From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: Mon, 26 Feb 2001 21:11:12 -0600
Subject: Scully\'s Death (1/1) by nst
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Date: 2/26/01 6:48:29 PM
Title: Scully's Death 
Author: NST
Category: VR
Rating: G 
Spoilers: TINH and Requiem 
Keyword: Mulder/Scully
Disclaimer: Again, the characters of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully
do not belong to me. They belong to FOX,the great Chris Carter 
and Ten Thirteen Productions. I am using these characters without 
their consent.
And I love Chris Carter sometimes 

This is Dedicated to the GUTTER GIRLS and to Penelope and 
Garrull for inspiration. Thanks Garrull for a quick beta.
And of course to BOB :)
Enjoy :)


Scully's Death

She reacted strongly when she found him. 

Panic, terror, loss,...these words were not even what she
felt. What she felt was dead, except for the child inside
her. She felt dead and knew that she would never regain her
life in the same normal way that she had in the past: after
her father, after Emily, after her sister.

This was different. This was her soulmate and her lover and
Life--she felt it coursing through the baby's being.... 

She knew that when and if she ever recovered she would limp
along. The one thing that carried her was the knowledge that
she was pregnant and was going to have this child they both
wanted because they wanted such a beautiful life together.

Sorrow she felt in her toes up to her face, and she shed
tears. She shed tears for life they had, for the games they
played, for the love they shared, for every look she gave
him, for every look he gave her.

When she saw him in the window it all came back to her.

Their love, their unspoken communication, their bond of
love--what was she going to face without him? 

She knew that he knew about the baby, in that moment when she
touched him that last time in the forest. She felt her life
empty. 

She would stand and rise because she had to, for him. A light
had died. But another light had been raised and that light
would be there.