From: Chris Carter Date: Wed, 16 Mar 2005 11:59:25 -0800 (PST) Subject: The Search by No One Source: direct TITLE: "The Search" SUMMARY: The End is near, Mulder has the "date of his lifetime" with a certain entity. KEYWORDS: Missing scene (sort of). AUTHOR: No One (no_one_1013@yahoo.com) RATED: G CATEGORY: Vignette VIOLENCE CONTENT: 03 (I believe) DISCLAIMER: He's not mine, the words are. No money changes hands yada yada... XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX "The Search" By No One Ever since it has happened. The Search exists way beyond boundaries. It even exists where memory ceases to exist. It is natural like the unfelt things. It strikes every time like the striking pain of the cold water on the skin in the morning. It is felt over and over again, but you don't get used to it. No matter how many times you're being stabbed, you don't get used to the pain. Not until death. The many times you're stabbed the closer death is. Such is the search for the nonexistent. Awareness is considered the lead to the road to salvation. But the slavery of the troubled mind is never-ending. When Awareness came, it helped him not. It strikes, like a knife, sharp, turning inside the guts, creating a gap in the inner part of the body. The nerves' edges send the pain straight to the soul. It was not the tightening strangle of the tempus fight, not the embarrassing pang of the lost ego, not the rage which overcame every trace of sanity left in the mind, but Awareness. Awareness, indeed, was the sight to which his eyes were opened. Not by his father, not by his partner, not solely by himself. Awareness appeared in front of his very eyes, regardless of timing. She told him the answer that he's been avoiding all along - The Truth Is Nonexistent. All is in vein. This is the worth of a life time. The search stops here. TIME IS NOW E N D XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX WRITER'S NOTE: I do not believe Mulder thinks that way. I believe Mulder is an intelligent character and will see "Awareness" in his time. This was my reaction to the sight of Awareness. I believe he wouldn't react differently.