From: Rachel Budde Date: Thu, 20 Jun 2002 19:59:12 -0700 (PDT) Subject: fanfic Source: direct Title: Reasons Author: Caroline McKenna Spoilers: None. Mentions Emily, Diana Fowley, but nothing big. Teaser: Scully's thoughts on the infamous Scully-ditch Category: MSR, angst Rated:PG Email: JC_SizzlinSpike827@yahoo.com Feedback: YES! Please! If ya liked it, if ya hated it, whatever! I love feedback, both good and bad. Also, this is only my fourth fanfic, and my first from a first person POV, so be kind. Archiving: Yes, just tell me where you're taking it, and include my name and email Disclaimer: I don't own them, I never will. They belong to Chris Carter, FOX, 1013 Productions, and I like to think they belong to Gillian Anderson and DD. They're not mine. Don't rub it in. Authors Note: Scully POV The rain is beating down softly and steadily on the car roof and I wonder what the hell I'm doing here. And where is Mulder? He was supposed to be here half an hour ago. But he's not, so I guess I'll have to manage this stakeout alone. Again. It's the third time he's ditched me this month. So why am I still doing this? Oh yeah, it's my job. The FBI has its perks, but sitting in a cold car on a Friday night waiting for a partner that will never show is not one of them. I can't believe I'm still with Mulder after all these years of Scully-ditch, as I have come to call it. I could ask Skinner for a transfer, but I don't. Why? I dunno. Too many variables I guess. The things Mulder and I deal with can't be measured against regular Bureau standards. Mulder is somewhat of a mystery, and no one ever knows what's going on in that mind of his. I think I'll list the pros and cons of leaving Mulder. I have to admit, this Scully-ditch gets old fast. Lists, I like lists. They're organized and controlled unlike so much of life. Also, I'm incredibly bored. This stakeout is going nowhere fast. Oh yeah, bored to death. If Mulder were here... But that's exactly the point, he's not. Reasons to Leave Mulder The infamous Scully-ditch I almost die every week. Maybe I can avoid that if I leave. Diana Fowley is a bitch. That annoying sunflower seed addiction of his. It'll ruin his teeth. His crackpot ideas about aliens. Scully ditch. Missy's death. Emily. He hogs the couch. Did I mention Scully-ditch? Reasons to Stay With Mulder He's the best damn profiler ever He's brilliant. He's witty. Hard working. He makes me laugh - a lot. His loyalty to me. He's so compassionate about his cause. Oh yeah, he's my best friend. The sunflower thing isn't that bad for his teeth. He reads my mind. I set my pen down, only to pick it back up again and scribble one final note. I Love Him. Oh shit, now I'm in deep. I've jumped in the water and I don't know if I can swim. I've crossed the line, jumped over the cliff, whatever you want to call it. All I know now is that things will never be the same. I do love Mulder, for some strange and obscene reason that I can't even begin to comprehend, but loving him can only make things more complicated. Make the Scully-ditch harder and more painful. But, I'll be prepared for Scully-ditch number 4 if I have to be. Bring a pack of cards and daydream about my jackass partner.