From: Angel <turmoil04@yahoo.com>
Date: Tue, 7 Jan 2003 16:04:02 -0800 (PST)
Subject: Priorities
Source: direct

Title: Priorities
Author: Angel LeeAnn
Rating: 'PG-13'-borderline-'R'
Category: MSR/Angst
Keyword(s): Present and Pre-XF 
Spoiler(s): Bits and Pieces
Summary: A woman from Mulder's past brings with her
painful memories, along with strain to Mulder and
Scully's marriage.  Then when William is an accident,
Mulder must make a difficult decision: learn the truth
or go to his injured son. 


Disclaimer: Nope, none of the characters you recognize
belong to me.  I know: it's heartbreaking.  However,
they are the creation of Chris Carter and his crew.  I
am not making money off of this or any other story.

*** TIMELINE: Seasons 8 and 9 are scratched out of my
world.  Also, Requiem occurred, but our darling agent
was NOT abducted.  AND EMILY NEVER EXISTED! 
(Personally, I thought Christmas Carol/Emily was a bit
too much.)

You can email me at turmoil04@yahoo.com


PRESENT
31 October
Mulder Residence
Richmond, Virginia
6:13PM

"Oh come on.  He's eighteen months.  I don't think we
should destroy his life this early."  Dana
Scully-Mulder bent down and scooped up the toys that
had mysteriously gotten from the nursery to the
kitchen floor.  "He's to young to Trick-or-Treat. 
He'll be scared to death by the ghosts, goblins, and
witches wandering around."

Fox Mulder gave his son a conspiratorial glance before
focusing once more on his wife.  "I think we should
leave it up to him.  Besides, we should teach him that
he gains privileges when he is well behaved.  And
today he was a real charmer."

Dana snorted.  One of the toys slipped out of her
grasp and crashed to the hardwood floor.  "Yeah, I'll
say.  He already has the cashier melting over him --
which benefits you in the long run.  I saw how she
slid her number into your hand with your change.  It
was as though she didn't even see me standing there
with the twenty-pound diaper bag dangling at my side."

"How about we compromise?  I'll take him out once
around the neighborhood - " at her start of a protest,
he quickly recanted " -- once around the block.  Then
we'll call it a night.  Come on, partner, humor me."

She sighed, kicking the dropped toy out of the kitchen
into the living room.  "He can't even eat half the
stuff they'll hand out."

"I *know* that, Dana."  He heaved the baby out of his
highchair.  "That's the point.  *I* get to have
whatever *he* can't!"  He nuzzled William's stomach
with his nose.  "Doesn't that sound like a deal, bud? 
You, me, and a bag of candy to share; we can label it
as bonding."

"I think you can find a more suitable way to bond with
your son."  Dana left the kitchen, calling over her
shoulder.  "Besides, since it's Friday night, wouldn't
you rather be 'bonding' with me until the wee hours of
the morning?  I promise to make it worthwhile, G-man."

Mulder stared down at William.  "I got to say, bud,
your mom's preposition sounds enticing.  What do you
say you go to your grandma's tonight?  We'll buy a bag
of assorted candy when we pick you up tomorrow."

"Gamma!"

"Yeah!  How exciting, uh?"  Mulder tickled the baby's
side.  "You know you want to wreck havoc in her
kitchen.  You have so much fun with pots and pans."

William squirmed to escape his father's fingers, his
laughter ringing through the house.  Dana heard it
from the upstairs nursery as she rearranged the
stuffed animals.  She smiled as she placed the blue
alien onto the top shelf next too the gray UFO.

At times she still found herself looking in at her
life from the outside.  It was surreal thinking about
how she was now a wife to her partner and the mother
of his child.  When she strolled into his office ten
years ago as green as any new agent and as naïve as a
five-year-old, she never imagined this was how she
would end up.

With these thoughts, she slowly sank to the floor,
hugging herself.  In small ways she wanted her old
self back.  This quest had stolen her identity.  She
no longer was the woman she used to be and in the
process of her change she had grown colder, more
bitter, and closed off.  Of course having William
brought back some of her younger self, but it just
wasn't the same.

This was how Mulder found her after mounting the
stairs with William on his shoulders giggling with
delight.  He draped the baby down his arm, twisting
him so he was now cradled in Mulder's left arm. 
"Dana?"  He inched his way closer, glancing at his now
subdued child.

William in turn stared mystified back at him before
gazing wide-eyed with puzzled amazement at Dana. 
"Mamma?"

Dana lifted her head from her hands and peered up at
her two men.  Her boys stared back at her with their
identical hazel eyes.  The only difference between
them was that the father's eyes were shielded; and the
son's eyes were as clear as an innocent baby's could
be.

She combed her fingers through her hair, shakily
rising to her feet.  "Hey, William.  I'm fine."  She
glanced at Mulder, quickly looking away when she saw
the worry crease his brow.  'I'm fine' was a phrase
that Mulder had learned to despise over the years of
their partnership.

"Why don't I get him packed while you give him a
bath," Mulder offered.  They both looked forward to
bath time, but this time he'll let her go it alone --
allow her time with her son so, for awhile at least,
she could brush aside whatever it was that was gnawing
at her.

"Packed?"

"Yep."  He gently placed William on his feet on the
carpeted floor.  The baby staggered over to his
mother, arms wide open for her.  "This little tyke is
slumber partying with Grandma while we have our own
private slumber party."  He wiggled his eyebrows at
her.

She snatched her son in an embrace, smothering him
with kisses.  "Sounds like a marvelous plan."  She
stood and carried him off towards the bathroom. 
Mulder caught her murmuring: "It's ok, baby boy. 
Mommy is here."


PAST
12 December 1973
Launder Memorial Hospital
Martha's Vineyard
8:35PM

He sat blurry eyed in the hospital's cafeteria,
rubbing his exhausted eyes.  It had been a couple
weeks since They came to take his daughter.  'Though
not really my daughter,' he thought bitterly.  'She
doesn't think I know, but I am aware of everything in
her life.'  However, despite the biological
separation, he still considered Samantha his.  

Bill was the one who went out in blistering snowstorms
at three in the morning to satisfy Teena's cravings. 
He was the one who stood by her side as she worked for
seven hours to get the baby out (which was rare at the
time.  Not to many fathers were even allowed in the
delivery room until the 1980s).  He was witness to
Sam's first laugh, steps, words, etc.  He raised her
as though he wasn't conscious of the fact that his
wife had been unfaithful.  

'At least the boy is mine,' he tried to pacify
himself.

The thought of his son tugged at his heart.  He was
transported through time to that awful night when he
found his son frozen in a kneeling position.  Fox's
eyes had been lifeless as he stared without blinking
at the large bay window.  The box that held the pistol
was beside the boy, broken open with its objects
strewn about.  The gun lay close to the child's hand.

Teena had come sprinting in through the front door
behind Bill and, at the sight, let out a blood-curling
scream.  Afraid that by touching Fox she would cause
his fragileness to shatter, she had tentatively
smoothed the boy's hair back, whispering, "Fox, baby,
mommy is here.  I'm here, baby boy."

Bill was torn from his reverie by a clipped voice over
the intercom, "Mr. Bill Mulder, report to your son's
room immediately.  Mr. Mulder, to your son's room."

For a split moment, Bill was thankful that his high
position gave him the ability to be paged over the
intercom.  Yet, he instantly realized that he wouldn't
have needed to be paged to his comatose son's room in
the first place if it wasn't for his job.

Bill leapt out of his seat and out of the cafeteria. 
He raced down the corridor, the coffee splashing his
gray T-shirt.  He collided into an orderly, the
Styrofoam cup crashing to the floor.  Tossing back an
apology, he continued his dash without pause.  Heart
thudding, he skidded to a halt in front of an ICU room
and gazed through the window at the boy hooked to
countless machines.  Beside the child was a weary
woman with her head bowed in prayer.  Her wrenching
sobs violently trembling through her body.

Bill's original burst of adrenaline fled his body and
he found it a struggle to enter the room, cross over
to his wife, and look down at his still son.  However,
summoning up his courage, he managed to do just that.

He peered down at the boy, tears pooling at the
corners of his eyes.  First he lost his baby girl to
Them and now he was faced with loosing his son.  He
wasn't the type to cry, but what kind of father
wouldn't feel the choking of loosing his only two
children?

"Oh, Bill," Teena Mulder mumbled through her tears. 
"It was amazing.  Fox woke up, looked straight at me,
and recognized me."

The breath was knocked out of him.  William Mulder
gazed up at his wife blankly.  "He woke up?"  He
staggered backward into the chair.  "I thought...I
thought...they paged me, but didn't tell me anything.  I
thought...god...I saw you crying and I thought..."

Teena wiped at her eyes, but the downpour persisted. 
"No.  This one you didn't manage to get rid of," she
sneered, her eyes as cold as a blank tombstone.  She
turned away from him and placed her cool hand on her
son's arm.  "It's ok, baby boy," she soothed.  "Mommy
is here."


PRESENT
4 November
J. Edgar Hoover Building
Washington, D.C.
7:02AM

Jostling William, his briefcase, and coffee, Mulder
winded in and out of the stream of people who had
entered before him.  He glanced at his watch and
cursed.

"Damn," William mimicked.

Mulder clamped William's mouth shut, glancing around
to make sure no one else had heard.  "Hush, bud, don't
swear."  He could imagine Dana's reprimand,
'hypocrite.'

He rounded the corner, stepping into the already full
elevator.  A few gave curious glances, but most
ignored Spooky and Junior.  One particularly
interested female behind Mulder leaned over.  "Is he
yours or did you just bring your suspect in for
questioning?"

Mulder chuckled in return, peering back over his
shoulder.  "Oh, he's the most notorious criminal I've
apprehended yet.  I caught him red handed scrawling
with the permanent marker on the white walls."

She gave a throaty laugh, then extended her hand over
his shoulder.  "I'm Agent Carla DeLong from the
Wichita Field Office."

He shook her hand with his fingers from the hand
holding the coffee.  "Well, you aren't in Kansas
anymore.  I can guarantee that.  Sometimes I wish I
worked out of a field office."

The elevator doors slid open and everyone walked off
into the bullpen except for Mulder and DeLong.  She
moved to stand beside him.  "You know how many times
I've heard that 'Kansas' remark?  And I've never even
been there.  I work out of a small town in
Massachusetts named Wichita.  It's five miles south of
Plymouth, near the coast.  And, by the way, my town
had the name first."

"Why didn't you say so to begin with?"

"I like to tally up the 'Kansas' and 'Dorothy'
comments."

Once again the elevator doors split.  Mulder said
goodbye and strolled off.  When William grabbed at his
coffee cup, Mulder swung his arm back.  He heard a
gasp from behind him and when he pivoted around he saw
DeLong gaping at the coffee on her white blouse.

"Agent Delong!  I am so sorry.  I didn't know you were
there."  Mulder set the Styrofoam cup on a pile of
boxes and withdrew a tissue from his pocket.  "Here. 
I promise it's unused."

DeLong took the offering and began soaking up the
spill. "It's quite alright.  I just hope I can find I
way to cover it up before I meet Agent Mulder.  I'm
here on an urgent request from my SAC to bring Agent
Mulder and Doctor Mulder back with me.  I would hate
to make a lousy impression."

Mulder burst into laughter.  "You here that, bud?"  He
poked Will in the belly.  "Someone is looking for your
mommy and I."

Mortified, she ceased wiping at the stain.  Staring up
at him through thick lashes, she groaned, "You're
Agent Mulder?"  His boyish grin sent familiar
butterflies loose in her stomach.  

"Well, it's not like *you* did anything stupid.  It's
my suspect's innocent fault," he joked, bouncing
William for emphasize.  The young toddler clapped his
hands with glee, tossing his head back.

A door opened and a slender redhead stepped out into
the hall looking none too pleased.  "Mulder, why
didn't you drop him off at mom's?"

Mulder twirled around on his heels, exciting William
into a fit of laughter.  "Dana, I went over there, but
your mom has a terrible cold.  So, I told her not to
worry about babysitting -- I'll just bring him along
with me."

"And mom agreed to this?" she asked incredulously.

"Well...no," he replied sheepishly.  "I kind of had to
make a mad dash for the car, gun blazing, yelling at
her not to come near my son.  I don't want him to
catch a cold.  You know how this little charmer is
when he gets sick."

Dana rolled her eyes.  "What really happened?"

"What?  You don't believe me?"

DeLong stepped forward with her hand outstretched. 
"Hi.  You must be Doctor Mulder."  She shook Dana's
hand.  "I'm Agent Carla DeLong from the Wichita Field
Office in Massachusetts.  I'm here about a case I am
currently working on.  Actually, it involves Fox."

Both agents stared at her in silent shock, before
Mulder finally took the initiative.  "Let's go into
the office and discuss this."  He guided the two women
into the cluttered room.

"I'm not quite sure how to approach this."  DeLong
reached into her trench coat, withdrawing a photo.  "I
guess I can start by saying I know you Fox.  Before I
married my name was Carla Rice."  She handed him the
photo.

Mulder delicately took the offered picture.  His
expression turned sorrowful as he gazed at the photo
of two young girls in their bathing suits, arms around
each other's shoulders, smiling.  "You were Samantha's
best friend.  I remember I hated when you spent the
night because you guys would ransack the house
building your Barbie mansions."

DeLong smiled to the floor.  "I remember that even
though you got annoyed with us, you would still let us
tag along when you went down to the beach."

Mulder chuckled, flipping the photo over and back
again and again.  William reached for it, and Mulder
lifted his arm in the air so that the baby couldn't
grab it.  "Yeah.  I was so upset when my friends asked
me if I was dating the little ten-year old that ran
around with my baby sister.  Apparently *someone* let
a little white lie circulate about the Vineyard."

"That was all Samantha.  She thought it would be funny
to hook up her friend with her brother.  I was so
embarrassed when people started to ask me if I was
with you."  She turned a shade of pink at the memory. 
"However, five years later I was proud to say that I
was seeing the cutest boy on the island."

"You two dated?"  Dana glanced back and forth between
her handsome husband and the gorgeous brunette.  She
could see how they would have been attracted to one
another and that rose a bit of jealousy.

Mulder nodded slowly.  "Yeah, for two years, but then
I went off to Oxford so we broke it off.  I was
overseas and she was still only a sophomore.  We
mutually decided that it would be impossible to remain
together."

DeLong glanced away and Dana instantly realized that
the lovely woman still carried heartache from loosing
her first love.  Dana began to wonder if the break up
was really all that mutual.

"So," Mulder's swap in tone noted that he was changing
the topic.  "How's it been going?  Obviously you're
married.  What else have you been up to?"

"I'm only kind of married."  DeLong unconsciously
twisted her set of wedding bands.  "My husband past
away two years ago on duty.  He left me raising three
kids on my own.  They're real sweethearts, though.  My
oldest, Danny, is ten.  Then there's James who is six.
 My youngest is three."  She bit her lip nervously. 
"Her name's Samantha."

"S-Samantha?" he stuttered.  He slowly made his way to
his chair, lowering himself onto it.  William snatched
the first thing his little hand came too -- a folder. 
The contents were strewn onto the floor as the child
waved the manila folder in the air.  "Why'd you name
her Samantha?"  Mulder bent down, picking up the
fallen papers.  

"In your sister's memory.  Samantha was my best friend
for eight years."  DeLong made her way over to him,
placing her hand on his shoulder.  "When I was two she
was born and our parents were close acquaintances. 
Samantha and I practically grew up together."  She
glanced at the floor, tears welling in her sea-green
eyes.  "I loved her like the sister I never had."

Mulder's small smile was tinted with sadness.  "You
two were inseparable.  Where you found one the other
was sure to be close."  He squeezed her hand resting
on his shoulder, gazing up at her with gratitude. 
"Thank you, Carla.  Thank you for allowing Samantha to
live on in your life -- for not brushing her aside.  I
know she would be ecstatic that you named your
daughter after her."

Dana, her heart reaching out for her husband, was,
however, silently uncomfortable -- like the third
wheel.  She shifted her feet, scanning the office. 
She wished she wasn't witnessing such a private moment
between the two ex-high-school-sweethearts.  Then she
felt angry with herself.  If anyone should be feeling
awkward it was DeLong.  She was the one getting
intimate with a married man whose wife and son were in
the room.

DeLong swallowed, glanced over at Dana, and then
stared at the 'I Want to Believe' poster behind the
desk.  "I'm actually here because of Samantha. 
We...I...there was a body found in Hillside Field which is
part of the town Menemsha on Martha's Vineyard.  Mr.
James Rollin was digging a well and reached about
twenty feet when he cracked through a skeleton."

"Wait a minute.  What exactly are you saying?  I know
what happened to my sister.  That is a shut case." 
Mulder looked over at his partner for support.  "We
never uncovered all the details, but we are pretty
clear on what happened."

"Did you find a body?"

"Well...no, but that doesn't mean that the one you found
in Hillside is her."  William began to squirm, bored
with the adults.  Mulder hoisted him up further and
handed the toddler his set of keys.

"I'm not saying it's a perfect match -- not yet.  We
only discovered the body two days ago.  However, it
was a young girl with a broken collarbone who's been
in the ground for at least twenty years.  She was also
buried with a sealed box containing photographs of you
and your parents.  The only reason I'm finding it hard
to believe it is she is because the pelvis and skull
indicate that the child was fourteen.  Everyone knows
Samantha was taken at eight.  And it's not common for
a predator to keep his victim alive for six years."

"F-fourteen?"

"Yes.  Why?"

He proceeded to tell her about the LaPierre case.


PAST
13 December 1973
Launder Memorial Hospital
Martha's Vineyard
8:30PM

"I don't remember!" Fox screeched.  He hissed at the
pain that exploded in his head.  "How many times must
we go through this!  I don't remember!  I DON'T
REMEMBER!"  He sat back against the pillows exhausted.

The man in front of his bed kept sneaking his hand
into his jacket, begin to pull something out, but then
shove it back in it's place.  He glanced at Fox's
father then behind him at the door.  Turning his
malicious eyes back on Fox, he calmly inquired, "What
happened the night your sister disappeared?" as though
he hadn't already asked four times before.

This time Bill leapt out of his chair enraged.  "He
said he doesn't remember!  What the hell is all of
this?  My god, the boy just woke up yesterday after
being in a damn coma for weeks!  Even if he has the
ability to recall anything he sure couldn't now!"

At this moment, Teena walked in, saw the seen before
her, and flew into the mysterious man's face.  "What
the hell are *you* doing here?  GET OUT!  GET OUT! 
GET OUT!"  She began pushing the man away from Fox's
bed.  "Get the hell out of here you son-of-a-bitch! 
Leave my son alone!  What more can you do to a mother
you heartless bastard!"
  
"You are still full of fire, Teena.  I hope that trait
follows you through life."  He once again reached
inside his jacket, but, this time, he withdrew a pack
of cigarettes.  "Don't worry, Teena."  Spender lit his
Morley.  "I will protect your son."

"Your word isn't worth shit!" roared Bill.

"You better hope it is worth at least that much.  Your
son's life could be in jeopardy."

"It's not!  I know it's not."  Bill wasn't sure whom
he was trying to convince.

"Yes, but tactics change.  Loyalists become enemies." 
He paused to take a puff.  "The future isn't as set in
stone as the Syndicate likes to imagine they are. 
Just don't cross the wrong people, Bill."

Spender glanced at the terrified twelve-year-old.  "I
fear we've said to much in front of our audience. 
I'll be back tomorrow to finish conducting the
investigation and tying up loose ends."  

As soon as he left, Bill ran out after him and Teena
shook her head.  She knew Bill was going to try and
deal with the devil.  She pressed her lips to her
son's forehead.  "Don't follow your father's
footsteps, Fox.  When you smell smoke: run.  I want
you to run, Fox."


PRESENT
6 November
Police Station
Chilmark, Massachusetts
8:35AM

Dana leaned in towards her husband, her hand straying
to settle on his upper arm.  "I thought she said they
found the body in Menemsha."

"Since Chilmark is from where she disappeared, they
already had the case."

"Does this mean we'll be staying in Chilmark?"

"Most likely.  I never sold any property.  I still
have the house here.  We can still there.  Or, we can
go to West Tisbury."

"Distance wise, it would be better to stay in
Chilmark, but if you would rather go to West Tisbury..."
She let her sentence trail off.  She, personally,
would prefer staying in Chilmark, but she was aware
that it was that house that Samantha had been abducted
from.  She would understand if Mulder wanted to avoid
the place.

"No.  We should be here.  We'll be closer to the
investigation."

DeLong rushed up to them out of breath.  She waved a
file in front of them in triumph.  "It took some
digging around, but I managed to find the original.  I
know there are copies floating all over the place, but
this way you can be sure that everything you read is
straight."

"Hey!" a gruff voice barked from off to the side.  A
tall, burly man pushed his way towards the federal
trio.  His clothes reeked of smoke.  "Aren't you Fox
Mulder?"

Mulder glanced at his wife.  "Yes.  May I help you? 
Do I know you?"

A sneer captured the large man's face.  He glowered
down at the shorter man with open disgust.  "You brave
bastard.  Returning to the scene of the crime, uh,
Fox?  Half this town still thinks you whacked her off
-- and I'm one of them."

Mulder's fist slammed sharply into the man's face. 
The sting was satisfying; it was proof that he had
injured the guy.  "Fuck you, Mike!  You know I didn't
harm her!  You're still just bitter over the fact that
I got accepted into Oxford while you couldn't even get
into a community college!"

Mike Taylor lunged on top of Mulder, tackling him to
the ground.  "Did you fuck her first, Fox?  Did you
jam your dinky dick up her ass before you killed her!"
 

Mulder's knuckles smashed into Mike's nose with a loud
crack.  Blood splattered onto Mulder's face and white
dress shirt.  His adrenaline pumping, Mulder was able
to flip them over, so that he was on top.  "YOU
FUCKING BASTARD!"  He pelted his fists into his
enemy's face with fury.

Hands came from everywhere, pulling him off.  Mulder
fought to get away, twisting and turning while
screaming, "I'LL KILL YOU!  I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" 
He began kicking the men who restrained him.  "HOW
DARE YOU SAY THAT!  I LOVED MY SISTER YOU FUCKING
BASTARD!  I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL KILL!"

Dana was suddenly peering up at him, her hands
soothingly caressing his enraged face.  "Mulder...Fox,
sweetheart, calm down.  This isn't going to get us
anywhere.  No one really thinks that you hurt her. 
He's just being an ass."

Mike was now standing, gently patting his broken nose.
 "What's this Fox?  You married to her?  Hey lady, I'd
watch it if I were you.  I wouldn't let him alone with
the daughters."

Dana whipped around, her eyes blazing with hatred. 
"What the hell did you just say?"  She strolled over
to him, her glare radiating off heat.  "You've just
physically and verbally insulted a federal officer. 
One call is all it takes and you will find yourself
behind bars for a long, long time.  I suggest you back
the hell off.  Just because you molest little girls
doesn't mean everyone else does."

"Why you little..."

"TAYLOR!  GET YOUR FUCKING ASS IN MY OFFICE NOW!"
screamed a pissed off Captain Dean Glenn.  "I will NOT
tolerate your fucking behavior!  You're lucky I'm not
firing you right here and now!"

Taylor shuffled off towards his superior, grumbling
obscenities under his breath.  He flashed a scornful
glower behind his shoulders at Mulder before stalking
off into his boss's office.

The station was at a dead silence.  All that could be
heard was Glenn's bellowing followed by an eerie
stillness.  Dana was at her husband's side, stroking
up his arms, down his chest, and back again.  DeLong
was biting her lip either from nervousness or her
attempts to keep from crying.  When a phone rang,
everyone jumped back into action.

"Mulder," Dana murmured.  "Why don't we go get settled
in at the house and have some dinner.  We can come
back tomorrow morning with a fresh start."

He only nodded his head in agreement.


PAST
2 January 1974
Chilmark High
Martha's Vineyard
7:15AM

Walking down the hallway, head towards the floor, Fox
scurried -- more like slunk -- past the other kids.  He
could feel their eyes boring into him; some were
sympathetic; others were curious, apprehensive, or
suspicious.  

Once the star of his class, he was now the outcast --
students and teachers alike didn't want to talk to
him.  They didn't know what to say to the boy who was
present while his sister disappeared; who was in a
coma for weeks; and who had missed the last month and
a half of school.

Fox slipped inside his first period class, History
with Mr. Goldstein.  The school day not officially
starting until 7:25, Fox sat alone in the classroom
with Mr. Goldstein.  The teacher was scrolling notes
on the board, unaware of the passive student.

Two minutes later, he replaced the chalk and turned
away.  His kind old eyes settling on the boy who only
last year was named "The Gentleman Goof" in the Junior
High Yearbook.  "Good morning, Fox."

"Morning, sir" was the whispered reply.

"Are you feeling better, Fox?"

"Yes, sir."

"I see that you were able to catch up on all your
missed assignments.  I'm quite impressed."

"Thank you, sir."

Mr. Goldstein sighed, glanced at the clock, and
lowered himself into his chair.  "I know you must hear
this all the time, but I am deeply sorry about your
sister."

"Thank you, sir."

The five-minute warning bell shrilled.

"You know, Fox, I'm surprised you aren't out there
catching up with your friends."

Throughout their entire conversation, Fox had not
moved from his hunched over position.  However, at
this last comment, he snapped to attention.  "And what
is there to catch up on?  Once you loose your sister
when you were supposed to be responsible of her,
everything else kind of becomes menial -- wouldn't you
say, sir?"  He sharply looked away, glowering at the
wastebasket by the door.  "It all ends up as just a
bunch of pointless shit."

Normally Goldstein would have sent a cussing student
to the office, but -- understanding what a difficult
time it was for Fox -- he ignored it.  In fact, he
ignored the boy for the rest of the day.

When the bell rung, Fox was the first out of the door,
rushing to his English class.  He entered the room
quietly, taking a seat in the far-left corner.  His
English teacher strolled over, kneeling down so that
they were face to face.  "Fox," she nearly whispered. 
"I noticed you had your mother bring all your work in
and that's fine.  However, you could have taken your
time.  I would have understood."

"I know, Mrs. Rice.  It's just...it's just that
immersing myself in my schoolwork kept my thoughts
from wandering into...other things."  

Mrs. Rice smiled warmly.  "'Immersing' was one of your
vocabulary words.  I bet you threw that one in on
purpose."

The other students piled in as the bell went off,
marking the beginning of the class.  Mrs. Rice excused
herself to the bathroom as Mike Taylor took his seat
next to Fox.  "Hey, *Fox*, is it true your father
killed your sister?"

Fox's eyes flew wide open.  "What?"

"Yeah, my dad says your old man whacked her off.  He
told me that when he got to the house there were all
these men dressed in black acting all stone-like.  He
said your father was arguing with them about Samantha.
 He said..."

"I don't give a fuck what he said!" Fox screamed,
leaping from his seat.  "My father didn't kill my
sister!  He wasn't even home when she disappeared!" 
  
"You were."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"Well, something happened to your sister.  Yet, you
don't remember a damn thing.  I don't believe that for
a second.  If your father didn't kill her then it
must've been you!"

Their classmates gasped, but some even screamed as Fox
lunged himself into Mike.  "Take it back, asshole!" 
He struggled for a moment before he had the bigger kid
pinned to the floor, his face pressing roughly into
the tiles.

"Or what?  You'll kill me, too!  Just because you're
the richest asses around here doesn't mean I'm going
to follow your orders!"

Fox yanked Mike's head up by his hair.  "What the hell
are you talking about?"

"My dad won't take shit from your rich-ass daddy
anymore than I'll take shit from you!"

Mrs. Rice came bursting into the room.  "Stop it! 
Fox, get off of him!"  She ran over, wrapping her arms
around Fox's waist to try and tug him off.  "What is
going on here?"

"Fox attacked Mike!" yelled a voice.

"Fox slammed his head into the floor!"

"Mike was asking about Samantha and Fox flipped!"

Fox's eyes weld up with salty, burning tears.  He
glanced around at all the students who had once been
his friends.  The betrayal ran deep.  Why weren't any
of them explaining what Mike had?  Not able to face
the turmoil of his emotions, he sprinted from the
room.  From behind he heard one more proclamation:
"Fox has gone crazy!"


PRESENT
4 November
Chilmark Residence
Martha's Vineyard
9:45PM

"Carla, do you need a place to stay?" Mulder inquired
over his last piece of chicken.  "You know you are
more than welcome to stay here with Dana and I."

DeLong glanced briefly at Dana who would not meet her
eyes.  "No, I'm going to shack up with my mom.  She
still lives down the street.  You know, she would love
to see you."

Mulder's smile spread easily across his face.  "Ah,
Mrs. Rice was always so...mother-like.  She fussed over
me like a mother hen after my mom and dad split up."

"Yeah.  I remember the first time I brought you over
as my date.  She was so ecstatic she let you keep me
out until eleven."

Mulder chuckled at the memory.  "She said, 'I can
trust this young man more so than I could the pope.' 
She even gave her blessing for our marriage that
night."  He shook his head.  "It was our third date
and she was already writing up the wedding list."

DeLong suddenly grew real silent, peering down at the
set of rings on her left hand.  "You know, it was
probably silly on my part, but I wore your high school
ring up until the night I became engaged to James."

"Why?"

DeLong softly snorted.  "Isn't it obvious?  I was..."
she suddenly shook herself, stealing a peek at Dana
before shrugging.  "Oh, what does it matter?  You got
it back, right?  I got your address from your mother
and mailed it to you."

"Yeah.  I got it back."

Dana was surprised to see the hurt flash across his
eyes.  Had he felt rejected when he opened that
envelope to find his ring?  Had DeLong sent a letter
with it explaining that she was getting married and no
longer holding out hope for when he may finally return
for her?

"Mulder, we should probably..."

"Excuse me, but why do you always call him Mulder?"

Dana gritted her teeth.  "I tried to call him Fox a
long time ago and he told me that he hated his name --
that he even made his parents call him Mulder.  I've
found over the years that that is apparently not the
case.  So why don't you ask him?"  She glared down at
her husband.  "Why do I always call you Mulder,
Mulder?"

Mulder glanced between the two women looking as though
he had been caught in the highlights.  "Well, Dana, in
the beginning I was trying to maintain a professional
relationship."

"And what about now?"

"Well...I...you do call me Fox sometimes."

"The only times I can safely get away with it is when
you're dying or I'm in the throws of an orgasm!"

DeLong's face flushed, her eyes gazing off far into
the distance.  It was at this moment that Dana came to
an earth shattering realization.  She aimed her
question at Mulder.  "Did you two have a sexual
relationship?"

Mulder swallowed deeply, unable to look her in the
eye.  He shifted his weight onto his other foot, his
mouth opening and then closing again.  He glanced over
at DeLong, who was refusing to meet his gaze, then
back at Dana.  "We lost our virginity to each other a
month before I left for Oxford."

"I see."

"Come on, Dana, its not like I'm the first man you've
had sex with!  As I can recall off the top of my head,
there was Ethan, Jack Willis, Daniel, Ed Jerse, and
I'm sure there were others!"

"First of all, I never had sex with Ed Jerse!  And the
other three are the only other ones!  Now let's see
who you've laid: Phoebe, Diana, Kirsten, Dr. Bambi,
Detective White, the woman on your answering machine
who called you a pig for not showing up at lunch,
Carla, and I'm sure there were others!"

"I never slept with Angela White!"

"You would have if I hadn't showed up!"

DeLong, feeling as though she were the cause of their
argument, politely cleared her throat.  "I'm sorry,
but I don't see how your pasts have anything to do
with your lives now.  You're married with a beautiful
little boy.  And I would like to think you two are
madly in love."

"It's just different knowing he was robbing the
cradle."

"Excuse me," DeLong was now offended.  She crossed her
arms firmly over her chest.  "He didn't 'rob the
cradle'.  I was sixteen and he was eighteen.  I don't
see that has much of a leap in age."

"It's not the age difference that is the problem.  It
is the age in of it self.  You were sixteen!  And he
was a month from leaving.  I think you could have kept
your pants on for the next guy who came along!"

Mulder grasped her arm, whipping her around to face
him.  "What's gotten into you, Dana?  I will not let
you talk to her like that!  Carla was the only one
there for me after Samantha was abducted.  She even
partially understood my pain.  I don't see that us
finding comfort in each other as a crime: regardless
that I was about to leave.  That was probably the time
we needed one another the most."

The shrill of a phone caused Mulder to release her
arm.  He withdrew his cell phone from his pant pocket,
shoving it against his ear.  "Mulder."

Dana kept her arms folded stiffly over her chest, her
eyes never meeting either her husband's or Carla's. 
She did, however, glance abruptly over as Mulder's
gasp echoed throughout the house.

His face ghastly white, he swallowed hard.  "Oh my
god... oh ... holy shit..." He fumbled with the phone,
trying to keep it steady even as his hands shook
violently.  "How can you be sure? ... My god ... Ok,
thanks for calling."  He snapped the phone off, then
clung onto it as though it was his lifeline.

Dana softened, her feet cautiously carrying her over
to her husband.  "Is it...is it Samantha?"  She gently
stroked his forearm, her fingers tracing along his
muscles.  "Mulder?  Fox, is it Samantha?"

His features hardened, his jaw clenching so tightly it
hurt.  "It was my sister."  He glared over at the
mantel where a picture of his family once sat.  "But
it wasn't Samantha."


PAST
June 4, 1978
Mulder Residence
Martha's Vineyard
2:30PM

The day was hot, insomuch that Fox was cleaning out
the garage with his shirt off.  Carla was propped up
on the hood of the black mustang watching him as he
rearranged a few boxes.  "You know," she teased, "it
may be even cooler if you took your pants off."

Fox leered at her with a devilish smile.  "Only if you
take your pants off."  He went back to removing a
three-by-five crate from the top shelve.  "You know,
Carla, I know about those 'devil panties' you have
on."

Carla giggled, rolling her sea-green eyes with
amusement.  "God, Fox, do I want to know how you know
about my red, silk panties?  Let alone that you know
I'm wearing them today?"

"I saw them when you bent over to pick up that screw I
'accidentally' dropped."  He placed the wooden crate
on the floor and bent down to blow off all the cobwebs
that had accumulated over the years of it being shoved
in the back corner.  "I just wish you would model them
for me."

She shook her.  "God, is sex all you ever think
about?"

"Did I say anything about sex you dirty-minded fifteen
year old?  God, youngsters these days."  He furrowed
his eyebrows at the inscription on the lid: 'The
Other's'.

"Oh, like seventeen year old boys are so mature," she
shot back with a laugh.  "Please, Fox, spare me the
torture of a lecture."

He lifted up the lock he had not noticed before and
asked more to himself than anyone else, "Why would he
have a locked crate in the garage?"  He hunted around
for the hammers, which he found with the screwdrivers.

"Fox?  What are you doing?  You aren't going to
seriously break into your father's things are you?"

He just shrugged and began smashing the lock with the
hammer.  It took a few swings, but the lock finally
gave way, a piece flying off -- hitting Carla in the
leg.  He glanced over, "Sorry."

She hopped off the roof of the car.  "Let's just hope
this vandalism is worth it.  Everyone knows how
private your father is."

Fox got onto his knees, prying the lid off.  Inside
were folders.  He tentatively opened one, shocked by
the photo that was bore to him.  It was of a teenaged
girl with curly brown hair, hazel eyes, and Jewish
features.  She remarkably resembled a mixture of him
and Samantha.

"Fox!  Fox, are you done in the garage, yet?"  Bill's
deep voice carried out from the back porch.  "Your mom
is on her way.  And Carla, your mom called.  She's on
her way to pick you up.  She said she was taking you
to get your swimsuit."

Fox slammed the lid back on the crate, situated the
lock to make it appear not so damaged, and then placed
it back where he found it.  "Carla, you better get a
bikini."  He winked at her.

Carla grinned, "Only in your wet dreams, Fox."  She
peered down at his hand.  "Damn it, you forgot to put
the picture back."

He shook his head.  "No.  I want to keep it."

"Why?"

"I don't know.  I just...do.  She looks so familiar, but
I could swear I've never seen her.  Maybe I'll ask my
mom about her."

A car horn honked.  His mom waved them both over. 
"Carla, do you need a ride home?"

"No, my mom is on her way to get me.  You two go
ahead.  I'll just go inside and hang around with
Bill."

Fox jumped into the car.  Once they were on the road,
he waited till they hit a red light before showing his
mom the photo.  "Mom, who is this?"

Her eyes instantly filled with tears, she snapped her
head to face him.  "Where the hell did you get that?"

"I...I found it at dad's today.  Who is she?"

Her eyes held a deep sadness, her bottom lip
trembling.  But her voice was harsh.  "No one.  Just
give me the picture."  She held out her hand.

"Mom," he withdrew the photo.  "Why won't you tell me?
 You don't cry for a no one."

"I'm not crying!  Now give me the damn picture!"  She
tore it from his grasp.  The light had turned green
and the vehicles behind her honked at her repeatedly. 
"I never want to hear of this again!  She doesn't
exist!"

"Well, if she doesn't exist then why is there a box
full of stuff on her!  Damn it, mom, just tell me! 
Who is she?"

By now, the cars were just going around them.  A few
people were flicking them off.  Teena reached over and
slapped Fox.  "That's for swearing at me!"  She
harshly pushed the car into gear, stepping on the
clutch and gas.  "Now let her go like the rest of us!"

"Rest of us?"

"Fox, she's dead!  For the love of God, just let her
rest in peace!  Now drop it...forever!"


PRESENT
4 November
Martha's Vineyard
Chilmark Residence
9:46PM

"What?"  Dana exclaimed.  "You mean to tell me that
you had a sister that you didn't know about?  How is
that possible?  Your parents wouldn't have been old
enough to have had a child fourteen years of age
before your birth."

"Maybe it wasn't all before my birth.  Maybe I was
just to young to remember her.  Besides, it explains
the picture I found."  Mulder faced Carla.  "Remember
that summer day when I was cleaning out the garage?  I
found that wooden crate with the lock on it?"

Carla nodded enthusiastically.  "Yes!  And once you
finally got it open, there were all those folders
inside.  You found that picture of the teenaged girl
who looked so much like you and Sam.  Your mother
refused to tell you who she was."

"Wait a minute," Dana interrupted, "you think that the
photo was of an older sister?"

Carla whirled around, her face beaming with the
excitement of a discovery.  "It's the only thing that
makes any sense.  You should have seen that picture. 
And why else was it guarded and never discussed?"

"I wonder where the crate is now -- if they hadn't
destroyed it.  Knowing my parents, they would have
gotten extremely paranoid and burned the whole damn
thing."

Carla raced out of the room, shoving her arms through
her coat that she had snatched up on her out.  "Let's
check the garage," she yelled over her shoulder. 
"It's a long shot, but we may get lucky."

The couple glanced at each other, then dashed off
after her.  Dana skidded to a halt in front of the
freshly painted garage.  Even in the excitement of
things, she was still aware that a house not lived in
for years shouldn't have a newly painted garage.

Mulder and Carla had managed to open the locked door
and were stepping into the dark building.  Dana could
make out their conversation.  "You know, it's not
really the photo that sticks out most in my memory,"
Carla bantered.  "As I recall, you were enthralled
with my 'devil panties.'"

Mulder chuckled, "Do you still have those?"

"Of course."  Carla flipped on the light switch. 
"They are a part of my collection of memorabilia of
our first night together."

Dana heaved angrily, pushing her way into the room
between her husband and his ex-lover.  "Where's the
damn box?"  She marched over to the shelves and began
rummaging through the contents.  "I doubt it's even
here.  There's no reason for your father to have kept
it here especially since you knew about it."  She
knocked over a can of nails, the tiny tools scattering
over the cement floor.

Mulder watched one of the nails as it rolled off to
the darkest corner of the room.  "Dana, you're looking
in the wrong spot.  Why don't you let Carla and I
conduct the search.  We're familiar with the place and
you're not."

Dana glared at him.  "And what do you expect of me? 
To just waltz off and leave you two lovebirds alone? 
Over my dead body, Fox Mulder.  I'm not going to give
you the situation to rekindle the flames."

"What the hell, Dana!  There won't be no rekindling of
flames especially since there isn't even a candle to
light anymore!"

Carla peered down at her hands nervously.  Dana
glanced her way and suddenly felt a bit sorry of the
other woman.  Too loose a man like Fox Mulder was to
loose a junk of what was perfect in the world.  Dana
experienced what it was like to be separated from
Mulder and she pitied those who had lost him
completely.  Yet, that didn't mean Dana was going to
just step aside so that Carla could pretend she was
able to win back his heart.

"Ok, you two can look for the crate."  Dana headed
towards the door.  "I'll go inside and call mom to see
how our son is doing."

Mulder understood this was her way of apologizing and
that he wouldn't get anywhere closer to an 'I'm
sorry.'  So, he just nodded his agreement and began
his search for the crate.

-*-*-*-

Mulder came bounding into the kitchen, Carla at his
heels.  "We found it!"  He dropped the rotting crate
onto the table in front of Dana.  "He had it hidden
under a few floor boards."

"Mulder," Dana gripped his hand.  Her voice was
strained.  "Something's happened back home.  Mom was
in a car accident."

He collapsed onto his knees beside her chair.  "Oh
god.  What about William?  Is Will ok?  Was he in the
car with her?  Is she going to be alright?"

"She's in a coma with a broken wrist and leg.  William
was with her," her lips began to tremble.  "He
sustained a cut on his hand, two broken fingers, and a
concussion."  Tears were falling freely down her ashen
cheeks.  "Fox, we have to go to our son.  He needs us.
 He's in a hospital alone with strangers."

"Oh god, is any of his injuries life threatening?"

"No, they managed to stop the bleeding.  The accident
happened late last night.  Mom was driving home from a
church party when a truck veered off his lane and
crashed into them."

"But they're both going to be fine?"

"Yes, mom was starting to have some brain activity. 
So, she's more in a deep sleep than a coma.  But, we
better get up there as soon as possible."  She leapt
from her chair.  "I'll pack while you call the
airlines."

"What about the case?"

Dana froze.  "The case?"  She spun around in a daze. 
"Our son has been in an accident and you're worried
about a damn case?"

"This 'damn case' involves a sister I never knew
about!  Her teenaged body was found buried twenty feet
below the surface!  I want to know what the hell
happened!"

"I'm sure Agent DeLong and the locals are well
equipped to handle the case.  We have a baby who needs
his parents.  What is more important to you: the past
or your child?"

"Of course my child!  But you said so yourself, he'll
be fine.  And you'll be with him.  I'm not saying you
have to stay -- you shouldn't.  I want you to go to
Will, but I...I have to know who my sister was and what
happened to her."

Carla slipped off to the corner of the room, examining
the wallpaper above the counter.  Dana glanced her
way, then glared up at her husband.  "That's all that
ever matters to you, isn't it?  You would sacrifice it
all just to know the *truth*.  Well, let me give you
some *truth*.  If you turn your back on us now, then
you mains well never look at us again because we won't
be there."  Dana calmly ambled out of the kitchen.

Mulder ran after her, his fury reaching a dangerous
peak.  "You can't tell me that if you discovered a
dead sister you never knew about that you wouldn't go
to the ends of the earth to find out the hell was
going on!  You're calling me selfish, but look at you!
 The real reason you want me to leave is because
you're jealous!"

He grabbed her shoulders, spinning her around to face
him.  "Knock it off!  Yes, Carla is a past lover, but
there's a word you seem to keep forgetting: PAST!  I
mean for Christ's sake, Dana, this was over twenty
years ago!"

"That's the thing with you, though, isn't Mulder? 
You're stuck in the past.  Samantha, your parents,
your unknown sister, Diana, Phoebe; you're always
looking back and never forward.  Who's to say that
Carla isn't another piece of your past that you aren't
willing to truly let go?"

Mulder began to protest, but Dana held a finger to his
lips.  "Does it really matter, Mulder?  You know your
father was mixed in with some perilous, horrible
people.  He'd given up one daughter for the cause --
why not two of them?  And what will knowing
accomplish?  It'll cause more unwanted, unneeded, and
confused pain.  What should take precedent over this? 
The pain of your child."

Carla tiptoed into the room, clearing her throat
softly.  "Fox, I think she's right.  Besides, I'll
still be conducting an investigation.  Just because
you're not here doesn't mean this'll go to a
standstill.  I'll handle it until you can return."

Mulder shook his head with a weary smile.  "Now you're
ganging up on me."  The grin disappeared.  "But I...I
need to *know*."

"I'll handle it, Fox.  Don't you trust me to take care
of it?  I didn't become an agent yesterday you know."

"Carla...I just..."

"Go home with your wife to your scared son.  I know
that if one of my children were in the hospital an
army of sharp shooters couldn't keep me away.  I would
have hoped that you felt the same."

A moment's pause before, "I do."


6 November
St. Greg's Hospital
Lexington, Virginia
7:34AM

"Hey bud, you're finally awake."  Mulder smoothed his
hand over his son's soft cheek.  "You've been asleep
the entire time your mommy and I have been here."

"Dadda?"

"Yes, bud, what is it?"

"Mamma?"

"Mamma went to get some coffee.  She'll be back soon. 
She'll be so thrilled to see you."

Just then Dana walked through the door juggling two
cups of coffee and a bag of pastries from the
cafeteria.  She dumped the food onto the table next to
the bed, beaming.  "Hey, baby boy."  She leaned over
the railing to kiss his forehead.  "How's my little
one?"

Mulder excused himself, claiming he had to use the
restroom.  It was the truth, but after doing his
business, he went outside, withdrawing his cell phone.
 He turned it on and listened to his voicemail.

"Fox?  It's Carla.  I've got some bad news.  Really
bad news.  God...I don't know...strange shit is happening.
 Your sister's name according to the files is Samantha
Fox Mulder.  However, that's the not the reason why I
called.  You see...shit...her remains have been stolen and
so has the crate.  Call me ASAP."

Mulder slammed his phone to the cement, it shattering
into pieces.  "Fuck!"  He kicked at the trashcan
beside him.  "FUCK!  FUCK!  FUCK!  GOD DAMN IT!"  He
scooped down to pick up the broken phone, then marched
back into the hospital and up to his son's room.

"Damn it, Dana!  I knew I shouldn't I have left!"  His
yelling caused William to burst into tears.

"Mulder, calm down and tell me what happened."

"They did what they always do: TAKE THE GOD DAMN
EVIDENCE!  Damn it, Dana, they stole her body and the
fucking crate!  Now we have nothing but her fucking
name!  But it's not like she would be on file
anywhere!  No, my father and his fucking friends would
have covered that!"

"Mulder, stop screaming!  You're scaring William." 
She was beside him now, whispering.  "What are you
going to do?"

"What can I do?  There's no body.  No crate.  No
nothing.  If only I'd been there.  I may not have
stopped them from taking the body, but I could have
guarded the crate."

"Wait a minute, didn't they already perform the
autopsy?  We would still have..."

"No.  You were supposed to autopsy today.  All they
did was run a DNA test."  (Note: I don't know if you
can run DNA tests on persons with no blood or organs. 
However, they did.)

"Well, there must be *something* you can do.  Fox
Mulder never backs down, especially due to lack of
evidence."

"Well, I did back down.  Look where it got me." 
Mulder peered over at his now quiet son.  He loved his
son terribly, but for the first time Mulder really
felt what a burden having a child was.  He cost him
the truth about Samantha Fox -- an unknown and dead
sister.

"What was her name?"

"Samantha Fox Mulder.  How fucked up is that?  My
parents sacrificed her, but the guilt was so strong
that they named their other two children after her.  I
guess I should just be thankful that they choose Fox
for me and not the name Samantha."

Dana followed his almost angry-like gaze to their son.
 "One day we may find out more, Mulder.  But for now,
we need to focus on priorities.  William is ours to
look after, protect, teach, and love.  He should rank
over everything else.  Don't you think?"

There was no response save for a reluctant sigh.

-*-*-
If YOU wish to make a sequel -- go ahead.  I think this
story should continue.  However, I'm not up to doing
one (at least not anytime soon).  Just email me a copy
BEFORE posting it, though, so I can approve it. 
Thanks!

