From: Deby Manis Date: Mon, 09 Apr 2001 23:11:08 -0500 Subject: xfc: Scattered Thoughts 1/1 Source: xfc Title: Scattered Thoughts Author: Deby Spoilers: Three Words Rating: PG Catagory: umm some angst on Mulder's part Summary: Watching Scully and the thoughts it creates Feedback: troyqh@swbell.net Disclaimer: Not mine, if they were, I'd treat them better Author's Note: This came to me while I was at work and I had to jot it down on some paper. Yes, I actually had to PRINT. I couldn't stop thinking about how Mulder was eyeing Scully up and down while she sat next to him on the couch. ********* Scully's pregnant? Is it mine? I hope it's mine. I'm afraid it's mine. I want it to be mine. I told her I didn't know where I fit in right now... I don't know how much of me she wants ...or needs. Or if she even needs me at all. All I know is that I need her I need her to be mine I need her baby to be mine I told her I was happy for her and I mean it She is everything... she always has been ...always will be I'm afraid it's mine... I'm scared it's mine and she doesn't need me ...doesn't want me What if it's mine and the curse that has haunted my family surrounds this baby's life? What if they use it against us? Scully and I... It would kill Scully... it would kill me... I would kill them if they hurt this baby I sit and stare and you sitting next to me on my couch and think these thoughts as you talk with Skinner. It's all I can do to keep from running my hand over your stomach. Oh God... can this be real? -- ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Some things exist whether you believe in them or not." Deby Manis Troy Quarter Horses Hays, KS. Troy Quarter Horses http://QHTimes.com/TroyQH Kansas/Missouri Boxer Rescue - Boxers needing homes! http://www.critterconnection.com/boxerrescue.html In the Company of...(pets!) http://www.stinkbalm.com/company/ Mid-West Rescue http://www.jps.net/boxer4me/MWRnet/ How Pet Shops are Really Run http://dmin.net/boxers/guestarticle/index.shtml?archive=10jun2000.html&sidebar=10jun2000s.html Cremello and Perlino Educational Association http://www.doubledilute.com "I wish to submit for your approval a new definition for the word 'morality'. From what I see, it's that instinctive sense of right and wrong that tells some people how everyone else should behave." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~