Date sent: Mon, 05 Jan 1998 14:11:39 -0800 From: Dominique MEYER Title: The RoXFiles - I want you to know Author: Quagmir Author's comments: Well, this story is dedicated to a dear friend, Aline :) Seeing me spending my whole free time reading every fanfic you can find on the net, she said I had to write one by myself... So here it is; it's my first and frankly I dunno if another will follow... The X-Files come second in my heart, just after Roxette (I'm crazy about them :) ) Anyway, hope you'll forgive me my misspellings.... my French is better ;) Special thanx to Klair, who is my "English reader" :)) Disclaimers: They aren't mine, and you know who owns them and all the blabla that should follow... The lyrics belong to Per Gessle (Roxette). Spoilers: Memento Mori, Detour Ratings: PG (I guess) Classification: MSR (can't write or read anything else) Summary: After some musings, Mulder wants Scully to know the Truth ***************************************************************** ******* The RoXFiles - I want you to know by quagmir Mulder was sitting at his desk, trying to concentrate on the file he was reading, but it was a hopeless task. His mind kept going back at that night in the forest, when he had been laying on Scully's lap. The 'object' of his dreams just came walking in their office... < Ops, better change the direction your thoughts are taking, before embarrasing yourself > Mulder thought with a small grin. " Morning Mulder ", " Morning Scully ", he answered, trying not to say out loud his next words... < Couldn't some sleeping bags just be raining now ? > he mused. " So what's up, anything new ? ", " Nope, just the usual paperwork mountain ", he answered while giving her his best puppy-dog look. Scully just hid her smile, not wanting to show him the effect he had on her. So she just sat down at her desk, in full Agent Scully mode, intending not to get disturbed by his presence, and hoping to get most of the job done. So the day passed uneventfully. They worked together, in silence, not needing any words... < Hey what a waste of time it would have been, assisting at this convention, we are just doing great, and no professional talkings could replace what we've built in these past years > Mulder reflected. With all these things going on in his mind, you could easily imagine how much work he did, but he knew that Scully was better at filing reports than him, so... But eventually, they called it a day, and that's when Mulder made his move. He had had the whole day to make up his mind, and so he decided to go on. " Scully... would you... well, I thought that maybe we could... ", with that he got Scully's full attention, but he grew more and more uncomfortable, " well, you know you and I.... having dinner? ", he asked hopeful but also scared to death. < Oh boy, I'm speaking like George in the jungle, and I thought I was a well- educated Oxford student, gotta take some more courses I guess; what is she going to think ? >. He just didn't know if she would laugh or run away, or shot him again ? All the while he was musing, Scully was watching him fondly, < after all we have seen, I can't believe that he's scared to ask me out for a dinner >, and she tried to keep her face straight, but it wasn't easy. So she smiled, this time giving him a bright smile, while answering, "yes, why not. So where are you taking me ?". "You'll see", he answered, grinning like a fool. ***************************************************************** ******* While they were in the car, they didn't speak much, just listened to the radio. And a song in particuliar caught Mulder's attention. 'Ever since I saw you Entering my world Life has really changed To diamonds and pearls I'm trying to take it slow Just goin' with the flow' < That for once was true, from day one, his world has changed, she had brought something new in his life, a bright light full of hope... And as for taking it slow, well you could say that, it took him almost five years. > 'I want you to know I want you to stay Don't go' < Oh, what would he be doing without her, she was simply his reason to live, so he didn't want to let her go. But if she didn't return his feelings, well then he would set her free... > 'Every day's the same Like cracks on the walls But every time I meet you All walls start to fall' < How many walls, have been between them, they had all fallen down, one by one, just because of her. He simply couldn't resist her, and now it wasn't time anymore to hide behind them, the Truth had to be said. > 'But I'm trying to take things slow Just goin' with the flow I want you to know I'm comin' your way I want you today' < For sure, this time, there's no going back, he would tell her everything. This one is our song, maybe we could get it played on our we.... Ops, not so fast boy... > ***************************************************************** ******* They arrived in the restaurant, a charming little building, just outside the city. Dinner was great, they even didn't have shop talk, just spent a quiet evening in the company of their best friend, < and soon more, I hope... > Scully could sense that something wasn't quite right, < hey even Mulder inviting me, it looks like a date, I wonder what's on his mind ? > Mulder grew more and more restless toward the end of the evening. And she finally asked what was going on, she just couldn't stand it any longer. But he just asked for the cheque and they left. Once outside, instead of going to the car, he insisted on taking a walk. After a few minutes, they sat down on a bench, and Scully waited for him to start. "Scully.... Dana, in the past few weeks I've had a lot of time to do some thinking". He took Scully's hand, but had his gaze unfocused, as if reliving some past memories, and in fact... So he continued, "I thought back at this time, when you were in a coma, and no one believed you would make it back. But I kept hoping, and promised myself , I'd tell you the Truth. But when you came back to me, I let it go by, thinking that I had all the time I wanted, but...", he had to stop, holding back the pain he had SHe gathered his thoughts and his strength to continue, because he knew it had to be said, there was no holding back. "After you told me about your cancer, about having only months left, I...", this time tears threatened to run down his cheeks, and with the little control he had left, he spoke again. "But now, that I have all the time again, I won't make the same mistake." And this time he faced her, locking gaze with her, his hazel eyes shining with the unshed tears, but also with something else, that made Scully breathless. "Dana, you're my best friend, and you know that already, right?", she nodded, not daring breaking the eyes contact. "And I know that sometimes I'm not the best friend someone could ask for; well most of the time...". This time she wanted to protest, but he shushed her. "But the _Truth_ is... Dana, I love you, with all my heart, words can't even describe it, and I have for a long time now", so here he has said it, laying his heart bare in her hands, waiting for her to accept it or... < well, better not think about the other possibility > But he didn't have to wait a very long time; she smiled, her entire being glowing with joy and love. She moved over and put her arms around him, hugging him fiercely. "Wow, I got that smile twice in a day, what did I do to deserve that", he asked playfully, but also relieved, now if only she would speak... She still didn't respond - well not in words - but just kissed him. It was a soft and gentle kiss, but one he was sure he wasn't going to forget, unless there were others to come, he thought with a grin. "I love you too... Fox". Hearing the words, left him too stunned to do anything else, so he just hugged her, even tighter, never wanting to let go. Eventually, they had to go back to the car, but they still held hands, being the happiest people on earth. "You said, whatever ", she asked with a mischievious glint in her eyes... He nodded, "yup, whatever". "So I can even ask you to marry me ? Or maybe do you prefer the question the other way round ?", she asked half joking, half serious. Mulder couldn't do anything else than stare. "Wow, did I ever tell you that you are an amazing woman, and the answers are yes and nope it's just fine with me", he said bending down to kiss her once more... Fin (well they do need a little privacy now ;)) Comments, suggestions .... or whatever, just send them at my addy: quagmir@geocities.com You can find me on IRC, #Roxette, as quagmir "that's one of my fav" Or take a look at my homepage: www.geocities.com/SunsetStrip/Studio/8564 Thanx to all the MSR writers, love all your stories :) And just a little thanx for Aline: Voil…, ‡a y est.... Comme tu peux le constater je suis une romantique finie et irr‚cup‚rable, c'est pas pour rien que j'ai un entonnoir. Et j'ai mˆme r‚ussi … coller Roxette dans mon histoire :) Merci pour tout :) MuMu.