From everettc@halcyon.com Tue Jul 9 18:51 EST 1996 Received: from halcyon.com by everest.eng.ohio-state.edu (8.6.12/3.910501) id SAA24866; Tue, 9 Jul 1996 18:50:58 GMT Received: from LOCALNAME (mtv-pm0-ip5.halcyon.com) by halcyon.com with SMTP id AA00872 (5.65c/IDA-1.4.4 for ); Tue, 9 Jul 1996 11:50:07 -0700 Date: Tue, 9 Jul 1996 11:50:07 -0700 Message-Id: <199607091850.AA00872@halcyon.com> X-Sender: everettc@mail.halcyon.com X-Mailer: Windows Eudora Light Version 1.5.2 Mime-Version: 1.0 To: juodvalk From: Jane-Yi Subject: "Show Me the Way" Content-Type: text/plain; charset="us-ascii" Content-Length: 2953 Status: RO This story takes place at the end of "Revelations". X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X SHOW ME THE WAY Scully left the church blinking back tears. She felt a little stupid. What had she expected, anyway? That she would go to confession and then everything would miraculously fall into place again? Instead, she had only realized the existence of something that had already been there. She was afraid. She got into the car. Mulder was waiting for her at the airport. The radio came on when she started the engine. Scully was about to turn it off when the song caught her attention. every night I say a prayer in the hopes that there's a heaven but every day I'm more confused as the saints turn into sinners all the heroes, legends I knew as a child have fallen to idols of clay and I feel this empty place inside so afraid that I've lost my faith show me the way show me the way take me tonight to the river and wash my illusions away please show me the way And it was exactly how she felt. Scully remembered how things were different when she was a child. Back then, it had never occured to her that the things she had been told in Sunday school could be questioned. She had believed unconditionally. When had that stopped? and as I slowly drift to sleep for a moment, dreams are sacred I close my eyes and know there's peace in a world so filled with hatred then I wake up each morning and turn on the news to find we've so far to go and I keep on hoping for a sign so afraid I just won't know show me the way show me the way take me tonight to the mountain and take my confusion away please show me the way and if I see a light should I believe tell me, how will I know She remembered the Hartley case in Tennessee. Scully hadn't realized it then, but she had wanted so much to believe that so-called faith healing was possible. That would have been irrefutable proof that God did exist. And she still wanted to believe. But it was so hard sometimes... show me the way show me the way take me tonight to the mountain and take my confusion away' please show me the way show me the way give me the strengh and the courage to believe that I'll get there someday and please show me the way As she saw the airport getting close, Scully fingered the time gold cross at her throat. Sometimes, she wondered why she still wore it. Hope, she realized. Hope that someday, she would be able to believe again as strongly as she once had. every night I say a prayer in the hopes that there's a heaven X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X ThanX to MAB for taking the time to e-mail me the lyrics to this song. "Show Me the Way" belongs to Styx, I'm pretty sure. They sang the song, anyway. No real disclaimer, except that just about nothing in this sotry belongs to me. :)