From: Jacquie Sabatier Date: 5 Oct 2007 20:50:31 -0700 Subject: [all-xf] FF: Real Hearts 1/5 Source: atxc Title: Real Hearts Couple: Mulder and Scully Summary: A post episode fic for "Paper Hearts" Rating: M ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------- Scully walked to her car, still tingling from holding Mulder. He slowly walked to his car. He noticed her still sitting in her car as he was unlocking his door. He tapped on the window. "You okay?" Scully jumped and then she blushed. "Yeah, I'm great." She started her car as she added, "Go home and get some sleep, Mulder." "Me.sleep," he said to himself as he got into his own car. Scully watched him go with a sigh. She went home and kicked off her shoes, then went to get changed. She took out a tub of Rocky Road ice cream and started to watch "Casablanca." Mulder was still a little drunk when he knocked on her door later that evening. "Scully? You in there?" Scully had fallen asleep on the couch, still holding her ice cream. Her eyes opened slightly and then her brain registered there was someone at the door...it sounded an awful lot like Mulder. She opened the door for him, sighing when she realized he was drunk. "Can I come in?" he said, leaning against the doorframe. Scully grabbed his elbow to keep him from losing his balance. "Come on, let's get you sitting." "I'm not drunk. Well, I was.but not anymore. I can walk just fine." Mulder pulled away from her. Scully put her hands up in a gesture of surrender. She glanced nervously at the ice cream tub. "Can I get you some coffee?" "Coffee would be good." Scully swiped up the ice cream tub, sticking the lid on it. She put it back in the fridge before making a move toward the coffee machine. She couldn't explain it, but she didn't want Mulder to know she had been getting depressed over him and eating ice cream. Mulder followed her. "Do I need to leave? I'm sure you were sleeping. I shouldn't have come here, Scully. Never mind on that coffee." He turned and headed for the door. "Mulder, don't be silly. Come on. Sit down," Scully caught him by the hand, only holding it briefly. He slid down her couch. "You know...suddenly I don't feel so good." He ran in the direction of the bathroom. He was retching in her toilet when she caught up with him. She wordlessly knelt down beside him. "I'm sorry, Scully. Sometimes I just miss her." "You never have to explain to me," Scully reminded him gently. "I don't miss her as much when I'm with you." Mulder reached for her hand. Scully gently took Mulder's hand in hers. "I'm always here." "But I don't show you how much I appreciate what you've done for me,' Mulder stroked her face gently with his thumb. Scully's eyes closed as she shivered. For a brief moment, she thought it was still the alcohol talking. "I'm not drunk, Dana," Mulder said, tilting her chin up. "Promise." "But you were," Scully said softly with a sigh. "I don't drink much... you know that. I shouldn't have tonight." Mulder looked down at his lap. "I didn't want to bother you, so I drank, thinking I could stay away from you... I know you have a life and don't need to take care of my sorry ass all the time." "What life is that? Watching sappy movies and eating ice cream? Occasionally reading a medical journal?" Her tone made his eyes snap up to hers. "If you need to back away from the X-Files, I understand." Let her go Mulder. Let her live her life the way she always wanted. He moved to stand. Scully pulled him back down. He landed hard on his behind. "Hey!" "Sorry.I just.I don't want you to think I regret being with you. I mean being on the X-Files with you...as your partner." "What if I told you I don't want you as a partner anymore?" Mulder said softly. Scully's eyes flashed with hurt. "That didn't come out right." He shook his head to get rid of the fuzz. "I meant what if I told you I wanted more?" "Like what?" Scully didn't dare hope that he meant what she thought he meant. [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] From rjsabatier@shaw.ca Fri Oct 5 23:50:36 2007 Date: 5 Oct 2007 20:50:36 -0700 From: Jacquie Sabatier Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative Subject: [all-xf] FF: Real Hearts 2/5 Title: Real Hearts Pairing: Mulder and Scully Summary: A post episode fic for "Paper Hearts" xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx If it hadn't been for his close encounter with the toilet only moments before, he'd have pulled her to him and kissed her. Her mouth was begging his to kiss her. He kissed her finger tips instead and pressed them to her lips. "I want to be with you. All of you." Scully's eyes closed as a tear managed to escape and trickle down her cheek. Mulder thought the tear meant she didn't want him that way. He did stand up this time. "I've said too much. I'm sorry, Scully. I was a fool to think." "Sit down, Mulder," Scully said gently but firmly. Mulder sat on the edge of the tub. He kept his eyes on the floor. Scully pulled Mulder against her. He lightly stroked her back as he took in the scent of her. "I don't want to lose you." "You won't," Scully said softly. She hesitated for a moment. "Because I want the same thing." "You wouldn't happen to have a spare toothbrush, would you?" Scully got up and opened her medicine cabinet, handing an unwrapped brush to Mulder with a smile. "Must be a conspiracy." Mulder waggled his eyebrows at her as he grabbed some toothpaste. "You're welcome to stay here tonight." Mulder looked in the mirror and caught her eyes. With a mouthful of toothpaste, he said "You sure?" "Positive." Mulder finished brushing his teeth and rinsed his mouth. Just as she was about to move ahead of him, he pulled her back. "I'm gonna kiss you." Scully waited with baited breath as Mulder's lips drew closer to hers. He lightly pressed his lips to hers and pulled back. Scully pulled him to her again. Her kiss was longer, but still unobtrusive. When the kiss broke, Mulder kept his eyes closed. "This won't work." He placed his lips to hers once more and parted them. He caressed her tongue with his. She whimpered as her hands cupped his face. He knew the stubble on his cheeks and chin were chaffing her face, so he pulled away. "I should shave." Scully couldn't help feeling a little disappointed, but she nodded and got up to leave the bathroom. Mulder grabbed her hand once more. "Forgot.this isn't my place." Mulder put his hand on her hip. "If you don't mind the stubble I'd like to kiss you some more." Scully melted into him. "Please." she whispered. Mulder scooped her up in his arms and carried her toward the bed. He politely dropped her on it. He then kicked off his shoes and lay down beside her. His fingers were in her hair. He was pulling her closer. "You say how far," he said as his other hand moved to her stomach and trailed across the exposed skin there. "I'm not saying I don't want to." Scully started.." but maybe tonight you should just sleep. It's been a long few days." She touched Mulder's face. "It has," Mulder agreed as he laid his head back on the pillow. He pulled her head to his chest, sighing softly. "If sleep would come I would welcome it." "Think a hot shower and a massage would help?" "Can I skip the shower and go for the massage?" Mulder asked, kissing Scully's head. "Sure." To her surprise, Scully had been looking forward to having a shower with Mulder. Her cheeks tinged pink as she got off the bed. "Am I massaging myself?" Mulder asked, sitting up slightly. "No.just getting something that I think might help," came Scully's voice from the bathroom. "You in sexy underwear," Mulder murmured under his breath. Scully returned a few moments later, still fully clothed to Mulder's disappointment. Mulder's eyes perked up. "What needs to go?" "What hurts?" "Everything," Mulder teased. Scully smiled smugly. "Well.strip." "Agent Scully, now we're getting somewhere," Mulder said with a sly smile. He stood and removed his shirt seductively. Scully's eyes widened before she chided herself, telling herself she had seen him shirtless on several occasions. But this is different, a voice in the back of her head told her. "Lay down on your stomach," Scully instructed. Mulder winked at her. "Yes, ma'am." He lay across her bed. Scully's hands were starting to tremble as she squeezed a small amount of gel onto her palm. She rubbed her hands together and gently massaged down Mulder's back and shoulders. He moaned. He was relaxing under her touch. To her chagrin, her hands were full out shaking. She had to take her hands off him for a moment. Mulder turned under her so she was now straddling her waist. "What's wrong?" "I don't understand what's different." "About what?" Mulder took her hands in his. "You and me.I mean.I've looked.I've seen you shirtless before." Scully was talking to herself more than to Mulder. Mulder held up her shaking hands and said "All this because I took my shirt off?" He moved up so that his face was inches from hers. "What if.never mind..You said sleep.and sleep it shall be." He kissed her nose. "What if what?" Scully prompted. He was imagining her body trembling like that when he was inside her. He moaned. He hadn't heard her. "Mulder what if what?" Scully repeated. Still not getting a response she got off him again. She said softly, "Turn over and I'll finish." "Made love," Mulder whispered. His eyes were already starting to get heavy. Scully gently kissed Mulder's forehead. "Soon," she whispered back. Mulder slowly turned back over. Scully didn't straddle him though. Instead, she began working on his shoulders and neck. After a while she heard his even breathing. She pulled up the blankets around him and tiptoed out of the bedroom. [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] From rjsabatier@shaw.ca Fri Oct 5 23:50:36 2007 Date: 5 Oct 2007 20:50:36 -0700 From: Jacquie Sabatier Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative Subject: [all-xf] FF: Real Hearts 3/5 Title: Real Hearts Pair: Mulder and Scully Summary: a post episode fiction for "Paper Hearts" Disclaimer: Don't own anything xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Mulder woke a few hours later to an empty bed. He then remembered he was in Scully's apartment.but where was Scully? He stood slowly and made his way into the living room. Scully was half off the couch sleeping in an ungodly position. He picked her up and carried her to her room. Scully only stirred slightly when she felt herself being lifted into gentle but strong arms. Mulder covered her up and slid in next to her. He pulled her back against his chest as he spooned against her. "No woman of mine sleeps on the couch," he whispered in her ear. Scully's eyes opened. Realizing she was with Mulder, she hugged his arm against her. "Sweet dreams, Dana." Mulder kissed the back of her head. "They already are," Scully whispered back. "You're supposed to be sleeping," Mulder murmured. "I'm afraid you won't be here when I wake up," Scully whispered back. She surprised both of them with the confession. Mulder turned her to face him. "I promise, Dana. I'm not leaving." Scully pressed a warm kiss to his chest. "Sleep," she whispered. Mulder snuggled her against him, knowing that no more sleep would come. He welcomed the thought of holding her while she slept, however. "Mulder?" "Yeah?" His voice was low in the surrounding darkness. "I won't keep you awake any longer. I just wanted to say thanks." "For what?" "Being here." "I'm always here," Mulder whispered. "And for the record, I won't be able to go back to sleep. But you.you sleep." He thought he heard a sigh of resignation as Scully closed her eyes again. "I don't deserve you," Mulder added, kissing her forehead. [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] From rjsabatier@shaw.ca Fri Oct 5 23:53:43 2007 Date: 5 Oct 2007 20:53:43 -0700 From: Jacquie Sabatier Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative Subject: [all-xf] FF: Real Hearts 4/5 Title: Real Hearts Pairing: Mulder and Scully Rating: M xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx x It wasn't long.not even an hour later that Scully was awakened by Mulder tossing beside her and murmuring. "Leave her alone," Mulder screamed. He was drenched in sweat. Scully thought she heard his name. "Scully! You promised you wouldn't leave!" Mulder's fist was clenched. "Mulder, I'm right here," Scully whispered in his ear as she gently rocked him. "Wake up, you're dreaming." Mulder sat up straight in bed. "Sssh.." Scully continued rocking him gently as if he were a frightened child. "You left me.." "I'm right here.always right here," Scully soothed. Mulder let her hold him while he sobbed. "She's never coming back." For the first time since the investigation, Scully was at a loss. All she could do was hold Mulder while he sobbed. After a while, he quieted. "Scully?" "Yes?" "Thank you." Even though she wasn't fully convinced she was helping, Scully managed to kiss his forehead. "You never have to thank me," she said softly. "I owe you so much." "No you don't." Mulder looked up at her with a tear-stained face. Scully admitted softly "I love you. I'd do it all over again." "I love you too." Scully coaxed Mulder into her arms again, lying down with him. Mulder thought she was leaving when she shifted around. His arms tightened around her. "Please." "It's okay." Scully whispered, kissing his hair. "Just getting comfortable." "Good..:" Mulder nuzzled his face into Scully's neck. Scully was still fully clothed and didn't feel comfortable. "Might help if you took off some of your clothes," Mulder told her. Silently he added Or all of them. "I'll just be a second," Scully promised, choosing not to respond directly to his comment. Her heart began to thud like a jackhammer against her chest as she sat on the edge of the bed and removed her t-shirt. She could feel Mulder's eyes on her. He's seen you practically naked before she chided herself. And that was when we first met. Mulder touched her bare back, feeling a shiver go through her. Scully's eyes closed as she removed her bra and then her sweatpants. He slowly removed his hand. "Soft skin." Scully took a breath as she took her panties off. "Scully?" Scully crawled under the covers. "Yeah?" Her heart was still beating wildly "I won't be able to stop myself" Mulder's voice was shaky. "I don't want you to," Scully whispered. Mulder slid his hand up her bare thigh, causing her to shiver. She closed her eyes, beginning to bite her lip. "Scully.Dana.I love you," Mulder said as his fingers lightly danced across her stomach. "Love you too," Scully whispered as she shivered again. Mulder kissed her stomach. "I can't go back to the way things were before this.I won't." Scully's trembling hand stroked his head, trying to comfort him. Mulder's mouth slowly lowered to hers. "I need to be inside you." "I think we both need too..." Scully whispered somewhat hoarsely. Mulder pulled his shirt over his head. "Touch me." [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] From rjsabatier@shaw.ca Fri Oct 5 23:50:47 2007 Date: 5 Oct 2007 20:50:47 -0700 From: Jacquie Sabatier Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative Subject: [all-xf] FF: Real Hearts 5/5 Scully's eyes remained closed for a moment as her fingers touched his skin. She started trembling. He pulled her hands to his lips and kissed them tenderly. "You smell good." Scully managed a small smile. "I lotion a lot." Mulder kissed up her arm and down her neck. He pressed her body back against the pillow. He moved down her body, kissing every inch of her skin. His breath was hot as he found her center. He sucked softly, making Scully gasp. She arched against the bed. He slowly dipped his tongue inside her. She moaned again. He gripped her thighs and slowly ravaged her with his tongue. He didn't stop until he heard her cry out as she released. Tears were streaming down her face as she came, crying out his name. He slowly kissed his way back up to her mouth. Her body had a light sheen of sweat. He liked the way she tasted. "So good." Scully was sobbing softly as she hugged Mulder to her. He held her tightly. "Did I hurt you?" "No," she said as she tried to get her breathing under control. Mulder kissed her softly. "I will never hurt you, Dana.never." Scully cuddled against him, breathing in his scent. A small smile touched her lips as she got tingles all over her body. He placed a kiss to her hair. He sighed. Scully thought the moment was over. She felt a sting of disappointment. Oh well at least I can cuddle she tried to tell herself. Mulder's hand slipped up her arm. "Dana..." "Hm?" Mulder's mouth found hers once more. "I need you" he whispered in a rush. A soft moan escaped her lips as she was rolled onto her back once again. He worked himself out of his jeans and boxers as he explored her mouth with his tongue. Her hands caressed his back. "What about protection?" Mulder whispered. "I trust you." "I know." Mulder whispered. He gently parted her thighs and settled between them. Scully involuntarily moaned as she wrapped her legs around him. "Talk to me," Mulder said softly. His mouth was on her neck. "Feel good," Scully whispered. Mulder slipped his fingers between hers and pinned them above her head. He growled. Her eyes closed. He loosened his grip on her hands. He looked deep into her eyes. She could see that he was fighting the urge to take her hard and deep. He needed this to be slow and soft. "Don't fight it," Scully whispered. "Do what you feel." "I don't want to hurt you." "You won't," she reassured him. Her hand caressed his cheek. Before Mulder knew it, they had changed positions and it was Scully who was on top. "That's one of the things I love most about you. You're not afraid of what you want.or getting it," Mulder said softly. "Right now, the only thing I want.need is you," Scully said just as softly. Mulder touched her cheek. "I'm not afraid any more." Scully began kissing his chest. "Tell me what you need from me." "Just need to feel you." Scully closed her eyes as she took him inside her. As she began to move, she began to kiss down his neck. Her hands were on his hips. He moaned as her lips closed over his ear and sucked. She buried her face against his neck as her hand grabbed onto his. Mulder's fingers tightened around Scully's as she moved faster. "Dana." he moaned. Scully began to nibble down his neck. He slowly raised his hips to meet her thrusts. His grip on her hips tightened. She called out his name. Her head arched back. His eyes hungrily sought her body as she writhed above him. He stroked her nipples. She came a second time, calling his name before shuddering and collapsing, out of breath, on top of him. Mulder held Scully's quivering body against him. "I love you.I love you so much it hurts." "I love you too," Scully managed between quivering breaths. "Don't leave me.don't leave me like she did, Scully..I couldn't take it." His voice was muffled in her neck. Scully gently raised Mulder's head so he as looking into her eyes. She placed a gentle kiss to his lips. "I'm not going anywhere. Ever." Mulder stroked her cheek. "I believe you." Scully kissed his forehead before resting her head against his chest. She closed her eyes. Mulder held her to him. He kissed her hair as she listened to their beating hearts. "Don't make me move, k?" Scully murmured sleepily. Mulder chuckled. "Don't even try." "Too comfy." "Sleep, beautiful..just sleep." Mulder stroked her back. "I love you." "I love you too." *****THE END*******