managed to stop herself from the words on the tip of her tongue: away from me. "That's not what I hear." "Well, then you heard wrong." She moved closer to the drawer at the end of the lab table; she was pretty sure she'd left a spare revolver in there. "If the two of you were to rekindle your acquaintance," he said quietly, "the results could be deadly. For both you and Mulder." She turned to face him, her hand reaching back to grasp the handle of the drawer. "Are you threatening me? A Mother? You forget your place in the new scheme of things. You touch one hair on my head and the Colonists will be up your ass before you can even blink. You think I don't know that's why I'm still alive in the first place?" She began to ease the drawer open, centimeter by centimeter. "Accidents do happen, Dr. Scully. But then, you already know all about that, don't you?" He withdrew a cigarette from his pocket, eyed it lovingly. "I'll be in touch. Just to check in, of course." He strolled out the door, lighting up as he did so. Dana bowed her head and closed her eyes, just for a moment, and took a deep breath. Then she straightened and went back to work. Mulder took one last drag on his cigarette before crushing it in the ashtray at his elbow. He'd taken the habit up again about a year ago; persisted in it partially because he couldn't bring himself to stop, partially because it annoyed the hell out of Marita. At this point in his life he felt they were equally valid reasons. The living room was dark. He'd kept the lights off, even drawn the blinds to keep out as much sunlight as possible. He needed the dark to think. In his mind he replayed the events of the past three years of his life, forcing himself to be brutal in his recollection. Ruthlessly examined his initial resistance and the high idealism that had been all too easily supplanted by inactivity, lack of motivation, acquiescence. Acceptance of the miserable card he had drawn in the poker game of life. He'd once told Scully that he didn't think he could go on alone, without her. He had been right. She =had= kept him honest, and once they had ripped her away from him, they'd taken everything that mattered as well. Scully, on the other hand...Scully had risen to the occasion, although he worried about the toll it seemed to have taken on her emotionally. Her tenacity and drive made him unutterably ashamed. He saw the way she had looked at him. With pity, and something akin to disgust. He couldn't live with that. He could live, at this point, with nearly anything - but not with her disdain. He wanted to prove to her that the real Mulder still lurked within him, somewhere. That despite the desperate, almost impersonal nature of their coupling, she had resurrected him with her words and her body that night. He had felt alive for the first time in years, all because of her. And now that he was alive, he didn't want to be ashamed anymore. The phone rang. He didn't want to pick it up. He knew who it would be. But he had no choice. He reached for the receiver. "Mulder." "We have a job for you," the accented voice at the other end said without preamble. The last one, Mulder swore to himself. This is the last one, just so they don't get suspicious, just to buy some time. And then come hell or high water I'm going to be with Scully. I'll find a way. "Tell me." "Dana, I need to speak with you." Dana looked up from her cup of tea to see Frohike standing in the doorway of the sitting room, his hands wringing in an uncharacteristic gesture of unease. And he'd used the front door? Something must be up. Thank god Kristina had already left following their late lunch. Lisette hovered in the doorway behind him, eyeing the small man with a hint of suspicion. "Go," Dana told the drone, then waited until she had departed obediently. "What is it, Frohike?" He looked around nervously before taking a seat in the Louis XIV chair across from her. "Your surveillance has been upped," he said in hushed tones. "I think They're suspicious of you. Seeing Mulder was a big mistake." She shook her head impatiently. "They couldn't possibly know. You're being paranoid." "Am I? Then how come Freddie's gained some new friends the past few days?" he shot back. "Are you putting on a show in your bedroom window and not inviting me? I'm crushed." "More hybrids?" she said, feeling for the first time a glint of worry. "I would have noticed, I --" "Not even," he said, cutting her off. He fidgeted in his seat, pulling at his trademark fingerless gloves. "They're morphers. They've got morphers on you, Dana. I know you don't want to hear this, but I think it's time we put Plan Hippolyta into action." She shook her head, belying the panic that now threatened to consume her. "No. Impossible. I'm so close, Frohike. I'm not going to abandon my work. I'm not going to abandon my people -- they need me =here.=" "They need you alive," he said harshly. She regarded him for a moment, marveling at how close she had become to this man. She knew how he was feeling - since Byers and Langly had been infected and shipped off to the mines, and since Mulder was gone, she was all that Frohike had left. But she had responsibilities higher than her friendship with him. "I'm not leaving," she said quietly, in a tone that brooked no argument. He sighed wearily. "Fine. But I want you to take this." He placed a microchip in the palm of her hand, then folded her fingers over it. "It's a disrupter, hot off the black market. Interferes with any bugs, so even if my guys miss something, no one will be able to translate the garble. I want you to put this in your bedroom." Dana felt an unaccustomed blush dangerously close to the surface of her cheeks. "Mulder's gone, Frohike. He's not going to be climbing in through my window any time soon." "Just take it," he insisted. "And I'm going to do another sweep while I'm here." "Rico did one yesterday," she protested. "I'm not Rico." "So I noticed." They shared a slow smile. "Okay, Merlin, work your magic," she said, relenting. Mulder couldn't believe his luck: they were sending him back to DC. He studied the dossier Strughold had passed along to him with a practiced eye. This job was an unusual one, and it had him a little worried. Assassinations were one thing; blowing up a house full of people was quite another. There was going to be a much greater loss of life than he was normally accustomed to meting out. But whenever he thought of reneging, he remembered the puckered pink scar on Scully's thigh. Just one more, he told himself for the thousandth time. And then... Well, he didn't know what then. Hadn't figured out yet how he was going to go to Scully again and offer her his services, all without anyone discovering his intentions. He hadn't come up with a foolproof plan in three years; he wasn't sure why he was optimistic enough to think he'd come up with something now. He looked back down at the file in front of him, trying to bring his mind back to more immediate concerns. Apparently a small local politician who was a member of the resistance had been identified, and Strughold had secured the information that the subject was planning on attending a dinner party at the home of a provisional governor next week. The idea was to set off a bomb, killing everyone inside, in order to make it look like a terrorist action rather than an assassination. Although the file didn't say so, Mulder suspected that there were going to be Colonists there as well, thus the need for the subterfuge. As always when undertaking a new job, he allowed himself just a moment to reflect on just how much his moral code had deteriorated, and how quickly. But in this life, morality was a luxury he was no longer able to afford. The only precept that mattered any more was Dana Scully. "I really don't want to go to this," Dana muttered, scowling at the engraved invitation she held. "If you refuse, you will look even more suspicious," Rico pointed out. She threw him a frustrated look, knowing he was right but not wanting to admit it. Instead, she fanned herself with the invitation and wished she was back inside in the air conditioning. The heat in DC this June seemed even worse than usual this year, and had come upon them with surprising swiftness. Good for the Colonists, lousy for humans. Her white sleeveless cotton dress stuck to her in all the wrong places, making her feel as conspicuous as a stripper in a convent. Rico's surreptitious looks at her body weren't helping. They had decided to take a walk along the reflecting pool, not far from the mockery that was the Lincoln Memorial, in an attempt to avoid all possible listening devices. Felix hovered about a dozen yards away, ducking behind the occasional tree, as if they didn't know full well that he was there. He kept up the charade, she had to give him that. Colonist Troops slithered by from time to time, but her white gown pretty much insured that no one would be harassing her; one of the many reasons the privileges of her rank were useful from time to time. This section of DC was also one of the few areas where humans could still be spotted; many of the low-level government employees and politicians were kept around to help keep order among those few remaining Americans who hadn't been infected with the virus and shipped off to the mines or the farms or the forests or other assorted labor camps to harvest raw materials for the Colonists' home planet. She supposed she should be thankful, in a way - there were many parts of the world, particularly the hottest sections of Africa and South America, that had been completely overrun by the Colonists' more feral and vicious evolutionary cousins, the ones Mulder had encountered in the bowels of the alien ship in Antarctica. At least those creatures hadn't reached the U.S., and there were humans left here and there. But Dana occasionally wondered if everyone she had known in her former life - her cousins, her college friends, her colleagues from the Academy and the Bureau - were all even now slaving away underground, or harvesting wheat, or chopping down trees or God knew what other kind of hard labor as black oil swam over their eyes and they slowly starved to death from mistreatment. And then she hoped that they were dead, instead, like her mother. Or that she would someday be able to save them all. She sighed wearily and finally responded to Rico. "You're right, of course. I'll call him myself to RSVP." "Good. I'm going with you as your escort." She shook her head. "Out of the question." "Dana, I'm not letting you go in there alone. Not with --" He looked around, then bent down to her ear and lowered his voice. "Not with the concerns that Frohike has raised." "Not you too," she said. She looked up at him and smiled. "Look. I know you're worried. But I'm going to be fine. I know what I'm doing." His dark eyes flashed and he pursed his full lips. God, he had sexy lips. She'd often wished she was more physically attracted to her Cuban friend; it certainly wasn't due to any failing on his part. "Are you making it an order?" he asked, his voice carefully drained of emotion. He looked down at his loafers. "Rico, don't be that way. I know that you just want me to be safe, and I appreciate it. But you have to trust me. I can handle it." The tension between them passed as quickly as it had arisen; he was never able to stay angry with her for very long. He raised his head and met her gaze. "Okay. If you say so, Superwoman," he said reluctantly. "Now let's get back inside. It's too damn hot out here." He returned her smile, and for a moment he thought he might touch her, even reach out for her hand. But he wasn't Mulder; he never engaged in the affectionate, casual physical contact that Mulder had made look so effortless. She rubbed her arms absently, realizing just how much she missed it. Mulder set up shop in an abandoned motel on the outskirts of DC proper in preparation for his next hit. Although steeped in his work, just the thought of possibly being able to see Scully once more had put him in a better mood than he'd been in for years; he actually caught himself whistling at one point. In the back of his mind he noted the irony of whistling while constructing a bomb, but refused to examine it more closely. When he was finished, he took a moment to sit back and examine his handiwork. Not bad for someone without any previous training in explosives. The thugs at the Syndicate had taught him well. The timing mechanism was a thing of beauty and finesse; Bobby, his mentor in these matters, would have been proud. Scully probably wouldn't. He shoved the thought from his mind. He was doing this =for= Scully, to be with Scully, to keep her safe, and losing sight of those facts would only lead to madness. He wondered what she was doing at that moment, and if she was by any chance thinking of him. "I think he's coming around," Dana said tensely. The small cluster of men and women watched with baited breath as the black oil slowly cleared from Harrison Fields' eyes. He remained still on the cot for an endless moment, then jerked straight up, looking around wildly. Dana gripped his arms. "It's all right," she said soothingly. "You're among friends. You're safe now. Just sit still." He struggled with her for a minute more before awareness finally set in, then he went limp under her hands and relaxed. "Where... where am I?" he asked. Dana placed her fingers on the man's wrist to take his pulse. "You're in the back room of a dress shop that caters exclusively to Mothers. What most people don't know is that it also doubles as a resistance pit stop. No one thinks twice about my coming in here, and I'd like to keep it that way." Her eyes darted over to Maggie Collins, owner of said dress shop, who merely nodded in agreement. "You're feeling disoriented because you've just been cured of the alien virus with a vaccine I developed. You can relax; you're among allies now." His brown eyes shifted about as he struggled for answers. "I have memories of a dark shaft --" "You were working in the coal mines in the Appalachians," Rico interjected as Dana focused on her work, taking the man's vitals, listening to his heartbeat and his lungs with her stethoscope. "Our spies at your location took you one night and brought you to us. We're more well connected than you might think." "But why?" Dana looked over her latest acquisition, appreciating the fact that he was quite handsome, in a rugged sort of way. Weathered. Lived-in, was how her mother would put it. She closed her eyes briefly to banish Margaret Scully from her mind. "We need more scientists to help me develop our own virus, something that will make this planet poison to the Colonists, or simply kill them outright. You are a brilliant scientist, Dr. Fields, and now you've been given a second chance to prove it." He returned her gaze with shining eyes. "How can I refuse? You saved me." The expression on his face was all too familiar. The gratitude and the admiration were becoming almost annoying by this point. She glanced over at Rico, who, aware of her discomfort, was stifling an amused grin. "And I fully intend for you to repay the favor," she said to Fields, her tone colder than she intended. But he only smiled and took her hands in his. "I'm at your disposal." "Good." She returned the smile with an effort. "Because I have a party to go to tonight, and I'd like you to get some work done in my absence." Mulder took shelter behind a row of untamed bushes and sat down to wait, his eyes never leaving the impressive Tudor house on the opposite side of the street. Things had gone off without a hitch so far; Strughold had tipped him off to the fact that the entire household was attending an Education Session that morning, and so placing the explosive device on the premises had been a matter of little difficulty. As this house was the only one on the block still occupied by living beings, being spotted by the neighbors was a moot point. The occasional rat or king-sized cockroach that scurried across the sidewalk was his only company in the silence. He lit up a cigarette and drew smoke into his lungs. There was nothing left to do but watch and wait. To be continued. "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 4/13 All info in part one. Feedback: Dianora2@aol.com. Dana went over the contingency plan one more time in her head as her limo threaded its way toward the Howard estate. Rico had insisted on their preparing some sort of strategy in case things didn't go well that evening. He did so every time she went anywhere other than work or the house or headquarters, and she had no choice but to indulge him. He was right, and besides, she owed him that much, considering how nervous he was about tonight. And so a small number of their operatives were on standby a few blocks away at one of the Metro stations that had been converted into a waystation for fugitives, refugees, and fellow resistance members. She didn't anticipate a need to flee, however. Martin Howard was a self- absorbed despot, so preoccupied with what little power over what was left of Washington DC that the Colonists had parceled out to him that he had little time or inclination to look much further than his own nose. Her presence at his formal dinner tonight would be one of adornment and prestige; having a Mother present at one of your affairs not only made you look good to the Colonists as They valued Mothers above all else, but it showed that you were supportive of the new regime, and not afraid to flaunt it. Being Howard's physician, she was an obvious choice to fulfill that role for him, and as Rico pointed out, it would have reflected badly on her had she refused the invitation. She hoped she'd at least get a decent meal out of the bargain. As the car rolled up to the curb in front of Howard's stately home, she glanced at the driver's seat; Rico had insisted on taking her tonight instead of her usual driver. So paranoid, he was. He reminded her, once in a while, just slightly, of Mulder. Mulder. She had thought of him all too often since their brief night together. God, his newfound talents and knowledge would be a huge asset to their cause, and she didn't just mean his considerable prowess in bed. How could she outwit Strughold and get Mulder to come to her, to help her, to stay with her on her own terms, despite the Syndicate's threats? There had to be a way. Her feelings toward him were still complicated, to say the least, but she had to put the resistance first. And the resistance needed him. Well, now that she'd cured Fields, she would have more time and brain power to devote to such matters. She'd chosen well this time. Fields was lucky she'd thought of him. Not bothering to wait for Rico to come around, she opened the car door and stepped outside. She was already more than fashionably late. From his hiding place across the street Mulder looked on in horror. Dana Scully was getting out of the limo that had just pulled up in front of Howard's house, and was heading up the walk toward the front door. Toward the front door of a house that was scheduled to blow to kingdom come in about five minutes thanks to his expertise. Mulder didn't think; didn't stop for one minute to consider the possible consequences of his actions. He just took off like a bat out of hell and prayed he wouldn't be too late. "SCULLY!" She whirled around before she reached the front porch, her jaw dropping as she saw him, and as he drew closer he could see her mouth a curse. "There's a bomb!" he yelled. He whipped out his Glock seconds before her ubiquitous tail jumped out of his car and started in their direction. Mulder took aim over Scully's head and fired. His aim had become near-perfect during his professional hitman tenure; the nondescript man fell to the ground and didn't get up again. Scully instinctively hit the deck, her long white gown marred with dirt and grass stains when she staggered to her feet once more. "Get in the car!" the limo driver was yelling from the front seat, engine running. Mulder looked over the hood of the car and spotted two morphers materializing out of the darkness, crossing from the other side of the street, guns drawn. Where the fuck had they come from? "Scully, get in the car!" he echoed the chauffeur, then aimed and fired at the aliens, even though he knew it wouldn't do any good. It would distract them, at least. He ducked behind the shelter of the limo as a laser bolt whizzed over his head. He had a stiletto in his back pocket, of course, but didn't plan on them getting close enough for him to use it. "God damn it Scully, get in the car!" Scully finally made her way to the vehicle and threw herself inside, leaving the back door open for Mulder. He jumped in behind her, letting out his breath only when the limo peeled away into the night, screeching against the asphalt. They were about a block away when the house blew, the booming explosion spewing smoke and ash and flame and lighting up the night with a yellow and orange glow. He and Scully instinctively crouched down in the back seat at the initial concussion, then straightened and watched the display through the rear window. He let out a low, appreciative whistle for a job well done in spite of himself. As much as he hated fire, he had an objective admiration of the sheer spectacle of it. "Christ," Scully whispered. "Was that...did you do that, Mulder?" He looked at her and nodded, a bizarre mixture of pride and shame flowing through him at the surprise in her eyes. "Pyrotechnic expert now," she said absently as she faced forward in her seat once more. She looked as if she were adding the information to a mental list. "Interesting." "Dana, are you okay?" the driver asked. "I'm fine, Rico. Are you taking us to the waystation?" There was such comfortable familiarity in her voice when she spoke to him; Mulder felt an intense, irrational surge of jealousy. Who was this guy? He was apparently more to her than just the chauffeur. "We have to, Dana. I think...I think it's time for Hippolyta." Even without knowing the man, Mulder could hear the trepidation in his voice. He could relate to the feeling that came with telling Scully something you knew she wasn't going to want to hear. "Dammit, no!" she yelled with such vehemence that Mulder pulled back from her in reflex. "I have to stay here. Now that we have Fields, our work is going to move so quickly, I just know it. Rico, we're on the =verge= --" "No." The word was said with such finality Mulder wondered how Scully could possibly continue to question it. "Your cover's been blown, Dana," Rico said matter-of-factly. "You think that the morphers headed our way didn't see Mulder save you? Didn't see you run off with him? It's over, Dana. You can go help Skinner in Greenland. He needs you over there anyway. You probably should have gone sooner. You know that Frohike and I can run things from here." She thrummed her fingers on the armrest. "God damn you to hell, Fox Mulder." He jerked as if stung. "Excuse me?" She shot him a look of such venom that he shriveled inside. "This is all your fault. If it weren't for your lack of balls and your errand boy tactics, I wouldn't be in this situation right now. I'd be pumping Martin Howard like a pro for the latest news, eating a nice dinner, and then I'd get to go home and check up on some new lab trials I came up with this afternoon. Dammit!" "Fine. I apologize for saving your life. It won't happen again," Mulder said caustically. "Maybe I shouldn't have bothered to do the same in Antarctica, either, huh?" Silence enveloped them. She didn't look at him. "That was a low blow, Mulder," she said finally. "So was yours." "Touch." She ran a hand through her hair. "Who was your target tonight?" she asked quietly, as if something had just occurred to her. "I don't -" Realization dawned, and he swallowed around the lump in his throat. "They didn't tell me, exactly. Just a resistance leader that they knew would be at Howard's house tonight. Jesus, Scully --" "You were the target, Dana," Rico interrupted. "=Madre de Dios.= We need to get you out of here, the sooner the better." "Looks that way, doesn't it?" she said tightly. "Well, Mulder, I'm not sure that saving my life counts when you would have been the one to kill me in the first place." Mulder had no response for that. He just sat there and grimly catalogued all the ways he would murder Strughold if he ever ran into him again. Scully threw him a sour glance, then turned her attention back to Rico. "Are we there yet?" "This is the place," he answered. The car pulled up to a Metro station in a particularly abandoned and seedy section of town. Mulder doubted that even the most desperate scavengers would dare to venture over here. Electricity no longer existed in this devastated part of the city; the only light emanated from the car's headlights and the full moon that shone in the night sky. The gloom and desolation were palpable and unnerving. "You're going to have to stay here for a few days, until we can make overseas arrangements for the both of you," Rico said. "Ari's down there, waiting. I'll get word to her as soon as I can." Mulder opened his car door, but Scully didn't move. "You're not coming back, are you," she said softly to the man in the driver's seat. "I...don't know. I don't think I can risk it," he said. She looked down at her hands, fidgeted with the cloth of her gown for a moment, then, as if worried she might change her mind if she didn't act immediately, she leaned over the front seat and kissed him swiftly on the cheek. "Thank you," Mulder heard her whisper. "For everything." Rico regarded her steadily. "You know I'd do anything for you." She nodded. "I know." The two of them looked at each other a moment more, and a powerful wave of jealousy crashed over Mulder again. Why did this guy have to be so damn good-looking? Scully finally turned to him. "Let's go," she said, gathering her skirt around her, her voice suddenly blanched of emotion, as if she had an on/off switch. Maybe the Colonists had installed one? They exited the car and slowly made their way down the dank, crumbling stairs of the Metro station, reluctantly clinging to the slimy banister in the dark. When they reached the bottom step, they froze. There was nothing but utter blackness in every direction. "Now what?" Mulder whispered. The damp, clammy air chilled him to the bone despite the summer heat, and he had to suppress a shiver. "Just wait," was the calm reply. Seconds later he could make out an old-fashioned torch headed toward them, bobbing in the pool of black. "Identify yourself," a loud, gravelly female voice commanded. "Daphne and Apollo," Scully said, apparently invoking some sort of predetermined code. "Dana?" The torch came closer until they could actually see its bearer, a tall, olive-skinned woman with acne scars, whose ebony hair melted into the darkness around her. Mulder guessed her to be late 30s, of Greek descent. Her dark eyes had a cold, distrustful edge to them that was all too common these days. And at the moment, that distrust was aimed squarely at him. "Who's he?" she asked with a jerk of her head. "Where's Rico?" "Rico's gone back to headquarters to put an overseas package together for us," Scully said. "It's time for Operation Hippolyta. Unfortunately." "What?" The woman really gave Mulder the evil eye now. "It's his fault, isn't it. Is this Fox Mulder?" "The pleasure's all mine," Mulder said dryly, resenting the disdain in her expression, yet at the same time wondering just what kind of horror stories Scully had told her about him that he merited such a reputation. "Mulder's coming with me," Scully said. Mulder looked down at her, mildly surprised that she had just assumed. Not that she was wrong, of course. In spite of the horror of her near-death and the hurried action they were now taking, he found himself thrilled beyond reckoning: Finally, with Scully. For good. Where he belonged. The woman looked him up and down again, then forced a small smile. "In that case, welcome aboard, Mr. Mulder. Any friend of Dana's is to be trusted, I'm sure. You can call me Ari." She extended her hand and he shook it, noting the hard calluses on her hands. He wondered if she had spent time in an alien labor camp before hooking up with Scully. "Just Mulder, please. It's good to meet you, Ari." "Ari is a former military scientist and a munitions expert of the highest order," Scully informed him. "She and her resourcefulness have saved our hides on numerous occasions. She helped develop the Kitovas bullet." Mulder started in surprise. The Kitovas bullet was the only projectile developed by humans that was capable of penetrating the Colonists' body armor. It was his turn to look her up and down. "So you're -- " "Ariadne Kitovas, yes. Now, if you'll follow me..." She turned and headed back into the darkness. Mulder and Scully kept as close to her as possible so as to not get lost in the gloom. When he reached out for Scully's hand in the dark, he was relieved that she didn't pull away. Dana gripped Mulder's hand tightly and bit back the scream that hovered on the edge of her throat. It was like some sort of waking nightmare, having to so abruptly leave behind her home - such as it was; her friends - such as they were -- Rico, Frohike...her work... She'd always known this was a very real possibility, but she'd hoped she'd at least have some warning beforehand. She wondered if there was any way that Rico would be able to get some of her personal belongings to her before she had to leave. She knew that he would if it were at all possible. It was staggering, actually, how much the thought of leaving Rico behind hurt. She'd thought herself closed off sufficiently that these things wouldn't affect her any longer. But, if she were to be honest with herself, she knew full well why she was so easily moved these days. Knew what had happened to make her vulnerable to emotions and sadness once more. In their one night together Mulder had unlocked things that she had kept buried deep inside of her for a long time. She didn't know whether to be resentful or grateful for it. She was still angry with him, angry with the situation, but at the same time had to keep reminding herself that his presence here was not a dream or a particularly vivid fantasy. It was all excruciatingly confusing. "We're here." Ari's alto voice snapped her back to reality seconds before they turned the corner and were greeted by a bath of electric light. She blinked against the brightness after the utter dark and felt Mulder's hand reluctantly leave hers. Somehow they'd managed to get the emergency lights in the tunnels working. Yellow lighting illuminated the derelict Metro station with an unearthly glow, casting strange shadows on the peeling, outdated advertisements and making the neglected turnstiles gleam. "Where is everyone?" "We have to go into the tunnel," Ari explained. "We've got a camp set up back there, plus there are all of these abandoned switch stations and service rooms that we've managed to make into livable rooms of a sort. It's a regular home away from home." She snorted in disgust. "Come on, follow me." She squatted at the edge of the platform, then jumped down, her torch blazing. "Careful not to touch the third rail. We're not sure how active it still is, but better safe than sorry." Mulder and Dana followed suit, though Dana had to hold her high heels in her hand before doing so. Ari let out a harsh laugh. "We've got extra shoes back there, I think. And some non-white clothing so you can dress like us commoners. If you want to, that is." "If I never wear white again, it'll be too soon," Dana muttered under her breath as she slipped her shoes back on her feet. She glanced at Mulder, and realized what a study in contrasts they must make: her petite, light form robed in white; his tall, dark form clothed all in black. She also realized that he was staring at her. "Light and dark," he whispered. Damn him for being a mind-reader. They trudged their way through the tunnels, Dana trying not to stumble as her heels caught on slime and sludge and god knew what else. Ari made her way forward swiftly, unerringly, and Dana wondered just how long the older woman had been cooped up down here. The members of her group tended to rotate locations; she wasn't sure when Ari had left Baltimore to come here. They'd lost touch once Ari had gone underground; Rico tended to handle communications from that point. It was only a few minutes before they reached a spacious clearing nestled in between two sets of tracks. A camp of sorts had been constructed with care: army-issue tents, battery-operated lanterns, even a portable grill or two. An old-fashioned tape player emitted the lonely sounds of a vintage Billy Joel tune. Men and women moved about quietly, speaking softly to each other, cleaning their weapons, playing cards around one of the lanterns. At the sound of the trio's approach they all sprang to attention, guns at the ready. "It's just us," Ari called out immediately, putting them at ease. Guns were lowered to the ground and half-hearted greetings carried over to them across the fetid air. When they reached the heart of the camp itself, a cluster of people quickly formed around them. Dana could hear her name being passed around from one set of lips to another. "Yes, it's me," she said loudly, cutting off any further speculation. Glances were exchanged among them, and she wondered if she lived up to whatever unrealistic expectations they may have had. She gazed back at them in return, looking them over appraisingly. Ragtag seemed to have been invented with this group in mind. She counted ten men and eight women of various races and backgrounds, dressed in jeans and faded flannel, with limp hair and dirty fingernails. "I'm afraid that I don't know most of you, although I do recognize some friendly faces." She tried to smile, to look optimistic. Tried to remember what it was like talking to people who had no hidden agendas. "I wasn't planning on having to come here tonight, but plans changed," she continued. She gestured to Mulder. "This is Fox Mulder." At that, surprised murmuring struck up among them once more. Mulder probably would have been horrified to know that, through no doing of hers, his name had become legendary among the underground, on the scale of King Arthur; they'd latched on to him as the martyr who would one day come back to save them all. If only they knew the truth, she thought acidly. "He's going to be staying with me...with us, until Rico secures passage for us both to Greenland. I'm going to have to join Hermes and continue my work from there," she said, invoking Skinner's code name, as not everyone was allowed to know the name of the man spearheading the international resistance movement. "I...look forward to getting to know all of you until then," she lied. She had nothing else to say to these people. Speech over, she looked to Ari for further instruction, feeling strangely out of control. Ari took up the cue like the professional she was. "Okay people, as you were. Keisha?" A young black woman in the front of the gathered crowd nodded. "I'm going to be bunking in your tent tonight so these two can have my quarters in the station room." "Ari, I wouldn't think of putting you out --" Dana began. "Dana, no arguments. It's the least I can do for you, isn't it?" Dana recognized the look in the woman's eyes, the same look she got so often from Rico, the look she had received from Harrison Fields just a few hours earlier. There was no point in arguing with the faithful. "Thank you," she said instead. Ari tossed off a casual salute. "Follow me." She led them toward a grimy metal door built into one side of the tunnel, labeled "Supply Station" in stenciled lettering. "This used to be a utility closet of sorts for the Metro construction crews," Ari explained as she opened the door and went inside. "We cleaned out all the equipment and managed to make it somewhat livable. Even scrounged some useful tools for ourselves in the process." She pulled on a cord and a naked bulb lit up the tiny space. Dana tried not to turn up her nose at the sight that greeted them. A lumpy cot was shoved in one corner; the rest of the room was taken up with a metal filing cabinet, assorted munitions, maps, a couple cases of vitamin shakes, and a tiny ice cooler. "Home sweet home," Ari said, grimacing, realizing how it must look to someone like Dana. "It's perfect," Dana lied. "Thanks again." "No problem. You guys hungry, want something to eat?" Dana glanced up at Mulder, who nodded. "Anything you have would be great," she told the other woman. "Canned stuff, mostly, but it's edible. I'll be back in a minute. I'll bring you some clothes, too, Dana," she said. Silence enveloped them once Ari had left. Mulder, who had been uncharacteristically quiet through all of this, finally spoke. "I'm sorry." Dana blinked, taken aback for a moment, but she recovered quickly. "For what? For tonight? For screwing up my plans and my life? Well, you should be." He scuffed his shoes on the cement floor. "This was going to be my last job," he said quietly. "I'd planned to come to you right after. I'd made up my mind to take my chances and be with you." That did stop her cold. "Even though they'd threatened me?" He shrugged, unable to look at her. "I thought that maybe I'd be able to protect you, if I was with you." "Well, you've done a bang-up job so far," she said snidely. He headed for the door. "Look, I'm just going to go crash with one of those guys out there tonight, okay?" "Mulder, don't." He hesitated, his hand hovering over the knob. "I...I don't want you to go." Such an effort it was to admit it. "Scully --" He was cut off by the reappearance of Ari, who was laden down with a tray of food. Mulder took it from her so that she could hand the clothes draped over her arm to Dana. "Here. They're Keisha's. She's the shortest one here, so hopefully they'll fit." Dana rolled her eyes. "Thanks." She looked down at the clothes. Jeans. When was the last time she had worn jeans? "I'm sure they'll be fine. Please thank Keisha for me." "We're all happy to help," Ari assured her. "Sleep well." And then she was gone once more. Mulder put the tray down on the floor, sat cross-legged in front of it. "Well, it's better than the stuff I usually make for myself," he said, obviously trying to lighten the mood. "Marita doesn't cook for you?" she bit out before she could stop herself. The wounded look in his eyes chastened her. "Forget it," she murmured. She looked down at the tray, which was filled with heated canned ravioli, some canned carrots, and bottled water for both of them. "We're lucky to have anything," she said, trying to conceal her dismay at the paltry, tasteless food she'd be eating for dinner tonight instead of a full course meal at Howard's. She stood up and pulled her formal gown up over her head, then shook out the jeans and t-shirt. "I know," she heard him say, followed by a quick intake of breath. Oh. She hadn't thought to be modest, but realized in retrospect she probably should have, considering the tension between them. Too late now. She pulled on Keisha's clothes, then turned to see him staring at her, the gleam of desire all too evident in his eyes. She felt something pulse in her abdomen in response. "Let's eat," she said, pulling her eyes from his and sitting down across from him. To be continued. "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 5/13 All info in part one. Feedback: Dianora2@aol.com Mulder tried with every shred of will and mental trick he had in his arsenal to make his hard-on go back down. The sight of Scully wearing nothing but a white lacy bra and underpants had nearly been enough to send him right over the edge. He was becoming increasingly annoyed with and disturbed by her behavior, but that didn't negate the fact that he still wanted her desperately. He wished it did. He tried to focus instead on his food. He was so hungry that Chef Boyardee tasted like gourmet fare right about now. He looked at Scully askance, saw that she was having a rougher go of it. Probably a lot more pedestrian than what she was used to being served up at the manor. He wisely kept the thought to himself. They ate in silence, neither of them knowing what to say, where to begin. Mulder was embarrassed, hurt, and confused, and didn't know how to make her understand what he was going through or where he was coming from. Everything had seemed so much simpler a few hours ago. When they finished eating, he pushed the tray aside and looked at her. "We really need to talk," he said finally. He fished in his pockets for a Marlboro and his lighter, then lit up and inhaled deeply. "I know." She raised an eyebrow at him. "Do you have to do that in here?" He glared at her. What the hell difference was one quick smoke going to make? He took a couple of more deep drags, ignoring her stony expression, then stubbed it out on the tray. What he really wanted was a stiff drink, but somehow he didn't think Ari had stocked the mini-bar. He looked back at Scully, who was obviously waiting for him to go first. A snide remark sprang to mind, but he suppressed it. What came out instead was, "I don't know who you are any more, Scully." It wasn't what he had meant to say, but once the words left his mouth he realized it was what had been preoccupying him ever since that night in her bedroom. This new Scully scared him, discomfited him, even intimidated him, and he didn't like it. Scully had always been strong-willed and courageous, and often emotionally distant, but never this hard and cold. The words hung in the air between them as Scully visibly scrambled for a response. "A lot has happened in the past three years," she said in a frighteningly neutral tone of voice. "I've had to make some changes to survive. To get by." She met his eyes. "If I hadn't, I probably would have killed myself by now." The words were a knife in his heart. "The thought that you were alive somewhere was the only thing that kept me from doing the same," he said honestly. "Mulder..." She stood up and walked away from him, hugging herself forlornly. The gesture made her look surprisingly girlish, and reminded him with a start that she was in fact a few years younger than he was. "How am I supposed to respond to that?" she asked, with her back to him. "I hate it when you say things like that. It's not my responsibility if you've decided that I'm your only reason for living. I didn't ask for it. I don't even want it." She paused, and when she spoke again her voice was rough with emotion. "It's too much to ask of me, especially after all that's happened." "I've never asked anything of you, Scully," he said, struggling to understand. There was a long, long silence. Then: "Maybe that's the problem," she said, and sniffled loudly. "Maybe you should have. Or maybe I should have asked more of you. Maybe then you would have found a way to be with me, instead of abandoning me to this life that the Colonists have forced upon me." So that was the heart of the matter. "I thought I was doing the right thing. The one thing that would keep you alive," he said earnestly. "I thought... you were always the strong one. I knew that you could go on without me." "And I have." She turned back to him, finally, and her eyes were glacier cold. "Is that what bothers you, Mulder? The fact that I have carved something of a life for myself out of this hellhole, that I've found meaning and purpose, even though I didn't have you to lead the way?" "That's not what bothers me at all," he said quietly. "What bothers me is that you've let this life turn you from a compassionate, courageous, inspiring woman into an unfeeling, megalomaniacal, self-centered bitch." His words took a moment to sink in, and when they did, her face contorted with rage. "How dare you speak to me that way!" she seethed. "Don't you know who you're talking to? You're talking to a Moth-- A -- Oh god." She brought her hands up to her face, touched herself as if trying to remember who she was. "Oh god." She gasped for air, fell down onto the cot, buried her face in her hands, and started sobbing. "Jesus, Scully." Dana Scully, emotional roller coaster. Who knew? He got up and sat down next to her on the cot and took her into his arms. She cried into his chest, soaking his t-shirt, as he kissed the top of her head and whispered meaningless reassurances. "Shh. It's okay. It's okay. Just let it out." He could feel tears pricking his own eyes, and made no move to check them. She cried for a short while longer, clinging to him, until her heaving shoulders subsided and she was able to take deep, shuddering breaths. He left her long enough to pluck a napkin from their food tray, then went back to holding her while she blew her nose and wiped her tears. "I'm so embarrassed," she whispered, not looking at him. He caressed her cheek with his thumb. "You know you never have to be embarrassed in front of me. Besides, you needed that, I think." "Maybe I did." She pulled back from his embrace, still having trouble meeting his eyes. "I can't even remember the last time I cried." "I'm not surprised. Look, I'm sorry, about what I said before. I was out of line." She shook her head. "No, you weren't. Everything you said is true. I've become so used to being this... figurehead. I'm not sure that I even know who I am any more. It's not a comfortable realization." "You're not the only one in need of some soul searching," he told her after a pause. "I've been my own personal punching bag for a long time now. Scully, you've done so much on your own, and I...I fell apart without you. Just like they always knew I would." "We've all done some things we're not proud of," Scully said lowly. "Me more than most," he insisted. "But I do feel that, deep down inside, I'm still the same person I was three years ago. That may be nothing more than self-delusion, but I hope it's true. Can you say the same?" She didn't answer him for a long time. "I don't know. You're the only person around who really knew me, before. Why don't you tell me?" "Why don't you let me find out?" He grabbed her hands and leaned in closer to her, trying to force her to meet his eyes. "Let me in, Scully," he entreated. He reflected that the last time they had been together he had fucked her thoroughly; tonight he wanted nothing more than to make love to her. Needed to, in order to break through the walls she had so assiduously constructed around her heart. She looked up at him, and her gaze locked onto his. She seemed to be searching his eyes for the man she once knew, and he tried his hardest to convey to her that he was still the same man who had once been her partner and closest friend. That he still cared for her. Loved her hopelessly. And that that would never, ever change. Finally, something like recognition flickered in her stare. She drew in a ragged breath and reached up to trace the line of his jaw bone. "Mulder..." He breathed a sigh of relief. Perhaps there was hope for her after all. He placed one hand on the back of her neck and lowered his lips to hers for a soft, tender kiss. Her mouth worked gently beneath his with surprising delicacy. He didn't push her, just moved his mouth softly against hers, tracing her lips with his tongue, drinking her in. He smoothed her hair beneath his fingers with something akin to reverence. She leaned into him, pressing her body up against him, and her hands tangled in the hair at the nape of his neck. She felt so fragile and small that he was suddenly possessed with an irrational urge to hold her close and protect her, even though she was probably the last person who needed someone else to watch out for her. Although, he reflected, perhaps she did. Perhaps she needed protection against herself. He certainly knew that feeling all too well. He moved his lips from her mouth to her cheek, her nose, her forehead, her temples, showering her with kisses, each one a declaration of love that he couldn't bring himself to voice. She let out a breathy sigh and nuzzled against him. His mouth traveled down to her neck, nipping at the sensitive skin there, making her hiss in his ear. He helped her pull her shirt over her head, followed by her bra, pants, underwear, until she lay naked on the cot, looking up at him in anticipation as he quickly stood up and divested himself of his own clothing. When he was finished he settled himself against her, groaning contentedly when she embraced him and kneaded the muscles of his back with her skillful hands. "You know just what to do to drive me crazy, you know that?" he whispered in her ear, and was rewarded by a low chuckle. He palmed one full breast, loving the fullness of it against his hand, and when she arched up against him he took it as an invitation to lower his mouth to the beckoning coral nipple. He tongued it lazily, suckling and teasing until he heard her whimper above him. Instead of letting up he moved to the other breast, giving it equal attention, worrying the nipple with his teeth, swirling his tongue against it as her moans increased in intensity and volume. He felt consumed by the need to love every last inch of her, to revive the Scully he knew, to bring her back to life with his hands and his mouth. And so he swept his lips down the valley between her breasts, over her abdomen, her belly, her navel. He nipped at her hipbones, cupped the swell of her exquisite buttocks beneath his hands. He meandered down her legs with his tongue, tasting the salt behind her knees, lavishing his devotion on her ankles, even her toes, then heading back up again to her thighs, the whole time being driven half-mad by her continued wordless entreaties and undulations. When he finally placed his mouth between her thighs, she gasped in surprise and pleasure, then spread her legs farther apart for him and buried her fingers in his hair. He traced the folds of her flesh with his tongue, sucked on her core, flickered his tongue in and out of her, reveling in the smoky taste he found there. "So long...I forgot...what this was like," she whispered as she squeezed his head with her thighs. He responded by reaching up to her knead her breasts and increasing the tempo of his working tongue, lapping at her, the wet sounds of his ministrations filling the room along with her continued moans. Her hips began to gently rise and fall as she ground herself into him, still holding on to his hair for dear life, until finally orgasm overtook her, and she let out a series of short, sharp shrieks and bucked against him uncontrollably. He kept his mouth there, riding the crest with her, until the pinnacle had passed; then he pulled himself up and entered her in one swift motion before her spasms had stopped completely. She closed around him a couple of more times and he forced himself to stay still, wrapped inside that exquisitely hot, tight, wetness, as he waited for her to subside completely, even though he thought it might kill him to wait any longer. When he was satisfied that she had fully come back to herself, he moved in and out of her once with infinite slowness, groaning at the sweet friction. "Oh..." She gasped and pulled her legs up, urging him to go deeper inside of her. In response he thrust in and out of her again, harder this time, gratified by her answering throaty moan. Then he began to build a slow, steady rhythm, pumping into her, exhaling her name on each movement of his hips. She urged him on, matching her movements to his, clutching his ass and rising up to meet him again and again in perfect synchrony, as if they were partners in a rehearsed dance. When he looked down at her he saw that despite her obvious pleasure she was watching him intently with haunted blue eyes, as if she was afraid he would suddenly disappear in a cloud of smoke. He speeded up his thrusts and began talking to her breathlessly, nonstop, reassuring her that she wasn't imagining things. "Yes, Scully, I'm here, I'm yours, always and always and god you feel so good I've dreamed about this for so long you don't know what you're doing to me Scully Scully Scully god --" "Mulder..." She moaned and moved her hands up his back, digging her nails into his flesh, lifting her head up to bite at his shoulder, mixing pleasure with pain and oh Jesus she was killing him... And then finally she started coming again, clamping around him and crying his name, and almost immediately he let himself go too, gushing into her with a guttural moan and blissful release. He collapsed on top of her, staying inside of her until they both stopped shaking. Then he gently withdrew and wrapped her in his arms, placing kiss after kiss on her temple. "Okay, I think now I'm convinced that you're still my Scully," he said lightly. She let out a strangled sound somewhere between a laugh and a sob. "I'm glad one of us is." She buried her face in his chest, placing tiny kisses in the hair there. "Just hold me, Mulder. I don't want to think about anything but this right now." "Okay." He ran his fingers lightly up and down her arm, entwined his legs with hers. "It's you and me now, Scully. You and me." "You and me," she whispered. To be continued. "Portions of Eternity" by Dianora 6/13 All info in part one. Feedback: Write me at Dianora2@aol.com. Scully woke to darkness, although that didn't mean anything considering that there were no windows in their makeshift bedroom. She tried to eye Mulder's watch, which was on the wrist of the hand that was currently laid across her abdomen, but her eyes couldn't decipher it in the darkness. Mulder shifted in his sleep, his arm snaking across her waist, his head snuggling into the crook of her neck. She smiled wistfully at him. He had broken through so many walls last night, had come so close to healing her with his touch, his warmth, and, yes, even his love - unspoken, but obvious nonetheless. But she knew things couldn't be put to rights quite so easily. They both still had a long way to go. She did, however, feel more at ease than she had in a long time, despite the seriousness of their situation. Going to Greenland had not been part of her immediate plan, but it was a workable solution to a problem. Her research, her work, could continue in Greenland. And now, she'd have Mulder beside her. It wouldn't be so bad. Would it? She kissed his soft brown hair tenderly and traced feathery circles on his shoulder as he slept. It was beyond strange to have been separated from him for so long, and then to immediately advance to a stage in their relationship they had been too scared to consider in their life before. They hadn't had time to ease back into their old friendship. Not that she was complaining; it was just...odd. In a good way. A very, very good way. She closed her eyes and luxuriated in the sensual memory. He startled her by twitching against her, then waking abruptly, sitting up in bed with combat reflexes. "Hey, you okay?" she asked, rubbing his back. "Yeah. I think I was having a dream. Don't remember it though." He yawned and lay back down beside her. "What time is it?" "I have no idea. I tried to read your watch, but it's too dark." "Well, then..." He began stroking her hip under the covers, and she could feel his hardness pressing against her. She let out a low chuckle. "You're insatiable." "We'll see." He lowered his mouth to hers and kissed her deeply, heedless of anything as mundane as morning breath, and she returned the kiss, placing her hand on the back of his neck and pulling him even closer. Her body responded immediately, arching up against him as if of its own volition. His hands were warm and rough against her flesh, his touch dexterous, and this time when they made love it was quieter, gentler, with a sweet intensity that left them both breathless. They had barely started thinking coherently again when there was a knock on the door. "Rise and shine," came Ari's voice faintly through the thick metal. Scully cleared her throat. "We're up!" she yelled. Mulder snickered. "In a manner of speaking, anyway." She elbowed him in reproof. "We probably gave the whole camp a great concert last night," she realized with a groan. "Don't worry, Scully, you weren't =that= loud," Mulder ribbed her. She raised an eyebrow at him. "Look who's talking. The human foghorn." She ran a hand through her unkempt hair and suddenly grinned. It felt so ridiculously good to just joke around with him. She'd forgotten how much she'd missed it. "Think they have some kind of shower set up down here?" he wondered, scratching his belly absentmindedly. "Good question. I bet they've rigged something up." Scully eased herself out of bed and began pulling on her clothes - make that Keisha's clothes - from the night before, conscious that Mulder was watching her as she did so. It didn't make her uncomfortable as it did last night; in fact, she had to admit to herself that she liked it, just a little. "I'm going to go see if I can help out or something," she told him. He nodded, rubbing his eyes. "I'll be there soon." Scully opened the door and stepped out into the tunnel, which was already abuzz with activity. The smell of bacon -- bacon! -- assaulted her nostrils, making her stomach growl. She made a pit stop at the portable toilet they'd stolen from god knew where, and headed over to where Keisha was manning a portable grill that she had plugged into a battery pack. In addition to the fragrant bacon, a couple of pancakes were bubbling on the hot surface. "It smells wonderful," Scully said by way of greeting. Keisha flashed her a smile. "It's not fancy, but it tastes good enough. These are the easy pancakes - just add water to the mix. Perfect when you don't have many ingredients to choose from." Scully tugged on her t-shirt, uneasy all of a sudden. She had become a master of meaningless idle conversation over the past three years, but she was at a loss as to how to make a simple human connection. "I wanted to thank you for the clothes, Keisha. Especially since I don't believe we've met." Keisha shot her a look that Scully couldn't quite read. "Of course I know who you are, Dr. Scully." Scully stiffened; but reminded herself that the girl probably didn't mean anything by her statement. Not everyone is out to get you, Dana. "In that case, you should know to call me Dana." Scully studied the woman carefully; her coffee-colored skin was smooth and unlined, and her hair was cut super close to her scalp, whether out of practicality or preference she didn't know. She was stunning, and could have been a model in the time before; Scully realized that she was also very young - 22, 23 at the most. "How did you wind up down here, Keisha?" she asked abruptly, then made an effort to soften her approach. "If you don't mind my asking, that is." Keisha shrugged. "I'm one of the lucky ones -- naturally immune to the virus. When I got stung, the day they released the bees, I shut myself up in my apartment, got real sick for a few days, then just got better. 'Course, by the time I had, everyone I knew was gone, either dead or...taken away." She paused, and Scully could see the young woman was fighting back tears at the memory. "I didn't know what to do. Everything was in chaos, remember? Everyone who got stung was being rounded up by the slimies, and everyone who didn't get stung was being shot down in the streets. I had nowhere to turn...I lived in the back alleys for a while, became a real talent at scavenging. Did that for two years. And then, one day, I ran into Rico, who was out on one of his famous 'scouting parties.'" She smiled, and Scully couldn't help but smile back at the affection in the other woman's voice. "He took me to a camp, just like this one, and I...made myself useful, I guess. Just like everyone else is doing. I've been at this camp with Ari for two months now. It sure beats the mines or the farms or god knows what else, right?" She looked to Scully for confirmation. "Of course it does," she said uneasily. She paused, considered her next words carefully. "Keisha? Would you mind if I had someone draw a blood sample from you? Since you're naturally immune, it occurs to me that there may be something in your blood that could help us to develop a bio-weapon that's poisonous to the aliens. I've never been lucky enough to meet someone who's naturally immune before." She realized how much of an effort it was for her to be polite; phrasing it as a request, not an order. "We are pretty rare," Keisha admitted, oblivious to Scully's internal conflict. She thought for a moment, flipping over the bacon, which sizzled and popped on the grill. "Yeah, okay. I'll give up a pint, if you think it would help." "Thank you," she said. And was pleased to discover that the phrase did not feel completely foreign on her tongue. Mulder flagged down the first guy he saw when he stepped into the tunnel, and asked about bathing facilities. Although the man in question didn't appear to use them too much himself, he explained that there was a locker room with showers back by the entrance to the tunnel that had apparently been used by transit personnel. After snagging a flashlight and wishing for sunflower seeds to leave as a trail of bread crumbs, but settling for having a smoke instead, Mulder set off in search of the promised showers. The rusty, moldy facilities were hardly the Ritz, but he'd experienced worse at the Y. Damp and somewhat refreshed, he headed back to the camp. He spotted Scully sitting apart from the others, perched precariously atop an overturned pail of some kind. She looked uncomfortable, glancing at the men and women around her, but hesitant to engage them in conversation. Having trouble relating to the little people, huh, Scully? As if hearing his thought, Scully looked up and saw him, and when she gave him a bright smile his heart skipped a beat. She appeared to be almost happy. Amazing that he had anything to do with it. He went over to her, fighting the sudden absurd urge to gather her up in his arms and spin her around. "Hey," he said softly, crouching down beside her. "Hey." Her brow crinkled. "You showered already?" "Why didn't you?" "I got lured in by the bacon smell," she said, grinning. She reached up and smoothed his damp hair. "If you're smart, Dana, you'll eat now, then hop in the shower while everyone else is eating," said the petite black woman who was standing at the grill and piling bacon onto a plate. Keisha, Mulder's memory supplied. "Um, okay. Thanks." She polished off the rest of her breakfast while Mulder snatched himself a plate as his stomach rumbled a symphony. He was skeptical that the food would taste any good in the rank air of the tunnel, but was relieved to discover that he was wrong. It tasted great - as great as instant pancakes could taste, anyway. When other members of the group started to file over to Keisha and grab food for themselves, Scully stood and picked up Mulder's borrowed flashlight. "Shower time for me." Mulder nodded, reflecting that now might be a good opportunity to bring himself up to speed around here, without Scully there to see just how out of the loop he really was. With that in mind, he sought out Ari, who was seated on a milk crate and lovingly cleaning her gun next to the light of a battery lamp. "Morning." She glanced up at him. "Morning. Sleep well?" Her gaze was steady; Mulder couldn't tell if she actually had been able to hear the two of them last night, after all. "Slept great. Thanks again for letting us use your space." Ari shrugged. "Don't thank me. Dana's our leader, she gets the top spot. It's that simple." "How long have you known Scully?" he asked. He glanced down at the ground, mentally debated sitting in the dirt, then figured what the hell. He eased himself down, careful not to spill the contents of his plate, and was grateful to find the ground didn't feel quite as disgusting against his butt as he'd feared. She threw him a look. "Since she cured me," she responded. So he had been right about the reverence he saw in Ari's eyes when she looked at Scully. "She means a lot to you, doesn't she." "She saved my life," she said curtly, as if that more than answered the question; which, Mulder supposed, it probably did. Ari started rubbing down the barrel of her weapon. "And what about you, Mulder? How much does she mean to you?" Oh boy. Mulder recognized a protective tone of voice when he heard one. He considered and rejected half a dozen responses, then found himself blurting out the truth. "She means more to me than anything else on this planet. More than my own life." "Good. Because she just may ask it of you." God, Scully, who the hell are you, now? Shit. He decided to ignore Ari's cryptic response, and got down to business. "So what are you all doing down here? How is this helping the resistance?" She snorted. "You don't know how we work? What have you been doing the past few years, sitting on your ass?" Mulder blanched. "I've been in Denver," he said carefully. "Things are different over there." Thankfully, she seemed to accept that explanation at face value. "We're jacks- of-all-trades around here, mostly. We do what needs to be done, whatever Dana or Rico or whoever asks us to do. Scavenging, supply runs, the occasional ambush or raid on a Colonist facility. It may not seem like much when you look at it on a case by case basis, but when you add it all up, we make a difference." "So we have you to think for the bacon?" he asked. She allowed herself a small grin. "That was Frank's coup. There are a lot of abandoned grocery stores in the area, if you know where to look. Found the bacon in the deep freeze. He made a killing that day -- all sorts of stuff we wouldn't normally be able to get our hands on. Have to eat it all fast, though, so it won't spoil. Not that that seems to be a problem around here. Especially since it's very, very rare that we get anything this good." "I'll bet. So when's the next raid?" Ari narrowed her eyes at him. "Why do you want to know?" He shrugged, uncomfortable at his obvious neophyte status. "Scully and I might be here a couple of days, so if you have something planned, I'd like to help." She looked at him like he was a rare and repulsive insect under a microscope. "There's nothing in the works, but if that changes, I'll be sure to let you know," she said warily. He nodded, still feeling like an idiot. She worked in silence for a few minutes while he tried to think of something else to say. "You call her Scully?" His head jerked up at the unexpected question. "Uh, yeah, always have, since we were first partners. Why?" "I called her that once. I call people by their last names a lot, it's a holdover from being in the military. Anyway, when I called her Scully she damn near bit my head off. Told me never to call her that. I guess now I know why." "Oh." Mulder wasn't sure how he was supposed to respond to that. Had the memories of him truly been that painful, that she wanted no reminders whatsoever? He squirmed at the thought. "She...she doesn't seem to mind it now," he said finally. "Not from you anyway. Well, I've always thought that Dana just needed to get laid to loosen her up a bit. Guess you proved me right, huh?" Ari snickered at Mulder's mortified expression. "Hey, don't worry about it, we're all adults here." "Could have fooled me," he muttered. "No fair having fun at Mulder's expense without me," came a throaty voice from behind them. He looked up to see Scully wringing out her wet hair. Still more than a little damp from the shower, her shirt clung to her in a way that Mulder was sure could win any wet t-shirt contest. He did his best not to stare. "No fair making rules like that when it's so easy to do," Ari riposted. The corners of Scully's mouth turned up slightly; then she abruptly turned serious, as if she felt guilty about the levity. "I wonder if we'll hear from Rico today." Ari shook her head. "I wouldn't count on it. These things take time, Dana. You know that. Fake traveling papers, safe passage, a clear time window -- that's going to be a while setting up, even with Frohike's help." Scully sighed and stepped closer to Mulder, placing her hand on his shoulder. "You're right. I just hate the thought of wasting any time. Especially now. I really think we're getting close to developing an effective bio-weapon." "Good," Ari said grimly. "The sooner we rid Earth of the slimies, the better." "Also, I could use a pen and some paper," Scully said thoughtfully. "I came up with a thought for a new lab trial while I was in the shower, based on the blood work we're going to do on Keisha's sample. I'd like to get the information to Dr. Fields as soon as possible. Most importantly, I need to get a syringe and a test tube so that I can get Keisha's blood back to him." "You want it, you got it," Ari said automatically, making a mental note. "What's so special about Keisha's blood?" Mulder asked. "She's naturally immune to the drone virus," Scully explained. "I'm hoping -- I'm betting, in fact -- that there will be something in her blood work that will help us understand why. And maybe that information can help us develop a virus to work against the Colonists." "Great. I'll get Frank started on the medical supply mission," Ari said, getting up and placing her gun carefully down on the milk crate. And then she was gone. That woman makes the fastest exits and entrances I've ever seen, Mulder mused. He looked up at Scully, whose brow was furrowed with worry. "So what now?" he asked. "Now we wait." To be continued.