From: Meechies80@aol.com
Date: Sat, 26 Dec 1998 23:25:31 EST
Subject: X-Files: Requited Love (1/1)

Title: Requited Love
Author: Meechies80
Email: Meechies80@aol.com
Rating:PG-13
Category:SR
Spoilers: None
Keywords: Mulder/Scully Romance: Please classify as a romance story as well
Summary: Mulder finally lets Scully know how he feels about her.
								Requited Love
We drive in silence. Scully obviously has something on her mind that is
bothering her. I wish I could do something to appease her sadness. It breaks
my heart to see her like this.  I'm pretty sure I know what is bothering her.
Today is Melissa's birthday.  Melissa isn't around to celebrate it.  And it's
all my fault.  How many things have happened to Scully that was my fault.
She's been injured numerous times, abducted, her sister killed, she's gotten
cancer, I could go on.

It's easy for me to watch her because she's driving.  After that comment about
her little feet not reaching the pedals, I let her drive whenever she pleases.
It's also easy for me to watch her because she's beautiful.  She's wearing a
nice blue pantsuit.  Her pearly soft skin looks so smooth and her eyes are
alarminly blue.  Over the years we have been working together, I have learned
to trust her like no other, and it has developed into love.  What sends me
soaring is a touch of a hand, or that way she smiles, or the way she looks at
me and I wonder if she feels the same way.  Luckily she hasn't noticed me
staring because her mind is somewhere else.

"Scully?"
"Yeah?"
"Are you ok?"
"I'm fine," she mutters to answer my question as nonchalantly as possible
while quickly returning to deep thought.

I want to ask her so many things.  I want to tell her so many things.  But I
don't know where to start.  We are driving back to our motel room after
discovering that the case we flew to Colorado for was nothing more than a
murder case, nothing paranormal at all.  I don't think she minds so much, but
I feel bad dragging her all over the country for my personal objectives.  Our
flight isn't until tomorrow and because of the snow, it isn't likely that we
get an earlier flight so it looks like we are staying the night. As we drive
into the parking space I pose a question.

"Scully, would you mind coming back to my room and talking?"
"Sure Mulder, just let me change."

I quickly change into jeans and a sweatshirt. What am I doing?  I ask myself.
I do not know if she can ever forgive me for everything I have put her
through, but I have to try.  I miss her. Her depression is getting to me, I
need her back. God, I sound selfish. But she is my lifeline. I hear a knock on
the door. 

"Hi, Mulder," she says with chattering teeth.
"Why don't you get under the covers, I have coffee."
"That's perfect. So, what's on your mind, Mulder?"

I get up and pace. I don't exactly know where to start, so I just start
rambling.

"Scully, I know it's Melissa's birthday and you can't celebrate it with her
because she's dead and it's my fault.  I have put you through so much hurt and
anguish since you joined me on the X-Files.  While you have given me more that
any other person ever has or ever will. I guess what I wanted you to know that
is you want to leave the X-Files, if you need a break, I understand.  Lately ,
it seems like it has been harder than usual for you.  I care about you too
much to see you so sad."

Then silence.  She just stared at me with an awestruck expression. I began to
wonder if I was an idiot all of the time or if it was just in her presence. 

Finally, she speaks.  

"Mulder, I had no idea.  I don't even know where to start.  First of all, I do
not blame you for anything. I need you to know that, it breaks my heart to
know that you have felt guilty all this time. Yes, it's Melissa's birthday and
of course I'm sad that she's not around, but there is nothing you or I can do
about it. And I will not leave the X-Files. My work is with you remember?
We've been through this. You wanted me to go be a doctor after that Antartica
ordeal, but as much as you may want to get rid of me, I'm here to stay."
"What?!?! I don't want to get rid of you! I don't know what I would have done
without you , but I thought I would offer."
"I know." She flashed me a brilliant "just kidding" smile for a split second.
"Scully, you're shivering." She's under three layers of blankets and she's
still cold. "Let me turn the heater up."
"No, it's ok," she says as I notice I'm shivering too. But I know that my
shivers aren't because I'm cold. I'm holding her now. Rubbing my hands up and
down her arms trying to warm her up. God, sh'e beautiful, I think. All of a
sudden I notice that she is silently sobbing.
"What is it, Scully? Is it something I said? Is there something I can do?"
"I'm sorry. I can't help it anymore.  I've had this inside me for so long, and
Melissa's birthday is just the tip of the iceberg. Don't mind me, I'm fine."
"Please tell me what to do." I start rubbing her tense shoulders.

Her teary eyes turn to face me and I see something I thought was not there. I
always knew she was special to me. I just hadn't realized how special until I
almost lost her.  If I had lost her I don't know if I would have been able to
continue. She is my perfect match. We can finish each other's sentences and I
know her thoughts at a simple exchange of glances.  I trust her with all that
I am and all that I hold dear.  I trust her with my heart, I just don't know
if she'll trust me with hers.  

"Mulder, just you being here for me is enough. I feel safe with you." I could
tell she wanted to say more but was holding back. I wanted her to go on.
"Scully, I feel safe with you too. You are my lifeline.
I...uh...I...I...um..."
"I love you too." She said it. I was shocked. I blinked in disbelief. Then I
pulled her in for a hug. 
"Oh, Scully, I've been wanting to tell you. I love you so much. We have been
through so much and sometimes we almost didn't survive.  At those moments I
would have traded anything to let you live, I gladly would have given up my
own life. I make you go with me on all these excursions, remember that nice
trip to the forest, your cancer, that Pfaster guy? I could go on, and you do
it all for me. I don't even know why." As I say this, I'm choking up and
fighting back the tears to no avail.
"Mulder, you don't make me do anything. I go with you because I want to. I
enjoy these little trips. Yes, it's my job, but it's worthwhile because I'm
with you. We both have been close to death a few times and I would put my life
in your hands a thousand times over. You mean so much to me."

We both have tears running down our faces at this point. We are facing each
other on the bed. Neither of us are noticing how chilly the room still was.

"Scully, at the risk of sounding too cliche, I'm borrowing the words of Jerry
Maguire..."
We both say, "You complete me."
"Mulder, I'm surprised you've seen it. I thought you never got out," she
teased.
"We rented it on my mom's birthday last year." As I was finishing my sentence,
her finger went tenderly to my lips. I leaned in for a kiss. It was so gentle,
our lips barely touched. I feel her hand on the back of my neck as we go in
for another.  I run my fingers through her shiny auburn hair. After another
delicate kiss, we slowly pull away.  With our faces about three inches apart
we just look into each other's eyes. Her eyes are dancing, this is the Scully
I love, I think to myself. 

All of a sudden we notice how freezing it is, we both get under the covers and
smile at each other.  My hand slowly goes for the button of her sweater.  I
fumble with it and she helps me out.  I take off my shirt.  We watch each
other's every move. I kiss her neck and her ear. Then I move down and kiss her
chest and in between her breasts. I put my hands on her stomach and I feel her
hands on my back.

We fell asleep after making the tenderest love ever made. It was so sensual.
We barely said anything but it was blissful for both of us. It was erotic in
the sense that we had all this sexual frustration to work out and we did by
feeling one another and letting ourselves mesh completely.

I woke up with her sleeping in my arms. I felt a big smile envelope my face. I
kissed her eyelids. She stirred and looked up at me. 

"Good morning gorgeous," I tell her.

She pulls me in for a kiss and we held each other for a long time that
morning. We knew that we had the rest of our lives together, but after such a
magical night, it was perfect and we had no reason to move.

The end.